I sincerely apologize, I really cant muster up anything better than just I'm deeply truly sorry. The year was just *whoosh* it was my senior year and even now I'm trying to get things stable, i got in an accident and had my left arm in a cast since may and just got it off recently. But of Course there is truly no excuse to have let this story be untouched for so long. thank you everyone who is still reading this story and dealing with me as an awful writer and terrible author for letting it go so long before reviewing. I hope this chapter put you all at ease to know that I will continue and will my hardest to finish off since it is close to ending and i will try to do that before school starts. Again I apologize and hope you all forgive me even slightly.

please enjoy

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-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*- To Carey

The brunette groaned as she rubbed her temples roughly, she didn't know why an alarm had gone off shortly after she entered the cabin she was to stay at but it had not helped her throbbing headache. She glanced at the untouched bag leaning against the wall next to the door as she sat at the edge of the bed absent mindedly. Carey didn't know how long she sat there before her stomach rumbled from hunger, she got up and headed out of the empty cabin towards the cafeteria.

As she stared at all the late lunch food that laid across the long white table Carey felt her stomach growl but her appetite wasn't there, she walked away from the table and headed out to the sky deck, the sun was still out still a couple of hours away from setting. She laid on one of the lounge chairs and let the sun's rays beam down on her warming her exposed skin.

"Afternoon Carey." the brunette removed her arm from on top of her eyes to look over to her right where another paler brunet settled down on the chair next to her.

"Daniel." She said simply to acknowledge him, she didn't hate him, but she still didn't exactly grow fond of him over the couple of years, still she felt a little better that it was him rather than her ex that was there.

"I'm sorry that you had to return to your kids under these circumstances."

"Are you really okay with what they are? Kurt said he was standing by them but how can he say that?"

"Are you asking about them together, or them being gay?"

"What kind of question is that? Of course its of them, it cant be right at all, I cant condone my children doing this." Carey replied annoyed, had he tried to pull him and Kurt into this situation.

"How do you feel exactly about me and Kurt?" There it is, she thought. "I don't mean to tell you how you feel, but I have a feeling that you're a little more upset of them being gay than them being together."

"They're brothers! They're my children, maybe you cant imagine how it feels since they're not yours, but they are my children and I cant accept them being that way." Daniel nodded accepting that he was sort of at a loss with Carey, he felt bad about the thought that entered his head, but since he wasn't close to her it might be the only way to get her to talk to him.

"How about a drink Carey?"

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The brunet had only managed to get a few drinks into his partner's ex until she refused anymore and lazily laid her head down on the table, if only he had known that she was one of those few who get tired the more they drank. Carey mumbled something into her arm that was too slurred and smothered to be heard.

"Sorry what?" She lifted her head slightly to remover he mouth from her arm.

"I don't know what I'm even doing here, I feel like everything is against me here. Kurt is here supporting them, everyone seems to be perfectly okay with them being together and I seem to be the only one freaking out agonizing over what in the world I did wrong." she groaned. "What is everyone expecting from me?"

"I don't think anyone is expecting anything from you, only waiting for you to make your choice. You're their mother and all they want is to know that you will still love them in the end."

"Of course I still love them! I'm sure you don't have any idea what I've been through trying to raise those two! I ran away from my home for their father and his band, to end up raising twins alone! Even when he was with me he was always too busy with his frinkin' band to try to get a real job to get us settled. I had to move back in with my mother to help me with them so I could work in order to put a real roof over our heads. I left Kurt and raised them with all the sweat and tears I had."

"I didn't mean to anger you Carey."

"Damn right I'm pissed! I am their mother! You are not!" Daniel winced at the sting and anger in her voice as she yelled at him. He didn't respond to her outburst, she would realize her own words later, but for now he let her walk away from him.

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*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*- To Moseby

The dark adult felt slightly guilty as he continued his paperwork instead of looking for a certain teen along with the other security guards, but he knew that his place was there to run the large cruise ship against his protective instinct over the two blond boys. He had just finished the papers of formal orders to the cruise ship employees to send to the secretaries of Mr. Tipton when he saw a familiar flash of brunette head enter the lobby of the ship.

"Moseby!" The brunette slammed her hands down on said man's desk and stared him down, he noted however that it was a look of desperation. "Tell me how you're even possibly handling this?" Mr. Moseby looked at her a bit sadly, he could visibly see how stressed she was.

"Well Carey. I suppose I care more for their safety than the fact that them living a gay lifestyle."

"Are you trying to say that I don't care for them?!"

