[Author's note: Sorry Yet again for my long absence. I don't really have an excuse so I will just blow this outta the water so that I may get book 1 complete and start planning for book 2 possibly. I really appreciate the ones who follow this story and I thank you all! You are the motivation behind my writing! EDIT: (Insert Troll face here) I Split the last chapter into 2 parts...enjoy!]

I woke...I think. I remember laying there and my eyes opening. However it seemed very difficult to move my body. It felt like I had leg and arm weights strapped to me. I looked around and slowly sat up with much difficulty. The sun had just peeked over the horizon and bleed out over the land with its orange light. I noticed it was rather quite and...peaceful. For the first time since I had started this long and cray adventure, I felt at peace. I didn't feel like anyone was going to pop out of the bushes or attack. I only felt the serenity of it all, that is until I was overcome with an intense pain in my chest. I fell back to the ground clutching my chest. I needed help. I looked around and did not see anyone around. This was unusual. I suppose since there were no people coming after us they trusted me to be on my own. Well that was great, the one time I am allowed to be alone and I am having a freaking heart attack! Was this how I die? At the instance that I was composing my final will in my head, the pain had subsided and everything was good once more. I was tried yet again and just laid there. I must have closed my eyes for a second, or it felt that way, but when I opened them again I was riding on the back of Sesshomaru's pet once more. I sat up slowly gripping my head as it was pounding. I saw Sesshomaru in his place leading the party, Jaken to my left and Rin to my left.

"Did you sleep well?" Rin spoke to me. I smiled glad that she was speaking to me, yet I could still sense the hesitation in her voice. I nodded and then looked to see if Sesshomaru noticed my waking. As usual he didn't acknowledge me and only walked forward. I sighed and tried to slide off of the beast, only to be stopped by Jaken for like the 100th time. He pointed his staff to me in a threatening way.

"Don't you dare get off, you are not allowed to do anything physically straining until we get to the witch doctor!" he said with force. I just looked to him as if he were crazy. "Why not?" I asked, knowing it was something bad. My luck with life here was not very good. That is when Sesshomaru spoke. "

You used way too much of your master skills in an undeveloped body, and now you are in danger of loosing your life." his sweet velvet voice rang in my ears and-wait, in danger of loosing my life? I WAS DYING NOW? Good night, this was my luck. I sighed and was in a bit of disbelief.

"...nooooooo...I was just fighting...nothing serious..." I stated calmly. He never turned, only took pause.

"You do remember you killed him with a spear to the heart..." He stated. I don't know why, but the way he sounded made it sound like me killing a guy was not that bad a thing to do. I would almost kill again to hear his voice again. I just looked away and folded my arms. "I still don't think you should treat me like a prisoner anymore. I mean I AM a demon...ness now!" I stated. Jaken did not appreciate my back sass and he jumped on my case yet again. Shocker I know.

"You will be silent and be happy Lord Sesshomaru is wasting his time on you!" He stated in a very loud harsh voice. Only this time something happened that I thought would never happen in the history or ever, or at least in my visit. Sesshomaru very swiftly turned to Jaken and knocked him one good time on the top of Jaken's now exposed head. I couldn't help but chuckle as I got a bit dizzy and rested my hand on the back of the beast for support. This feeling continued late into the evening, and it also began to get hot, very hot. We had stopped to camp and I just sat there, silent and leaning against a tree. As everyone carried on with their usual arguments and goings on. I was only silent and answered when I was asked something or called on. The next days seemed to drag on and merge together. I didn't get very much sleep because the sudden chest pains happened more frequently and got longer and longer. I had tried my very best to hide it all, but I guess my condition made it obvious that I was not okay. Everything was going on very calmly until one day, I forget what day it was but I finally had one of my chest pains in the middle of the day while we were traveling. This time it physically made me unable to move, and even more it had been so intense that I vomited over the side of the beast that was holding me. I closed my eyes and the whole world was nothing but a big muffle sound. I felt a small hand over my fore head, then I head more muffled panic. It was very difficult to focus at all. However I did feel someone or something lift me up bridal style, and then...nothing. I blacked out. Well, at least it was a welcome relief from the pain. Unfortunately I woke to the pain, it felt like someone was ripping my whole body and soul in half. It was actually very disorienting and very, VERY painful. When it had dulled to an uncomfortable pinch, I halfway opened my eyes to see I was in a hut. We must have made it to...where were we going again? Something about a witch? I rolled my heavy head over to follow the softly muffled voices of two men conversing with each other.

"Well there is not much I can do for this demoness, her transformation was much too sudden and her body seems to be rejecting it. This is what happens when you use dark magic to force unnatural things." one voice spoke with a rather sarcastic and calm way. So I was going to die then? I really should be more surprised, but during my whole ordeal where I should have died several times, it was more sobering than shocking. I felt tears begin to slide down my cheek. Why did this bother me? I mean yes most people would be unable to deal with their own deaths, but for whatever reason I was just more mad at myself than sad.

"Are you sure there is absolutely nothing that can be done to save her?" Another spoke. This whole this had really opened my eyes to something I had been turning a blind eye too. My heart had suddenly been yearning for the one thing I had been denying it. Now, here in moments away from death I kicked myself for not knowing sooner, for not telling him how I felt.

"Well, it sounds rather cliche, but there is one remedy that can save her..." The first one said. I was too busy wallowing in self-hatred to really care what they said anymore. I wanted to live, if not for at least another ten minutes, I would even take one last minute. I wanted to tell him, I wanted to finally admit to myself and to Sesshomaru my feelings. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs that...

"...I see..." the second voice said in a soft tone. All I wanted to do was say...

Sesshomaru, I think I fell in love with you...now it is far too late. I am sorry for everything.

I could slowly feel myself slipping away...