LOVE FOOLS

Angst

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"Please Bella, don't cry " said Priya controlling her tears as her heart wrenched seeing Bella's suffering.

"No Priya, these tears are the only ones which gave me company whenever I ignored him. You know, I slept on sofa waiting for him. When I woke up I was lying on bed with him on top of me. I immediately pushed him and got up from the bed. That night I got to know his true feelings for me. He got drunk because of me, he vented out everything that was in his heart. At that time, I realized how much he is suffering because of my behaviour.

When he tried to touch me again, I denied . I requested him not to touch me because I always wanted him to accept me after knowing the complete truth about my past. But at that time, I thought to put a full stop for his suffering and decided to free him from this marriage as I couldn't forget my past and move on with him ,so I lied to him that I love some other guy. The look on his face is enough for me to think that I broke his heart but what can I do Priya, seeing him in that drunken state made me even more guilty. He tried to force me Priya, I was scared and didn't expect him to behave like that but I don't know why but he stopped and moved out of the room." said Bella still crying.

"Did you ask for divorce because of his behaviour that night?"

"No Priya, he has every right on me .. I was the one who is not ready to give him that. In those months when we were together, he never touched me and to be frank, when he tried to force himself on me at first I was angry and sad for his behavior that is why I left the house. After coming to my parent's house, I thought a lot about that night and realized that my behaviour towards him made him drunk.

I realized that I can't make him happy without telling the truth and that promise won't let me reveal anything to him. He already waited many months for me to accept him so I didn't want to make him wait for me. That's why I decided to free him from this unhappy marriage and especially from me so that he can be happy with some other girl. It was not easy decision for me ." she grew silent , it was killing her to lose him .

" I can't make him happy with my guilt and at the same time I can't destroy his life by denying his wishes so I thought this is the best solution for both of us." said Bella and burst out crying.

"But Bella, he loved you so much. What was his fault in all this?" questioned Priya.

"I agree , he was never at fault but I was handcuffed too by promise . What can I do? I'm also a human. "Bella answered her sadly.

"But you shouldn't have ignored him like that ,Bella" said Priya.

"I'm not defending my acts Priya, I didn't had any other option at that time. First it was guilt which made me shut my mouth, later it turned to fear, a fear of losing him."

"I understand you feelings Bella but without any of his fault he was the one who suffered the most in this relation, isn't it?"

"Yes I agree but I promise Priya, at that time I didn't realized that he loved me this much as I was so immersed in my guilt and fears" said Bella crying placing her right hand palm on her head making a promise.

"Don't cry Bella, please" said Priya with tears forming in her eyes seeing Bella's condition.

She has no idea on how to console her friend who is crying like a child, she knew that Bella didn't ignore her husband intentionally but her situation made her do so.

Not knowing what to do she just wiped Bella's tears and hugged her whispering 'everything will be fine' .

"I tried so much to forget everything and start afresh but every time when he showed some care and affection towards me, that guilt came back to my mind.

I always remained silent whenever he was around because I don't know how to act ignoring my guiltiness. He never questioned me for ignoring him Priya, he always tried to understand me and that made me feel like I'm betraying have no idea how many times I cried at night when he was sleeping but I didn't lose my hope I kept on gathering myself to be his wife in every sense'

Back to present

Bella POV:

Next morning when I opened my eyes I saw Jacob's sleeping face.
It feels so good and fresh when you see someone whom you love the most as soon as you wake up from sleep.

I got up and folded the bed sheet. I placed them properly in the cupboard as I knew if Sarah notices them, they will suspect that something is happening between us. After getting ready, I went to Kitchen and saw Emily already present there, making arrangement for breakfast.

"Sorry " I apologized her for getting up late and started taking out the cups to help her preparing the coffee.

"Why sorry?"

"For waking up late, because of me you have to make all the preparations alone."

"Not a problem, Bella. After all you, must have a very long night." She replied winking at me while I looked at her confusedly as I didn't understand her words a bit.

"I mean you are newly married and more over your husband came home after 2 months. So, you might be busy taking care of him" She replied .

Then I realized that she has mistaken the reason for me getting up late is something else which made me blush thinking about Jacob.

"Nothing happened like you thought" I told her shyly but seeing my shyness she thought I was lying and started teasing me more.

"Ethan" I called him he was playing by himself in the hall, to which he looked at me wide eyed and came running towards me.

I picked him up in my arms and kissed him on the cheeks to which he kissed me back. I remembered that Jacob didn't get a chance to meet him as he left home after having breakfast "Really! But I didn't see him yesterday "Ethan complained pouting, making us laugh.

"You were busy sleeping and then your uncle went out and came very late last night" told Emily ruffling her hair.

"Oh but he could have woke me up" said Ethan sadly.

"Last night ,he came to see you and you were sleeping peacefully like an angel" I told him pinching his nose to which he giggled happily.

"Here, take this coffee to your husband, Bella" said Emily offering me a cup.

"I could have prepared it , Emily" I told her smiling.

"Just go and spend your time with your hubby" said Emily winking at me.

"Come , I will help you drink milk" said Emily trying to take Ethan from me.

"No, I will have it with Uncle" he told Emily stubbornly, hugging my neck.

When Emily was about to refuse, I smiled at him and placed the milk glass on a tray along with coffee.

"Come , ready to meet your Uncle?" I asked tickling his stomach.

