Chapter 13: Connecting
"This is so weird but so good at the same time" I smile as we get onto the bed after undressing down to our underwear. "It's like I can't believe I'm lying next to you right now but it also feels right you know" I say. No disrespect to any of my exes but being with Brittany has always felt better than being with anyone else.
"I love you so much" she says while hovering over me. She smiles at me slightly before leaning down to kiss me. I gently move my hands to her back and pull her closer as I kiss her back.
"I love you too" I say as we momentarily pull away. Brittany sits back slightly and puts her hands to her back to unclasp her bra. "Let me" I say while placing my hands on top of hers.
"Ok" she says quietly with a smile. I gently remove her bra and then place my hands on her shoulders. I then slowly move them up so my hands are cupping her cheeks before kissing her. Brittany moves her hands to my back and unclasps my bra as she kisses me back. We then pull away for a second so I can remove my bra. "Lie back" she tells me so I do just that. She then begins kissing down my body before removing my panties. She sits back for a moment and just looks at me.
"What?" I ask slightly embarrassed. There's something a little weird about her just staring at me like that and it's making me feel self-conscious.
"You look different but I can't pinpoint why" she smiles.
"A bad different?" I ask concerned.
"No definitely not" she shakes her head.
"Ok so that means you can stop staring at me and get down here" I smile while pulling her closer to me so I can kiss her.
"Sorry but when you look as amazing as you do, I can't help but admire your body" she smiles before leaning back down to kiss me. She then moves away slightly and begins kissing a trail down my body. As soon as she gets close to my core, she moves away and kisses somewhere else to tease me.
"God Britt, I forgot how much you liked to tease me" I moan as she kisses a particularly sensitive spot. She doesn't verbally reply, she just looks up at me and smirks before continuing what she's doing. "Please" I say after a few minutes, almost begging.
"Please what?" she smirks.
"I really need you" I say before moving my own hand down my body.
"No, only I touch you" Brittany says while grabbing my hand, stopping me.
"Touch me where I need you then" I reply.
"All in good time babe" she smirks before leaning up to kiss me. She then kisses down my body again but this time stopping when she gets to my core.
"Shit" I moan as she finally pays attention to where I need her most. "That feels so good" I tell her as I tangle my hands in her hair, subconsciously pushing her head closer to me.
"You taste so good" she mutters while pulling away for a split second before diving back in. it really doesn't take long for my orgasm to hit. As it does, I feel my thighs pushing against her head and my fingers pull on her hair tightly.
"I have missed that so much" I say as I get my breath back.
"It wasn't my best work obviously" she says while moving back up the bed to lie next to me. "It wasn't the most exciting either but you seemed like you just needed me."
"I did" I nod. "It's been so long that I just needed some kind of release. I thought you did pretty well anyway because I don't just cum for anyone" I smile.
"No it was pretty sloppy and I didn't tease you for nearly as long as I wanted to" she says while wrapping her arms around me. "I didn't even kiss you as much as I wanted to either or pay attention to the areas you usually like being taken care of."
"I came didn't I?" I ask with a smile.
"Yeah but…"
"No buts, just lie back and let me take care of you" I smile while moving so I'm straddling her.
The next day
I'm just slowing waking up when I hear movement and feel a slight weight on me. I rub my eyes to waken up more before opening them. "This kind of wake up certainly hasn't happened in a while" I say smiling as Brittany sits straddling my lap.
"It hasn't, no" she smiles back.
"Are you tired?" I ask teasingly while rubbing her back gently.
"Not really and I'm not due in work any time soon" she smirks.
"I think it seems like a good time to have some fun then" I smile. "Do you want to pick up where we left off last night?" I ask.
"No I think we need to start right from the beginning again because we've been so out of practice lately. Last night was great but practice makes perfect, you know" she smirks.
"You're definitely right" I smile back.
After spending more time in bed than we probably should have, we both get up and quickly shower. Brittany makes us a quick breakfast and then we eat it on the way to ours cars. As much as I liked our time this morning, I can't afford to rush about like this before work again. I have forgotten half of the stuff I was supposed to take with me but never mind, I'll just need to wing it.
"Santana you're late" one of the crew members says to me shaking his head as I rush inside.
"I'm sorry, it won't happen again" I apologise.
"It better not because we have too much we need to get through today" he states. "Ok everyone, places please. We need to get this scene down sooner rather than later."
