Love Fools

Missing piece

Disclaimer: All the characters are of SM

" Dude...I know what you are doing, I too passed this stage. Don't forget this is my third anniversary. But only difference is my wife also used to steal glances whenever we are in parties like this. In your case you are staring at your wife as if she is an unreachable thing"

I remained silent. He continued after few minutes.

"You like your wife. Don't you?"

I looked at Bella and without taking my eyes off I answered." No. I love her"

"Whoa... That's cool. Did you confess your feelings?"

"No"

"Why?"

" I didn't get a chance till now"

"Dude.. She is your wife who stays with you in your house. Didn't you get a minute in these months to confess your feelings?"

I wanted to tell her about my feelings for you but I decided against it as I want her to love me without any hesitations .I don't want to confess my feelings and pressure Bella to love me back so I decided to give her time to get comfortable with me.

But it didn't happen as she was away from me for nearly 2 months and when she come back to home I decided to confess my feeling . But unfortunately previous night I was upset because of her lie.

"What is it bro... why are you silent? Is everything alright?"

"I don't know." I replied honestly.

I want to share my pain which I have been suffering from starting of our marriage as I couldn't bear the suffering anymore. I wanted to well that out to someone. He is my best friend and he is like a brother to me.

"Are you both happy?"

"Now a days though we were meeting rarely I know from your voice in our phone conversations that something was troubling you What is bothering you? You know more than friend you are like a brother to me. If you want you can share it. "

"I am not able to understand my wife... I never got a chance to spend time with her in these 3 months of our marriage. We were away from each other for 2 months due to her health. She never talks to me much. I always wanted her to be comfortable around me . I want her to talk to me freely, but things are not happening accordingly. I don't know why she is so distant with me. That's the problem;. I don't know what is in her mind."

I decided to share my feelings with him. I didn't tell him all the things that happened between us but I just told him that after our marriage we were away from each other for 2 months due to your health and your silent nature. He listened to me patiently without interrupting me.

"Oh...did you ask her the reason?"

"Yeah... She asked me to give her some time as she needs time to adjust."

"hmmm.. the moment I saw you both I thought something was wrong between you both."

"I don't know what to do and how to make her comfortable with me. Even if I know the reason then I would try to change her behavior towards me but I don't know the exact reason of what is bothering her."

"May be she doesn't want to get married? "

"Before marriage, I asked her whether she agreed to this marriage willingly or not. She told me that the marriage was fixed with her consent."

" She could have lied to you. Because of her parents she could have agreed to marry you."

"What if she loved someone? "

Hearing his question my heart stopped beating for a second. Is it a possible reason behind her behavior? I never thought about this... what if she loved someone?

"I don't know. I don't think she loves someone." I replied controlling my anger.

"What will you do if she loved someone and that is the reason for her behavior?"

I remained silent, I can't even able to imagine you with someone else.

"Tell me bro, What will you do if she has loved someone before marriage. And is unable to forget him? Will you leave her?"

I was stunned by his question. I didn't expect this. Will I be able to bear if she loves someone other than me? I imagined my life without her ; if she was not there in it then it is impossible for me to live.

"Why are you asking this?"

"Just answer me honestly bro.."

"ok..If I knew that she loved someone before marriage then I wouldn't have married her .But now we are married and also I love her so much that I can wait for her to understand me and to love me back. I cannot loose her now no matter what happens" I replied confidently and looked at him to see that he was beaming.

"I expected this answer but wanted to hear from you. So I will tell you one thing which may be reason for her behavior"

" What is that reason? And how the hell do you know it, as few minutes back you met her"

" I knew your wife she is like a sister to me but she doesn't know me. Do you remember my cousin sister Pooja?"

"yeah.. I remember last year I attended her marriage along with you. You both are like close friends than brother and sister right."

"Yes.. your wife is her best friend. I never met your wife but I saw her in my sister's college photos. "

I could hear my heart beating so fast as I was so tensed to hear what he knows about you.

"She loved some one" he said taking a deep breath.

"What !"

"I said she was in love with someone before your marriage"

I was shocked is an understatement

I couldn't speak a word after that. You loved someone. I tried to absorb the information I heard which I didn't expected to listen.

"How do you know that she loved some one?" I asked after few minutes of silence.

"After my sister's marriage, she was packing her books and other stuff to take to her in-laws house, I was helping her in packing. I found an album in between her books and showed it to her to ask whether to pack it or not. She sat down looking at the album sadly, when I asked the reason for her sadness she told me that her best friend is facing some problems in her family because of her love. She felt sad that she was not able to help her friend in any way. That's how I saw your wife in my sister's college photos. Now am seeing her here, as your wife now."

