Sweet Serial Killer
Category: TV Shows » Vampire Diaries
Author: JustLola
Language: English, Rating: Rated: M

Chapter 13: Chapter 13

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Chapter 13

Sneak up on you, really quiet,
Whisper "Am I what your heart desires?"

She's quietly dressed, it was like she was on auto pilot, I had to place her on the couch, apparently I am that good that she can't even use her legs or maybe we both just haven't done it in a while and the session just was too much to take in. I pull my pants up and look around for my shirt, I knew she threw it somewhere around the room. She still looks dazed and a bit hazy but she's been like this since I got in here. I move around until I find my shirt and throw it over my head on one swift movement. "I actually enjoy you better without your clothes on." I hear her say and she gives me this suggestive look that is rather stroking my ego at the moment, I can't help but send her a smirk.

"I can say the same, but I doubt naked session will be approved by the hospital management." I reply, she's staring at me, maybe at some of the scars that adore my body, not that there were many but then again I was fully covered and dress so what was she staring at? We didn't have much time to really appreciate each other bodies and really get to know one another in this sex dazed session but surely there would be time for that in the future. She takes in a deep breath, she's been acting strange and I felt like I needed to confront her about it, it was nagging at the back of my mind the whole time she was wrapped around me, her wellbeing concerned me. "Will this be recurring? Or was this a onetime thing?" I decide to ask, because we act pretty casual about the whole ordeal, only difference between this and one of the many one night stand I had is I'm not trying to sneak out of the girls house in the early hours of the morning.

She bites her lip and I know how I sound right now, and I sound like I only wanted this from her. I sigh, I wasn't looking for a quick fix, I was committed to Elena in a sense that I could not understand at the moment. It might be what I realised earlier but I doubt she even knows what I know, but I'm sure I'm not mistaken, she doesn't act like she knows or even notices, so I would need to act oblivious until the time presented itself and she mentioned it, me being the gentleman always for the woman to make the first move, it was the safest bet at the moment. "I don't want you to feel like I'm using you…"I say and she raises a brow, I'm sounding like an asshole that I actually am trying hard not to be. Because I wasn't an asshole and this wasn't just about the sex for me, well it might have been this time but there was more to me and Elena then the physical attraction that clearly goes two ways.

"I'm in love with you Damon." Came her unfiltered answer, pure and simple without hiding her true emotion on the subject. She stares me dead in my eyes as she says this and there is a sense of raw sincerity to it that makes my heart skip a beat. "I can't stop my heart for growing feelings towards you, it doesn't want to listen to me, and I doubt that it ever will… It's impossible to stop, the heart wants what it wants." she looks to the side and there is something on her slacks, a little white thing, it's fluffy and reminds me of a feather, she picks at it and flicks it to the ground somewhere. I smile towards her, I wanted to feel love, unconditional love that I could never find, she was offering. How could I resist that? I just wasn't sure how to react, I mean I didn't want to sound over eager or inexperienced when it came to this type of thing, I mean if I was capable to hate immensely, enough to take a life then I could love, I just doubt that I ever found someone to love until Elena.

"You already know that I'm in love with you," I reply because it was evident that I loved this woman sitting in front of me, I blurted it out right after having sex, and I mean I couldn't help my lingering feelings, I can stop my heart from loving, and I would not stop. I know this was only temporary, in a few months I would be here or gone or dead, but like they say better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all, but I am not too worried about the temporary part. Her eyes sparkle at my words and I meant them, every word of it. "It is a very rare, enlightening and fortunate phenomena to find someone who makes you feel like your insanity is completely logical and love you anyway." I say and she sends me a smile but the smile falls from her beautiful face.

"You're not insane." she says as she rises to her feet walking over to the chair I am currently sitting on, the one she had been in yesterday. "You are a rather brilliant mind that don't fit in the box of normal." She says as she places a kiss to my cheek in the most loving way, it was refreshing that not only I thought that I was insane, I knew Ric thought I was okay as well, I just had a mental breakdown, people get that, and do shitty thing. I mean 2007 did happen to Britney Spears and lets not even start on Miley Cyrus…

"I doubt the court will see it like that." I say bringing up what Ric had earlier mentioned, I needed to know what she knew and I needed to know it to the full extend if we were going to do something about it, she doesn't know I know, and she doesn't know that I actually know Ric as well. It's these small thing that I like to use to fuck with people's minds but I didn't want to fuck with her mind, I needed to understand it and I needed to help her.

"We'll cross that bridge when we get there." She says and it's a rushed answer as she walks behind me, draping her hands on my shoulders. I must say I love the display of affection that she's showing, she better not stop or there would be consequences, I feel relaxed at her touch and she makes sure to skip the hem of my shirt and touch the skin of my neck, skin to skin, just the way I like it.

"What do you mean?" I ask turning towards her to look at her but my neck can only go so far, the dumb expression on my face is hard to pull off when I already know that they want to re-open my case, I just needed for Elena to tell, me to talk to me about everything that is currently going on. I needed to be updated but I know sometimes she intentionally keep things from me. She was tactful when it came to certain things.

"Would you be angry at me if I skipped the talking part of this session today?" Elena says resting her chin on the top of my head and I frown. I can feel her breath, even her how her body seems to be full of tension, I would have offered to give her a massage but we in a reversed position at the moment.