"Ye...ah" he told me giggling. I took the tray in one hand and held his hand in the other hand and started walking towards our bedroom.

When I reached our room, Ethan looked at me smiling excitedly while I nodded to open the door.
he slowly opened the door and saw Jacob who is still sleeping now . The duvet was half lying on the floor and remaining half lying on his body. He was sleeping soundly.

I signaled Ethan not to make any noise as we both walked inside the room. I placed the tray on the bedside table and picked up him in my arms.

"What should we do,?" he whispered to me.

"Wake him up" I told and made him stand on the bed.

"Give your uncle a kiss on his forehead and wake him up" I told smiling to which he nodded excitedly.

He slowly crawled near him and sat on his stomach by placing his both legs on either side of his waist.

He gently cupped his face and kissed him on his forehead, making me smile at. His kiss made him come out of his slumber as he tried to open his eyes with a frown.

"Uncle" shouted Ethan as soon as Jacob half opened his eyes. his shout made him realize and he woke up with a broad smile. .

"Missed your uncle?" asked Jacob smiling.

"So much" said Ethan extending his arms showing how much he missed him. He laughed at him and made him sit on his lap.

" Now give your uncle, a good morning kiss" said Jacob showing his cheek.

"I already gave you one as aunt Bella told me to give you a kiss" Ethan told him smiling that is when he looked at me surprised. I just smiled at him nervously but he immediately averted his gaze

'Not even a smile?' I thought sadly but better than his angry glare, right? I consoled myself.

"Ethan , have your milk it is getting cold" I told placing the tray in front of them.

He looked at Jacob for help but he was shaking his head smiling.

He picked up the glass from the tray and held it near his mouth. I saw Jacob looking at Ethan and was getting ready to help him .

"I will help him, you too have your coffee, Jacob" I told him rather whispered to him scared of his reaction.

He just ignored me and continued chatting with Ethan. Having enough of his ignorance , I picked the cup and held it in front of him.

"Give , I will make uncle drink it" saying that he took the cup.

"Uncle " he called him motioning to take the cup.

Having no other option , he took it and sat silently holding the cup.

"Why are you not drinking it uncle?" asked Ethan confusedly.

I knew that he won't drink the coffee as he must be thinking that I made it for him.

"Because he guessed that your aunt didn't made it for him" I told Jacob, indirectly telling him that I didn't made it and that he can drink it.

"So?" he asked confusedly.

"He likes coffee made by me." I lied ; he nodded and continued drinking milk.

After finishing, they both placed the cups on the try.

"So what is my darling gonna do today?" asked Jacob picking up Ethan in his arms and got up from the bed.

I starting arranging the bed neatly, hearing them chatting animatedly.

After few minutes, he went out of our bedroom saying that he has to take bath and also told Jacob to get ready soon.

Shaking his head , Jacob starting walking towards the bathroom.

"Jacob?" I whisper called him.

No response from him so again I called him a little loudly.

When he was near to bathroom door I moved towards him and held his hand stopping him.

"What?" he asked me freeing his hand from my hold.

"Jacob I called you but you didn't hear me so I held your hand to stop you" I explained to him nervously.

"If I didn't give any response it means I don't want to talk to you" he answered calmly.

"Jacob please, can't you please be polite with me at least in front of others."

He just remained silent without saying anything.

"Please Jacob."

"I must say you very well managed to fool my family." he spoke suddenly looking into my eyes.

"What do you mean?" I asked him confused.

"I have been observing you since yesterday, you have been acting like a perfect daughter-in-law to my mom and a perfect wife for me. I never knew that you were such a great actor." he told me smirking.

"Jacob, do you think I was acting?" I asked him hurt.

How could he think that I was acting.

"If it is not acting, then what? Why did you cook for me and why are you acting like you care for my mom and my family. I must say I'm very much surprised seeing your acting skills when you asked me about my whereabouts yesterday when I came home late."

"I was not acting. I really care for you all and this is my family too, Jacob." I tried to convince him.

"Oh really? Can you please enlighten me from when did you started caring about us?" he asked me mockingly.

"The day I got married to you." I spoke confidently because though I ignored him at the starting of our marriage but I never ignored or hurt his family when I stayed here.

"Oh seriously, then why is that I have never seen this caring side before?" he asked me harshly.

"I was so stupid back then that I didn't let you know that I care about everything that belongs to you." I told him truthfully to which he laughed clutching his stomach.

"Oh god! Please don't make me laugh by cracking jokes so early in the morning"

"I'm not joking"

"Why do you care about me after all that happened between us? " he asked me looking painfully into my eyes and then immediately averted his gaze.

I do care because I love you I wanted to tell him but couldn't.

"Because .. I'm your wife."

"Oh please, where was this right when you ignored me all those months?" he snapped at me.

"I know that I made a mistake. I'm sorry"

"A sorry which is of no use , now. Be happy that I'm at least bearing you standing in front of me, that itself is too much for me. I wish these 6 months pass in a blink." he told me and closed his eyes while saying the last line and then opened them again.

His words are hurting me and are breaking the confidence which I gained all these months. I couldn't control the tears that formed in my eyes hearing his last words.

He is wishing to pass these 6 months time as soon as possible so that he can be free from me. Does he really hate me so much that my presence itself is unbearable for him? What do you want me to do to make you realize that I changed, Jacob?