Dianna

It wa wed. july 29th.

I'd just gotten a text from my younger sister jessica; need to talk where r u?

Park Monaco. Leets by it I texted back.

Ok.

I wondered what she wanted to talk about. I sat there in the park waiting. . My dad had finally stopped hurting us. After a yr. and almost a month of doing so. I'd settled into Annabelle's. Where apparently Rachel and santanna had stayed though not together. Things had finally calmed down.

I was of course drinking. It was dark. I was drinking peppermint schnapps of course. I wondered how Jessica was getting here.

A few mins. later she walked toward me.

"hey," she said.

"hi," I said.

"I haven't seen you in awhile."

"yeah I know it has been. So what's goin on?" I asked.

Jessica looked around then at the drink in my hand. She seemed nervous.

"hey is it cool if I have some?" she asked.

"um. But you're. 14," I said surprises.

"yeah well you're 18. You're not legal either where'd you get that?"

"a friend."

"oh. Well?"

"what?"

"is it cool if I have some?" she repeated getting annoyed.

"well no….but I'll let you have some anyway," I said.

I handed her the shooter and she downed it.

"wow," I said surprised.

I had more. I always had more.

"dad's been um. hurting me," she told me.

And I thought he was done w/ this. But apparently not.

"well me and mom. You and mandy are the only ones who know. I don't have anywhere to stay right now. Well actually there is mandy's which is where I've been staying. I can't move out untill I'm 18."

"oh wow," I said.

She and mandy were friends.

"but he might find me there. I mean he has the tracking activated on my phone."

"yeah I've been there. Here," I said pulling my extra one out and giving it to her: "use this. My friend gave it to me."

She smiled looking relieved: "thanks."

"uh huh. Hurting you. Um. How?" I asked.

"physically. And. And verbally. And um. In other ways."

I knew exactly what 'other ways' she meant.

"and whenever mom says anything about it he hurts her."

"do Rachel's dads know?" I asked knowing my mom and rachels dads talked.

"um not. Not about me I can't have them know yet idinno if they know about mom."

"oh."

"but I'll text mom and tell her to tell them about her but not me."

"ok."

It occurred to me that it wassss probably a good idea for me to text jessse asshleysss dad and tell him about me and only me. I wouldn't tell him about Rachel or santanna or anyone. But id text them and tell them it wasn't a bad plan for them to tell him.

I texted them thisss.

"so I havent seen you in awhile where you stayin and what happened to the baby?" Jessica asked.

"at a ffriendss. Well hes staying w/ Annabelle ashleysss coussin. But I mean they've both become my friendss so. Im not in a good enough place to get my own place yet maybe when school lets out."

"right."

"and asss for the baby. I. um. Had a misscarriage in the spring."

"oh wow."

"yeah."