"Why? What's wrong?" I continue to ask because I just want bare minimums from her, just to know what's going on and I continue to stare in the direction that she has my head locked in, the door now had some valuable memories for me and I would never be able to look at it in the same way. I smile half to myself, as I am overcome with goose bumps from remembering. I think she feels this but she pays no attention what so ever.

"I just can't deal with everything going on at the moment, you know the world is spinning a bit too fast for me at the moment…" she says and I turn my head at this to glance at her but she moves when I moved my head, she doesn't want me to see her face. "I'm just…" I can feel her gulp like she doesn't want to tell me. "Ric just said something to me," she finally says and I can tell that the sincerity that was shared among us a few second ago when it came to declaring our love was floating away and disappearing with each inch it took, now she was the one who was being evasive.

"What did he say? Because you seem different…Today…" I'm not sure if it's my place to even mention this or whether it's the right time to mention her emotional state, because usually you just throw a blind eye or look the other way but I needed to know, this was my Elena, she was my girl and it did worry me. Don't think I'm labelling us at the moment but I know what is mine and what is mine is Elena.

"He just brought up some unwanted memories…" Elena says as she finally removed her chin from my head, it was starting to feel like I grew a second head and she leans in next to me until I can see her face next to me, she gives me this weary smile. "My brother passed away a few years ago… the subject doesn't sit too well with me." Elena says and I can see this was somewhat of a depressing matter that should really not be discussed with her but I find myself reaching for her hand and grasping it softly, rubbing my finger over her soft skin.

"I'm sorry to hear that." I say as I bring her hand to my mouth and lightly kiss her knuckles. It's rather a good thing I never had siblings, or that my mother never had more than one mistake, that's what she constantly called me when she was recovering with her withdrawals. "I'm an only child." I mutter against her knuckles, not really sure why I was sharing that bit of information with her but then again she was going to know eventually. And she looks to me, giving me another kiss to my cheek.

"Could explain why you are the way you are." I hear Elena mumble from next to me and I turn to look at her with a disapproving look but it's true and she just kisses me lightly on my lips, distracting me instantly, so I can't really stay mad at her at that notion that was 100% correct. "But I do love the way you are." She quips in with a reassuring smile. Nice save. I raise a brow at that because now she was using some kind of reverse psychology on me not to stay mad, but I can't stay mad at her. "I should get you back to your cell…" she says looking sternly back at the door and I do not approve, I still wanted to stay here, I wanted to continue our mindless conversation.

"We weren't busy that long…" I say as a matter of fact not at all proud of the time it took for me to shoot my load so quickly, just because she was so amazing or I was just overly excited. "Maybe next time we could lock the door and I could take my sweet time with you, get to know your body a bit better?" I ask and at this she smirks, she doesn't shoot it down so this would be re-occurring so that was rather a good sign but I wouldn't force it, if it happened, it would happen.

"I know, I'm being selfish and cutting my session short but I feel a bit drowsy." Elena says and I frown not sure why she would be drowsy this early in the morning, I could understand it if she said that she was tired but not drowsy. I give her a questionable look and she rolls her eyes but she finally fesses up to what is going on. "Before our session I was a bit shaken up," I need to interrupt her.

"Why?" I question because this really worried me, what Ric said upset her but it wouldn't have shaken her up.

"I'll tell you everything later." She says or asks, I am not sure at the moment as she straighten out almost stretching out next to me. "But I think instead of the calming tablets I took a sleeping tablet and I think that's why I'm so moody and strange…" she says finally removing her hands from me and she walks to the couch and looks around the room like she's making sure that no evidence is left of what had occurred a few minutes earlier. No cum stains waiting to scare the shit of whoever uses the room after us.

"You take tablets?" I ask bit unsure, I would question Ric on that when he brings me lunch, why would she even have tablets in her possession, I mean I understand she could easily get them, she just needed to prescribe them or steal some from the medical station but I doubt that she would do that.

"I'll tell you everything later, let me just get home and sleep it off and I'll be back before you go to bed." She says as she runs a hand through her hair but she can shake that 'just-had-sex' look that she is currently sporting. And I love that look on her, her hair a bit wavy from all the friction that happened, her cheeks slightly red, her lips red and swollen, and her eyes half lit, all of that was my doing and I was rather proud of my master piece.

"So you'll be back tonight?" I ask because it all makes sense, well all my questions about her strange behaviour that is, the dilated pupils the mood changes, I know how whacked people got after taking medication. But she looked like she needed to sleep and if that meant that she would come back later today and explain it to me, or most of what's currently going on then so be it.

"Sure. I'll even bring you something." She says with a smile and that carried a promise of a lot of possibilities. I might even try my luck and ask for something she would never expect. And can you believe it, it's not even sex related.

"I want a Snicker." I say and at this she raises her brow in amusement but she nods her head, I doubt she was thinking about that kind of something because I know I always think of something sex related but I could be a decent guy from time to time, and I mean I haven't had chocolate in ages. "Promise you'll tell me everything thou?" I ask and I know that she is currently under the influence of medication so she would make any promise and she would most likely agree to anything, it's like being under the influence of alcohol. Elena nods her head as me, see I told you.

