Glue

Arriving back at the loft after his book reading, Nick watched as Jess excused herself to her bedroom. Unable to stop thinking about what he had overheard.

"And I'll always love you…"

She couldn't have meant that right? Reagan was awful at giving any sort of pep talk, hell she was awful at showing any sort of emotion really. He was sure that Jess was just trying to help her out because Jess has the biggest heart of any one he's ever met. She always knows the right thing to say in any circumstance. Yeah, that had to be it.

But…

But…

He still couldn't shake that look on her face. That sadness in her giant blue eyes. He was so sure there was more behind what she had said. Jess was his best friend, he was always able to read her so well just by catching her eye. Except for lately. Ever since he had returned from New Orleans, there was something hidden behind those incredibly expressive giant blue eyes of hers. Something he just couldn't figure out. An almost sadness, because of what he was unsure, but he wanted nothing more than to dig up that sadness and crush it with his bare hands so he could see that happy twinkle in her eyes once more.

He cared about Jess so much and he would do absolutely anything for her. Although they were exes, she was still the single most important person in his life. It made his heart ache at even the slightest thought of her being sad over anything. No one deserves to be happy more than Jessica Day. She's sweet, smart, funny and incredibly beautiful. Inside and out. He needed to do whatever he could to make her smile again, really smile.

"NICK! Hello, earth to Nicholas!"

Broken from his thoughts by the sound Reagan's voice, Nick whipped his head around to see her looking at him with a blank expression.

"Are you okay? You've been staring at Jess' closed door for like 10 minutes. What's going on here?"

Sighing heavily, Nick ran a hand down his face. "Yeah, yeah… I'm okay, sorry. It's just… Did Jess seem a little off to you? Do you think she's okay? I feel like maybe I should… what is that?" Suddenly feeling angry as he watches Reagan roll her eyes in annoyance.

"She's fine, Nick! Seriously, why do you care so much any way?"

Scoffing, he looked at her in complete disbelief. "Reagan, Jess is my best friend! Of course I care about her! How could I not?" Nick watches as her face falls, one of possibly only a handful of times he's seen any real emotion from her. "But that's just it, Nick. She's more than your best friend, isn't she?"

Completely stunned into silence, all he can do is stare at her. He knows she's right now. He's loves Jess with every fiber of his being, but knowing that she wouldn't ever feel that same for him, he had buried it down deep in his heart, vowing to never let it resurface. Swallowing thickly, he watched as Reagan gave him a sad smile.

"It's okay, Nick. I've… I've actually been thinking about breaking up with you for a while. We just want really different things and … I'll never be her, Nick. I'll never know the right things to say to make you feel better. I'll never be able to give you what she can. She makes you happy in a way that I'm just not capable of."

Nick knows she's right but it still doesn't make it any easier to hear. "Reagan, I…" Placing a hand on his shoulder, she shakes her head. "It's really okay, Nick. You two belong together. Who am I to stand in the way of that? We weren't meant to be. It was fun while it lasted, but we both know this wasn't forever."

Nick nods, knowing that everything she's saying is the truth. "You're right. I know you're right, but… Jess doesn't…"

"I'm going to stop you right there, Nick. She does. Believe me. I've seen the way she looks at you when she thinks no one else is watching. She does…"

They stare at each other for a few long moments before Reagan finally breaks the silence. "Look Nick, I'm sorry to lay this all on you and just take off. It honestly scares me to think about what it must be like to live up in that head of yours, but I'm really not good at goodbyes. I'm going to go pack and try to sneak out with out anyone seeing me. I don't think I could handle Winston crying or one of Jess' weird goodbye songs right now."

Chuckling, Nick nods his head in agreement. "Yeah, me either. I'll come help you."

After helping Reagan bring her stuff down to her waiting cab, sending her off with a friendly hug, Nick grabbed a beer and planted himself on a stool at the kitchen island. He was completely lost in his own head, Jess at the forefront.

Did she really still love me? No… she couldn't possibly… it's just not…

Nick whipped his head around as he heard the click of a door closing. He watched as Jess padded her way towards the kitchen, her brown curls tumbling down her shoulders, her thick rimmed glasses perched atop her cute little button nose. She's wearing her fuzzy blue robe, her silky smooth legs bare, leading down to her adorable bunny slippers. She hasn't yet noticed his presence, so he took this opportunity to stare unabashedly at his beautiful best friend.

Finally looking up from the floor, she stopped in her tracks. Nick couldn't help but smile at the shocked look on her face. "Oh! hey Nick. What are you still doing up? I was just getting a glass of whatever… Where's um.. Where's Reagan?" Rather than stopping her nervous babbling, Nick just watched her as she walked over to the cupboard and opened it. He watched as she stood up on her tiptoes, struggling to reach the last clean glass towards the back, unable to stop his gaze from dropping to the bottom of her robe and the way it lifted slightly as she reached, seeing just a whisper of her perfect bottom.