"Of course not, I know how dearly you love them." Her face scrunched in a sort of tearing matter. In a haste Moseby pulled her aside to the cushion bench that stood across his desk. "Carey what's wrong?"

"It's horrible and I know but just the idea that they're turning out the same as their father infuriates me!" She buried her head into her hands. Cautiously Moseby patted her shoulder, he was never good at comforting people and didn't know what else to do. "At first," she removed her hands but continued to look down at the floor, "I accepted the fact that Kurt was almost never making time for me, he had always been like that but I loved him so much I just dealt with it. Even when the boys were born, it was the same, but he loved them more than me, and I just thought he was being a loving father. When I left him, I told him it was for the kids, because I still loved him." She couldn't control her voice or the tears that been flooding her eyes.

"And then we divorced, and then… And then…" She visibly stiffened as she tried to get the words out of her mouth. "And then he comes home two years ago and says 'Hey guess what? I'm fucking gay and here's my boyfriend!'" She yells this out which causes people walking past to look at her oddly. Moseby was a little shocked at her outburst, she told him more than he was sure she had ever told anyone in just those few minutes.

"And I just dealt with it cause they did, and even though I knew that it had to have taken a lot for him to tell us I was still mad! There he was smiling like a little kid so happy and he had no regard to how I would feel!" again she started crying. "All that ran through my head was, 'was it my fault? Had I don that to him? Was I not good enough for him? Did he not love me at all?'" At this she was crying desperately, it had been like this was finally hitting her all at once, everything that she had been through was finally catching up to her.

"Carey…" Moseby tried his best to give his most comforting touch as he looked her in the eye, "you really have to talk to Kurt about this. I'm sure that is the complete opposite of his intentions."

"I'm scared that its exactly what he will say."

"He wont. He did not mean to hurt you the way he has, you deserve love. Don't ever doubt that." Mr. Moseby's words seemed to faze the brunette a little, her tears stopped. She was about to wipe her eyes with her sleeve when Moseby playfully hit her hand away. "You do that and your eyes will be red." He took out his handkerchief and wiped her tear-stained carefully, smiling kindly as she thanked him.

"Thanks Mr. Moseby."

"Of course Carey." She got up and was about the leave the lobby when the dark male called her, "and Carey, you would definitely not be the reason a man would prefer men." She smiled kindly at him and thanked him again before leaving. Mr. Moseby sighed to himself, it seemed almost all of the Martin family had really grown on him.

"Hey, I'm looking for Mr. Moseby."

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-*-*-*-*-*-*-*-*- To Bailey

The blonde was sitting on the combined beds staring mindlessly at the complete mess on the floor. When she entered the slight mess of clothes on the floor caused her to react violently, she started knocking whatever it was she could onto the floor, ripping the clothes that she could, storming into the bathroom she mostly threw everything around the small space. She took out the sharp weapon that the security had failed to find before inside the seams of her luggage and cut through the beds sheets ripping as much as she could before she felt the flood of water overwhelm her, she didn't understand herself as she did this. All she knew is that she was anger, disgusted by the large bed, that she had to destroy it and everything that was done on it.

She didn't know how long she stayed like that before settling down on the bed and leaving the weapon at her side. She slightly felt the little sharp pins that where in her back pocket, she was glad that her oldest sister had taught her how to pick a lock, it had come in handy when she first ran out of her room after setting the fire in the bathroom. She hid in a storage room that lay only a few hallways from the room she was currently in, and even helped her into this room. She felt like some sort of dog that was running away from being euthanized. What Moseby had told her before had completely set her off inside, she didn't want to leave, she couldn't go back home, that was the reason she had worked so hard to even get there. She didn't completely understand why her insides churned the way they did, she just felt sick at everything.

"Huh, I swore I locked this." The door opened as she heard the familiar voice of her ex's brother walk in, he closed the door behind him and walked halfway into the cabin before he even noticed the mess and then the blonde on his bed. "Bailey?!"

"Hey Zack." She saw him stiffen in shock, she also heard the emptiness in her voice that made her shiver.

"The hell did you do this?" He asked even though the answer was obvious.

"You have to stop this Zack."

"I have to stop this? I'm not doing anything! You're the one who's going coo-coo!"

"They're making me leave!" She yelled desperately as she stood to stand against the other blond.