"I promise." She says just to put a nail to the coffin, reassuring me and I smile as I rise to my feet because she seems to be rather eager to leave, she must really be tired. "Let's go." She says but I stop her when she reaches for the door and grab a hold of her pulling her to me and capturing her lips in one last kiss before she leaves me to my own devise again for the rest of the day. She's fast to just give in to the kiss and she laps at my lips for entrance that I eagerly give her. But it ends way too soon and she's leading me out of the room letting go of my hand instantly as we move into the hall. The halls are crowded with nurses and families and Josette looks up from the nurse's station smiling at me or rather Elena.

Elena looks to me and then back to Josette as we slowly start to walk, I'm well aware of the people staring at me, it's something I got used after a while, going to the trials and courthouses, with camera's constantly flashing in my face, every one trying to get a picture of the serial killer who had no soul. I take a bigger step before I am finally behind Elena and I lean closer to whisper into her ear. "What's going on?" I ask not sure why there is so many people here at the hospital today.

"Visiting hours." Elena says looking to her side and she looks like she has just seen a ghost, she's completely pale as she continue to look out in front of her, well she's looking all over the place, her eyes never stay on one place. "Please promise me you won't try something." She whispers back and I am not sure what she's referring to but I doubt I would make a scene in front of the people. I was in no mood today to scare the living shit out of all these people.

"Promise… you know I wouldn't." I reply almost chuckling at myself but it's strange that she would think that of me. "My forte is ladies of the night." I whisper to her and she stops dead in her track, surprising me complete, I almost walk into her and she stumbles somewhat misplacing her foot, I need to reach out to grab a hold of her to make sure she doesn't tumble to the ground, she seems to be highly unstable on her feet, that might just be because of the medication she took. I hear a few gasps and gaws in the hallway as I look up and there are some people looking at me in complete shock, like I actually did something to Elena to make her stumble but I promise I only said those stupid words.

"You let him walk around without any restraints?" I hear that annoying voice of boy perfect and look up to what Elena probably saw when she stopped moving, I should have expected him because this day was going rather great, I knew something was bound to happen to turn it around. "He could harm all the people in the hall right now, and you just stand around and let him place his filthy hands on Elena?" he continues to say and if I wasn't a serial killer slash patient currently in an insane asylum for all the crimes I have committed then I would stand my ground an probably throw a punch at the idiot in question.

"There is no need for that, I mean he just stopped Elena from falling." Josette says as she makes her way towards us and she looks around with a reassuring smile on her face, like there is nothing wrong with this picture at all, that I was just another patient in this place full of insane and ill people. "And she was just taking him back to his cell. There is no harm in that." I hear her say and I want to open my mouth and give a snide remark to the asshole whose standing a few feet from us but I bite my tongue instead. "No need for alarm people." Josette continues as I instinctively place my hand on Elena's back and she looks to me her eyes wide, like I shouldn't even be attempting to touch her while there are people around to see, but she's straining her eyelids to keep them from closing.

Tyler just regards the scene in front him, not even noticing that I continue to touch Elena before taking a few steps towards us. His hands are tucked in his jean pockets and he looks like a complete tool with his too big wife-beater. "Still he's a convicted killer, he shouldn't even be out here like this." Tyler says as he gives a pointed look towards Josette but she just rolls her eyes, I might just like her because she's sassy and she doesn't like him as well. "Elena…" Tyler greats but I can feel her tense up, she doesn't want him here, she doesn't want to see him and that would make two of us because I don't want him here or anywhere near Elena.

"Who is running this hospital? Me or you?" Josette asks as she places her hand on Elena wrist and I let go of her not too eager, but as long as Tyler kept his hands in his fucking pockets and away from my Elena I would be fine, my other hand remains on her back keeping her steady because I'm scare she might just stumble to the ground and fall asleep right here in the middle of the hall.

"You." He replies almost arrogantly, if I was her then I would have bitched slapped him all the way back to his mothers womb and he has the audacity to roll his eyes but I can't say anything about this or it would make another scene, not like the people stopped staring at us. "Elena, I've tried calling you several times, I messaged you but you don't reply… I need to talk to you." I want to smirk at that, she did break up with the fool, good to know that she listened to me, she was mine now so there was no way she would agree to anything he suggested now or in the future so I already knew that there would be no talking to her, here or someplace else.

"Not now." Elena says, her voice is in a mono tone like she doesn't even care that he want to speak to her, she turns to look at me and then back at Tyler like she expects Tyler to continue talking shit about me but I know that's not the case with my girl. "I need to take him back to his cell, and I really need to get going…" She says and I notice how she refers from saying she wants to go home. He didn't need to know that or he might just follow her or pitch up at her house or whatever people did nowadays to be scary as shit.

"What?" Both Josette and Tyler says out of confusion and in union, it's almost comical, because Elena basically lived here at the hospital, she rarely went somewhere.

"You heard Dr. Gilbert. The sociopath has to get back to his cell and she needs to be going. We have better things to do then stand here all day talking to you" I finally voice up and both look to me, I lightly put some pressure on her back and she takes a step forward and past both Josette and Tyler. Tyler looks to me and he's really getting on my last nerves at the moment. If I could have one last kill on this silly earth it would be this prick standing in front of me. I would smile as he died.