Hearing her grunt in frustration, he finally takes some pity on her. Standing up, he walks towards her placing his hand on the small of her back before reaching up and bringing the glass down for her. Seeing her beautifully flushed skin, caused by just by the slightest touch from him, triggers something inside of him. She looks up at him, her eyes wide and pupils dilated, his eyes drop to her plump red lips. "Thank you." She whispers so quietly, he's sure he wouldn't have heard if he hadn't been staring at her mouth.

It's then he realizes just how close they are, his hand still resting on the small of her back. He leans his head in towards her, wanting so badly to feel those soft lips on his. Suddenly she places a hand on his chest, pushing him away with all the strength she can muster.

"Nick! What are you doing?! You… You have a girlfriend. You can't just… No!" Her voice cracks and Nick can see the tears forming in her eyes. She sets the glass down on the counter with a loud thud, spinning around to run away from the situation but Nick catches her arm before she can escape. She struggles in his grip for a few moments but finally gives in as he wraps both of his arms around her, feeling her relax slightly.

"Jess, Reagan and I broke up." She looks up at him with sad eyes before pulling him into a tight embrace.

"Oh, Nick! I'm so sorry. Are you okay? What happened? Do you want me to talk to her for you, I might be able to…" Taking a step back, he keeps his hands on her hips. "Jess, No. You've done enough. That relationship never would have lasted as long as it did if it weren't for you and that's not a good thing. Jess, I am so sorry that I put you through that… I feel terrible and I am so, so sorry."

Jess reared her head back in confusion. "Put me through what, Nick? What are you talking about? I was just trying to help, you know, be a pal, a good friend." It hit him like a ton of bricks at this very moment.

How on earth did it take me so long to figure it out? You are such an idiot, Miller!

"Look, Jess… I might be going out on a limb here but I'm going to ask you something and I want you to be honest with me, okay?"

Jess looked at him hesitantly. "Umm.. Oh…kay?"

"Okay…? Okay." Nick cleared his throat nervously.

Just do it, Miller. For once in your life don't be afraid.

" I um… I overheard what you said to Reagan at the bookstore and if I'm crossing some line here… please, just tell me, but… Jess, are you still in love with me?"

Jess was looking at anything but him, he could see her panicking, desperate to find the words to get herself out of this situation.

"I, umm… I…"

Nick took her hands in his own, forcing her eyes back to his. "Because I still love you, Jess. I never stopped. I've loved you since the moment I first laid eyes on you. I tried to stop, I did, but… I love you. You are my person. The only thing I need in life to be happy is just you, that's it. I love you."

They stared at each other for a few tense moments before she answered him with one of his oldest and most favorite techniques. He was always the one that was never good with words, but judging by her reaction, he thinks he might be getting better thanks to her.

Throwing her arms around his neck, she crashes her lips against his, kissing the living daylights out of him. They kiss until they are both completely breathless, still clinging to each other for dear life. She looks up at him, happy tears glistening in her eyes and the most beautiful smile Nick has ever seen. She places a hand on his cheek, leaning in to kiss him softly once more. She pulls away and looks him in the eyes with an intensity he hasn't felt from her in so long.

"I love you too, Nick. I have for so long… I tried to get over you but I was fooling myself. You're the one, Nick. I love you and I always will."

Smiling brightly at each other, Nick bends down, placing one arm under her knees and the other behind her back , he scoops her up and carries her down the hallway to her bedroom. Once they are inside, he places her back on her feet and Jess practically jumps him, kissing him deeply, running her nails down his back and through his hair. He lets his hands slide up and down her beautiful body, taking in all of those wonderful curves that he had misses so desperately.

Nick breaks the kiss, both of them struggling to breathe. "Jess, do you wanna wait to do this? Take things slow? I don't want you to feel rushed or…" Jess places a finger over his lips and takes a step back. He watches as she slowly reaches up to untie her robe, once undone she slides it off of her shoulders on onto the floor. She is wearing a simple pair of cotton panties that almost match the blue robe she was just wearing and nothing else. He's trying not to stare like some sex crazed teenager, but it's been so long since he's seen her like this and he can't help it. Finally meeting her eyes, they are dark and full of want and so much love. Her skin is beautifully flushed and her lips are red and swollen from their kisses.

"You are so beautiful, Jess."

It just slips out without a second thought, he can't help it. Jess really is the most beautiful woman he has ever seen and he just can't not tell her. She deserves it hear it every single day of her life and he's going to be the one to make sure she does.

Smiling at him, she steps forward, reaching up to push his blazer over his shoulders. Once that hits the floor, she goes to work on the buttons of his green button up. He pushes that to the floor and watches as she bring her hands up to his bare chest, running her fingers through the hair there. She leans in, kissing the pounding pulse point on his neck before pulling away and looking him deeply in the eyes.

