Warning: Some swearing in this chapter.
Remus walked into the door of his new home and dropped the things to the floor. He walked with Crookshanks to the couch and sat down with his head hanging low. Sirius walked into the living room and put a hand on his shoulder.
"Hey Moony, are you okay?" Sirius asked in a worried tone.
Remus looked up with red watery eyes and shook his head. "I can't stop crying. I haven't cried this hard since they died."
"I know it's tough but they would want us to stay strong for Harry." Sirius sighed. "But I know that if I went I would be doing the same thing you're doing."
"We wouldn't know what they would want! They are dead!" Remus yelled. "I need a drink."
"Don't you think it's a bit early to be drinking? It's only 1 in the afternoon." Sirius said and sat down on the couch.
"Don't give a damn what time it is." Remus said. He pointed his wand towards the kitchen and said, "accio firewhiskey!"
"No Remus! You know what that stuff does to you! Harry is here." Sirius said.
"How far away do the Weasley's live? Where is Petunia and Dudley?" Remus asked.
"Not far, why? And she told me they were visiting Dudley's aunt for a couple days." Sirius asked.
"Good." Remus said and got up and walked to the desk. He scribbled down a note.
'Molly, could you please pop over. Thanks -Remus.'
He got up and called the owl over and tied the note on the owl's leg. "'Molly Weasley, okay girl?"
The owl hooted and flew off and Remus went back to the couch. "Could you bring Harry in here?"
Sirius sighed and got up. He walked by his room and knocked on the door and waited for him to answer. He opened the door after hearing a faint answer. Harry was sitting on the bed staring at the wall when he walked in.
"Why are you just sitting there Harry?" Sirius asked.
Harry looked up at him and shrugged. "There is nothing for me to do."
"Oh." Sirius said and looked around at the four toy boxes in the room. "I will buy you more toys and you can pick them out yourself if you don't like the ones we got you. Okay pup?"
Harry looked up at Sirius with a confused look. "I have never touched these toys. I don't remember ever having any toys. I'm not allowed to."
"You can play with these toys, Harry! Play and make a big mess and be happy." Sirius said and ruffled his hair. "We will talk more about this tonight because me and Remus need to talk to you."
Sirius picked Harry up and walked him to the living room. Sirius sat Harry down on the couch next to Remus. Sirius noticed Remus scoot away from Harry but luckily Harry was oblivious to the gesture.
Sirius sat down on the other side of Harry and put an arm around him. "Okay Harry. Someone is coming to get you for a little while. You will be going to her house and playing with her kids and their toys."
"You don't want me here anymore?" Harry asked.
"Of course we do Pup. We love you, don't we Remus?" Sirius said and stared at Remus.
"Yes we do Harry. Very much. You will be coming home in the morning, I promise." Remus said without looking at Harry.
"Yes you will be. You won't even miss us. They even have a boy there your age that you might find a liking to." Sirius smiled at him. "Alright Harry?"
"Sure." Harry said sadly and walked back up to his room.
Sirius watched Harry drag his feet up the steps and turned angrily to Remus. "He hasn't even been here for two full days and we're already sending him off somewhere!"
"I'm sorry." Remus said.
"No you're not! You won't even look at him! He's supposed to be your Godson!" Sirius yelled.
"He is my fucking Godson! But I can't stand looking at him! I-" Remus said then got interrupted by a pop.
"What's going on?" Molly Weasley asked in her worried motherly tone.
"Ah Molly! Could you please take Harry for the night?" Remus asked.
"Of course but is everything alright?" Molly asked.
"Yes." Remus answered.
"The fuck it is! We haven't even had him for two days, Molly. He's already sending him off somewhere!" Sirius yelled.
"Enough! I will take Harry for the night. You two need to work it out." Molly stared down at Remus and Sirius. "Where is he?"
"I'm right here ma'am." Harry said from the hallway.
"Hello Harry. My name is Mrs. Wesley." Molly gave Harry a small hug and let go.