"We weren't speaking to you criminal." Tyler says pushing past Elena and he gets up in my face which was not the best idea to have because I can't promise not to harm him, But I would stay cool and calm and collected, I didn't want to put up a scene and embarrass Elena in front of a hall full of people besides she wouldn't be able to stop me if I did do something for this poor excuse of a human being.

"And I highly have any time for you, the feeling is mutual." I say as a matter of fact and Elena just shoots me a glare telling me that I shouldn't even be entertaining the idiot. I shouldn't be even talking to be honest. "Move aside." I say lightly moving forward hoping that my mere presence would intimidate him in moving away and finally taking his leave but how wrong I was.

"Fuck you criminal, you won't tell me what to do." Tyler almost yells and I start to laugh at him, like all out laugh from the pit of my stomach, like he's the funniest fucker alive, he was being completely childish, I really can't see what the hell Elena even saw in this fuck face in the first place. I don't back down, I wouldn't, I don't even move one bit because this idiot doesn't scare me. But I know that I scared the shit out of him

"Hey!" and I am actually happy to hear rent-a-cops voice from the other side of the hall and we both look to Ric who walks over, he has a serious look on his face like he doesn't approve of this one but. "What's going on?" Ric asks as he reaches our little group and it's more pointed at the two woman then at the both of us.

"We're trying to beat each other with a pissing contest, care to join?" I ask but Elena places a hand on my forearm and she pulls me to her, her touch is demanding and but the way her eyes bore into mine tells me that if I don't stop this now I will regret it, she looks from me to Ric and then to Tyler, note the order she looks at us, I am always first. I give her a smirk but turn back to Tyler, just one last thing before we leave.

"Stop it." I hear Elena hiss, her mood before I can even say something to the stupid moron, her mood was getting worse by the second but I guess this is the medication talking and it's just making her cranky because she wants to do and sleep. "Damon, let's go." Elena says in somewhat a pleading tone to me and I have to listen and I would do anything she asked of me.

"I'll wait for you Elena." Tyler calls as we start to walk again towards my cell block but I stop in my tracks and turn my head to look at him my eyes wide as I regard him, that was not going to happen, he was not going to wait for her, he was not getting a chance to even speak to her again, he lost his chance with my Elena. But I should give it to the guy, he's pretty persistent, wonder of he was like that with the blonde as well, I doubt it, from what I heard she threw herself at him the first chance that she got. Go figures.

"No need to wait, we know you're not good at waiting, it didn't take you long to wait for that petty little Blonde doctor to fuck you." I say and I mean I got a few gasps and a snare from Elena but she would forgive me eventually, I really didn't care what the other people in the hall thought of me because they already thought the worse of me. All three people look at me in complete shock but Tyler doesn't reply and if he takes longer than 8 seconds it's not a come-back at all I just smirk as he opens his mouth once, and then twice and I give him the amused look but Elena pulls me forward, to start to move and we start walking again. I swear if I was given the chance I would kill that fucking piece of shit right here, but I wasn't that lucky.

The rest of the way is in complete silence, I guess she's angry at me for what I had said but I doubt that the anger was focused on me. But I did throw gasoline to the flame and my word would have hurt her I mean she did date the fucked and then I casually informed her that he was cheating on her. Elena just continues to walk until we reach my cell and she waits for me to go inside after she opens the door. She waits until the door is closed before she peer through the bars into the room, her eyes looks sad yet again as she stares back at me. "See you tonight," she says and she doesn't even wait for a reply from me she disappears.

*Elena's POV*

I have two Snicker bars in my hand, I figured that we could both have some chocolate, as I make my way towards Damon's room, its late and way past the patients' bed time but I know he would be awake waiting for me. When I told him I would bring him something earlier I don't really know what I was referring to, my mind was all over the place and I wasn't thinking straight but that much was pretty evident. I might have been offering something sexually but I doubt that I would try something while I spoke to him in his cell tonight, the janitor and the guard were constantly doing rounds so we could get caught. How I got home earlier today was a blur, I can't even remember how the fuck I got home, did I even drive or did I walk, much less the conversation that was shared between Tyler, Josette, myself and Damon, that right there was a complete blank to me, I could not remember a thing of what happened there I just remember seeing Tyler.

I stop at Damon's door and pull at the door, it's open, good, and John the security guard on duty was sleeping behind his desk so he wouldn't even notice I was here. I wasn't even angry that he was sleeping on duty, I could give a flying fuck because I slept away most of today and I was sure I would not be sleeping tonight, but I wasn't here to check up on him, I was here to see Damon. When the door is open I look into the cell and Damon is on his bed facing the wall in front of him, he looks to me and smiles when he sees me. He truly seem happy and surprised that I am standing in front of him. See I promised I would come even if I was under the influence.

