Damien didn't know what to think or do. He felt a little numb; he knew that he should feel something, anything really, whether it's pain, anger, betrayal but he felt none of those and it scared him; he only felt like running away or disappearing. He wished that he had a motorcycle, that he could just get on it and speed up till all his senses were overwhelmed by the fresh air, the sound of the engine and the adrenaline rush but he couldn't run away, and he didn't have a motorcycle, so he just kept wandering aimlessly around town. It was a weekday so there was hardly anyone on the streets which gave him this sense of loneliness but also some relief that he didn't have to interact with anyone and attempt to make stupid small talk or exchange niceties. He didn't have the energy for any of that nonsense.

He didn't know how long he has been walking when he heard his phone ring; He thought about ignoring it, but he didn't want anyone to worry about him; he didn't have the energy for that either, so he reluctantly picked up the phone and answered without bothering to look at who was the caller.

He mustered as much cheerfulness as he could and said "hello" but it came out a little strained and distant.

"hey" he heard Lily's voice "I'm out of school and I want to see you, we don't have to talk if you don't want to, but I don't want to leave you alone right now"

He knew she wouldn't leave him alone if he didn't agree, and he also wanted the company, so he said "yeah ok, that's fine"

"ok, my house or yours" he could hear the relief in her voice.

"neither, I don't want any parents hovering, treating me like I'm some broken glass"

"ok, where do you want to go?"

"what about the lookout point?"

"ok, I'll be there in 15 minutes"

"ok"

Lily walked to where they agreed to meet, she tried to decipher what he was feeling from looking at him, but she couldn't, unlike Grace and both her moms she was never good at this whole reading people thing.

Damien looked up and saw Lily approaching with pizza in hand, He smiled a little and asked knowing the answer "mom called you"

"yes, and I was given specific instructions to make sure that you eat at least two slices and if I can make them four I'm getting the expensive journal I wanted so you better eat young man" she joked attempting to lighten up the mood

Damien raised up his hands in mock surrender "I haven't eaten all day; I'll comply so put your guns away miss Fields" he lightly chuckled afterwards

Lily smirked as they sat down and ate. He couldn't eat more than two and a half slices, but she didn't want to pressure him, so she just left the box open in a silent plea for him to have some more.

"so, how are you feeling?" she knew it was a stupid question, but she didn't know how to open the subject otherwise.

"I'm not sure honestly. I just feel sort of empty, I don't know. Maybe it's because I didn't know her or something but like after the initial shock I just feel like it's happening to someone else like I'm reading a story or watching a movie that is depressing me a little but not nearly enough. Do you understand what I'm trying to say?"

Lily wasn't sure how to answer that, but she understood what he said, and it scared her "yeah I get it. Maybe you need sometime for it to settle in you know, but don't beat yourself up for it there is no such thing as feeling too much or too little people respond to things differently as long as you're not burying your emotions it's ok, and just know that I'm here for you grace too and not just us, just tell me if you want or need anything or if you just want to talk"

He gave her a grateful smile and said "yeah sure I know"

"Damien"

"yeah"

"you know you're nothing like him right, and you will never be anything like that" she sounded almost pleadingly for him to understand. She knew it was what was plaguing his thoughts for a while now.

"I guess so, maybe" he sounded sad and apprehensive it was the most emotion he has shown during this conversation.

"NO" she kind of yelled but then softened her voice "don't guess just know it, you're nothing like that" she took a deep breath then continued "look I know it's not nearly the same but you know I don't know my biological father, he was a donor that I will never get to meet, and I'm not mom's biologically (Alison) but she is my mother and we share a lot of traits and habits, maybe even more than I do with mumy. Look Damien we are not our parents and we won't be and don't listen to anyone who tells you otherwise even if it was me. We decide who we want to be"

He sighed "I know, I just wish I had the normal conventional family it would've been easier to deal with"

"I know" she answered softly "but you wouldn't be you if that was the case and you Damien are the most amazing person I know so even though I hate that you're hurting, and that life keeps screwing you over I'm glad that out of all of this pain and hurt something as amazing as you came out of it" she suddenly felt nervous and started rambling "not that you're a thing….or that I want you to be hurt but you know…"

Blushing he cut her off "hey, I know what you mean, and I don't know if it's anything to you but I'm glad I have you. I really am I wouldn't have been able to go through anything without you"

"it does it means a lot" she suddenly felt nervous and wanted to leave it was another one of her many horrible habits to run away from a situation that makes her anxious "should we get going it's kind of late"

Damien deflated at this a little he wanted to stay out here with her a little longer but complied anyway "yeah, sure. Let's go"

Hanna's living room

Eva was pacing around. She couldn't believe that there were rumors about her smoking pot and people were believing them and mocking her for it. Why did it matter anyway most of the dickheads that went to school with her did so much worse and she couldn't understand why people were even talking about her she was kind of a wallflower at school yeah she had friends and stuff but no one close, they were more like people to sit with so she wouldn't be alone, So she didn't understand why anyone would start rumors about her. She only smoked normal cigarettes and the only person who knew about it was Maddison because she caught her once but they both pretended to not see each other and never mentioned it. She didn't understand why that bitch would talk about her though she probably told one of her friends or something and in time it became the school's latest gossip and people like to add their own touch to make a story more dramatic. It hurt her that Maddison would talk about her secrets even if she never meant for it to go this far she actually likes Maddie even if they weren't close or anything. She was also terrified of it getting back to her parents she didn't know how they would react. It was a nightmare. She decided to confront Maddie but not know she would do it when they meet she wanted to face her, so she would know if Maddie lies. She wanted to ask her why would she do that, Tomorrow before she makes her way to Ali and Em's house for their "family" dinner she would go up to Maddie's house she decided. She wouldn't let this snake get away with hurting her. She might be closed up and reserved but she wouldn't let anyone walk all over her no matter who they were.

A/N

I'm sorry that I took longer than usual to post this chapter life was kind of busy. Anyway I hope you guys like it, also Eva is Hanna's daughter and Maddison is Spencer's for anyone who isn't sure and next chapter we get to see their confrontation.