"Name to meet you ma'am." Harry said.
"Oh what a dear! No need to call me ma'am, Harry. You're practically family!" Molly said. "You look so much like James too! Except your eyes. You have your mother's eyes."
Harry smiled at her for a half second before realizing that Remus was walking away. Harry shed a tear and tried to cover it up by itching his face but the two adults still noticed.
"Well we best be off, Harry." Molly said and took his hand.
"Not until I get a hug." Sirius said with his arms open. "Come here Harry."
Harry walked into Sirius's arms and hugged tightly. He didn't try to cover up the fresh tears that were falling.
"Could you please tell Remus I said Goodbye?" Harry asked.
"Of course. I love you Pup. Have fun." Sirius said.
He watched them walk out of the house and down the road and disappear.
Sirius left the room to go find Remus in his room. He opened the door without knocking.
"Harry said goodbye." Sirius said.
"Alright." Remus said.
"He was crying. Fucking crying in my arms because he didn't want to go. What is wrong with you? Why won't you look at him?" Sirius asked.
"I can't look at him without seeing James." Remus said as tears roll down his face. "I love Harry so much. All these years he was being abused while I sat at home and did nothing! Do you think James will ever forgive me? Because I don't! I wouldn't forgive me."
By the time he was done talking, his entire face was wet with tears and Sirius's heart hurt for him.
Sirius hugged him while Remus cried on his shoulder. He didn't know what to say so he kept quiet until Remus stopped crying. He broke apart and looked at Remus.
"What brought all this on? What happened in Godric's Hollow?" Sirius asked.
"I found some things. But mostly just being there. They told me where in the house they died." Remus said. "I shouldn't have gone alone. I broke down multiple times."
"It helps to talk about it. In Azkaban I didn't have anyone to talk about it to. I went to the house that night to get Harry. I gave him to Hagrid. He told me that Harry was going to live with his muggle relatives." Sirius paused and started crying. "I knew who he was talking about and I knew how they treated Lily and I still let him go. I should have kept him with me but all I could think about was finding Peter."
"Have you gone there since that night?" Remus asked.
"No. I wanted to but I couldn't bring myself to do it." Sirius answered.
"Well whenever you want to go, we'll go together." Remus patted Sirius's shoulder and stood up and grabbed the letters off the floor and handed Sirius his. "These were letters to us that they never sent. I didn't read mine yet. I thought we could read them together."
Sirius opened his letter from James and felt the paper between his fingers.
"I-" Sirius started but couldnt continue.
"I'll go first. This one is from Lily." Remus took a breath then started.
"Dear Remus, James and I miss you and Sirius so much. It's been a week since Albus said no visitors. I'm rather surprised that James has lasted this long without seeing you all. I'm quite worried about him though because he's talking about sneaking out. He said that the full moon is less than two weeks and you need him. I know it would be easier for you with James with you but what if something happens? I don't want to lose James and neither does Harry. Harry needs a father. Hopefully soon this will all be over." Remus paused to wipe a tear from his face. "I wish I could take Harry out for Halloween. This year he was supposed to be a dog. I have had the costume ever since last year. He actually wore the costume earlier just for fun. Remember when we all agreed on his costume for his first four years? He was a stag last year. This year was a dog and next year will be a wolf then a rat. Sirius might make him be a dog next year though. Since he couldn't be one this year. Has Peter been answering your letters? I've sent him a couple and so has James but he doesn't answer ours so we stopped sending them. We're worried about him. Well I better stop writing and get Harry before James loses him again. I hope you have a good day. Please talk James out of sneaking out. Much love, Lily Potter"
Remus was fully crying by the time he finished reading his letter. "James was going to risk everything by sneaking out. Just to be with me."
"Stupid git." Sirius said with a laugh and a sniff. "Here, can you read mine from Lily?"
"Sure." Remus said and picked up the letter.