"Hey." I say as I pull the door shut, I had the key if I needed to get out in a rush or unnoticed. Damon rises to his feet in an instant and moves to me, he's caution on how to proceed me but I move to him without a second thought as I wrap my arms around his waist and hug him closely to me, burying my face in his chest, he smells like soap, like he just had a shower. I needed to spill the beans about what's going on in my mind because I feel like I'm going to go crazy if I didn't speak to anyone and he was my only option because my friends would surely think that I am crazy if they hear the words that are about to leave my mouth. The thing was just the idea of certifying him insane started to become more appealing, but would I be able to live my life with him when he remains in this hospital for the rest of his life? It was the only way I could keep him to myself. Yes we are back to that, it's been plaguing me since this morning and I just could not get it off of my mind.

"I thought you would never come." Damon says and he sounds a bit over dramatic but it was past 23:00 and as I said it was past the patients bed time, he wraps his arms around me securely and he just holds me in place for a few seconds before I start to move and fidget around with my hands and soon I fish the two Snicker bars into my hands and I take a step from him to present him with his little something that I had promised him earlier today. To my surprise he takes both, and his eyes light up as he peals open the first chocolate bar and almost devour it with one bite, I pout because after taking the medication I have a bad case of the muchies and I would have liked to eat the second chocolate bar myself.

"That one is actually mine…" I say pouting and I give him my best attempt of puppy dog eyes that I could come up with as I try to take it from him but he pulls it out of my reach every time that I am about to reach it, this was unfair, and he was even taller than me, holding it above my head and out of my reach, it seems pretty funny to him, I'm glad he finds my frustration amusing.

"No sharing…" Damon mumbles with a mouth full of the chocolate goodness that I desperately sought after. But if he wanted it that badly then I would give it to him, it's not like he got this every day and I could just pop in at the local 24/7 on my way back home and get myself another one. He didn't have that kind of luxury while in this shit hole. I study him as he takes a bite of the second candy bar and he seems to enjoy this, he almost looks the same way he did when we were having sex earlier. "One bite?" he says as he propose the chocolate bar towards me and I just shake my head refusing his proposal.

"You can have it." I say as I look around his room, still the same but it was much better than the others one he had previously, I am still haunted by the night I found him with the blood, in his helpless attempt to not wear any restraints... I really did think that he had tried to commit suicide and I know that I would have been devastated, I mean I have a bad history when it comes to that subject, and I never worked with patients who have tried to commit suicide, I wouldn't know how to handle them or treat them. I move to the bed and sit on the edge, he follows soon and he takes a place next to me managing to complete the task of eating the second chocolate bars in record time. "I need to ask you about you past, and I need you to answer me completely honestly." I say as he continues to eat the final piece of his chocolate. I look at him for a second before climbing completely on the bed, folding my legs underneath me as I go. I needed to be completely comfortable when I was going to talk to him.

"Okay," he mumbles and then he's finished and he sits back, we both have our backs against the wall right now, the moon shining into his room from the lone window at the head of the bed and this room seems so lonely that I can't help but feel depressed and sad and I know what I was going to tell him would only make me worse that I already was, I wish I took a calming tablet before coming to his room but I didn't really think of that when I almost sneaked into the hospital not even knowing why because I'm always here at unusual hours. Damon takes my hand into his and he's still sporting the bandages from last week I would need to check on his wounds some time and see if they were healing, which I don't doubt for one second. "Get started missy." Damon says breaking the silence that filled the space between us. I gulp not even sure if I was ready to do this, but here goes nothing.

"I was told today that the state wants to track down your only survivor and open your case back up to see if they can get you the death penalty." I say and I try to remain calm through every word that leaves my mouth, but every time I think of this I can't help but want to cry, or scream or just spiral down and out of control, I was going to lose him to death if I wasn't going to figure this out. And I needed to do that pretty fast if I was going to make sure that I was still sane if this thing ended. "I never really followed your whole history so I was a bit surprised when they told me there was a survivor." I say and I look to him, he just continues to look at the wall in front of us as he makes small circle motions on my hand softly. He seems oblivious to the words that I speak almost like it is common knowledge that there was a survivor and he was expecting the state to re-open his case. "Was there a survivor?" I ask because I needed to hear this from him to confirm if the information was true.

"One." Damon replies but he's tight lipped about it. It makes me wonder whether he really wants to answer me. I slightly nudge at him and he looks from the wall to me in surprise, like he could not believe that I just did that but I know he's trying to be evasive. "Yes there was one." He replies a bit more firmly as he looks back to the wall and I take a deep breath, so it was true. He had left one victim alive, I wonder why, because he was ruthless with the others and I doubt that he had a change of heart when it came to this girl.

"Okay, that's fine and dandy, but they want to look her up and want her to testify against you." I say and at this he looks back at me, his eyes narrowed because it's like this information that I am sharing with him is irrelevant to him. His expression instantly softens as he gives me a sad smile, he knew something that I didn't.

"With her, the case is stronger for the death penalty." Damon says like its self-explanatory and I just nod my head because that was my understanding as well of why they would want the girl to testify. "But I doubt they would ever find her," Damon says with a sideway smirk that I can't really encrypt. It's like he knew for sure that they would not find the girl and get her to stand in front of the court house to testify against him.

