Chapter 3

Warning: Self Harm

Beca got to her dorm room in a rush. She couldn't tell if Chloe had asked where she was going but she didn't care all she cared about was getting her razor and then her release. She burst through the door silently thanking the fact that her roommate Kimmy Jin wasn't there. She grabbed her razor and put it into her shower kit and headed down to the dorm showers. To say that she rushed to the dorm showers was an understatement, she basically was running down the hallways not bothering to look up and see all the confused faces she was passing. She got to the showers and automatically assumed that it was empty considering that there wasn't any water running. She ran into the first stall she saw and put all of her things down and closed her eyes trying to slow her breathing. The moment she started thing about the release she would get from the razor slashing against her skin her breathing evened out and she opened her eyes and a sense of calm come over her.

- Chloe's POV -

After a rather odd encounter with the small girl who's name she learned was Beca she thought that she should probably shower after all the running around she did. Chloe went back to her dorm and saw that her roommate Aubrey was there. Aubrey asked her if she had any luck finding the girl. Chloe responded with an excited yes and told her about the off encounter with Beca. Aubrey only shrugged she shoulders and said that she knew that Beca was weird to begin with. After the brief conversation with Aubrey she grabbed her showering things and ran off telling Aubrey should would be back in a half hour.

She got to the showers and noticed that it was pretty quiet except for the one shower running. Chloe noticed that it was pretty late and realized that not many people shower this late. She began her shower and starting singing her favorite song, Titanium.

- Beca's POV -

Beca had just started her shower and was taking out her razor when she heard the door to the showers open. First she tensed and was silently deciding whether she should leave or not, then decided she would stay but would keep quiet so not to draw attention to herself. Again she looked at her trusty razor that has been her bestfriend for the past few years, then she looked at her wrists and hips seeing the damage she's done over the years. She took a deep breath and pressed the razor to her wrist and slid it across watching the blood flow freely out of her wrist. She thought she heard someone singing in the background but it was interrupted by the voices. 'Nobody wants you. Nobody cares about you. Why try anymore? Why don't you just end it already?' She took the razor again and sliced deep into her hip, deeper than she's ever gone before and a slight noise of pain escaped her mouth. At first she was reveling in the bliss that the pain brought, but was then a bit scared when she realized how much blood there was and how deep the cut was. She heard someone gasp and then her shower curtain flew open...

- Chloe's POV -

She was happily singing Titanium loud and proud not having a care in the world that there was another person showering next to her in the next stall over. She closed her eyes to wash the shampoo out of her hair and she swore she heard someone make a noise and not a pleasant noise, it sounded like a whimper of pain. Once all of the shampoo was out of her hair se opened her eyes and looked down seeing red. A lot of red. She gasped, the red she was seeing was blood and too much for someone to be on their period. She became very worried and saw that it was coming from the stall next to hers. Without a second thought she ran out of her stall and barged into her neighbors and both of them were completely naked. The first thing she saw was Beca, Beca and the silver glimmer in her hand and the cut on her wrist and an even deeper one on her hip. "Beca...?" She whispered...

- Beca's POV -

Her shower curtain was flung open to reveal a very naked Chloe staring at a very naked Beca. "Beca...?" she heard. Beca realized she still had her razor in her hand and two gushing wounds one on her wrist, and one on her hip, the hip being much more severe. She started to try and hide herself from Chloe but was soon slapped in the face of reality when there was nothing to hide in. Chloe spoke up again, "Beca, lets put down whatever is in your hand and talk about this." Beca thought, 'Does she realize that their both butt ass naked?' She guessed that wasn't Chloe's main concern right now.

"There's nothing to talk about, leave me alone and get out of my stall!" Beca shouted and realized she sounded very harsh towards the other girl.

"Beca I want to help, let me help you... please. It doesn't have to be like this" Chloe was seemingly desperate now.

Beca shut off the water and Chloe had tossed her, her towel allowing her to cover herself. Chloe then quickly went to her stall next to Beca's and covered herself as well. "Let me help you clean up those cuts Beca," "You can come to my dorm and we can talk about this." Beca started to feel her tears brim with tears dangerously close to spilling over. She only nodded in defeat of Chloe's pleading.

- Chloe's POV -

Chloe had pleaded with Beca for her to let her help the younger girl and when she finally agreed Chloe helped stop most of the bleeding on Beca's wrist and hip. Beca seemed to be immune to the pain because she didn't once wince or make a face when Chloe pressed into the wounds with a towel. Beca's face was slack and she looked as if she was numb. Chloe quickly sent a text to Aubrey letting her know that she was bringing Beca to their dorm.

Chloe: On my way back and I'm bringing Beca.

Aubrey: Why are you bringing that alternative freak back to our dorm? Doesn't she have her own dorm to go to?

Chloe: This is a special circumstance. Please understand Aubrey its important.

Aubrey: Ughh. fine.

Chloe: K. Be there in 5.

AUTHORS NOTE:

It's getting a bit more intense and I'm hoping I'm capturing things well enough. I hope your enjoying this so far. Don't be afraid to leave a review! I love seeing you guys' feedback!