28. Be my Valentine (part 2)
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She was asleep in their tent as she heard him get up. Even though she hoped to sleep just a few minutes more, she was used to hearing his usual morning routine. But this time, she wasn't hearing him getting dressed. And before she could open her eyes and turn to see what he was doing she heard his soft voice.
"Even if the sun refused to shine, even if romance ran out of rhyme.." "You would still have my heart, until the end of time." "You're all I need, my love, my valentine."
She turned to see him as she was hearing him sing with his soft voice. Smiling at him. There he was down on one knee and singing to her.
"I've dreamed of this a thousand times before, but in my dreams I couldn't love you more."
She was looking at him, his singing going straight to her heart. She hadn't felt like this in a very long time. The feeling of being cherished, loved by someone. She had missed it.
"I will give you my heart, until the end of time." "You're all I need, my love. Will you be mine forever?"
She heard his words and she saw he was holding a flower with a golden ring tied to it. Noticing slightly the shaking of his hand in which he held the flower. Would he ever manage to relax around her, she wondered. Glancing at him as he was waiting for her answer.
She placed her hand around his hand in which the flower was and pulled him near her as she placed a soft kiss on his lips. She felt his body all tense, smiling at the reaction as she kissed him.
"Yes." She barely managed to say, feeling her morning voice a little husky. Meeting his gaze when he seemed to be rather surprised of her answer. Wasn't it what he had expected or had he really been that nervous? That she might turn him down?
It was time to let go of her past, she had thought just a few days before. She had been sitting on the beach with Kara, holding her hand on her belly. Feeling as the baby was making these soft little kicks or more like bumps. She had felt sadness and joy at the same time. Joy that her friend was experiencing the movements of her baby. Sadness because she barely remembered how it had felt. Kara had seen the pain and longing in her eyes and she had confided in her about her past.
It wasn't her little sister that had been pregnant. She was young when she got married, all hopeful for the future, happy. They had found out that they were expecting. But her husband was in the military and he was shot in the line of duty. Leaving her alone. And a month later she found out that the baby inside of her wasn't anymore. Feeling completely crushed that the life she had wanted, was taken away from her. In her sorrow, in her anger, she had joined the Israeli Defence Forces shortly after.
She had built a wall around her heart, she felt she couldn't take anymore hurt and the best was not to let anyone near her heart ever again. Still feeling the pain of losing her child, it has left a hole in her, which can never be replaced, but as she now has learned, the pain isn't as sharp anymore. And when she first met Carlton in Norfolk, seeing his smile and the looks he gave her. She felt something, despite the wall around her. She felt that she just might fall in love again. And when he hit on her at the cabin with that ridiculous line, she felt the sting of fondness coming over her. Feeling the sparkling sensation of something waking deep inside of her heart. Never thinking she would feel like that again. So she slowly let the wall around her crumble down, when she realized he was deeply into her. Letting herself to feel love again, as she fell in love with him. No matter how long they had together in the world, she wanted to be his.
Glancing at him as he took the ring tied to the flower and placed it on her finger. It was a golden ring with three little stones in the middle. Probably diamonds, but to her it didn't matter. "I thought you'd like something simple." He said with a smile. "Not that I think you are simple.." He then stuttered out, she heard he had the need to explain. She pulled him back to bed on top of her and kissed him. "I love it." She managed to say between kisses and she felt that he was relaxing finally. It was so sweet that after everything, she was still making him this jumpy, she thought.