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I'm finally walking into my apartment building. I'm thankful the day went really quick and I wasn't too bored but at the same time, I feel like it's been ages since I last talked to Brittany. I was going to text her on my break and just check in but I barely even got a break. The only small amount of time I got was to get some water and to quickly have something to eat before we were back to filming more scenes. For being such a big cast you'd really think we'd all get a break while others are filming but it doesn't seem to work like that. It's like we're constantly shooting something or another. I mean I'm not complaining about getting work but it is getting really tiring.
"Hey you" Brittany smiles as soon as she sees me while wrapping her arms around me to hug me.
"Hi" I smile back. "How was your day?" I ask.
"Let's just say I missed you more than I ever had" she sighs. I'm guessing that means it was a pretty shit day.
"I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to call or even text you, we barely even got a break" I tell her as we pull out of the hug.
"Don't worry about it" she shakes her head. "I know it's a busy time for you" she smiles.
"Do you want something to eat or is it too late?" I ask.
"No I can eat something" she nods. We then make something to eat before sitting down together to catch up. "Why do you keep looking at me?" Brittany asks embarrassed.
"I'm sorry" I say snapping out my day dream. I've just missed Brittany a lot today that I find myself just gazing at her wondering how I got to be this happy again. There was a point I never thought I would be happy again and I finally am.
"Do I have food all over me or something" she says while wiping at her face.
"No, nothing like that" I smile. "I was just thinking how happy I am at the moment" I shrug.
"I'm really happy to" she smiles back. "I know it was just sex this morning but I feel like we're a lot closer now than we've been in the last few days and I like that" she admits.
"Me too" I nod in agreement. "Although I can't afford to be late for work again, they were not happy with me this morning" I state.
"Yeah I was a little late myself" Brittany shakes her head. "I blamed it on the traffic which I think they bought but nevertheless, we should be a little more careful" she says.
"I agree" I reply. Our careers are a big part of who we are and we like that about each other so the last thing we need is to upset anything good we've got going on like by turning up late to work etc.
Brittany's POV
Things between Santana and I have been great the last couple of months. After finally feeling like we were a couple again, we could get on with our normal lives. We were both busy with working on new TV shows but we still made the effort to put time aside for one another which was great. We also had a great Christmas together because our shows stopped for the holidays so Santana and I went back to New York to spend time with my family and we flew out her family so we all got to spend the holidays together. Unfortunately we were back hard at work by Santana's birthday where she turned 23 but I managed to make her a special dinner and since it was Friday, we managed to get the weekend off at work so we spent most of the Saturday together.
It's my birthday tomorrow but I'm not expecting a big fuss because it's a Thursday and we're both working. I would however like to at least have dinner with Santana or something so I'm hoping we both get finished at a reasonable time. I'm not able to see my parents either because they couldn't drop everything this week but they did fly out last week so we had an early celebratory dinner then and they brought me my birthday presents then as well.
"Hey babe" Santana says walking into the room. I didn't even hear her enter the apartment "Good day?" she asks while leaning down to kiss me.
"Not too bad a day actually" I smile. "You?" I ask. This is the first time I have seen Santana since this morning and we haven't had a lot of time to text each other at work so it feels like ages since we last spoke.
"Not the worst day but I am glad to be home now" she smiles back.
"I'm glad you're home too, I've missed you" I reply.
"Do you want me to get started on making some dinner?" she asks while sitting down and slipping her shoes off.
"No I can do that because you've been at work a lot longer than I have" I tell her. I've been home for a while now but Santana has just got in the door.
"Ok" she shrugs with a smile. "Let me know if you need some help."
"I will but it should be fine" I say before quickly kissing Santana and then making my way to the kitchen to get started on dinner. As soon as I'm finished making it, I get Santana and we sit down together and eat.
"Britt, can I talk to you about something?" Santana says breaking the silence between us. We were both so hungry that as soon as we sat down we just started eating our food, not really bothering to make conversation until we were somewhat replenished.
"Of course" I smile.
"Our relationship has been really good lately and we've been making lots of progress, don't you think?" she asks and I nod. "Ok good, we're on the same page then" she says satisfied.
"We definitely are" I smile again.
"So if I suggested you moved into my bedroom, what would you say?" she asks curiously.
"About time" I tease.
"I mean we live here together and we're doing well so I think we should live together properly you know where we share a room and stuff" she says with a shrug.