"I mean it's a possibility that they find her, what would we do if she testifies…? I was thinking maybe I could talk to her, maybe I could make her disappear…" The thought crossed my head to overdose her with some drugs so she would die, okay not die but she would pass out and I can leave her in some ditch and she would be one less problem to worry about it, I was crazy to even to consider it, I mean I was considering killing another human just to ensure Damon didn't get the death penalty bit whether I would really do it, I wasn't sure that I could. Damon gives me a frown at this like I have completely lost my mind and he shakes his head from side to side dismissing the idea instantly.

"No, you can't and they would need to find her first and that would be nearly impossible. Don't worry about it." Damon says and his eyes are pleading with me but I couldn't help but wonder. If they did find her I would do something nether the less, I would overdose her, I would do something to ensure that she can't testify, I could cut out her tongue so she could not speak… I would do something. I knew when push came to shove I would do nothing and it would happen and Damon would get the death penalty. "Elena promise me you won't ever have such thoughts again, promise me?" Damon says because he can clearly see that his words go unheard. I am hearing him but I am not listening.

"I won't. I just don't want to lose you." I say placing my head on his shoulder and he's so warm, I love his warmth because it's almost overwhelming to the point where I just want to curl up against him. I wish I could in my own bed at home, but you and I both know that it would never happen, not in this life time or in the next.

"You won't lose me." Damon says turning to the side and kissing my forehead lovingly, these small displays of affection was rather something that comforted me in the fact that whatever happened I knew I would have had Damon one way or another.

"But then I need to certify you as insane on your evaluation." I continue because that was our second problem at hand to worry about. And it was my second solution, like I said the idea of certifying him insane was becoming a popular idea in my head, I mean it was rather appealing to know that I would still be able to be with him even if he was stuck in this hell hole for the rest of his life because I doubt that any other hospital would take him in.

"And why would we do that when you clearly think I am not insane?" he asks placing his arm around me and pulling me to him and this was rather a sweet gesture that does not go unmissed. He's trying to physically comfort me and it's helping. The thing is I think he's just trying to keep me on the right path, he doesn't me want to stray from my ideas and believes.

"To keep you here at the hospital with me." I say softly like it should be obvious why I would do such a thing and he sighs because he seems conflicted about the whole situation. "We could always have you escape." I say as a matter of fact and Damon turns towards me, he seems to be outraged by the idea of that, see I was losing my mind, all these ideas that was not constantly invading my mind because I wanted to keep him alive and with me, but I would only focus on keeping him alive the other this I could worry about as time flows.

"And still live my life in the shadows until I finally I die?" Damon asks and I know all my ideas just seem absurd and crazy but I think it's just the stress and the emotions flowing through me at the moment, I wasn't thinking straight and I haven't been thinking straight the whole day, the only good decision that came from today was having sex with Damon, that was the best decision ever but I wouldn't say that out loud to my friends, and it wouldn't be something that you share on social media to be proud of. "Elena, everything's going to be okay." He coo's into my ear and I take a deep breath maybe I should just listen to him. Maybe he did know best. "We will cross those bridges when we get there, you said it yourself." Damon says and I know I had said that, he didn't need to remind me.

"Okay." I say abandoning all my strange and insane ideas that had popped in my mind through the day yet I know that they would linger for time to come, they would haunt my dreams and eat me up alive until this whole mess is fixed, and it would never be fixed. I mean I shouldn't be worried, Damon was clearly not which seemed strange all together. But it seems he wanted to ensure my purity and open mind was still intact. He was the bad one after all not me. I think that way I love him so much, he was the dark and I was the light… we balanced each other.

"Tell me about your brother…" I hear him say and I freeze in my spot, this was quiet out of the blue, why would he ask such a thing after I told him it was a rather touchy subject for me. I turn to look at him but instead I give him a disapproving look and he just shakes his head to me, I did come here to talk about what was on my mind, but my brother was another thing. "Please… Tell me." He pleads and I'm not sure I'm ready to do this, to tell another person what had happened to let him into the dark abyss that my mind turn into when it comes to thinking and remembering my brother, I'm not ready for this mental rollercoaster, but I would never be and I have made peace with that.

"Why?" I ask snuggling closer towards the man that is currently making my mind and my emotions a mess. I really didn't want to discuss it and I think with a bit of persuasion I would get him to drop the subject be it seems that Damon wouldn't have any of that, he was being persistent.

"I want to know…please? " Damon finally says after the longest pause of silence. I want to but I don't want to, I'm conflicted about this.

"Then tell me about your past." I ask and this time I feel him tense but he nods his head reluctantly and agree to the term set, I mean if I was going to tell him something if anything that I needed to know about him as well, this was a two way street and sharing was caring. I mean I would also enjoy it to hear from him, to get an insight of who he is, what his life was like even thou I already knew keys information which he willingly shared but still I needed to pull it out of him almost having to force him.

