Somebody to you
Category: TV Shows » Vampire Diaries
Author: JustLola
Language: English, Rating: Rated: M
Genre: Romance/Humour

Chapter 11: Chapter 11

Chapter 11

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N/A : Hey there! So I know this update took like forever. But I had a real hectic week. I just didn't have time. And then I got a new laptop and I had to wait for my programmes to be installed and activated and it was just so hectic! And I re-typed this chapter twice because I just could not get the hang of it but I think that you will like it! And I am already in the middle of chapter 12 J I need to work overtime to make it up to all my readers. Thanks to all the lovely reviews! You guys are amazing! Really you are. Keep up the good work!

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Elena's POV

I didn't feel different, if anything, I felt the same physically. Mentally I was stable, more stable then I have been in a long time but emotionally I was all over the place. I didn't know what I was feeling because this need, this intensity to be with Damon just grew stronger and stronger every second I lied next to him that night, I wonder if I even fell asleep or when I fell asleep. After we cleaned up a bit we just stayed in bed facing each other in the dark, and even in the dark he carried the sun in his hands for me.

There is this sparkle in his eyes that tells an endless story, a promise of a fairy-tale yet to be told. Yet there was still a few unfinished business to attend to before the fairy-tale could start. But I didn't want to think of that right now. All that mattered was Damon that was next to me, I could feel his eyes on me, watching me like I was watching him, looking for anything that might be out of place or wrong but I could find nothing.

Was this how it felt when you fell in love? When you actually want to share your life with someone, I know that we are both still pretty young and there is a life time awaiting us but, him here next to me, in my bed, it felt right. Yet I couldn't tell him that I was in love with him, I was scared. And of what I have no idea. The fact that he could reject me was right there it was just whether I took a leap of faith.

When his breathing calmed and I couldn't see that sparkle in his eyes anymore because the lids had fallen close I just stared at him. I stared for seconds, and for minutes even and I just looked at the man that was next to me. I felt so much towards him and I felt like it was bubbling up. I take a deep breath as stroke his cheek softly, he doesn't move, he just lays still his breath completely at ease, I know he's sleeping I can tell by the way he inhales. I stroke his cheek again.

"I'm in love with you Damon Salvatore." I softly whisper placing my palm to his cheek. Even thou he was sleeping and technically this didn't count as any declaration but it was the only way I could tell him how I felt. "I'm falling so hard for you, it's not even funny. And the saddest part of this is I can't even tell you face to face. Because I'm scared. I'm scared to take that leap of faith because I don't know whether you're going to catch me." I don't stop the rogue tear that runs down my cheek.

The thing is I wanted a relationship so badly I settled for the first best thing I found which happened to be Stefan. I just settled, which I shouldn't have. I should have looked for the person that compliments me that brings out the light in me. But tonight we held each other and kissed and pushed each other's darkness into the corner, believing in each other's light, each other's dreams.

"I wish all of this could have been different, I wish we could have just gotten to know each other and then we would have gotten together." I whisper, believe me I felt really bad that I was technically Stefan girl and now I was going around kissing Damon, spending time with Damon, sleeping with Damon. Not that I regret it, not even one bit. I just felt really bad for doing this to Stefan because I believe that he's a nice guy, and whatever was getting him angry was going to blow over. I just think that my timing to break up with him was a bit bad. But I needed to do that, I needed to break of things with Stefan. Even thou I know that me and Damon can't just jump into a relationship from the get go.

Yes I know what you are thinking, and yes I am thinking of both our images, I would look like the slutty, cheating ex-girlfriend and Damon well let's just add cheating to Damon's already bad reputation. I didn't want that. I take in a deep breath, I was not expecting this and yet I was happy that it had happened, that Damon came into my life. I smile to him even though he's asleep… If everything went according to plan this weekend I would end my relationship with Stefan and I could clear my conscious and I could start building with Damon if he was ready for it.