"I didn't want to rush you but I've wanted us to share a bedroom for a while plus we spend most nights in one of the beds together so we might as well make it official and sleep in the same room" I say.
"That's settled then" she smiles. "I could help you move your stuff into my room tonight and that way we can wake up together on your birthday tomorrow."
"Sounds good" I smile back. Once we're finished dinner and have cleared up, we get right to moving all my stuff into Santana's bedroom.
"I'm so excited about this" Santana says happily as she helps me fill up the closet with my clothes.
"Me too" I smile. "Um…what's that?" I ask curiously as I pick up a bag with my name on it.
"Never you mind what it is" Santana says while pouncing on me and taking the bag away from me. "I forgot I even put that in there" she says while hiding the bag under the bed.
"That's my birthday present isn't it?" I ask when the realisation hits.
"It might be" she shrugs.
"What did you get me?" I ask excitedly.
"You'll have to wait until tomorrow to find out" she smirks at me. "If you keep asking me about it though then you might not get it at all" she states.
"Ok, I'll let it go" I smile. We then go back to what we were doing before.
"Hey, what do you say we take a relaxing bath after this?" Santana suggests. "I could really do with some relaxing time with you."
"I'm cool with that" I smile.
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As soon as we finished moving my things to Santana's bedroom, we got a few things ready for work tomorrow and then Santana started the bath for us. She lit some candles around the side and filled the tub with some relaxing oils. We then stripped off our clothes and got in.
"This is nice isn't it?" Santana says while tilting her head back to look at me since I'm sitting behind her with my arms around her.
"Yeah it really is" I agree.
"It's especially nice when you start massaging my shoulders" she tells me.
"Do you want me to keep going?" I ask. I hadn't really been planning on giving her a massage, I was just subconsciously doing it now and again as we talked.
"Yes please" she replies.
"Ok" I nod while beginning to gently massage her shoulders.
"So how do you feel about tomorrow?" she asks curiously.
"Ok I guess but it's just another birthday really" I shrug. I mean it's not that big of a deal to me anymore.
"Do you mind turning 27 already or has there been anything that you wanted to happen before you turned 27 but it hasn't happened?" Santana asks.
"If you had asked me last year on my birthday what I wanted to happen before my next one then I would have said getting you back" I say honestly. "Luckily enough it did happen so I'm not too bothered about turning 27 because my main goal was you and I have you now" I smile.
"I know it wasn't always obvious in the beginning but all I've ever wanted was to be with you again" she replies. "I'm so happy and grateful that we managed to work things out and give ourselves a second chance."
"Me too" I say while placing a kiss to Santana's shoulders.
"So are you happy with the way your career is going at the moment and just focusing on that or is there anything big that you want to happen?" Santana asks.
"I mean eventually I want us to get married and have children but I don't think we need to rush either of the two right now. I think just getting back to us is good for the moment" I admit.
"I definitely want marriage and kids in the future but I don't think now is quite right. I mean I almost got married to someone else 7 months ago so like you say, just being us should be the focus for the moment" Santana replies. I know before the miscarriage we were going to bring up a baby together but since we can plan it now then I agree that we should wait.
It's my 27th birthday today and I'm sort of having mixed feelings about it. I wasn't too bothered by it last night but now that it's actually here then I am getting a little annoyed about being 27. I'm really happy with where Santana and I are at in our relationship but a part of me does feel like maybe I should be more than just a girlfriend by now. Don't get me wrong, I don't need a proposal or anything like that. I just feel like I should have something to show by now for my 27 years and I don't really. I'm basically back to square one career wise so I feel like the last few years haven't been as successful as I hoped. I gave up my fulltime job teaching to follow my dreams as a dancer and here we are 5 years later and I'm not a dancer anymore. I've landed a guest spot on a TV show but as soon as that ends, what am I meant to do. I've barely done acting before so it's not like my phone is off the hook with opportunities and I can't see myself going back to dancing fulltime either.
"What is the birthday girl doing out of bed?" Santana asks looking over at me at the table while leaning against the doorframe.
"Just being old and depressing" I sigh while looking down at the coffee cup in my hand.
"You are not old and I very much doubt depressing either" Santana says while walking over to me and sitting down. "Britt, what's going on?" she asks.
"You're the only good thing in my life right now and as much as I love you more than anything, I don't want to just be your other half" I admit.
