During dinner, Severus tried to keep his eyes from wondering over to Harry. Every time he looked at him he felt a heat of anger go through him. He looked so much like James that he had to remind himself that he wasn't his father.
Then when Harry looked at him, Severus was heartbroken. He has her eyes. The girl he loved most in the world.
Severus couldn't take it anymore so he stood up abruptly from the table. "If you'll excuse me." He nodded to the other teachers and the headmaster.
After he left the great Hall he started running down to his room. Once he opened the door he walked to his bed and sat down. He sat there with his hands over his eyes silently crying for what seemed like days when there was a knock at the door.
"I am occupied at the moment." Severus said coldly.
The door opened and revealed Dumbledore with his hand on Harry's shoulder.
"Look at me Severus." Dumbledore ordered.
Severus moved his hands from his watery and swollen eyes and looked at Dumbledore.
"What do you need Albus?" Severus asked then looked at Harry. "And why is the boy with you?"
"Go on Harry." Dumbledore said and patted Harry's shoulder.
"I wanted to say goodbye, sir. A-and thank you." Harry said.
"Thank you for what?" Severus asked.
"U-um I don't really know. I just feel thankful." Harry said. Severus sighed and nodded at the boy.
"I will see you soon, Harry. They are waiting for you behind the corner." Dumbledore said to Harry.
"Thank you sir." Harry said and looked at Severus. "Goodbye."
Harry opened the door and ran back to his new family while Dumbledore stayed with Severus.
"May I sit?" Dumbledore asked and nodded towards a desk. He sat down when he got no answer and looked at Severus. "Anything you would like to say?"
"Does the boy have any magic in him?" Severus asked.
"Yes." Dumbledore answered. "So he will be attending this school in just five years. Whatever problem you have with him needs to get fixed. He is not James."
"Maybe Sirius and Remus will send him to Durmstrang." Severus said hopefully causing Dumbledore to chuckle.
"Sirius and Remus loved this school along with James and Lily. They wouldn't dream of sending him anywhere else." Dumbledore said.
"Then I will be resigning in five years." Severus said.
"No you will not." Dumbledore said.
"Don't you get it? I can't look at him without getting angry. I can't have him look at me without feeling sadness." Severus sighed. "I will not be teaching at this school when his time comes around."
"Yes you will be and that's final. I decide when my teachers leave. Maybe we can get the boy colored contact lenses." Dumbledore joked.
"This is not the time for jokes Dumbledore. Besides he could be allergic to them." Severus said.
"You have five years to get over your schoolboy hatred towards the boy. I will let you be." Dumbledore said.
Dumbledore finally left and Severus laid down on his bed and sighed. Five years to get over it. 'Impossible.' He thought to himself before falling asleep.
Back at the Black House, the new family was eating dinner at the table. Sirius was telling more stories about their days at Hogwarts and Harry and Petunia both listened attentively.
"Was anyone hurt?" Harry asked.
"Nah. Once they were seen by Pomfrey everyone was back to normal. Well almost everyone." Sirius said with a laugh then quieted to a whisper. "There was this sixth year Hufflepuff who had it the worse. Her eyes never did go back to the right color"
"What color are they?" Harry asked.
"They were blue but now they're bright pink." Sirius said. "She doesn't mind though. Her mother did. Her mother was obsessed with her beauty. Every month she would take her daughter in to these muggle beauty pagents. Everyone loved her blue eyes so when they changed, her mum was furious. She ended up thanking me in private."
"Why in private?" Harry asked.
"Well-" Sirius started but stopped as a hand hit the back of his head.
"Harry are you going to eat your carrots?" Remus asked.
"Y-yes sir." Harry answered and wrinkled his nose in disgust.
Petunia leaned over to whisper in Remus' ear. "He hates carrots. Forced to eat them."
Remus' gritted his teeth and tried to steady his breathing before speaking. "Harry if you don't like carrots then you don't have to eat them."
"Really?" Harry asked.
"Really. Sirius doesn't like them either." Remus said.
"He's right Harry. I used to be forced to eat them. Nasty things." Sirius shivered. "Your Dad didn't like them that much either."
"Wow! I won't eat them then." Harry said happily and took another bite of his chicken.
"Can we show him his room yet?" Sirius asked impatiently.
"I believe I said when we were done eating." Remus said.
"I am done!" Sirius exclaimed.
"It is not my fault that you do not understand the concept of 'we'. It also not my fault that you stuffed it all down in 5 minutes." Remus said. "We are not done yet. Be patient."
Sirius grumbled back at Remus and sat back in his chair and waited. Finally after 15 minutes, Remus put down his fork. Sirius stood up with a grin and grabbed Harry's hand.
"Ready Harry?" Sirius asked enthusiastically.
"Sure." Harry said gloomily. He was almost positive that it would just be another broom closet.
"Why are you so sad?" Remus asked.
"I'm not sad." Harry said and gave them all a fake smile.
