LOVE FOOLS

Mourning

bpov

"Yes. So stop worrying and now tell me about Sweden." Mom asked him excitedly trying to change the topic.

"Later Mom, did you prepare all my favorite dishes? I'm vexed of eating burger and pizza there. I'm dying to eat your food, Mom" he said

"Come then, I will serve the food" saying that she hurried to dining table to set the dishes.

When she was out of sight, Jacob turned towards Sam.

"Tell me honestly is everything fine with her health?" he asked worriedly.

"No .. Nothing to worry. We had an appointment with her doctor two days back. He told that if we keep her happy and not giving any stress to her , she will be recovering completely.." He assured him.

"I was so worried when I heard that she had an heart attack."

"Just now he came; Is it necessary to tell him all these, Bella ?" Sam asked me disappointed

"Bro, I didn't tell him intentionally, while talking something I told him this. "I said looking at Jacob as usual he just ignored me.

We walked to dining room and I stood beside Sarah to serve the food while others took their seats.

"Mom please sit, I will serve the food" I told to Sarah, she nodded her head and sat beside Jacob.

I took the food and served it to Sam and Emily .

When I was about to serve it to Jacob, he glared at me and turned towards Mom.

"Mom, I want you to serve me my favourite food " said Jacob tenderly.

"But Jacob, Bella is serving..." he didn't let her finish her words.

"Mom, Please." he asked her cutely.

"Okay" saying that Sarah turned to me, smiling a bit I gave the bowl to Mom and stood beside her.

When she was serving him he looked at me and gave a look that says 'I don't want to eat the food served by you' and turning to his plate and started eating it.

For others it looked like he just asked his mother to serve him but I knew the exact reason he doesn't want me to serve him.

Once there was a time when he used to find excuse to make me serve the food to him but now he is making excuse to avoid me.

I felt sad and instantly tears formed in my eyes. Though I deserve this, why is his behavior hurting me this much? I blinked my eyes to stop the tears that were about to fall.

"Mom, Why is today's pudding so tasty? Is it because I'm eating it after 2 months or did you change the recipe? It is amazing Mom, serve me some more." said Jacob actively.

All the sadness washed over hearing that he liked the food prepared by me.

"Yeah, it has to be tasty. Your beloved wife has prepared your favorite dish for you." said Mom laughing while serving him some more food.

I looked at his face and all the color drained out his face. He hadn't expected that I would prepare his favorite food for him.

After serving some more pudding, Mom sat beside him. After knowing that the dish was prepared by me .

He was just playing with the food and stopped eating it. I was waiting eagerly to see whether he starts eating that food or not.

Meanwhile my mind started a stupid game.

If he continues eating that food, he will forgive me and take me back in his life.

If he leaves the food, he will never take me back in this birth.

"Jacob, why are just playing with the food. " Mom words brought me out of my thoughts. I was holding my breath to know what he will do.

I was doing a happy dance thinking that he might eat it but he glared at me in reply and moved his hand towards Mom. "Have it Mom" he said smiling at her while offering the food.

"I told you that I already had. You have it."

"Mom, let me feed you. In my childhood, whenever I used to feed you, you just ate it without asking questions though your stomach was full. Now you no more want to eat food by my hand." said Jacob.

" I know your trick. Whenever you don't feel like eating your food you used to feed me. You still didn't change, grow up. You are not a kid anymore. Your wife is standing beside me." chided Mom while Jacob gave her a sheepish smile.

"Mom, I can't eat. I'm full. Please Mom" Jacob tried to make an excuse.

"At least now change this habit of yours otherwise your kids apply the same trick with you" mom said laughing and opened her mouth.

Jacob smiled awkwardly listening to her words and fed her.

He continued to feed her the remaining food talking about his childhood memories. I have never seen Mom laughing this much in these months; she really missed him when he was in Sweden.

I realized that he neither ate the food nor left it like that, what does this mean?

Will he forgive me or will he never accept me as his wife? I started to worry but then I consoled myself that god will take care of it.

After feeding her the food, Jacob got up and went to wash his hands. I took the bowls and went to place them in Kitchen. I placed them on the counter and was about to step out, his words stopped me.

"Don't you dare cook for me again" Jacob said looking at me angrily.

"I..." before I could say a word he cut me off.

"Don't utter a word. I don't want to hear a word from you." saying that he walked out making me stare at his retreating form.

I stood at distance and watched him talking to all his family members happily. I went near them and sat beside Mom.

He remained silent for few seconds seeing me and then again continued with whatever he was telling them.

After half-an-hour, he stood up and told Mom that he was going out regarding some work.

I'm sure that he is going to meet Pranay. Before stepping out he turned to Mom.

"Mom, for lunch please cook my favourite chicken biryani for me" saying that he went out.