Nothing went according to plan! I mean seriously everything just got so confusing and irritated and I just don't know how to explain this. This whole weekend from Saturday was just so busy and messed up. I woke up to find that Damon had slipped out of the house, but he had a valid reason that is. He had to go to football practice. He left me a little note on my computer screen with a smiley face. I smiled as I pick the sticky note from the screen and read the message.

'Elena, when we kissed it's like everything good that had ever happened to me had all happened in that one moment. xxx I'll talk to you after football practise.'

I read the message again and again and I couldn't stop smiling like a complete fool because of that. Other than that small message from Damon my weekend was just fucking awful. My father and mother came back and they were not in a great mood, might be because dad said that Uncle John could come and live with us until he was well enough to look at himself or it was because Jeremy wasn't home or it was mom bumped dad's car. I really don't know. They were really up in each other's business.

Then the fighting with Jeremy started because he was never at home and why was he always at his friends, and how could he leave me alone at home. What they didn't know was that I wasn't alone and that Damon had spent the night, but what they do not know won't hurt them right. Them my mother was so agitated with my father. It was just a bloody mess. Even when I asked if I could go to my friends it was just a plain 'no'.

When all else failed I went up to my room and I closed the door and I just walked over to my computer, looking at the message Damon had left, smiling for a half second before I switched on my computer. I pulled my phone and my camera closer and I downloaded the pictures that was taken the previous night. I opened my pictures and created a folder. I liked to be organized. And then I plugged in my Camera and waited patiently for the pictures to load. I swiped my phone and I opened my Whatsapp message application. I move over all my contact and stop on Damon's name.

'Hey my parents are back not in the best of moods thou.' I send a message not even waiting to see if he reads it or replies. Strangely enough my phone has been completely silent. Caroline hasn't messaged me, nor has Bonnie or Stefan for that matter, not like I wanted to talk to Stefan but I knew that I needed to. The sooner I broke up with him the sooner I could get on with my life.

I move over to Caroline and I look at her profile picture, it's this little teddy bear holding up a flower, which is adorable. I start to type her a message because this was really un-like Caroline, She was always one to blow up my phone with messages on a weekend.

'Hey Care, why so quiet?' I ask and look to my computer screen, it was packed with pictures of every one from Rebekah and Elijah to me and Ric and Stefan and Damon. I stop as I look at some of the pictures, some of which I recognise when we went on a semi kissing spree. I focus on the pictures of me and Damon and look at them, we looked so happy, so close, we looked more like a couple then I did with Stefan which is pretty hard to believe but I can assure you.

I look at the pictures and they tell a story, from when we get to the party where you can clearly see I don't want to be there until I see Damon walking in and it's unmistakeable that I did notice him and that I even smiled more, I look at the pictures of Stefan and Ric kissing my cheek and then it's Damon and I actually blush. I stare at the picture for a few seconds longer. Was it so wrong to fall in-love with Damon? I know that he has a heavy heart, a messy soul, a reckless mind, and I think it's beautiful the way he carries himself. My phone vibrates and instead of continuing with the pictures like I wanted to I pick up my phone and look at the screen. Caroline read and replied.

'Big news Lena! Guess what? So last night Matt asked me to be his girl! That's so amazing right.' I smile at my babbling blonde friend because I know that this is what she wanted for the past year now.

'Great news!' I reply and I quickly select all the pictures and I start to copy them to my computer, I open up my internet explorer and soon find the Facebook page. I needed to check what was happening.

'I mean Elena that's the best thing since sliced bread. Now we can double date. Just think about it, me you, Stefan and Matt.' I get this nauseas feeling in the pit of my stomach as I read the message. 'I already texted Stefan and Matt and they are up for it.' Wow okay what happened to talking to your best friend about it first, see if she's okay with it. I look to my computer screen and I see that the pictures have been copies. I scan through the pictures again until I reach the picture Ric had taken of me and Damon in the bathroom, completely wrapped in each other's arms and lips.

I open a new folder and I place all the pictures of me and Damon in it, from the one in the bathroom to the pictures we took in Ric's room. I could not afford posting them on social media at the moment.