The thing is I could barely remember most of what happened during that time of my life and I would just be giving him pieces of information that could barely hold each other together to give him the fuller picture. But I take a deep breath as I close my eyes and rest my head on his chest, I try not to picture my brother but it's hard when I actually say his name out loud. "My brother, Jeremy, a year older than me, we both studied at Richmond, he wanted to become a qualified mechanic, it was his biggest dream in fact, I never really understood his fascination with engines. It was round about the time you started your murders when it happened and basically he got some bad drugs from his dealer, the drugs sent him on a very bad trip and he ended up committing suicide, I found him, I found the letter he addressed to me that told me I was the fault of all his pain and everything he had to endure and he would never live up to meet any of the standards that our parents set for him, he could never live up to his perfect sister, he actually slit his wrists and I found him, all bled out on the kitchen floor, he used the meet clever, it fucked me up completely, the suicide itself as a whole and the letter didn't help at all, it was the nail to my coffin. I was all over the place after the incident, I had to see a Psychiatrist or rather psychiatrists and they got me on wrong medication and I just freaked out because I couldn't really deal, I couldn't half of the time, I was so fucking high on the meds they gave me that I actually couldn't give a flying fuck what happened in this world, the other half of the time I was shitfaced, drinking every chance I got, people started thinking that I was an alcoholic at some point… I was a complete wreck Damon…"I say as I try to remember but I wasn't putting much effort into this because I only give him information here and there that was pretty irrelevant. He pulls me closer and he just holds me tightly against him.

"I got in trouble so much at college and at home and just everywhere that I went, and I got kicked out of college for a few months, that was until I could pull myself together and then when I got back to school trying to get my live back on track, it was just before the Greek house murders was committed, I was spiralling again because everywhere I looked everything reminded me of him. But I can really can't remember any of that shit… the medication really fucked with my memories and my mind, and I basically tried to avoid anything that had to do with my brother and his suicide, I can almost proudly say I can't remember anything at all of it and I say that with a deep sadness in my heart because I can barely remember him anymore. I'm not proud of my past, and I am sure that if a Psychiatrist gets a hold of me now to evaluate me I would be diagnosed with depression and post-traumatic stress syndrome and probably a bit by-polar as well... I would be something or everything, or you can plainly just say that I am fucked up. But I stopped taking meds after college, I stopped seeing my doctors as well because they were not helping me one bit, nothing was helping… besides how can I be a doctor when I am pretty much fucked up as well?" I say as I give him a sad smile and I know I'm talking in circles and what I am saying is confusing as hell but I'm pretty confused about the whole thing as well. "I don't like to talk about this, I hate it so much to even think of it, I get so moody and grumpy and over emotional because some of the unwanted memories I still have are just burned into my memory and it's hard to think of it because those memories I so badly wish that I can forget but it's like a video on repeat in my head… it's hard to cope… So Ric mentioned something this morning and I just flipped." I finish and I take a deep breath because this really took a lot out of me to say, to tell. Damon is silent for a moment as he just stares at the wall again, it seems when he has nothing to say he refers to looking at the wall for answers.

I'm looking at the same wall and I have no idea what we are looking at or why we are staring at it, because it just seems to look like the dull wall it actually is. But I guess it's a lot to digest when you're the one listening to me. It's a lot to take in, it's not as bad as his past but for me it's the same amount of bad. I look to Damon and he seems like he's deep in thought thinking about something, he gives me a tentative smile and then looks back at the wall bringing me closer to his chest so I can listen to the rhythm of his heart beating in his chest. Somehow I hope that it can calm me…

"My mother was a prostitute… actually a crack whore… She wasn't really present in my life." Damon mumbles and I frown, because here I thought we were still talking about me and my crazy but I don't mind him telling me this… I actually feel relieved that he changed the subject. I mull his words over in my head and I never thought that, I would never image that he grew up alone in this scary big world. "I took care of myself and put myself through school and college." I frown at this but nod my head, even if this is just snip bits of his life I listen contently to every word that leave his mouth.

"You went to college?" I ask and he just nods his head slowly back and forth confirming that he did attend college, I would never have guessed if you just look at him, then again you can't judge a book by its cover.

"I don't just have a pretty face, I have a degree or two behind my name as well, something valid to put on my C.V." Damon replies and he seems emotionless as he continues to drone on, I actually find humour in that and chuckle, he's actually getting my mind of off what I was just rambling about a few seconds ago which was good, because I needed a distraction after my confessions of how fucked up I really am.

"What degrees?" I ask a bit curious on what he would have studied, because I knew he was smart so it had to be something good.

"Law and Medical…"came his reply like he doesn't want to explained or talk about it further, I am a bit shocked to hear this bit of information that he just revealed. But it did explain a lot in retrospect, he knew how to kill and he knew how to get away with it, it made me question his motive of giving himself in, in the end. I mean with the medical degree it explained the perfect cuts and incisions and all the death, it was never messy or anything and it never seemed like a amateur, but the law part catches me of guard, what part of the law does he have a degree in, I would ask him later when the situation wasn't like it was now, it seemed a bit hostile at the moment.

"What made you kill them… the prostitutes?" I think that this specific question has been repeatedly asked to Damon by many people and I doubt that I even would get an answer from him in any case because he never seemed to explain himself.

"I snapped…" Damon replies like its natural and at this I frown, what does he mean when he said that he snapped? "My mother decided to show up in my life again after a long time of just being gone… and I don't know, I couldn't take it, I couldn't take her, I snapped. She died of something, some or other sexually transmitted decease but I just felt like I was doing the world a solid favour by ridding it from the crack whores… I just wanted to stop the circle, I didn't want other children living like I had lived, I didn't want them to suffer like I did." Damon says and I guess that was his reason. I would never phantom to understand it because it didn't make sense to me at all nor would anyone else even try to understand what he just said, in his mind he justified it, we didn't have to understand.

