I'll Always Come Back To You

Oh god, what have I done?

Jessica Day has done some pretty stupid things in her life, like really stupid. But nothing she has done in the past could compare to what she had done earlier tonight. Cece was right… You dojust know. Unfortunately for Jess, the moment it clicked in her head, she had already convinced another woman to go after him. Deep down she knew, it was something that was always there and always would be there. Just under the surface just waiting to boil over. But, now it was too late. Nick had packed up his things and headed off to New Orleans for 3 whole months with…Her. As if having to watch them dancing and laughing together at Cece's wedding wasn't bad enough.

"Reagan has to go to New Orleans for 3 months for work and she asked me to go with her and I'm gonna do it."

She wanted to yell at him, beg him to stay, tell him that it's her that he belongs with but she was too late. The wedding party busted into Jess's room and interrupted them. Her heart shattered in her chest when he grabbed her arm and dragged her out into the living room. He looked so happy while she felt like her entire world was crumbling around her. She put on a happy face for Cece and Schmidt because for as bad as she felt, she really was SO happy for them. They were perfect for each other, they were opposites in the best way possible.Just like Nick and I.

Cece and Schmidt had just set off for their honeymoon and Winston was M.I.A, most likely with Aly. Jess stood in the living room, watching as Nick set off to meet Reagan at the airport. Her heart was in her throat as she watched him walk through the door, but she couldn't find any words. He turned back to her with a smile "See yah in 3 months?" All she could do was nod. As soon as she heard the ping of the elevator, she felt her knees give out from under her as she fell to the floor, unable to breathe as she felt the sobs she had been holding back rise up in her chest.

She laid curled up for what felt like hours on the hard wooden floor of the living room, replaying their conversation from earlier over and over again. "I'm tired of you being the only person that doesn't see how Incredible you are!" Couldn't he see it in her eyes? Couldn't he hear it in her voice? He had always been so in tune with her emotions, he always knew exactly what she was feeling just by looking in her eyes, but she guessed that after two years of being broken up that he had stopped paying so much attention.

Deciding it would be best if Winston didn't come home to find her a blubbering mess curled up on the floor, she stood up with shaky knees and headed towards the bathroom. She used the stall and washed her hands. Looking in the mirror, she barely recognized her own reflection. Her eyes and lips were swollen, her nose was pink and she had mascara running down her face from her tears. After studying her face for a few more seconds, she picked up a clean washcloth and wiped the makeup from her cheeks and under her eyes, not bothering with her normal routine.

After brushing her teeth, Jess headed towards her bedroom but stopped dead in her tracks as she reached Nick's room. She hadn't noticed on her way to the bathroom, but he had left his door open. She wanted nothing more than to go curl up in his bed and stay there until he got home, but instead settled for, what was her favorite pillow when they were still together. As she brought the pillow to her nose and inhaled, Nick's scent surrounded her and she felt her heart break all over again as her eyes filled with tears. Jess walked out of his room and shut the door behind her, slowly walking across the hall to her own bedroom and shutting the door behind her.

She pulled back the comforter and crawled into her bed with tears streaming down her face. Not even bothering to take her dress off, she clutched Nick's pillow to her chest and buried her face in it as she drifted off into a restless sleep. Jess wasn't sure how long she had been asleep, but she was suddenly awoken by the sound of a man's voice softly asking her to wake up. It sounded like Nick but she knew it couldn't be, he was gone, this must be a dream. She buried her face farther into the pillow in her arms, hoping it would drown out the sound of Nick's voice in her head and that's when she felt a gentle hand on her back, rubbing along her spine.

"Jess, please wake up."

She turned her head and opened her eyes, her heart almost bursting in her chest at the sight in front of her. She has to be dreaming. "Nick… What are you doing here?" He didn't say anything at first, he just smiled and placed his hand on her soft cheek. "Why didn't you tell me, Jess?" She looked into his dark eyes, pleading with her to tell him the truth. For a second she thought about playing dumb, acting like she had no idea what he was talking about, but she could tell by the look in his eyes that he knew.

"I'm sorry Nick… I just thought… You looked so happy when you told me she wanted you. You're my best friend and all I want is for you to be happy and I just couldn't ruin that for you. I mean, you asked me to be your date and then once she showed up, it was like I didn't even exist. You don't look at me like that anymore, Nick. I haven't seen you smile like that since…"

Jess looked away from him as her voice cracked and she felt tears sting her eyes as the memories of Cece's first failed wedding flashed through her mind like a slideshow. The way he smiled at her and took her in his arms when she had asked him not to give up on her,on them, is something she'll never forget. It was the best night of her life. Nick turned her head back towards him, forcing her to look at him.

"Since when, Jessica?"

"Since Cece's last wedding… Since Mexico."