I look back to my phone and at the message Caroline had sent. Even thou spending time with Stefan and other people in a double date was the worst idea I could think of, I still had two parents down stairs who was not in a good mood and they would not agree to it. But it made me wonder why Caroline was approaching me with this proposal and not Stefan, I mean why were they talking, why was there no talking to me?

'Sorry Care but it's a no go from my side. Maybe get someone else.' I replay even thou I was a bit upset that either of them did not speak to me about this firts, they first spoke to each other. This made me wonder about what Damon had told me the previous night, about me giving him the cold shoulder and my friends telling him that I'm just adjusting to this new relationship. Why would he speak to them about me. I raised a brow something was up.

'That suck's but I'll tell Stef.' Why should she tell Stefan I mean I could but yet again it's like we're not even dating. 'I need to go get ready thou, talk later, laff u Lena.' Okay I don't even reply to that. I didn't need to. I just sigh and look to my computer screen. When all the pictures are finally loaded onto my computer and sorted I check my Facebook. So many Status updates so many people who really can't spell. I scroll down, there are already some pictures from the party loaded on from a few people. Tyler included.

I have this thing, if people take pictures of me or load pictures of me onto social media I like to download the pictures. I feel that I'm going to lose moments if I don't have all the moments and like Damon said some moments are so few and far between. I start my routine and click on pictures that I am tagged in and I start to download them one by one into a sub folder. I look at the previous weeks pictures and save them to. I look at a few pictures that Tyler took and this one picture where Damon kisses my cheek is taken at such an angle that you really can't make out if its just for fun or real. I'm sure Stefan will be pissed about that one.

After all the pictures are sorted and saved I upload my picture, well just a few, not everyone needed to see everything that happened at the party. As I wait for the pictures to upload into the album I check the new Status update. Stefan changed his profile picture. I furrow my brows and click on his profile. He's alone on his profile picture, this picture must have been taken recently because I haven't seen it yet. His cover picture is still a picture of us, but I don't get upset because why should I get upset? I mean it's just a profile picture it's not like I can't change mine. I shake my head, I am being stupid.

I go back to my news feeds and look as my pictures are now on the news feed, instantly there are likes and comments and I knew this was coming, I mean if you want to upload pictures you need to prepare yourself for this. I start to go and I would just read the comment and smile and like until I get to a picture of a picture I must have forgotten to take out, it's me holding onto the elder Salvatore smiling at the camera as he holds me and smiles. Bonnie is the one to leave a comment on this. 'Something I should know?' was the only comment and I instantly delete the picture. I know I pretty much screwed up and I hope to God that Bonnie was the only person who saw this.

A few second later my phone vibrates. And I look at it in horror as I see Bonnie's name flashing brightly. I don't want to answer, I don't want to talk to her but the more I think of it the worse I feel until I finally grab the phone swiping the screen and bringing it to my ear.

"Hey Bonnie." I greet and I sound nervous like fuck. What the hell was I going to tell her? I mean that is why she's phoning me.

I look back to my screen and I scan through all the pictures I had loaded, there was no other and I almost sigh in relief. "Don't hey Bonnie me Elena. What the Hell was that? Don't think I didn't see you taking down the picture." she almost sounded angry, okay she did sound angry and I know that her anger was pointed towards me.

"I can explain." I start and then I almost do a double take as I see Caroline just updated her status to 'Caroline Forbes feeling fabulous with Matt Donavan, Stefan Salvatore and Rebekah Michaelson.' What the flying fuck. "What the fuck?" I yell into the phone as I stare at the status. I thought she would take another couple, I didn't tell her that Stefan must take another girl!

"That's how I reacted to!" Even thou Bonnie had no idea why I was acting like this I did and I was angry. Even thou I had no right to be angry. "I can't believe you took a picture with Damon, I mean seriously was that after Stefan was chased away or before because it all depends."

"No Bonnie it doesn't depend on anything, so we took a picture so what? Is there really anything wrong with that?" I ask and I instantly try to go to another page, any page, I end up on my profile page and I stare at the picture of myself and Stefan looking al happy.

