Remus woke up in a very uncomfortable chair in Harry's room. He stood up and stretched the aches out of his back.

It took him a minute to remember how he got in Harry's room. He sighed as he recollected the events from the night before. He sat back in the chair and watched Harry sleep more.

He tried to keep his thoughts away from what Sirius said to him but it was easier said than done. He knew that Sirius was right. If it wasnt for him, Harry would have never been abused.

Remus got up and went to his room. He couldn't stay in the house all day with his feelings so low. He had a job interview later on that he was positive he wouldn't get.

He decided to cancel the interview and take a trip to Godric's Hollow. The week after Lily and James died Dumbledore asked him if he wanted to go there to get anything out. Remus got as far as the fence before breaking down and crying.

He went to the kitchen and wrote a note for Sirius. 'Going to Godric's Hollow. Don't follow me.'

He walked out the door and down the sidewalk to apparate away from the wards. After finding a secure location he turned on the spot and appeared in front of the ruined Potter home.

Remus opened the gate and slowly walked up to where the door used to be. He took a deep breath and walked through.

The memories hit him all at once. 'We would play dumb games over there. And we would eat every meal right through that doorway. And we would stay up all late and talked about the most random things right there on that couch. And that chair. That is where he watched his best friends take care of the most amazing little baby he'd ever seen.'

It was too overwhelming for him so he walked over to the couch and sat down with his hands covering his eyes.

"What the hell was I thinking? I can't do this!" Remus yelled. Remus started crying right there on the couch until he was interrupted by a cat meowing.

The noise startled Remus and he got up to find the Potter family cat. "Crookshanks? Wow. After all this time?" Crookshanks meowed in return and nudged his head on Remus's leg. Remus picked up the cat and scratched his head. "I guess we have a cat now."

Remus went into the kitchen and sat at the table with Crookshanks. He remembered all the times sitting at the table messing around with James, Sirius and Peter.

'How could I have not seen it? We all noticed something different about him. He stopped holding Harry. He didn't talk unless spoken to. He didn't come around as much. We were all a bunch of fools!' Remus thought to himself.

He stood up abruptly, causing Crookshanks to fall off of his lap. "Sorry 'Shanks. I'll be back don't run off."

Remus looked in the pot at the stove and saw old spaghetti. He also looked inside the garbage and saw half of an eaten treacle tart.

"That has to be Lily's. James and Harry could never turn down a treacle tart. At least James had his favorite foods as his last meal." Remus said.

Remus walked up the stairs and walked into the hallway. He stared at a spot on the floor and slid down the wall. He brought his knees up to his chest and kept staring.

"They told me that you were killed in the hallway. I can't explain it but I just know that this was the spot. You died right there." Remus's voice broke. "I miss you so damn much James!"

Remus's sat there crying for 10 minutes until Crookshanks went up the stairs and meowed at him. Remus's moved his hands away from his eyes and wiped the tears away before standing up.

He used the wall to support himself as he walked to the nursery. He sat in the rocking chair in the corner and just stared at the broken crib and the floor.

"Lily-" Remus started but stopped. His throat was starting to hurt from all the sobbing. He looked around the room and saw Harry's toy broomstick that Sirius got him so many years ago. He remembered sitting in the living room watching James and Harry play with it. He could sit there for hours and never be bored.

He got up and grabbed the broomstick and a few other toys that would be too small for Harry to play with now. He got them anyways because of all the memories each toy held. He also found Harry's toy wand and grabbed that too. He conjured up a bag to put the toys in. He also went into the closet and grabbed some of Harry's old outfits to show Harry what kind of clothes Lily and James put him in.

He stood by the crib and paused. Inside the crib was a dusty lion with a red and gold scarf. On one foot said 'Future' and on the other said 'Gryffindor.' There were four other stuffed animals in the crib. A black dog with the name 'Padfoot' on a red and gold scarf. A stag with the name 'Prongs' on a red and gold scarf. A wolf with the name 'Moony' on a red and gold scarf. And a rat with the name 'Wormtail' on a red and gold scarf.

Remus cleaned up all the stuffed animals except the rat. He placed them carefully in his bag and destroyed the rat.

He walked out of the room after looking around one last time. He walked back into the hallway and then into James and Lily's room.

He went to the closet and grabbed some of their clothes for Harry to keep. He got a few clean clothes out of the closet but the used ones in the basket were better. They still had their scent. Remus tried not to cry as he remember the scent of his best friends but it was too difficult. He let a few tears loose before moving on.

He walked over to the night stand by the bed and grabbed the pictures off of it. There were pictures of Harry in the arms of Lily. And another of James and Harry. Then one of Sirius and Harry, Remus and Harry, and Peter and Harry. He grabbed them all, except the one with Peter.

Crookshanks came through the door with a rat in his mouth and Remus snorted. "Wish you could eat Peter."

Remus was about to leave the room when he noticed a few papers on the bed. He put down the bags and walked over to look.

There were four letters in Lily's hand writing and three in James' handwriting. She was finished with them all except the one for Dumbledore. There was one for Remus, Sirius, Dumbledore and Severus from Lily. There was one for Remus, Sirius and Severus from James.

"Severus? Why would James write to him?" Remus asked outloud. He knew he shouldn't but he couldn't help himself.

He opened both letters to Severus and began reading. When he was done there were tears in his eyes. "Damn it. He needs to read this."

He grabbed the bags and was about to leave the room when he found a chest. He's never seen it before and didn't have time to look inside yet so he just grabbed it and put it in a bag.

He left the house and apparated without a second look. He appeared in front of an old house in Spinners End. He rushed up the stairs and knocked on the door.

"Who is it?" Severus's cold voice asked through the door.

"It's Remus." Remus answered.

Severus opened the door and gave Remus a confused glare.

"What do you want?" Severus asked.

"Can I come in?" Remus asked.

"Make it fast." Severus said and moved aside to let him in.

Remus dropped the bags down next to the old couch and took a seat.

"Go ahead." Severus said.

"I was visiting Godic's Hollow." Remus started. "I went into the house for the first time since they d-. Since that day."

"Why would you go there?" Severus asked.

"I needed closure but that doesn't matter right now." Remus said. "I went in their bedroom and found letters that they were writing. Lily and James both had a letter for you."

"What?" Severus asked in a confused tone. "It was months since I talked to her. A-and Potter? Why the hell would he write to me?"

"Well I read them of course. You really need to read them but I will be going before you read them. I forgot something at Godric's Hollow." Remus said and stood up. He got the letters out of his robe pockets and handed them over. "If you ever need to talk let me know."

Severus took the letters without saying a word. Remus waved goodbye and then left through the door.

Severus got up off of the chair and walked into his room and sat at his desk. He unfolded the letter from Lily and sighed.

'Dear Sev,-'