Jess could no longer fight the tears running down her cheeks. She couldn't get the images out of her head of Nick and Reagan dancing and laughing together.That should've been me. She couldn't stop thinking of how absolutely ridiculous he acted around her, it was like watching a twelve year old boy obsessing over his first crush.What was so great about her?Sure she was pretty and smart, but how could you possibly want to be with someone who brings out the absolute worst parts of yourself? Jess suddenly found herself becoming angry, she couldn't even look at him. She rolled over to the other side of her bed and stood up, her back towards him as she stared out the window.

"You can go now, Nick. I'm sure you want to get back to Reagan."

She heard Nick stand up and walk towards her, he placed his hands on her shoulders and turned her towards him. She slapped his hands away from her body and kept her eyes on the floor. "Don't, Nick. Don't touch me." She could hear the pain in her own voice as she spoke and she was sure Nick could do.

"Reagan is gone, Jess. After you yelled at me earlier, I just couldn't stop thinking about you, about what you meant. It made me realize what a fool I've been. You have always believed in me, Jess. I've never had to prove myself to you or act like someone I'm not."

Jess finally lifted her head and locked eyes with him as he continued to speak.

"With Reagan… She just kind of came out of nowhere and completely blindsided me. She was such a mystery to me and it was like this spell was cast over me, I just turned into a complete idiot, I didn't even feel like myself anymore. She just completely messed with my head in a way that I had never experienced before. I thought it was a good thing, yah know? It was just a new feeling all together for me, but the more I thought about it… The more I thought about you, Jess…"

Nick stepped forward and took Jess's hands in his, his eyes burning into her like hot coals.

"It could never work between Reagan and I, Jess. She brought out a side of me that I hate. She made me feel so insecure and just… not myself. I was just so swept up in her that everything else just… faded into the background. But… earlier when we were sitting in the airport waiting for our flight, I just couldn't get what you said to me out of my head and the way you looked at me… God, Jess. I haven't seen you look at me like that in so long, I thought it was all in my head. But when I closed my eyes, I saw your face so clearly in my head it was like you were standing right in front of me and I knew, Jess. It had been so long since I've seen that look in your eyes but I could never forget, Jessica. I told Reagan I couldn't go with her and when she asked me why, wanna know what I said, Jess?"

Jess took a step towards Nick and he wrapped his arms around her waist, she was scared to speak in fear that he would stop opening up to her so instead she just nodded and wrapped her arms around his neck. Nick leaned down and pressed his forehead against hers before whispering to her.

"Because she's not you, Jess. It's you, it's always been you. I love you and I never stopped, I just never thought you would want me again. You know I don't think very highly of myself but... Thanks to you, I'm starting to realize that maybe I'm a little better than I think I am."

Jess pulled his head down to hers as she smashed her lips against his. She saw fireworks exploding behind her eyelids and felt butterflies going wild in her stomach. She had almost forgotten what it felt like to be kissed by Nick Miller. So passionate, yet sweet. So soft, so amazing, so right. She pulled back for a second, both of them breathing heavily. "I love you too, Nick. God, I love you so much." She pulled his head back down to hers and slipped her tongue into his mouth, moaning as she felt him respond to her. Nick pulled his head back and let his eyes roam her body, the look on his face made Jess blush and feel hot all over.

"You are so beautiful, Jessica."

Jess buried her small hands in Nick's soft brown hair as she began to kiss him again, tugging gently as she felt his hands move from her hips to her ass, squeezing gently. Nick broke away from her mouth and began to run his lips along the sensitive skin of her neck, moving down to her collarbone and eventually reaching her heaving chest, the red lacy material of her dress struggling to contain her bountiful cleavage. Jess felt Nick's big hands slide up her sides to cup her breasts, he began to massage them as he continued to run his lips across the soft flesh of her creamy breasts.

"God, Jess… You're breasts look amazing in this dress."

Jess could only whimper as she felt him bury his face completely between her breasts, she massaged his scalp as he continued to lick and kiss her sensitive skin when suddenly he stopped and looked up at her with a wicked smile on his face. He buried his face between her breasts once again and shook his head back and forth, motor boating her. Jess let out a peal of laughter at his actions. The feel of his soft lips and scruffy beard on her over sensitized skin made her feel out of control in the best way possible.

Nick lifted his head from her chest and gave her a smile that made her feel weak in the knees. Jess returned the smile before pulling his lips down to her once more, she kissed him slowly and deeply, trying to convey all of the feelings that had been buried down so deep for over two years. Nick pulled away from the kiss, gone was the sweet smile as his eyes burned into her, making her shiver. She felt his hands moving around her sides to her back, knowing what he was searching for, she took his hands in hers and brought them up to her shoulders, giving him permission to do as he pleased.

"There's no zipper."