"I don't want to wait anymore, Nick. I've loved you for so long and I'm done waiting. I just want you."

Nick presses her against her bedroom door, kissing her wildly. Groaning at the feel of her nails raking through his hair, he works way down her smooth neck, leaving wet, hot kisses in his wake. Going lower, her reaches her perky breasts, sucking one of her rosy nipples into his mouth. He hears her cry out to him and drops a hand down to rub her over her panties, feeling the wetness seeping through. He moves to her other breast, tonguing and sucking as she makes these obscenely sexy noises above him.

Unable to take any more, Nick drops to his knees in front of her, pulling her panties down as he goes. After she steps out of them, he lifts her left leg and places it over his shoulder. He feels her grip on his hair tighten as she tries to keep her balance. He looks up at her, giving her a sly grin. Gripping her hips tightly, he buries his face in her wetness, licking, sucking a swirling. The door shaking behind her as she bucks her hips against his mouth.

"Ohh, Nick! Yes, yes, ohh my goddd, yes!"

He can feel that she's close, but he's not ready for her to come just yet. Standing up quickly, he kisses the pout off of her face. Undoing his pants, he pushes them to the floor along with his boxers, stepping out of them and his socks in one smooth motion. Jess reaches for his painfully hard dick and pulls him towards her, kissing him messily. She pulls away and gives him a look that almost makes him blow his load right then and there.

"Get on the bed, Nicholas. I'm gonna ride you, cowboy!"

Nick can't help but laugh. He loves how they can go from one extreme to the next, serious to silly, so effortlessly with each other and no matter what, the sex is always hot, like really, really hot. Jess smiles up at him, placing her hand on his chest and pushing him towards the bed. He feels his knees hit and he falls back with a bounce, Jess doesn't even wait a second before she climbs up on top of him and lowers herself down onto his cock. She's so wet and tight that Nick can't even think straight.

"Jesus, Jessica!"

She rides him hard and fast, her breasts bouncing delightfully before his eyes. His grip tightens on her ass, letting out a loud groan as she grinds down hard on top of him. Jess bites her lip and smiles at him wickedly through her eyes.

Two can play that game my dear, Jessica.

He thinks to himself before sliding his hand over to her center, pressing down on her clit, making her whimper in pleasure. "Oh, Nick!" He rubs slow circles over her until she's a writhing mess on top of him. Nothing brings him over the edge quicker than seeing Jess lose control. He sits up and wraps one arm around her, still rubbing her with the other. Taking a nipple into his mouth as he feels her walls tighten and flutter around him.

He pulls away, whispering against the tender skin of her breast. "Come for me, Jessica." He watches as she throws her head back before burying it in his neck, he holds her tightly to him as she crashes over the edge. Her nails digging roughly into his back, he's sure she's leaving a mark but could honestly care less. He wants her to brand him. She lifts her head to kiss him deeply as the waves of her orgasm continue to crash over her and suddenly Nick is there, pumping his hips up towards her as he meets the most intense release he's ever experienced.

She leaves his mouth to plant sweet little kisses down his neck, his slowly softening member still twitching inside of her. She lifts her head and smiles at him, his face matching hers. He hasn't felt this happy in so long and it's all because of this beautiful woman in his arms.

Pulling himself out of her, he lifts her up in his arms, his knees still a little shaky from the intense pleasure of their love making. He pulls the blankets back and lays her down, looking down at her, she's smiling up at him with biggest smile and his makes his heart explode in his chest to know that he is the reason that she's smiling, really smiling again. Jess chuckles sweetly at his staring and grabs his arm to pull him down next to her. "Get in here, Mister!" Once he's laying down, she covers them up and snuggles into his side, her hand absentmindedly playing with his chest hair.

"Hey, Jess?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you so much. I really do. This time it's forever, we're not gonna mess this up again. There's a lot of things in life that I'm not sure about, but the one thing that I am absolutely certain of is that I want to spend the rest of it with you."

Jess lifts her head, smiling at him. "I love you too, Nick. I'm not going anywhere, you're stuck with me now."

Nick pulls her into a kiss, feeling her tongue push it's way into his mouth as she deepens it. Climbing back on top of him, she works her way down to his neck rocking her very bare and still very wet center against him.

"Again already, Jessica?" He growls in her ear, roughly grabbing her ass. "What can I say, Nicholas? I just can't get enough of you!" She bites his neck, soothing it with her tongue and soft lips.

"Hey, Jess?

"Yes, Nick?" Her hand trailing down his stomach, reaching for his cock.

"Do you have anymore of that glue?"

They both fall into a fit of laughter before Nick flips her over and settles on top of her for round two.