When they finally made it upstairs Sirius was practically skipping down the hallway. When they made it to the door, Sirius had his hands covering Harry's eyes.
Remus opened the door and they all stepped in and Sirius slowly removed his hands and watched his Godson's face.
"Where are we?" Harry asked.
"In your new room of course." Remus answered.
"This is my room? I-I have a room?" Harry asked in awe.
"Where else are you supposed to sleep?" Sirius said with a laugh.
"In a closet." Harry answered with tears in his eyes.
"Harry James Potter. You will never sleep in a closet again." Sirius said and got down on his knee to look Harry in the eyes. "Please don't cry pup. We want you to be happy here."
"I-I-I am sorry!" Harry said and started sobbing. "I don't deserve a room. I am a freak! A-A waste of space!"
"No Harry! You are not a waste of space or a freak. We love you and you deserve so much more than just a room." Remus said.
Harry let go of Sirius's hands and ran out of the room. He didn't know where he was going but he didn't stop until he found a small door. He opened the door and found a small closet with blankets.
It was smaller than his cupboard back at the Dursley's but Harry could still fit in there. He laid down on the floor and closed his eyes. He could hear yelling and people running in the distance but he ignored it. He fell asleep on the cold floor without using one of the blankets. His last thought before unconsciousness was, 'I deserve to be cold.'
Meanwhile Sirius and Remus were yelling back and forth about the disastrous night.
"If you wouldn't have rushed him to see his room this wouldn't have happened!" Remus yelled.
"Well if you-" Sirius paused to think. "If you would have gotten him when James and Lily died then this wouldn't have happened! It is your fault that Harry is so damaged!"
After the words came out Sirius regretted them instantly. He looked at Remus with sorrow in his eyes. "Moony I-"
"You're right. James and Lily should have never let me be his Godfather. I-I-" Remus let the sobs out and dropped down to the floor.
"Moony I'm sorry! I didn't mean it. We shouldn't blame each other. You wouldn't have been able to care for him alone. Get up." Sirius said and tried to help his friend up. "Ah come on Moony. Get up."
Remus smacked Sirius's hand out of the way and got up by himself. "I am going to look for my Godson. I will let you know if I find him. I would rather look alone."
Sirius sighed as he watched his friend go down the hallway. He paced back and forth trying to think of a way to find him easier. He wasn't sure if there was a spell he could use. After a minute of thinking he realized he could turn into a dog who had a great sense of smell.
He changed into the big black hairy dog that he knew so well. He sniffed the air and caught a small whiff of Harry's scent and followed it. He stopped running when he heard Petunia yelling for Harry. Sirius turned back around and barked for her to follow him. Petunia screamed and ran the other way and Sirius rolled his eyes and continued the other way.
Sirius kept barking loudly hoping that Remus would hear him and come. He knew that Remus could hear him so he figured Remus was ignoring him. He kept walking down the hallway as Harry's scent got stronger.
"He's in the closet." Remus said from behind and scared Sirius. Sirius turned to look at him with his puppy dog eyes and he went up to Remus and nudged his head on Remus's thigh.
"I forgive you Padfoot." Remus said and patted Sirius's head. Sirius started shaking until he was back to his human form.
"W-what? Petunia yelled. "H-He was j-just a dog!" Petunia swayed on the spot and fell to the floor.
Remus sighed. "I'll get her and you get Harry."
Sirius nodded and slowly walked up to the closet door. He placed a hand on the handle and slowly turned it and pulled the door open.
There on the floor was Harry rolled up in a ball. He was shivering and Sirius raised his eyebrows at the dozens of blankets in there. He shook his head and picked Harry up.
He carried Harry back down the hallway until they reached Sirius's room (which was right next to Harry's). He laid Harry down on the big bed and covered him up.
Sirius sat in the chair and watched his Godson sleep until he heard a small knock on the door.
Remus opened the door and shut it quietly. "Everything alright?"
"He was in a closet full of blankets. He was shivering on the floor." Sirius said. "I'm not cut out for this Moony. It's only been a day and we've already lost him." Sirius silently cried with his head in his hands. "Is Petunia alright?"
"She's fine. Her and Dudley are in one of the guest bedrooms." Remus answered and walked up to Sirius and patted his shoulder. "It will take time but everything will work out fine. Harry might need some therapy. We have to try as hard as we can for James and Lily."
"I know. I have been trying very hard." Sirius said.
"I know Padfoot." Remus said. "What were you doing before I came in?"
"Watching him sleep." Sirius said quietly. "He's quite beautiful isn't he?"
"Yes he is." Remus said and sat down next to Sirius.
They both stayed quiet for the rest of the night as they watched their Godson sleep. Remus fell asleep first in the chair and Sirius left him there.
Sirius was about to pass out when he opened his eyes and got up from the chair.
"Good night pup." Sirius whispered and kissed Harry's forehead. He walked out of the room thinking about his love for the boy as he found somewhere else to sleep.