"Oh"

"I don't know whether that is the reason for her behavior or not. As you were struggling to know what her problem was, am just telling you what I know about her. May be she has already moved on but is just taking some time to adjust with you. Or even there is a chance that this may not be the actual reason behind her behavior. "

"Whatever the reason it is, she could have shared the same with me right? Why is she hiding this and distancing herself from me. I will be very happy if she shares her problems and am ready to give her time if she is willing to give us a chance."

"May be she is scared that you will leave her if you get to know the know the reason for most of the couple fights include their past relations. First try to know whether this is true or not and also the complete truth about her love then you can decide how to solve your problem, ok?"

What he said make sense because may be you were afraid of my reaction. Like how you were afraid to invite your friends thinking I may not like it.

"First I will talk to her and then I will decide . I wanna make sure whether she loved someone or not."

"Am impressed dude... You are handling this situation pleasantly. Frankly speaking, if I were in your situation I could have immediately got to a conclusion and assumed so many things without even thinking to hear anything from her point of view. This shows how much you trust and care for her."

"I should give her this respect . She came along with me leaving her 24 years of life, her parents behind her. I promised her that I will be her family, also will support her in everything.. It is my duty to give her chance to voice out her feelings."

"Good !if what I said is true, give her some time. I know she will definitely love you back but it may take some time. Trust me bro... if a wife loves you with her heart. She gives you everything without any hesitation. She starts to make your life beautiful. She makes you feel that you are most lucky man on this planet! The love she will shower on you can't be explained in words".

I looked at him who has a genuine smile while saying this. At that moment I envied him.

"I hope I will be as happy as you are in your married life."

"You will, take care of her."

"Sure" Hearing someone calling him, he went away to attend other guests. I was left alone and soon his words started ringing in my mind about you had loved someone.

At first I thought I could take it lightly but as time passed it is becoming hard for me to digest that you loved someone and that someone is not me.

Thinking about that a part of me wanted to punch that guy who got the first chance to get your love; But another part of me is saying that what I heard from my friend must be false and that he might have misunderstood something.

But one thing is clear that I want to show and assure myself that you now belong to me and that nothing and nobody is going to separate us. I looked at you and saw that you were talking to my friend's wife and you were laughing in between your talks.

Lots of questions popped up in my mind.

What if my friend told was true?

What if you were not able to forget him?

What if you married me because of your parents?

Will you be able to love me back the way I do ?

Soon the party ended and it was time for us to leave.

When we reached home, Bella got down from the car and unlocked the main door of our house. I parked the car and came inside. Placing the keys on table, I walked to dining table.

I opened the refrigerator and drank some water. Bella was not there in kitchen so thinking that she might be in our room, I locked the main door and walked towards the bedroom.

When I entered our room, the scene I witnessed made me forgot all the fears and questions that were going on in my mind. She was standing in front of the mirror and was trying to remove the necklace.

I don't know what came to my mind; I slowly walked towards her and stood behind. She looked up and saw my refection in the mirror. I lifted my hands and removed her hands from the chain .

I touched the chain to unhook it and saw that the hook was pressed tightly so I bend down to pull it with my teeth.

While pulling it my lips brushed Bella's sot skin and she shivered under my touch. Not moving my lips from there, I slowly moved my hands from the hook and placed on her shoulders.

I started trailing kisses on her neck and shoulder blade. I looked up and saw her reflection in the mirror, she was closing her eyes.

I turned Bella around and placed my right hand on her waist and squeezed it lightly. I placed my left hand on her cheek. Her lips trembled and I brushed my thumb on her cheek. I couldn't control myself anymore, as I bent down and pressed my lips to hers lightly, testing the waters. Slowly I pulled her close to my body by your waist.

I kissed her pouring my love, care, fear, possessiveness and pain of staying away from her in that kiss. I was consoling myself that you are mine only mine. I nibbled her lower lip and again deepened the kiss. Bella too responded to my kiss. I pulled her more close to my body and hugged tightly, and started kissing her on her neck and giving few love bites.

Suddenly my phone rang disturbing us. I ignored it and continued to kiss her but Bella pushed me and dashed into the bathroom. I groaned and attended the call.

It was my colleague who called me to know whether I am interested to accompany him to a meeting tomorrow in some other city. I said that I was not interested and cut the call.

I just couldn't understand her behavior at that instant one second when I kiss her ,she kisses me back and in next second she runs away from me after kissing me. I wanted to stay alone for some time. Frustrated I left the house without informing Bella.

I went to bar and ordered a drink. I didn't want to get drunk but wanted to divert myself and forget about the problems for sometime. I didn't remember the count of the pegs I had.

