Chapter 18

*A POV*

Fuck! What just happened!? He kissed me and I kissed him back. 'although he is a good kisser I'll give him that'. What the fuck am I thinking, Ugh what is wrong with me? 'Ana you have to admit your turn on by that kiss'. Some time I hate my subconscious.

Taking a seat on my couch, I can't help but touch my lips. Closing my eyes, I feel like I'm floating and if I'm honest with myself I feel that tingling sensation and butterflies in my stomach that I only ever experienced before with Brian. I immediately open my eyes and snap at myself, I'm so confused as to what I'm feeling towards Christian. 'maybe I just need to get laid'. I snort at myself. 'Yeah right, because you're that kind of person'.

Well tomorrow I'm going to Washington to visit my parents and maybe I can talk to my mother about these confusing feelings. Yes, that's what I should do. But for now all I can do is just go to bed.

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Arriving at my parent's house, I see my mother at the front door waiting for me. I stop my car and rush over to my her. She eagerly accepts me in a hug.

"Oh Annie I've missed you so much, me and your dad" Mom says holding my face as she looks at me, with longing and happiness in her eyes

"I've missed you both mom" I say kissing her cheek

"come in Annie let's have a girl talk" Mom says putting her arm around my shoulder as I lean my head against her. We are seated in their backyard, it's so beautiful surrounded by tall trees, flowers like roses, there's a small pond at the center and on the other side is a greenhouse, on the left side is the pool. This house is a lot bigger than our house in Montesano.

"So Annie, how are you? "mom asks breaking me from admiring their house

"I'm good" I sigh

"You know I'm not buying that Annie. What is it? You know you can talk to me about anything" mom says patting my hand.

"I know mom... it's just that I'm confused and a little scared" I say looking down at my tea mug.

"what is it that's confused you Annie?"

"it's Christian, do you remember him?" I ask looking at my mom. And her face lights up as she nods.

"He's a fine young man, and very gorgeous I might add" mom say winking at me. I'm shocked at her words.

"Mother!" I scowl at her.

"what? Can't an old lady have a take a look, besides I wouldn't take my eyes off of your father. He's still got it, if you know what I mean" mom wiggling her eyebrow at me. I think I'm going to be sick…

"Mom please stop that's so gross" I say scrunching my nose. Mom just chuckles at my discomfort.

"Whatever sweetheart, so back to what you were saying" Mom motions her hand for me to continue.

"Yeah. Like I was saying, I'm scared mom. Last night we went to watch the mariners and we had so much fun, and after that we went for a walk at the bay" I tell my mother the events of last night and everything that happened even the kiss we shared.

"I'm confused and scared mom! I don't know what I'm feeling for Christian" I tell her, and my mother is just smiling at me. I roll my eyes at her.

"Anastasia I told you rolling your eyes is rude" she chastises me.

"Sorry mom, but seriously why on earth are you smiling like that?" I groan.

"Well honey, it's about time for you to move on"

"But mom- " she cuts me off holding her hand up for me to stop.

"Darling, what are you scared about?" mom asks

"I'm scared of everything. I'm falling for Christian, I have been for the last few months that we've talked and emailed each other but I'm scared to get hurt again and put myself in a relationship again" I say softly.

"Honey I know Brian would want you to be happy again and find love. Tell me Annie, when you think of Christian what do you see?" mom asks taking a sip of her tea.

"I can see myself with him, I feel different around him, there's this electric shock whenever I'm close to him and I feel so drawn to him. It's different from what I felt in Brian" I say looking out at the pond.

"Honey if you're falling for him go for it! I know your scared, when you love someone there's no guarantee you won't get hurt but that's a part of being in love. All you can do is take the chance and let yourself be happy" I know mom is right but I can't help but be this scared for a relationship.

"I know mom but I'll think about it" I say.

"Okay honey, just know I'm always right here if you need me" mom says kissing my head.

After a while dad comes home and we have a lovely dinner, I've missed my parents so much.

The next day I had to say goodbye and head home, still battling with my myself as to what I should do.

'Brian please help me, what should I do?'

N/A sorry for long update.. I hope this one is ok…