CHRISTINE'S P.O.V.
"The truth about what? What are you talking about?" I asked. Hank turned to Jay and told him not here and not now. He would take me to lunch and then to my Doctor's appointment. He would talk to me then and Jay should plan on stopping by my house after work to spend time with the twins. The three of us walked out of Hank's office and I stopped when I saw Erin sitting on Jay's desk talking to Antonio. I noticed two things. There was a diamond on the ring finger of her left hand and the picture of Jay and I with the twins was no longer in the frame on his desk. There was a picture of him and Erin on his desk. I think my heart literally broke at that point.
Hank, who was behind me, gave me a little nudge to keep going. I couldn't look at anyone other than Erin. Sitting on Jay's desk, wearing a ring given to her by Jay, I'm guessing. I wanted to slap the smug look off her face. "See you at family dinner on Sunday, Christine. I'm looking forward to it." she said presumptuously. I once again stopped. "Erin, I will remind you of what I told you the last time I saw you. Unless you have a search warrant you are not welcome in my home. That also includes being anywhere on my property. Stay away from me and from my children." I said. Without looking back I walked down the stairs to get the two people who brought the most joy into my life, the twins.
"Hank I don't have time for lunch before the doctor's. I need to go drop the twins off to Mary at home and then head to Chicago Med for my appointment." I said as I got the twins from Adam and Kim. "Trudy, it's good to see you. I thought you were off today. That's what they told me when I came in." I said to the Desk Sargent. "I was but needed to come in and cover the afternoon. I got my shopping done relatively early and may have even picked up a Christmas gift or two for my favorite twins." she said as she smiled. Hank then told me he was going to follow me home and would drive me to my Doctor's appointment so he and I could talk afterwards.
I had to see both my OB/GYN and Connor. Upon learning I was pregnant my OB/GYN called Connor to discuss the pregnancy and how it would affect my heart condition due to the valve he had put in. Connor was very upfront in saying that normally he recommends women who have had the same valve replacement surgery I had not get pregnant due to the risk it could cause for the pregnant woman and the unborn child. I knew at that point he was going to once again say I should terminate the pregnancy which would break my heart. I looked at him with tears in my eyes as he said those words to me. Not knowing that Jay didn't believe the baby was his I told Connor and Dr. Shaw, "I can't make that decision without speaking to Jay first. It's not fair to him, for me to make that decision on my own." "Is Jay here?" Connor asked. I told him no, but Hank was in the waiting room. Connor left the room to go tell Hank to call Jay.
JAY'S P.O.V.
I ended the call from Hank in complete shock. Without saying a word to anyone I grabbed my keys and headed downstairs. "Jay..." I heard Erin call. I'm done with this. Whatever this blackmail situation is all about, I'm over it. It doesn't matter anymore. Christine was over 10 weeks pregnant with my child and was just told that she should terminate the pregnancy. This was the woman I loved, the mother of my children and I have wasted so much time being stupid. Hank, Kim and I could figure out another way to find out what was going on with Erin. I needed to be there to support Christine and be with my family...with our family.
"Where is she?" I asked Hank and O'Malley as I rushed into the doctor's office. After being told what room she was in I took a deep breath and walked down the hall in the direction of the exam rooms. I didn't bother knocking on the closed door...I just opened it and went inside. "Hey." I said softly walking over to where she laid curled up in a ball on the exam table. She looked so small...so vulnerable...so sad...so broken. "Jay, I'm so sorry. I don't know what to do." she said as she sat up. I could tell she had been crying. I sat next to her, took her in my arms and said, "Christine, you have nothing to be sorry for. We have a lot to talk about later. Trust me, a lot to talk about. Now, tell me what's happening here. Hank told me a little. Connor recommends terminating the pregnancy. How is that done? Are they going to do some sort of procedure today?" She looked at me and told me that she had informed Connor and her OB/GYN, Dr. Shaw, that she wasn't going to terminate the pregnancy. "Jay, the baby has a healthy heartbeat. I'm determined to carry this baby full term. Why should I terminate the pregnancy now? I know I can do it. Connor and Dr. Shaw were waiting for you to get here before they discuss all options with us." she said. "Christine, I'm not willing to risk your life. Don't get me wrong, I would love to give Aiden and Quinn a little brother or sister, but I can't lose you. I need you in my life. They need you in their life. If Connor recommends it then you need to listen to him." I said.
CONNOR'S P.O.V.
As Dr. Shaw and I approached the exam room we had left Christine in, I could hear raised voices. Oh no, I thought to myself. Obviously, Jay was not happy with whatever Christine told him. "Maybe we should give them a minute." Dr. Shaw said. I suggested she go call Dr. Manning and ask her to join us if she was available. She went to try to find Nat while I headed into the room to play referee between Christine and Jay.
CHRISTINE'S P.O.V.
Jay was mad, worried and freaking out. I could tell but as we listened to what Connor and Dr. Shaw were saying I felt hopeful. Even Nat said if I could carry to a minimum of thirty-two weeks there should be no reason why the baby wouldn't be healthy. If I stayed with my regimen of meds and kept up with my appointments to see Connor and Dr. Shaw then they didn't see a reason why I wouldn't have a normal, healthy pregnancy. They were still very concerned but said I could carry full term and deliver a healthy baby! I could still see the hesitation in Jay's eyes but I was determined to have this baby.
After the appointment was over Jay said he had to go back to the District. He gave me a quick kiss and left me with Hank and O'Malley. I was confused, really confused. Jay had talked about giving the twins a little brother or sister...was that with me or with Erin? Why did he kiss me? What is going on? I feel like I'm living in a fucked-up world at the moment. On the drive back to my house Hank filled me in on the blackmail situation. I don't know what to think or what to believe. This has been going on for two and a half months. How have they not gotten to the bottom of this? Why did Jay have to propose to Erin? Why did he take the pictures of the twins off his desk? Why was Jay living with Erin? Was he having sex, making love, to her every night? Where did that leave us? Where did that leave my kids? How long was this charade going to continue for? Until after Jay and Erin walked down the aisle? Who was behind this? Who did I wrong over the past 11 months? Was it the Cartel? Was it El Gato? Was it Ramon? Was it the Italians? Was it my Uncle Paddy? Was it Hank? Was it actually Erin who was behind this? Were they wrong in assuming someone was forcing her to do this? Why did they want me to suffer so much? Why do they want to keep ripping my family apart?
I could feel my heart start to race and pressure rise in my chest. It felt like someone was stepping on my chest trying to prevent me from breathing. I started having trouble breathing. I grabbed the bottle of water and I dropped it, spilling water all over me. I couldn't see straight. I was seeing spots. I could hear Hank and O'Malley yelling my name but I couldn't speak. I heard Hank yell at O'Malley to drive back to Chicago Med. It became too much to handle. Everything hurts I tried to say but I couldn't. Help me I wanted to shout as my eyes rolled back in my head. Help my baby I wanted to shout. I don't want to die. I want Jay and my babies. When was this cycle going to stop I wondered as everything went numb...numb and then black.
A/N: Could this finally be Christine's breaking point? Maybe it has all become too much for her to handle? Will Jay and Hank finally stand up for her and stand up to Erin? Stay tuned to find out...