"Do you think it was because of your mother?" I ask and he looks to his side and away from me, like he couldn't face me at all as he replies to my question.

"She was a big contributing factor in the matter." Damon says and I nod my head even though he's not even looking in my direction. "I killed a lot of woman because I think I was doing some good, I didn't do any good at all, I had a misconception of what good was… It was all just a huge mistake." Damon says and then he finally looks in front of him again at the wall.

"Damon…" I say but he shakes his head silencing me from saying another word.

"Elena I get it, what I did was wrong, I killed a lot of people. I don't justify it at all now, but what was done, was done, I can't go back in time to change it, and I wouldn't because in all this I learned who the real me was, what I was really capable of…" I'm a bit confused by his word, it's like he came to terms with what he did but he didn't regret it, he showed remorse but he didn't regret it… Like I said I couldn't understand even if I wanted to. I want to say something comforting towards him but I have no words to form, I had no words to tell him. "You know I was born in Mysticfalls, or so my mother said, but I couldn't always trust her words…So if she was lying so am I… But I just know that I was never born as Damon Salvatore… I was someone completely else. I grew into Damon Salvatore, I tuned into him as soon as I turned myself in. I thought I was a saviour, because I mean Salvatore means saviour I was saving these damned souls that was trapped in the bodies of the prostitutes but in the end… I am anything but a saviour… I needed the saviour and you my dear… you are my salvation." Damon says ending in almost a whisper and I have to strain my ears to head him.

"Who were you before you were Damon Salvatore, before you handed yourself in?" I ask and he turns to me with a wicked smile like he has went completely and utterly insane, it sends chills up my spine.

"Damiano Remar… Back then I was my mother's child, a little demon who would one day tear the world into pieced by ruining it like men ruined her…" Damon says in such a calm voice that it frightens me.

I really didn't know what to give Damon as a surname… So I kind of took the actor who plays his father in the series so if you question me on that…. Guys if you want to review… leave me a name or if your too shy leave me a single letter or something that I can just thank you and you know it's you. I don't like thanking guests… It could be anyone in this world.. And you my readers are not just anyone, you are special to me and I would want to thank you and tell you, that you are amazing! I know there is some question and I like to be evasive about the questions. That's the point in the end I want to surprise you!

Shout outs-

Guest – Thank you for the review. I'm not sure if there will be a pregnancy… I mean I can't write about something I haven't ever experienced. It was already a mind mix for me in my story Routine because I needed to read up a bit for that. But hopefully soon I can write about it out of experience…

Nateras – Thank you! To answer your question, it will be explained in the next few chapter…

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TVDFan245 – Enzo will be coming in either in the next chapter, Depending on how I progress. Still figuring out his part but I have a great Idea planned. No love triangle… Promise. Thank you for your review.

NinasGirlxo – Thank you for the info! And the compliment, but I can improve. Not really sure about the love baby…

Srish2255 – Thank you! And I think we all just wait for that, I mean I couldn't keep it from happening, it needed to happen soon or my readers will lose interest.

Miss Pretty Girl – You're not a psycho in in a bad way! Here is an update as requested! Hope you enjoy it! And I love the way you look at it.

XxDreamForeverxX – You had two questions. But I will try to work on somebody to you this week end, I'm getting a lot of questions about it. I think there is some explanation in the this chapter but I can't give up that so Elena might be or might not be the one that got away, She talks about her past but Damon still has to put an precise timeline to it.

Margie – So you didn't have to wait to long for the update! See I aim to please. Thank you for you review!

Melissa D – Thank you for the review (: I wish that two but not all of them are as awesome as Serial Killer Sociopath Psycho Damon… Keep reading.

Last but not least, I have this anonyms reader, and even thou the reader continues to tell me I do not have a conscience or that I am romanticizing a serial killer or murdered, that there is something seriously wrong with me and my way of thinking and writing, I can tell this reader is highly offended by this story. And I have decided to publish the last review she/he posted. Complaining about Melissa D… Nothing wrong with either me or you Melissa D or any one that enjoys reading my story. I need to say this to you anonyms reader that keep insulting me time and time again, you do not know me, you do not know anything about me but from what I write. It seems that you are fucking obsessed with me because I am not forcing you to continue reading this story and as I said in a previous chapter if you do not like my story then do not read it, but you can't stop reading it seems and you're doing this to yourself! I mean why do you keep on reading and commenting, you are some kind of prude that says anonyms shit to people who just want to express their imagination. I think you would feel the same way about Dexter, or Hannibal, Get of your high horse, stop obsessing about my story and get a life! Go bark up someone else's tree. For fuck sake did you have a problem with fifty shades of grey too? But I guess you are a hypocrite because I bet you watch Vampire Dairies and you don't care that Stefan was a ripper and killed a lot of people to, and all of the fucking vampires on the show because they are mythical magical creatures. You condone that right. Get a reality check anonyms reader this is the twenty firsts centuries. But I guess if I am not offending someone then I'm not doing it right. PS you have no right to talk to me about my work or anything involving my life, don't question me. Sorry lovely readers for that. I needed to do that to get things straight.