"Brittany you are more than just my partner" she says while putting her hand on top of mine. "You're an amazing dancer, you're a businesswoman and of recently an actress" she smiles.
"One job does not make me an actress" I sigh.
"Please stop being so hard on yourself, especially today" she tells me. "Opportunities will come up, I promise you. Your TV show just hasn't been brought out yet so no one has seen you act but as soon as the first episode airs you'll be getting calls left, right and centre."
"When we first started dating, I was just a boring dance teacher but then you made me realise I could do it professionally so I did" I shrug. "Look at me now though, I'm done and back to square one again. What if this new thing I'm doing takes me away from you and we breakup again?" I ask. I couldn't handle history repeating itself.
"We're not going to let it happen" Santana assures me.
"I part own a hotel in New York and we live in LA, we're kinda already part of the way there" I sigh.
"Look I'm not going to lie. As soon as we moved here and got back together, the whole hotel thing has terrified me" she admits. "I don't want to spend my life on the other side of the country from you but I can't make you give up something that you're clearly invested in."
"If you were me, what would you do?" I ask curiously.
"I'm not you so I don't want my opinion swaying yours. Whatever you want to do you should do" she states.
"That's the thing though, I don't actually know what I want. I just want someone to give me a plan and tell me how to handle things" I sigh. I don't actually feel one way or the other about things so I need help.
"Honestly, if it was me then I would sell my share in the hotel and start clean here. That could be by buying into a hotel around here or using the money to start a new career like in acting or something. You just have to find your true passion babe" she smiles. "Don't do any of what I said though if it's not what you want" she adds.
"Maybe I should just sell my part in the hotel for a start anyway and work on what to do thereafter" I say. It is the one thing I am sure I could live with and to be honest I'd rather be here in LA with Santana. If I want to invest in a hotel or whatever then I'll start afresh and do it here.
"You have to be sure it's what you want" Santana says.
"I'm definitely sure about the hotel" I nod. "Everything else I don't know about" I admit.
"Now it's your birthday so I'm sure you'll want a birthday kiss right now" she smiles while leaning in to kiss me.
"I want more than just a kiss" I mumble.
"There she is" Santana laughs.
"I'm sorry for being so down" I apologise. "It's just on my birthday I like to think I've done something in the last year you know and I don't feel this birthday is any different from my last one."
"You don't have to apologise baby" she shakes her head while putting her arm around me.
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As soon as I was finished at work, I made my way straight home. I did text Santana to ask her when she might be finishing but I didn't get a reply. I figured she was just caught up filming so I didn't think too much of it so I was surprised to find her in the kitchen when I got home.
"Hey" I say as I drop my bag on the floor and walk over to her.
"Hi" she smiles while leaning in to kiss me.
"Didn't you get my text?" I ask curiously.
"I did but I deliberately didn't reply because I didn't want you to know I was home yet" she tells me. "I wanted this to be a surprise" she states.
"Wanted what to be a surprise?" I ask confused.
"This" she says while taking my hand and leading us to the living room. The floor is littered with rose petals and candles are illuminating the room.
"Wow, it looks so romantic in here" I say as I look around.
"I'm also making dinner for us" Santana smiles.
"You didn't need to do that babe because I know you've been busy at work" I reply. It's really thoughtful but she didn't have to do it because I know how exhausted she's been after long days filming.
"It's your birthday so I wanted to" she smiles again. "We haven't really been happy in a long time on your birthday so I wanted to do something special" she says. The last two of my birthdays we weren't together and the one before that was just before we broke up so things were difficult between us.
"Well I really appreciate it" I say before leaning in to steal a quick kiss.
"Dinner isn't quite ready yet so if you want to relax for a little bit then you can do that and I'll let you know when it's ready" she smiles.
"I might just freshen up actually" I nod. It was a hard day on set so I'm feeling kinda gross and sweaty at the minute.
"That's cool" Santana nods. "You do what you need to do and I'll go back to the kitchen" she smiles again before leaving. I then make my way to the bathroom to freshen up before going to the bedroom to change. I then head back to the kitchen to see Santana.
"I'm such a shitty girlfriend" I mumble as I wrap my arms around Santana from behind.
"Why's that?" she asks, turning her head slightly and frowning.
"Because I've been home for 15 minutes already and I haven't even complimented you on how beautiful you look" I reply. "You look really good in that dress, is it new?" I ask.