He deliberately told her to cook as he doesn't want me to cook food. I sighed sadly and went to my room to take rest for some time after giving medicines to Mom.

When I reached our bedroom, sleep was far away from me.

I looked at our wedding photo which was placed on the bedside table. I took it and ran my fingers on his face. He was smiling looking at me in the picture and he was looking so happy in it.

There was a glow in his eyes. Now I can't see that smile and glow in his eyes whenever he sees me.

Now I can see only anger and hatred for me in his eyes. I wish I could change all this.

I hugged the photo to my chest and closed my eyes, letting the tears fall down freely. The first time I cried like this thinking about him was the day when I got the divorce papers along with his letter; since that day this has became my routine in the last 2 months.

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2 months before Jacob had gone -flashback

The day she got divorce papers and letter from Jacob:

Mom and dad went to some relatives house for a week and I was alone at home. When I was getting ready to office my phone rang and I picked up the call thinking that it might be mom.

"Bella.. You stupid, I will definitely kill you if I you come in front of me this instant" I heard someone yell on the other end

Hearing that I could easily guess the person with whom I am talking as it is none other than my best friend Priya (Pranay's Sister).

"Hello to you too Madam, How are you? How is Australia?" I replied ignoring her rant.

After her marriage she went to Australia with her husband.

"What do you think of yourself, huh? Don't talk to me!" Hearing this I couldn't help but laugh.

"If you don't want to talk to me, then why did you call me in the first place huh?" I asked her controlling my laugh.

"Tell me why didn't you invite me to your marriage? It better be a valid reason otherwise be ready to face my wrath" Priya threatened me fuming.

"I will tell you everything but first answer me how are you? Where are you now?" I asked her.

"I came to India 3 days back. I tried your previous number but it seems that number was not in use. Luckily, today I met one of our college friends who is working in your office. She gave me your number. So will you meet meat…. "She said and the door bell rang.

"OK I will call you after 10 minutes,someone is at the door"

I opened the door and saw a man standing. He told me that he came on behalf of a lawyer and handled me two envelope covers saying that he was supposed to deliver those to me. After taking my signature, he handed me the envelopes and left .

I came to living room while examining the covers. I guessed that Jacob must have signed the divorce papers but I have no idea about the other cover. Confusedly, I opened the cover and found a letter. I wondered what must be there in the letter and started reading it.

But his words from the letter were ringing in my mind continuously.

I don't believe in love at first sight but my opinion changed after meeting you.

I don't know whether it is love or not but I just wanted you in my life as my wife.

The best thing is my love for you; I never thought that other than my mother I could love another woman this much.

I never got a chance to express my feelings and you never gave me one.

Why are you punishing me when I am not at all at fault?

Why, Can't you love your husband ?

The worst thing is that you turned me into a beast who forced himself on his wife.

I still believe that I didn't do anything wrong by loving someone but the mistake I did is to love a wrong person.

I HATE YOU now, YOU DON'T DESERVE MY LOVE.

Don't worry you won't see my face ever again in this life.

I felt warm tears roll down from my cheeks, couldn't imagine how much pain , Jacob had to undergo due to my mistakes.

I had tried to tell him the truth but never could...I missed talking to Priya now.

She could have helped me in time.

TPOV

She didn't hear the phone ring as she went out of the house as she shuffled away to the woods near their house.

Her head hanging down and hair hiding her face she trudged the happy couples on the way while walking around her.

She felt a little twitch of pain running at her heart. Rain began to drip from the sky and she was soon soaked to the skin.

It felt like the sky was crying with her as she wandered aimlessly as the rain changed into heavy downpour.

Crouching under a tree nearby, Bella waited for the rain to stop. Her body was feeling sleepy and she knew that if she slept now, she would die.

She welcomed the thought and closed her eyes to escape from the troublesome mess for forever.

Bella opened her eyes and found herself in a hospital room,"so what were you thinking , Bella? "Her best friend Priya came in view with her parents ,Renee and Charlie sitting behind her .

They passed a relaxed sigh when they saw her wake up." I am feeling hungry ,can you bring something to eat ,dad?" she rasped out, her father got up and kissing on her forehead went out to bring it.

"Bella! We were so worried .why do we have to be so...you are married now..."Renee babbled but she was cut off by Bella "please mom, it's better we don't talk about it..."

Renee huffed out and went out of the room.

"So spill,Bella!I came back and find you lying cold on the road . What happened ?"Priya asked as she took Bella's free hand in hers which was not attached to the saline nodded her head .

She thought what she had done to Jake? She made him wait for her to decide if she would ever like him back , everyday offering his love in their brief stay together.

He never was expecting anything in return from her ,tears again flowed from her eyes as she thought about his pain and patience for her .

It's too late now for ...