I walked out of the bar when the bartender requested me to leave as it was closing time. In this time , she didn't even bothered to call me. That hurt me more, she was not even caring about my whereabouts and safety.

I reached home and opened the door with the spare key.

When I entered the living room, only the night light was on. I saw Bella's head resting on the armrest, I guess she slept off waiting for me.

A smile appeared on my lips thinking that she was waiting for me to come but I could have felt more happy if she had called me when I left home without informing.

Locking the door, I walked towards Bella lazily. When I came near her, I was mesmerized by the sight in front of me. She was sleeping peacefully on her back. Her top was not properly aligned on your legs and it was almost falling from her shoulder revealing her milky white skin.

I tried to put the tank top in place but Bella took my hand in her hands and hugged it tightly to her chest .

She shifted her position to sleep on her side which made my face very close to her .

I blowed air on Bella's face, she pouted and her hold on my hand loosened, I slowly pulled away my hand . At that moment, I so wanted to kiss her senseless. But I controlled myself and was moving away from her as if I stay there for a minute I won't be able to control myself and moreover the alcohol has started showing its effect.

As I turned to go to bedroom I heard her groan uncomfortably. I contemplated on carrying her in my arms to our a few minutes of debate, I picked her up in my arms without disturbing her sleep. She immediately laid her head on my shoulder and loosely placed her right hand around my neck.

I had an sudden urge to kiss her, I couldn't control myself so I moved closer and kissed her on her forehead as she was looking so beautiful.

She threw her arms around my neck and hugged me tightly to her chest. That was the last straw for my self control. I, was not, in my right mind to think whether it is good or not. I too hugged her tightly and started kissing Bella on her neck and throat, she responded back and moved her fingers in my hair. I pulled up to look her face. I kissed on Bella's both eyes and asked her to open her eyes.

Her opened her eyes & after few seconds she realized the position we are in and what we are doing. She pushed me aside and stood up from the bed.

I was stunned by her rejection but came out of that shock thinking that she was surprised by our intimacy after opening her eyes and that's the reason Bella pushed me away.

"What happened? Few minutes back you were responding and now suddenly why are you moving away? Are you shy?" saying this I turned her around and placed my hand on her waist and other on her back , pulling her into my arms and started nuzzling on her neck.

"Are you drunk? Leave me!" She questioned while trying to push me.

"Yes, am drunk. Why should I leave you? Today nobody is gonna disturb us. Let's continue with what we were doing few minutes back." I said and buried my face in her hair inhaling her scent, wrapping my arms around her.

"Why did you drink?" I moved back to look at her face , my both hands were on her waist.

"Then other than that what do her want me to do? Huh? You are the reason for me to get drunk."

"Me? What did I do that made you leave home without informing me and came back home drunk!"

So now you care for me? YOU are asking me the reason? You should tell me the reason for your behavior. Why are you distancing yourself from me? Whenever I tried to talk to you, move close to you, you just avoid me saying one reason or the other. Why? When I kissed you before, you responded and kissed me back with equal passion and then next minute you pushed me and ran off. Why?"

"I already told you that I need time to adjust."

"How many more days do you need? huh? It has been 3 and half month of our marriage but till today I didn't even kiss you. Is 3 months is not enough for you to understand that we are married? For how long do you expect me to wait for you? OK I get that you want time to understand me and to know about each other. But answer me honestly; are you putting your efforts to get to know me? You don't talk to me much, whenever I try to talk to you , you simply ignore me. Do you even thought about my feelings at least for once? How will you feel if I behave like this with you ? Will you be able to live peacefully? I expected so much from this marriage but i am getting nothing but pain. I am tired of this. I don't think I have any more patience left to wait for you to adjust" I told her desperately.

"Please, leave me!" She said pushing me by placing her hands on my chest.

"I don't want to give you time anymore. Just tell the exact reason why do you need more time? Then may be I can change my decision. " saying this I moved close to her and tried to take her into my arms.

It was taking all my self control to not touch and hug her.

"Please don't touch me"

"Why?" I asked hurt.

"It is not right"

"Why? I am your husband. I have every damn right to touch you , to kiss you. "

"I am not a toy that you can own"

"yes ,you are not a toy but you are my wife. I married you and promised that I will stay with you in every step "

" You are wrong , I don't belong to you r. Though you married me; I can't accept you as my husband. "

"why ? Why can't her accept me as your husband?"

"Because..."

"Because...tell me" I insisted.

"Because... I love someone"

I felt like someone has just thrown a bucket of cold water on my face. So what my friend told about her is true. Arghh...