"Not that new but I don't think I've ever really wore it since we got back together" she shrugs. "Thanks for the compliment though" she smiles.
"I'm assuming you didn't wear it at work this morning so are you wearing it now for my benefit?" I ask curiously.
"It's my girlfriend's birthday so I wanted to dress up and look nice" she tells me. "If we are free at the weekend though then I want to take you out for dinner and do it properly because you only have one birthday a year so like I say, I want yours to be special."
"Honestly, all I really need for this birthday to be special is you" I smile. I know it sounds cheesy but I'm just so glad we're together again.
"Ok" Santana smiles back. She then finishes up dinner and we take it through to the other room to eat. "So what do you think of the food?" she asks looking at me as I take another bite.
"Really good" I smile. "In fact it's so good I demand you cook all our meals from now on since you're this talented" I grin.
"Nice try but no, that's not going to happen" she laughs. "We share chores and cooking equally but I will however always cook when it's your birthday or whatever" she tells me.
"Ok" I nod.
"Hey do you want some wine?" Santana asks. "I know we're both working tomorrow but we could afford one glass to toast your birthday."
"Sure" I smile.
"Ok, I'll be right back" she says while quickly getting up and going to the kitchen for some wine. She comes back a few minutes later with two glasses of wine in her hands.
"Thank you" I say as she hands me a glass.
"Let's make a toast" she smiles while sitting down. "Here's to a happy birthday to you and an amazing new future together" she says raising her glass.
"Here's to us" I smile while also raising my glass.
"Us" she smiles and then we clink our glasses together before taking a sip.
"I actually had a thought today at work" I say as we go back to eating. "I finish shooting this guest appearance in a few days so I thought maybe in the next week or so then we could go away together" I suggest.
"That could be fun" she smiles.
"I figured you would be finishing up soon so you'll have a bit of a break before you all need to promote the show so I thought we could go then" I say. "We can go somewhere far away or we can just have a weekend somewhere here" I tell her. I'm happy to go anywhere as long as I can get to spend time with just Santana and relax.
"We've never really had a proper vacation together just the two of us so I think I'd like to go somewhere away from here" Santana replies. "The only thing is I don't know where we could go that would have decent deals at such short notice" she points out.
"We can think about it then. Maybe even take some time at the weekend together to look at some places online" I suggest.
"Yeah we should definitely do that" Santana nods in agreement. Once we finish dinner, Santana was insistent that she would clear up but I helped her anyway because I wanted us to have some time together now so the quicker we got cleared up the better.
"So I think its present time now" I smile brightly as we sit down in the living room together again.
"Oh you do?" Santana smirks.
"It's been my birthday for hours and hours now and you still haven't gave me a present" I tell her.
"Yeah maybe you're right, maybe it is present time now" she smiles. "I'll be back in two seconds" she says before leaving the room to go and get my present. She then walks back in with her hands behind her back.
"I'm so excited" I say gleefully while trying to sit at peace even though I can't.
"Don't get too excited because it's nothing extraordinary" she tells me. "You know how much I suck at buying presents."
"Anything you give me is amazing. Just knowing you have got me something is exciting in the first place because whatever you give me always has a special meaning" I smile.
"Ok well here you go" she smiles back while hanging me a bag full of wrapped gifts. I don't waste any time in getting them all open.
"Last but not least" I say while beginning to open the last gift.
"This is the best one I would say" she smiles. That gives me an extra incentive to open this one a lot quicker. Not that I was messing around anyway but still.
"Oh that's cute" I smile as I open the box to reveal a necklace with a love-heart pendant on it.
"The charm itself actually opens up" she says while gently opening it up. "It's just a picture of me right now" she laughs, "but you can put any small picture in it."
"I like the picture of you in it" I smile.
"I figured if you ever have a bad day or get really down about something then you just need to look at the charm and it'll cheer you up. I mean whether you keep the picture of me in it or not, you'll always know the necklace is from me so it's like I'll always be with you in a way" she smiles.
"I like that idea" I tell her.
"If you are worried about things you can still come to me though. I know it's difficult for you just now because you don't know what the next step is career wise but we can't let things get out of control like last time" she says.
"I agree, 100%" I smile. "I mean whatever happens will happen, I just need to focus on the good things, one of which is being with you."
"Yeah" she smiles before kissing me.