She whispered to him as he began to push the stretchy lace material down her arms until it fell from her body and pooled on the floor, leaving her completely naked in front of him. He let his dark eyes roam over her bare body before locking eyes with her. She reached for the buttons of his white shirt, but she was too slow as he dropped to his knees in front of her. He ran his big hands up and down her legs slowly, he turned his head to the side, pressing his face against the skin of her soft, flat tummy, his beard tickling her. He wrapped his arms tightly around her thighs and hugged her tightly against him as she ran her hands through his hair.

Nick pulled away and looked up at her once more, giving her a smirk that could melt the iciest of hearts. Suddenly he lifted her right leg and placed it over his shoulder. Jess gasped and grabbed on his head, worried that she would fall over, but his big, strong hands grabbed her hips, keeping her upright so he could have his way with her.

Never breaking eye contact, Nick started placing soft, gentle kisses on her creamy thighs. So close to where she wanted him. She felt her knees begin to shake as he teased her into a frenzy. She began to whimper and squeezed her eyes shut as he finally gave into his desire, burying his tongue in her hot, wet folds. Swirling and lapping around her sensitive clit. He moved lower and buried his tongue inside of her dripping hole, pumping it in and out a few times before trailing his tongue back up to her clit, sucking it gently into his mouth.

No one had ever made her feel this good ,ever. For the longest time during the course of her sexual past, she was pretty convinced that a man could never properly pleasure a woman. Sure, she had good sex before, but honestly, no man could give her the type of pleasure a night alone with just her hands and her "battery powered boyfriend" could, until him… Nick Freaking Miller. He knew her body in a way that had her convinced that they were truly made for each other.

"Oh, Nick… Oh my god!"

Jess began to pant as he continued on. "I'm so close, Nick… God, don't stop!" She opened her eyes and looked down at him, his dark eyes still locked on her face. She was mesmerized as she watched his tongue work her in the most amazing way she had ever experienced and suddenly she was there. "Niiiick!" She shouted and tugged roughly at his hair, her entire body trembling as he brought her over the edge. She felt his fingers digging into the flesh of her hips as he held her up until she came down from her high.

Keeping his grasp on her hips, Nick began to kiss his way back up her body. Once he was standing, Jess smiled up at him and pulled his lips to hers, she noticed the droplets of her arousal in his beard, but she didn't care, she just wanted him. As she kissed him, she reached up to where his shirt was partially unbuttoned and instead of unbuttoning the rest of the way, she grabbed either side and ripped it open, buttons flying in all directions. Nick broke the kiss with a chuckle.

"Someone's impatient."

She just smiled up at him before pushing the white material off of his shoulders. She reached for his brown belt and undid it quickly then popped open the button of his khaki's, she pulled down the zipper, stroking him a few times through his pants before pushing them, along with his boxers to the floor. Jess grabbed his hands and spun him around, she placed her small hands gently on his shoulders and pressed down, making him sit down on the bed.

Jess dropped down to her knees in front of him, spreading his legs for easier access. She took in the sight of him hungrily, god it was big. 8 inches of absolute perfection. Something Jess never thought she would say about male genitalia, but my god… He was perfect in every way possible.

"What do you want me to do to you, Nicholas?"

He looked down at her, frustration and arousal written all over his face.

"You know what I want, Jessica."

She smiled up at him wickedly.

"Maybe… But I want to hear you say it."

She gave him a little pout as she stuck her tongue out and gave him a light lick, making his hips buck up towards her.

"I want you to fuck me with your mouth, Jessica."

"Mmmm, good boy!"

She took him in her right hand, keeping her eyes on his face as she opened her mouth and ran her tongue lightly around the tip, watching as he struggled to keep his eyes open, his hand buried in her soft curls. She trailed her tongue up and down the length of him a few times before finally taking him fully into her mouth.

"Oh my god, Jess…"

She heard him say breathlessly as she worked his cock the best way she knows how. She took him fully down her throat and held him there, feeling his cock pulse. She let out soft moans, knowing that drove him out of his mind. She began to bob her head up and down quickly, hearing him moan and whimper as she did so, the sounds making her slick juices run down her thighs.

Jess let him fall from her mouth, the almost heartbroken look on his face making her giggle. She stroked his length with her hand a few times as she leaned forward. She took her left breast in her hand while still holding his cock in her right and began to rub the tip across her hardened nipple, unable to suppress the whimper that rose from her chest. She moved to right side, repeating the action, loving how the soft skin of his cock felt against her sensitive nipples. The look of awe on Nick's face spurring her on.

She lowered her head, taking him deep in her throat once more, making sure he was nice and wet for what she had planned next. She leaned forward once again and placed his cock between her breasts, getting the hint, Nick replaced her hand with his own around his pulsing cock as she pressed her breasts together, once in place Jess watched as Nick leaned back on his hands and began to pump his hips up and down slowly. The sight of his bare dick fucking her breasts made her even more aroused. She stuck her tongue out and swirled it around the tip as he continued on, never breaking eye contact with him.