"Do her still love him?"

"Yes , I still love him"

Hearing that my heart broke into million pieces, from the starting of our marriage she said that she needs sometime to adjust to this relation.

Then one fine day when I try to get intimate with her she confesses that she loves someone. When I ask her whether she still loves him and without any second thought she confesses that she still loves him.

With those five words my heart was shattered. What kind of game is god playing with me?

"If you still love him and don't want to move on with me after marriage; then why the hell did you agree to marry me?" I asked angrily.

"I agreed to this marriage because of my parents"

" Did you at least thought about me once? This marriage is not only related to you , it is related to me and you, in fact us. Don't her think I was the one who is suffering though there is no mistake of mine? You are married to me, you are my wife . How can you so easily say that you love someone ?did you even realize how much it hurts me when I came to know about this? "

Her silence answered my questions. I got angry realizing that my wife doesn't care about me ! Here I was truly and madly in love with her. . But she gave her heart to someone else

What am I going to do now? What is the medicine to reduce the pain which I was bearing now?

"Answer me...huh?" I asked her holding her arms.

"Am sorry"

"What exactly are you sorry for? Huh? For marrying me for your own selfish reasons? For making me a fool by saying that her need time to adjust, in real her are not able to forget your past and move on? For realizing your mistakes? Tell me what ...are you sorry for? "

"Am sorry...sorry " She started chanting.

"You know what, before marriage I dreamed a lot about You, about us but after marriage I didn't get anything apart from loneliness. Do you have any idea how sad I was when I stayed away from You in those 2 months. How would you have you felt when you had married me with lots of expectations but got nothing? Tell me...tell me dammit! " saying that I held her arms more tightly.

She winced in pain but I was not in a mood to notice anything. I waited for few seconds, but still she remained silent. That increased my anger more. I was not thinking straight, at that moment I wanted to ease my pain and I want to assure myself that she belong to me. I didn't think twice before acting.

" I am tired. I am tired of expecting you to change Now you will listen to what I say. Nobody is going to stop me from claiming my rights on you as a husband. Whether you love me or not, I love you and you will be mine. Do you hear me? I LOVE YOU, start accepting that am your husband and start fulfilling your duties. If you like it or not you are gonna fulfil them."

"No...What you feel for me is not love, it is just lust. You married me to fulfill your needs. This not love. You don't love me."

Bella made me more angry by naming my love for her as lust !

"Did you just name my love for you as lust. How can you be so insensitive? Can't you see how much I care for you? In those months when she was away from me, only me and god knows how I felt ! . What more do you want me to do to show you that I love you."

"Nothing.. Just leave this and leave me."

She was about to walk , but I pulled her towards me with force due which her head landed on my chest .

I held her my arms for support.

"Let me show her how much I love her with my actions then!" I whispered huskily near her ear.

She tried to move away but without giving her a chance, I crashed my lips on her lips. She tried to push me away but I was stronger than her, so I continued to kiss her until we both were left out of breath. After that, I released her and moved towards the door and closed it from inside.

"Why did you close the door?" I heard her asking.

"What do you think?" I questioned her back opening my shirt buttons and moving towards her.

"What are you doing?"

"Well...nothing" I stood in front of her and pulled her towards me and hugged her kissing her ear.

"Leave me..What are you doing?"

"why shouldn't I touch you , am your husband and today you are gonna fulfill your duty as my wife"

Saying that I lifted her in my arms, carrying her bridal style i walked towards the bed.

"No... Leave me " she tried to free herself from me but I was not able to register them .

I placed her on bed and came on top of her and started kissing her on her neck. She was constantly blabbering something, trying to push me but nothing registered in my mind.

I continued kissing her on her face but suddenly I felt something wet on my lips I pulled my head up to get a clear view of her face and realized that tears were flowing down on her cheeks .

Bella looked horrified. I immediately moved away and stood on the floor holding my head. I just couldn't believe what I was going to do few minutes back. I turned to look at her and saw that she was covering herself securely with the duvet.

"Please don't do this...please" she pleaded.

I felt ashamed of myself. If I didn't notice her tears then I wouldn't have stopped myself from what I was doing. As much as I want to make her mine but I want her willingly come to me . Now I screwed up everything . I couldn't stand there for a second. I took my shirt which was lying on the floor and walked out of the room.

I went to living room and crashed myself on the sofa. I started recalling what happened in our room few minutes back.

Remembering her words that her love someone, my mind is telling me to go back to our room and make her mine but my heart saying not to do anything against her wish. At last my heart won the battle, before passing out her tear strained face was the last thing in my mind.

a/n:review review and what will jacob do now?