"Bailey what you did yesterday was crazy!" She paused, yesterday it had felt that she was almost controlled, powerless to her anger. She had barged into his cabin in the early morning knowing that he never locked his room, she had tied him up in his sleep and dragged him out into the bathroom before he had managed to wake up and fight back properly. She wasn't completely aware of why she had submerged him in steaming water and ripped his pajamas off, she had this thought of him being filthy gnawing at her skull that told her to clean him. When he kept ordering her she slapped him repeatedly and gagged him, when Cody's voice was heard through the door she turned the shower on to muffle Zack. And when she remembered the scene the day before between the two she blanked, ripped out one of his razors breaking it and removing it and carved her anger into his abdomen, it was dull and didn't slice him too deeply, but the distress and fear in Zack's muffled yells scared her, and couldn't stop the tears as her body started to shake, Zack only saw her for a second before she ran out of his cabin. Zack must have noticed her go back to yesterday because then he also remembered. "Bailey…" His voice was far more tender reminding the blonde of Cody, "what happened to you? Yesterday… you freaked out…" She only looked at the floor hating how soft his voice was, hating the concern she yearned was there. When she felt his fingers touch her shoulder and slightly slide she yanked herself away almost jumping backward.

"Don't touch me you SICK FUCK!"

"THE HELL? After what you did here I am almost concerned for you! I mean FUCK BAILEY? What the HELL DID I DO?"

"You stole HIM! You stole him from me!"

"Stole him from you?! You threw him away! You took for granted for months! He loved you the moment he met you! And all you did was hurt him and turn him down! You cant tell me you love him! You only remotely liked him when he got you fucking HANNAH MONTANA TICKETS!" She stared at him dumb folded. She shook her head, "No that's not true…"

"Yes it is! He tried to confess to you that dance in the beginning of the year, when he was fighting with Moose over you, everything he did told everyone he liked you! Everyone knew how he felt about you and still you didn't give two-shits about him! It was only ever about you!"

"Just because I didn't notice that he liked me doesn't mean I didn't like him! And it definitely doesn't mean you can take him from me!"

"He broke up with you!" He said blindly, Bailey visibly stiffened.

"Only because he's so FUCKING OBSESSED WITH YOU! During spring break he almost completely spent it with you! He was attached to your hip before and after we started dating! And he broke up with me because I called YOU A FUCKING FAG!" Zack was slightly shocked at the last thing she said, Cody had never told him why he broke up with her exactly, only mentioning her being homophobic but not about her lashing out at him.

"Even if you say that he loved me so much before why was it that he barely showed it when we were alone?! He'd never even say he loved me until I said it first! I always had to start everything! And then he fucking leaves me for you?! FOR A GUY!" She starts breathing heavily, letting out a shuttering sigh before whispering, "am I not good enough for him?" She sat back down on the bed exhausted, grateful that Zack stayed away from her.

"Maybe…" His voice was low, almost like he didn't want to say it, against herself bailey looked up to Zack slightly to see his brows furrow in sadness. "it was the not having you part that made him love you…" Bailey felt a sob escape her lips before she even realized the words herself, he was telling straight out that Cody never actually loved her, that it was the chase that he loved. Not her. She only herself cry for a little bit before forcing herself to stop, it couldn't be that. She told herself that it couldn't be that, it had to be Zack's fault, it had to be. She loved Cody and he had to love her back. She gave herself to him, she loved him.

"No…. no…" Zack could see clearly that she was troubled to no extent.

"Bailey I'm sorry."

"NO! NO!" She gripped the weapon beside her that she had almost forgotten of and held it clearly so the other could see. "It's your fault! Not his! YOURS!" Zack was clearly frightened, but Bailey refused to look into his eyes. When he tried to make a run for the door she quickly grabbed the lamp on the floor and smashed it on his head with as much force as she could, he tried to stay conscious as he fell to the floor but blacked as his head hit the door.

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I know I focused the chapter to everyone but Zack and Cody but I did to help close the story, I hate leaving things unsettled. Carey would be greatly affected by Kurt just cause I think she loved him very dearly, and discovering something like that about someone makes them really blame themselves in a way. And if anyone noticed it seemed that Bailey was also having that same reaction. I just like when the bad guy is human, the best villain is one people can sympathize with and thats sort of what I was aiming for.

I hope some of you enjoyed the EXCESSIVE drama! Its alittle odd seeing how this story was so light and sweet and fluffy and now its so much drama! And I'm sorry to those who were already freaking out from the last chapter, I'm just horrible and always have cliffhangers.

And please dont hesitate to PM me or anything if I ever even start to wander away from this story before finishing it! reviews are always welcome, so are cookies ;)

Again I thank everyone who has stayed with this story from the beginning and even new comers!

I hope to see you all soon!