The Fall: Part 1
A/N: This will be done in parts since I was not able to finish this chapter before the journal entry date.
Liz's POV
It's October 19th. I'm Liz Evans and this is what I've been thinking. Can life ever go back to normal?
The tough thing about following your heart is what people forget to mention, that sometimes your heart takes you to places you shouldn't be, places that are as scary as they are exciting and as dangerous as they are alluring, and sometimes your heart takes you to places that can never lead to a happy ending.
And that's not even the difficult part. The difficult part is when you follow your heart, you leave normal, and you go into the unknown.
And once you do, you can never go back.
The days that followed seemed like a blur as I tried to explain myself to not just my husband but to the others. I felt as if I were alone in all this. Except I wasn't, Max was there for me; forgiving me for my lost of control and Kivar was there for me at night when I closed my eyes. My thoughts weren't my own and I couldn't determine when I was alone in my head anymore. I couldn't escape him no matter how hard I tried and the thing that I didn't want to admit was sometimes I didn't want to.
The truth was that I had felt a change for some time but it was always to dark or dirty to imagine where it would lead me; where it could lead me. The entry of Kivar into my life was the missing piece. I felt connected to him and I didn't understand why. I had hoped that with time those feelings would have gone completely away. As it were they had become almost none existent when I was with or near Max but lately even that had changed.
It had begun in small stages. I would go out a little further than my normal routine. I wouldn't call Max after my last class of the day letting him know that I would be home in 20 minutes. I wouldn't call or text Maria and Serena to go with me on shopping trips. I wouldn't hang-out with Michael or Kyle as they watched Sports Center. My late night talks with Isabel were almost none existent.
I had slowly started to pull away from my family. Instead I began to crave fulfillment in other things, dark things. I'd change my routine without even realizing it and I began to find myself in the weirdest of places. These new urges drew me to seek solace in the one person I should be running from.
'Liz, I see you have made it' stated the sultry voice inside my head. It was Kivar and after days of protest in my dreams I had finally agreed to meet him. I skipped today's lecture on Life Cycles and the advancement of human development to be here.
"Show yourself!" I yelled into the empty room. I stood in this abandon warehouse on the outskirts of town screaming at air. I had no idea of knowing if he was actually here or fifty miles away.
'Soon' I couldn't believe after all of this back and forth he had lured me here just to not show. "Get out of my head and show yourself." I waited a beat, "That's it I am done with all of this: the lies, the secrets, the sneaking around; all of it!"
I turned towards the door marching with purpose to finally free myself from this nightmare, "Not so fast" came the voice at my right. My arm was grabbed and my entire body was spun around to meet the other worldly eyes of my alien dreams.
This wasn't the body of the man who had attack us in our home this wasn't even the image that was projected into my dreams at night. I believe that this was Kivar true alien form. This is what Max, Michael and Isabel looked like in another life.
And it was beautiful…
To Be Continued…