"Hello Sirius. How are you? James and I miss you so much. I think Harry does too. He's actually sleeping in his dog costume right now. He won't be able to go trick or treating this year but at least he can be a dog for a little while. He's actually quite cute. A lot cuter than some human dogs I know. Anyways, I'm sorry I haven't been writing to you very much. Sometimes I feel like I'm invading what you and James have. Like I'm the third wheel who wouldn't normally be your friend. I've been friends with Remus for a while before I was friends with you and James. No matter how we became friends though, I'll always love you. You're like an annoying brother. Speaking of brother, James might ask you about helping him sneak out to be with Remus during the full moon. Please, please, please tell him no and tell him it's not safe. Harry needs us both so we can't be reckless. I might ask Albus about letting you guys come back over soon. You guys can live with us until the War is over. Dumbledore can give you, Remus and Peter Veritaserum and ask if you guys are going to rat us out to Voldemort. I don't know why he would think that any you guys would ever do that. You've all be friends since first year! That man doesn't make sense to me sometimes. It's so hard for James to be away from you guys for this long. One week seems like ten years to him. I think he might start sleeping with a picture of you guys soon. To be honest I might start that too. I can't stand being locked up here. I miss you so much Padfoot. Well Harry just woke up so I better go 'fetch' him. Much love, Lily Potter."
"Lily." Sirius said with a smile. "God how I miss that girl."
"I do too." Remus said. "Do you want to read the letters from James?"
"Can you?" Sirius asked.
"Yes." Remus answered and pick up the letter.
"Deer Moony, I can't stand it here any longer! I honestly think I'm going crazy without seeing you guys. I can't believe Dumbledore won't let you guys come over. Lily is going to try to talk some sense into him. Why the hell would he think my best mates would sell me out to Voldy? I am planning something where I can see you guys in a couple weeks. I can't tell you what I'm planning because you'll just try to talk me out of it. Unless Lily already told you in that case I'm not going to get myself killed! Please talk some sense into her. I love her and Harry to the moon and back. I would stay 100% safe. I'm planning on getting my cloak back from Dumbledore before I go. Anyways how is job hunting going? Are you really thinking about getting a muggle job? Once I am head of Aurors I am going to get you a job. I promise. If you do get a muggle job can I come to work with you sometime? I swear I won't bother anyone and maybe Arthur can come too. If you see Wormtail tell him to owl me. He hasn't been talking to us lately. I hope he's alright. Maybe you and Padfoot can check on him. Well, love you man. Stay safe. -James Potter."
Remus set the paper down and buried his face in his hands to hide his tears. Sirius patted his shoulder and picked up his letter from James.
"Do you want me to read it?" Remus asked. Sirius shook his head and cleared his throat.
"Deer Padfoot, I miss you guys so much. Harry has been running around in a dog costume all morning and it reminds me of you. He's even as clumsy as you are. I wish we could leave this place. It feels like Dumbledore locked us up from the outside world. It's only been a week but it feels like an eternity. Hopefully Lily can talk him into letting you guys stay here for a while. I told her to tell him that it's more protection for Harry. Which it is but it's also because you three are my brothers and I'm dying without seeing you. Yeah I know I'm an overdramatic git. So I need your help but you have to keep quiet about it. The next full moon is on November 11th and I plan on being there for Moony. I need you to be in your animagus form that night. You're going to meet me somewhere while I sneak out. Lily is worried that something will happen to me but I'll have my cloak and I'll be safe. I promised Remus that I will be with him for every full moon and I'm not going to break my promise. I love you Padfoot. Thank you for always being here for us. The moment that Lily found out that she was pregnant with Harry we knew you and Remus would be the Godparents. We love you. Stay safe. -James Potter."
Sirius and Remus were both covered in tears. They hugged and stayed quiet until Remus pulled out his wand and yelled "Accio Firewhiskey!"
Then Sirius pulled his wand out and yelled, "Accio glasses"
And they drank all night, nonstop.