"You tits are so soft, Jess. Fuck, this feels amazing!"

She just smiled up at him and let him continue. After a few moments, she decided that he could probably use a little more lubrication, so she let go of her breast and dropped her head down, ready to take him in her mouth once more, but it seemed he had other plans. Nick stood up quickly and grabbed her elbow, pulling her to her feet.

"You're amazing, Jessica." He said before crashing his mouth against hers. He broke the kiss and bent down slightly, wrapping his arms around her thighs, he picked her up and spun her around towards her bed. He lowered her down and as soon as her head hit the pillow he was inside of her, fucking her like a man possessed. It was amazing, just like him.

"You're so fucking tight, Jess. Mmm, and so wet. I don't think I've ever felt you this wet before..."

Jess lifted her head slightly off the pillow and bit his earlobe, making him whimper.

"You only have yourself and that big cock of yours to blame, Nicholas."

She whispered in his ear, smiling as she heard him cry out to her. Nick leaned back on his knees and placed her legs on his shoulders.

"Nick… So deep, oh my god… So fucking deep!"

"Fuck!" He practically choked out before Jess felt his hands on her ass, lifting her hips so he could pump himself even deeper and harder inside of her. "Oh, Nick! Yes, I'm so close!" Jess took her breasts in her hands, rolling and pinching her nipples, she watched, smiling as Nick slid his right hand across her stomach going lower to exactly where she needed him. His thumb pressed hard against her clit and she exploded.

"Yeah, that's it. Come for me, Jessica."

The sound of his low, gravelly voice sending shivers down her spine as she continued to have the longest orgasm of her life.

"Niiick! I want to feel you come inside me… God, please Nick! I need it so bad!"

Nick let out a loud groan, still circling her clit with his thumb, he spilled himself inside of her. The hot spurts sending Jess spiraling out of control, she had never felt something so intense in her entire life. Her hips bucked wildly as she lost all control of her body.

"UHHH! NICK!"

"FUCK, JESS!"

This was no ordinary orgasm... No, it was… Well, words seem to be failing her at the moment, so let's just say it was amazing. Fantastic.Off the freakin' charts. Nothing she had ever, ever experienced before.

Nick collapsed on his back next to her as they both struggled to catch their breath, they turned their heads to look at each other smiling wider than either of them had in years. Jess couldn't contain the laughter that bubbled up inside of her and soon Nick joined her.

"That was… I don't even have words for it honestly."

Nick said as her turned on his side and pulled Jess tightly to his chest, kissing her forehead. Jess wrapped her arms around his waist and lifted her head, kissing him softly on the lips. She pulled back and looked into his dark brown eyes, sparkling back at her.

She smiled brightly at him, his smile in return made her heart skip a beat. She buried her face in his neck and laid tiny kissing on his damp skin, making him giggle like a little girl. She lifted her head once more and looked into his eyes, bringing her hand up so she could run her fingers through his devastatingly sexy beard.

"You're not allowed to shave this, Miller."

"You like the beard, eh?"

The cocky look on his face made her want to slap him, just a little.

"Mayyybe…"

She leaned in, lips almost touching his.

"I love the beard…"

She whispered before placing her lips softly against his. He responded immediately, one hand buried in her hair, the other rubbing the soft skin of her ass.

"Well, In that case…"

He pinched her butt playfully and pulled her lips back to his, kissing her passionately. Nick broke the kiss and turned onto his back, pulling Jess with him. She happily laid her head on his chest and ran her hands through the soft hair there. She felt his lips press against her forehead and smiled. She shifted her head a little so she could bury her face in his neck, inhaling deeply, she took in his scent that she had missed so much. She felt him moving around and suddenly let out a little chuckle.

"What are you laughing at?"

"Is this my pillow, Jess?"

Jess felt herself blush and lifted her head to look at him, he was smiling up at her sweetly.

"I missed you..."

He lifted his head and kissed her once more before pulling her back down to rest her head in the crook of his neck, she could hear the smile in his voice.

"I love you, Jessica."

"I love you too, Nicholas."

Jess felt Nick turn his head so his lips were pressed against her forehead as he pulled her even closer to his body.

"You're incredible, Nick."

She felt him smile against her as they both drifted off to sleep.

**Again, sorry it took so long! I really struggled with this chapter. As much as I loved the finale and the fact that Jess FINALLY realized she's still in love with Nick, it honestly just kind of crushed my soul to find out that we'll have to deal with Reagan AGAIN next season... Anywho, I hope you all enjoy this chapter! I put a lot of time into it and I am very happy with the way it turned out, I hope you all agree. As always, thank you all so much for reading and all the comments, it's really very inspiring. I'm not really sure where I'm going with the next chapter, so as always, if you have ideas feel free to toss em' my way! See you next time!**