Can you write someting short about brittany and santana talking about having kids?
"Well maybe if Brittany's staying in Lima then I should stay too."
The words play over and over in Brittany's head and it hurts. Santana says it like it's not Brittany's fault she isn't graduating but there is no way she hasn't known for some time that her grades haven't been up to par. It's not like she doesn't hold a little bit of the blame with not telling Santana either, she just didn't want to be a distraction.
It's their senior year, she knows how hard Santana's been struggling with college applications and essays and doing everything she can to get out of Lima. By that time Brittany already knew she wasn't going too, not because Santana didn't want her but the school board didn't think she was ready, they don't know her like Santana does. So instead of putting forth all her effort into pulling out a last minute turn around so she could graduate too, Brittany sends out applications too, but not for her.
In a way, it infuriates Santana because she knows Brittany's smart, like really really smart. She could've probably graduated early if she wanted to, that's how much of a genius her girlfriend is! She's so enraged at how everything turned out but at the same time, she would never just leave Brittany. That's her girl, she can't even think about going anywhere else without Brittany right beside her the whole way so she says:
"Well maybe if Brittany's staying in Lima then I should stay too."
And it's with such a tone of finality, it scares Brittany.
It's after graduation and Santana should be excited about heading off to college but she's not because she isn't going. She's so conflicted with her feelings with wanting to leave but wanting to stay because she can't leave Brittany, so she stays quiet and lets the sun warm her skin as she dips her toes into the cool water of the lake.
Brittany's beside her and she can feel everything Santana isn't saying. They haven't talked about what Santana said at dinner with her mom, but it sits heavy on their shoulder. Brittany doesn't know how to bring it up without causing a fight so she lets the sun warm her skin as she dips her toes into the cool water of the lake too.
It's supposed to be relaxing, their day out in the sun away from everyone else, but it's not. They feel constricted by the unspoken words until one finally breaks.
"You can't talk me out of stay, Britt." Santana says like she knows exactly what's on Brittany's mind, "I'm not going to leave you here."
"Santana.." Brittany sighs with the shake of her head, "I don't want you to-"
"I'm going to stay here and I'm going to help you everyday." Santana cuts through her, "I"m going to help you study and make sure you turn in all your assignments, you're going to graduate. We'll make them see how smart you are."
"Baby, you don't have to do that." Brittany tells her as she smiles softly back, "I don't want you to do that." Something changes in Brittany's facial features and her smile falters as she stares into Santana's dark eyes, "I don't want you to be here."
"Wh-what? Why?" Santana stammers, the words feeling like bricks weighing down her heart.
Brittany can see Santana churning out all the worst outcomes in her mind as to why she wouldn't want her to stay and grabs for her hand, "I'm not going to be the reason why you're still stuck here when you have the chance to be somewhere else. I'm not going to hold you back."
"You're not!" Santana says and Brittany can see the tears forming in her eyes, "P-Please don't break up with me, Britt..I can't-"
"I'm not breaking up with you, silly." Brittany smiles and kisses her softly, she grips her hand tighter in hers, "You have to go, Santana. You're so much better than this town, you and I both know it. Go to Louisville, go to New York, go anywhere you want, baby, but don't stay here because of me." Santana's jaw tightens as she struggles to get her feelings under control. Brittany sees and kisses her again, "Go to school or find a job you love, anything because you can't live off your graduation money forever. It's a lot, maybe enough to get you a nice apartment and I can combine my graduation money with yours too, but it's not enough to last forever. Sure, we might get more when I marry you but that's not enough either because we're probably going to want to move to somewhere bigger because our babies will need rooms too."
Santana's eyes widen at the mention of children and marriage and her heart just about bursts, they've never talked about their future like that, "You..You want to have babies?"
"I want to have your babies, yeah." Brittany smiles, wrapping her arm around Santana's waist, snuggling into her, "You haven't thought about it?"
Santana stays quiet because she has but back then she didn't think it was possible Brittany even loved her back, oh how wrong she was.
"I think you'd look super cute with a pregnant belly. All pudgy and round and so, so beautiful." Brittany goes on, daydreaming, "We'd have the cutest babies too, with tan skin like yours and my freckles. Or maybe I can carry first? I would do it if you wanted me to. You would take such good care of me, you do great at that already."
"Brittany.." Santana whimpers, so overcome with happiness.
Brittany just grins and kisses her cheek, "I want to have everything with you, San."
Santana's breath hitches and a smile splits her face, "I want to have everything with you too, Britt."
Brittany only nods and tightens her hold around Santana as she leans her head on her shoulder, their eyes focused on the water in front of them, "Get a head start on building our future, baby, you know I'll catch up when the time is right."