"Sorry Elena I just thought… I thought Stefan wouldn't like seeing it and I automatically thought the worst." I hear my dark haired friend say and I feel bad that I went off at her that I just snapped, but still it was so easy to jump to conclusions these days.

"It's okay Bonnie sorry I snapped." I say as I keep staring at the picture that was in front of me, and not just the one, but both my profile picture and my cover picture. I didn't love Stefan I was never even in love with him and I knew that day when Damon asked me if I was in love that I was lying, he could even tell that I was lying but still. "Just forget it Bonnie, we took a picture but I took it off so no harm done." I say and I can hear my friend exhale in relief. We spoke for a few moments more yet I could tell her nothing that was going on in my life. I was living a lie and I didn't want to.

After saying our goodbye I just left it at that, I didn't go back on my phone or any social media for the rest of the night. I just felt so conflicted because I was jealous about Stefan spending time with Rebekah yet I was in love with Damon and I had slept with Damon and I wanted to be with Damon. Who was I to feel like this, who was I to judge him on his actions and what he did and with who. Was it the fact that we were still in a relationship? Not really but it felt that every second that passed we were drifting further and further away from each other and I welcomed the feeling with open arms.

I didn't hear anything from Damon, not that I was trying from my side. I'm sure he did try to phone me or even text me but I didn't want to answer because what I was doing to him was worse then what I was doing to Stefan. Here Damon was willing to give me everything and I am postponing the end of my relationship with his brother. Well it's not like Stefan tried to contact me. Caroline tried to talk to me but I didn't want to talk to her, I needed to talk to Stefan I needed to see him in person and tell him that this was over and before I could move forward with Damon I had to end it with Stefan.

So when Monday morning came around and I found myself walking to school I felt like I had lost my heart along the way. I made myself numb to the thought of Stefan. And I tried not to think of Damon but he crept into my thoughts ever now and again. So when I pass by his car in the parking lot he looks at me through the windshield. His eyes are sad and that moment when our eyes meet I can't help but give in and I rush to the car and I don't care that there are other people in the lot, because I just wrap my arms around Damon as he gets out of the car and he takes me into his arms without a question.

"I need to break up with Stefan." I whisper into his neck as I hold him close to me because I missed him, I missed him Saturday and I missed him yesterday. I just missed him so much.

"I know." Is his soft reply and I just relax at the sound of his voice. "I'm sorry I'm putting you through this." I hear him say and I actually chuckle. He was not the cause of this. None of this was his fault he just acted on his feelings a bit too late and now I have come to my senses and I know what I want. And I want Damon Salvatore. I need him more then I need anything else.

I pull from him and look into those bright blue eyes, they still hold that spark that they had Friday night as we laid in my bed. "It's not your fault." I half mutter pulling away from him and he just shakes his head from side to side. "Well maybe it's your fault." I joke as I pull away to look at him and our eyes meet for a few seconds.

"One of the many reason I fell in love with you." Damon says with a wink and now I am at arm's length as he smiles to me. I find it strange how he can openly say that he's in love with me, that he's so open with his feelings when it comes to me and me? I can't even utter the words in his presence, only when he's a sleep next to me.

"Why is it that you fell in love with me?" I ask and this catches him completely of guard as he looks at me raising one eye brow in question.

"I fell in love with your courage, your sincerity and your flaming self-respect." Damon replies and I smile because his words are sweet to my ears.

"You know to love someone isn't just a strong feeling. It is a decision, a judgement and a promise." I say as I take a step closer to him and I am well aware that the parking lot is becoming more and more crowded as we stand here confession our love to each other.

Damon took a step closer as well and wrapped me in his strong arms, wrapping me in a blanket, protecting me from the world that awaits us. He leans closer and he softly presses his lips to my forehead in a kiss so forbidden. "Well you made that decision, judgement and promise when you told me you're in love with me. And I'm more than willing to do the same." At first I don't know what to say, I'm not sure I heard him correctly. I pull from him and look into those sparkling blue eyes.

