Chapter 20

*A POV*

Being with Christian is bliss, I cannot be more happy than now. I'm so grateful that I listen to my mother and took a chance. But let me tell you something Christian is worse than Brian, his possessiveness and jealousy is a bit too much but honestly I love every part of him and it's kind of a turn on.

Now I'm certain that I'm in love with Christian Grey, we still haven't made love but I'm planning on it happening soon.

Now here I am kneeling down at Brian's grave.

"Hey sweetheart. Uh ... I have something to tell you. Christian and I, well we've been together for the last two weeks and he makes me so happy Brian. He's been so attentive toward me and very patient he's been such a gentleman. Brian I'm in love with him, and I hope you'll be happy for us" I say.

I take off my necklace together with my engagement ring putting it the box with other things that Brian and I shared, along with pictures of us.

"I have to say goodbye now. You'll always be here in my heart you will always own a part of my heart, you were my first love. But I have to let you go now" I wipe away my tears and leave.

"Hey Kate what are you doing here" I ask surprised to see her at my front door.

"Oh nothing, I just missed you" I hug Kate, I've missed her so much.

"Come in, tell me about your honeymoon" we settle down on my couch and Kate begins to talk about the honeymoon for a while before asking me about Christian.

"Okay Steele, spill. I want to know all about you and Grey" I can't help the smile that appears at the thought of Christian.

"Well he's great, sweet, possessive and charming" I say chuckling.

"Well I'm glad to hear that, because if he treats you like shit I'll make him pay for it" Kate threatened.

"I'm in love with him Kate" I say dreamingly.

"well that's quite obvious. So then you're over Brian, his death?" Kate asks

"There are still times that I miss him and wish he was here; Brian's kind of hard to forget. But at the end of the day I have to move on, and Christian is the person I want to do that with" I say a little sadly.

We talk some more and soon the time comes for Kate to leave. I check my phone and Christian hasn't called me. maybe he's still in a meeting. Dialing his number, it goes straight to his voicemail. That's odds. 'Don't think worse yet Ana, maybe he can't answer it because of the meeting' I tell myself. I'll try again later.

Two hours later he's still not answering my calls, and I just feel like something isn't right. 'Oh god, what if something happened to him... no no don't think like that'.
Well there are no more options left. I'm going to pay him a visit…

*C POV*

The meeting went well and we finish earlier than I thought. So here I am going to surprise Ana. I'm ready to knock when I see her door is a little open. 'What the fuck?' I open it but stop midway

"There are still times that I miss him and wish he was here; Brian's kind of hard to forget" My heart breaks. I can't hear anymore and quietly close the door walking back to my SUV.

Fuck it's hurts so fucking much. She still loves Brian she'll never forget him. I know it was a big shot for us, I know I'm the one to blame here for hoping that she would eventually fall in love with me but it doesn't make it hurt any less.

"Where to, sir?" Taylor asks me.

"Escala" I replied pissed off.

Arriving at my apartment I head straight for my liquor cabinet and pour a tumbler full of some much alcohol. I skull the liquid in one go but the burn I feel down my throat is no match for the one I feel in my chest.

"FUCK!" I yell in frustration and hurt. My phone rings and it's Ana, but I can't trust myself to not say something hurtful so I send it straight to my voicemail.

I don't know how long I've been in my study but the next thing I know Ana is in my door way looking at me.

"Christian, you haven't been answering my calls. What's wrong?" Ana asks and I almost snort at her.

"It's nothing Anastasia" I say harshly.

"Why are you acting this way Christian?" I can hear the irritation in her voice.

"Do you really want to know what's wrong with me!?" I stand up and move past her before she can respond to my question. She follows me into the great room.

"Why don't you just tell me what's wrong, if I did something wrong tell me!" she yells at me and I turn around to face her.

"You did nothing wrong, it's all me, can't you see Ana? I've been in love with you for the longest fucking time and here I was hoping that maybe you had fallen in love with me too, but it was clearly wistful thinking!" I yell back at her.

"What are you talking about Christian?" Ana ask confusedly.

"I went to your apartment earlier and your door was open. I didn't mean to but I heard you telling Kate about how you feel about Brian, so I know that you falling in love with me was wishful thinking because I know that you're still in love with Brian" I say dejectedly, dropping onto my couch and burying my face in my hands.

I don't hear any response from Ana and I'm too scared to look up, to find that she's left me. But I feel something grab my hands and remove them from my face, I'm surprised to see Ana kneeling down in front of me, a smile on her face while tears threaten to fall from her eyes 'Why the fuck is she smiling like this is it a good thing or something!?'

"I'm glad you find me amusing" I say sarcastically.

"You know, You're a self-made billionaire, so obviously you're a very smart, bright young man. But right now, you are one of stupidest men I know" I look up at her, so confused "You should have listened to the whole conversation, maybe then you'd know how ridiculous you sound"

"I know what I heard Anastasia" I cut her off, scowling like a toddler.

"Well clearly you didn't! Yes I do miss him sometimes but I'm no longer in love with him. A part of my heart will always love him for what he brought to my life, but I'm in love with someone else" my head snaps up to look at Ana. 'Fuck, is she saying what I think she's saying?'

"Christian I'm so madly, deeply in love with you" Ana continues looking straight into my eyes.

"Oh thank god. Ana I love you so much" I say and stand up bringing her with me. I twirl her around she laughs, when I put her down I kiss her really hard.

"Do you really mean that Ana?" I ask making sure that she does really love me.

"Yes. I Anastasia Rose Steele am in love with you Christian Grey. I love you baby" Ana caresses my cheek, and I can see the love in her eyes.

I take a hold of the back of her neck and kiss her passionately, and she puts her arm around my neck.

Fuck yes! finally I got the girl I love, and she loves me as well!

Best. Night. Ever.

AN; sorry it took me sooooo long to update. Thanks for all the review and followers.