LOVE FOOLS

Thinking about our past

Jpov

My sister called her and she told me that Bella is a nice girl but was very shy.

After that I was relieved and started imagining my life with her as my wife. I was eager and excited for our wedding.

Soon the wedding day arrived; we both were declared as husband and wife after all the rituals.

We had the big fat wedding, a Hindu marriage and then a church wedding ,according to the wishes of both our Moms .

I felt something in my heart, a feeling which I can't describe when I kissed her for the first time . A feeling that I have a person to take care of and a companion in my life who will always be my side in my happiness and sorrows.

After completion of all post marriage rituals, Bella came to my house along with my family leaving her house and her parents.

At night, I was nervous at the same time excited to meet her in private. This is the first time we are gonna be alone without anyone around us. As I was eagerly waiting for her presence in our room, I was informed that we shouldn't stay together in same room tonight as it was not an auspicious day.

I was disappointed but I convinced myself that I have my whole life to spend time.

Thinking about her and our life as husband and wife I drifted to sleep that night. Next day I expected to get a glimpse of my wife , but she was busy in kitchen with my mom and relatives. That night when I came to our room , She was sleeping peacefully. So, I covered her with a blanket and slept beside her .

I never got a chance to talk to her even next day as well, when I woke up from sleep Bella was not in bed.

When I came out of our room , I found her she was busy in kitchen with my mom and sister in law Emily , the whole day passed like this .

I tried talking to her alone but we were disturbed either by my mom or Emily .

As usual when I came to bed room that night, I found her sleeping. The same thing repeated for next 3 days.

In these 3 days, I got few chances of talking to her alone but she escaped from me saying one excuse or the other. At first I thought she was shy and nervous but soon I was getting frustrated on thinking about how to make her talk to me freely, and how to make my wife comfortable around me to talk at least.

I decided to talk to Bella openly about the matter.

One night I reached our room before her . She was shocked to see me and stood there near the door. I was speechless seeing Bella in that white color dress.

I was waiting for her to enter the room but she looked like as if she was going to run away from that place.

I pulled bella inside our room and locked the door. I took her , near our bed and asked her to sit.

As I sat beside her; I could sense that she was nervous.

To make her feel better I thought to start a conversation. While talking, I slowly touched her hand and started reducing distance between us .

I was about to kiss her on her cheek, I noticed the tears that had formed in her eyes.

I immediately moved away and softly asked Bella the reason for her behavior of distancing herself from me.

"Everything is new to me, this relation,this family and you. We don't know anything about each other. I am scared and nervous to be around you. I need some time to get used to this " Bella said .

She told me that we both need some time to get used to this new relation. I mentally cursed myself for not understanding the situation .

I had expected her to adjust in this new life but everything is not same for her after marriage. Though I was eager to make Bella mine, I respected and understood her feelings .

I told her to take time and I don't mind waiting . I asked her to sleep, as she laid down on the bed .

Thinking about the discussion, I too drifted off to sleep soon.

Bella used to wake up from sleep before me, I hardly got a chance to talk to her in the morning .I tried to wake up to see her face in the morning but couldn't ever caught it even once.

I tried take Bella out so that we can spend some time together but she said her health is not good.

I always tried to make conversation with her and to get to know about her likes and dislikes but she never paid any attention to talk to me. Sometimes I felt like she was purposely trying to stay away from me.

We were not behaving like a newly married couple.

I slowly realized that I never saw her being shy around me it was always nervousness and intention of avoiding me.

After two days, I started to go to office. All my friends teased me and asked me about our married life. But I had no proper answer to give them as myself don't know what's going on between us.

We weren't behaving like a newly married couple ,as we weren't even talking to each other!

When my brother got married, his wife used to take care of him . She used to cook his favourite food for him. She never left his side for a second when he returns from work . Seeing their happy married life, I had started thinking about marriage.

When our marriage got fixed, I dreamed about me taking care of Bella , her cooking food for me , packing together our stuff for going trekking in the hills, helping me in getting ready for office and so on.

I saw few of my newly married friends talking to their spouse whenever they get time , going on a date, taking care of each other. But ours is completely different as you never cared about me.

Bella never asked me whether I had lunch or not when I called her to check whether she had your food or not.

I felt very bad that I expected a lot from this marriage, leaving the physical part for now, but I had wished her love , care and affection towards me as my companion. But I didn't get any of those!

The more I tried to get close to her , the more she distanced herself from me.

To reduce the distance between us I thought of planning our honeymoon as soon as possible and wanted to sort out things between us.

I told her about this she said she was OK with it. I was very happy, at that time all my doubts vanished and started preparations for our trip.

I came home that day excited to tell her about the trip schedule. I searched for you in kitchen, garden and living room but she was not there. So I asked my mom about Bella , she told me that she was not feeling well and taking rest.

I was worried as in morning Bella was fine ,but when I came to our room and saw her sleeping peacefully but her face was pale.

I came near Bella and caressed her cheek .

I kissed her on her forehead, that was the first time I was that close to Bella and that was our first kiss No my first kiss to Bella , on her forehead.

Unknowingly a smile crept on my lips. I covered you with blanket and went to wash room to freshen up. I was finally happy !

After sometime, I started working on my laptop. When it was time for dinner,my nephew Ethan came to our room and asked me to come for dinner. After he left, I called her few times but she was in deep sleep so I touched her shoulder to wake her up.

I found her body was burning up and I realized that she was suffering from fever.

I went to dinning room and told them about her condition and asked them to finish their dinner. I went to kitchen prepared soup and came to our room with the tray of soup and medicines.

I tried waking her up from sleep but she was very tired to even open her eyes. After sometimeshe opened her eyes and I started feeding her.

Initially she refused to eat but after some pampering from me; for some time she allowed me to feed .

Throughout that night ,I sat beside her and took care of her . Next day she felt better but I refused to leave her even for a second.

But at night she again had fever. Next day I thought of taking Bella to hospital but unexpectedly I had to go to office for urgent wok,at the last minute .

I was reluctant to leave Bella but my mom convinced me saying that they will take her to hospital.

Unwillingly ,I went to office . When I came back from office ,it was midnight . Everyone was asleep.

I saw Bella's face and she looked better compared to morning.

I silently changed my clothes without disturbing her sleep and I too drifted off to sleep.