"What?" I ask and Damon just smiles at me.

"I heard you loud and clear the other night…But I'll wait until you say those promising word to my face." Damon says only confirming my suspicion that he had heard my declaration that I was in deed in love with him and I blush a deep red. He could have fooled me because I was 100% sure that he was sleeping.

"You were supposed to be sleeping." I say with a shy smile embarrassed that I have been caught out.

"So were you." Damon says and then he's a foot away from me and on the hood of his car and I am caught by surprise by the sudden loss of his warm body against mine. "You blonde irritating friend is coming in at 3'o clock." At this I frown and then I understand what just happened. I look to the side and yes indeed here comes Caroline with Matt in tow.

"Elena!" the ecstatic blonde yells upon seeing me and she waves her hand in the air like she's trying to land a plane and I just smile before turning to Damon one last time to wink at him and believe it or not he started laughing at my antics but he winks back and then he turns on his heel and slowly strolls away whistling to himself. When I turn back Caroline is in front of me smiling brightly from ear to ear. "Lena! How are you? How was the weekend?" she asks and she lets go of Matt for 2 seconds to give me a hug before she is back in his arms.

"I'm okay seems that you are better thou." I say smiling at them.

"What was that all about?" Matt asks and I'm not sure if he was referring to my answer or how Caroline was hugging me so I frown.

"What was what?" I ask and now Caroline if frowning to.

"You and Damon, you were just standing here and then when we came he walked away." Matt questions and I raise a brow at him. So he had noticed that?

"I'm sure Elena was just greeting Damon. Right Elena?" Caroline asks like she is completely unaware of anything that is going on around her. The only thing that matters is Matt.

"Yeah just said hi." I say shrugging my shoulders. "How was your weekend?" And I instantly regretted because the look on her face went from complete happiness and then she was pensive.

"It was good, we went out for some lunch with Stefan …"She trailed of but she didn't need to because Stefan made his appearance known at that moment, Rebekah in tow.

"And Rebekah right? How was it? I mean it had to be good because you posted status updates and pictures on Facebook all weekend about the great time you had." I reply okay so I did go onto Facebook late last night and it only pissed me of more because it seemed that Caroline found herself a new best friend with the way she and Rebekah was smiling and posting and shit. But I needed to keep my cool. "Hey but it's cool right. No harm." I say completely calmly as Stefan now joins us and I am unaware why Rebekah is joining us as well because she was not part of our little group of friends.

"Elena I didn't mean anything by it." Caroline quickly says and Stefan raises a brow as he looks from Caroline to me and I just give them this sarcastic smile. It really didn't make me angry that they were out together but that Caroline condoned it. I was madder at Caroline than anything else.

"Hey babe." Stefan starts and I'm not sure if he wants to hug me or hold my hand but I pull away from him avoiding any and all contact from him.

"Hey, I'm late for class." I say with a curt nod before I turn on my heel and I start to walk towards my class. Even thou school only started in about 20 more minutes. The thing is that I needed to speak to Stefan, I needed to break up with him but then I saw him and I saw Rebekah with him and I just got pissed off and I needed to keep my cool because I had no reason to be angry and I needed to get that in my head. When I got to glass I tried to focus. I really did but nothing the teacher said drew my attention.

I pull out my phone and go to Whatsapp and I beeline to Damon's name instantly. 'Did you listen to everything I said that night?' I type as I try to preoccupy my mind with anything else. Damon doesn't respond immediately so I move to Facebook and look at the news feeds. Damon Salvatore feeling in love. There is a picture attached. The caption reads : 'Wouldn't it be the perfect crime if I stole your heart and you stole mine?' I smile because I know it's aimed at me even thou I am not tagged.

Seconds later my phone vibrates and I switch applications. 'Yes, and it was well worth the wait.' Was Damon's reply and I just shake my head from side to side smiling brightly. But the next step was to talk to Stefan, to tell him that this wasn't working and that we should maybe just separate. I sounded so formal right now that I almost laughed at myself.