FSOG- Christian Claus Chapter 8, a fifty shades trilogy fanfic

Could it be the presents? Was it too much? Maybe the CPO's. It's not like I have had the chance to talk to her. I feel like I am waiting to see the principal. I have done that enough times. Maybe if I explain what has been going on? That's it. She has been unconscious, this must be strange having someone she can't stand spending time with her son.

But what if she doesn't want me to spend time with Jaxson? I guess I'm not needed. Katherine and Mia are feeling better. Security can stay in place without me being in the hospital. I have plenty of work to do. I am a busy CEO, I don't need to do this. This isn't important, I was just doing it to help Grace. I'm a busy CEO. I'm a busy CEO.

"Christian, are you alright?"

"Huh? What did you say Jason?"

"Clark was following you to Ms. Steele's room. I arrived to relieve him about ten minutes ago. You had stopped walking a few minutes before that. Apparently you kept mumbling I'm a busy CEO. Are you alright?"

"I think I'm afraid to lose Jaxson?" I finally voice my concern.

"Why would that happen?"

"She has no reason to need me. I said some horrible things."

"Christian has Ms. Steele said that she doesn't want you around her son?"

"Well no, but she was crying and emotional." At this Jason starts to laugh.

"Christian sometimes I forget that you haven't had much experience with non- submissive women." He whispered the last word. " women are emotional creatures, throw in hormones, their children and an extreme circumstance like being in the hospital they are bound to cry, laugh even throw stuff. You have done everything you can to help Jaxson. He has bonded with you and you with him. Sure, you said some stuff that was less than complimentary but that wasn't recently and you didn't even know her. Parents want what is best for their child. Give Ms. Steele a chance. I am willing to bet your bank account that she appreciates what you have done for Jaxson and herself."

"My bank account?"

"Well yeah.. it is bigger than pretty much everyone's in the country." Jason actually winks before he starts to laugh. Somehow he has managed to calm me down.

We start to walk towards the Anastasia's room and he fills in. With the right amount of people and money anything can be done. Everything on my list should be completed on time.

We arrive to Anastasia room just as my mother is leaving. I wasn't expecting that. She gives me a long hug.

"Thank you Christian. I love you!" Before I can respond she is out of the door.

"Hello Anastasia." I don't don't show my hand. I don't know who's way this is going to go. I am hoping Jason is correct and I am burying my fears for the moment.

"You are Mr. Taylor right?" She questions.

"Yes mam. What Can I do for you ?"

"I just wanted to thank you and your team of Avengers. Jaxson is very excited to have you guarding us. I am not one that normally accepts assistance but I appreciate the help this time. I know this is beyond my capabilities. He is looking forward to dressing up. If you need help getting out of that let me know. You don't have to feel beholden to him. Those dimples have a way of getting people to agree to things that they wouldn't normally do."

"Thank you Mam but it will be fun."

"Call me Ana, no more Mam."

"Only if you call me Jason."

"Deal! Jason do you mind keeping everyone out while I speak with Christian?"

" Sure thing."

Jason leaves the room and I feel lost. I don't know what I should do. Sit, stand, dance and do a jig, follow him out, yell for him to stop.

"Calm down Christian."

"What?"

"You look like I am about to kill your cat. Am I that bad?"

"Hey you stole my line."

"I would like to apologize for my behavior last year. Whether I knew you were in the house or not I should not have spoken about you like that."

"Thank you, I get where you were coming from. Some of Mia's friends are social climbing whore's. You had no way of knowing that I was not like Lilly."

Anastasia starts to laugh and I can't stop my laughter.

"How about... we start over?"

When she suggests that I let out a sigh of relief. I didn't realize how apprehensive I was.

"Really?"

"Yes."

"I would really like that."

"Thank you."

Anastasia moves over on the bed and pats the end. She is so tiny that there is more than enough room.

She reaches for my hand with both of her tiny hands and wraps them around it. I can feel the electricity charging through her fingers. It is as if her fingers are thunderbolts and they are shooting straight threw my hand; Strange. I'm staring at our hands until she starts speaking and I look into the deepest blue cerulean blue eyes. I could get lost in these eyes.

"I would like to thank you for everything you have done for me but mostly for Jaxson. Grace was just filling me in on what has been going on and I am beyond grateful. If someone had asked me if I thought you would be the kind, caring, sensitive type I would have said no way. You were the last of the Grey's that I thought would be sitting vigil next to Jaxson's bed."

For some reason that critique is heartbreaking. I was sure that I didn't have a heart but now I know differently. I should never have let myself become so close to him, to anyone. This will only end badly. She isn't going to let me see Jaxson. I need to get out of here. I can't listen to anything else she says. I go to pull my hand away but she tightens her hold. Why is she holding my hand, is it to lighten the blow? I wonder if it is like when you break up with someone in a public place so they don't make a scene. Once she shouts my name I am pulled out of the abyss that is my self loathing subconscious.

"CHRISTIAN! Christian, you didn't hear me. Sorry I raised my voice but you looked like you were caught in a dark place."

She isn't wrong. My subconscious can be darker than any alley in Detroit or any one of her dungeons. What did I miss?

"I'm sorry what did you say?"

"Breathe and listen!"

As nervous as I am I must smile when Anastasia's mom look is aimed at me. For once it isn't the angry mom look, it is the 'everything will be okay' look. I remember seeing that all the time. Grace and Carrick would be angry at whatever I did but they were always sure that I knew I wasn't being sent away. The first time Elliot and I got in trouble for breaking a vase I thought I was being sent back to Detroit.

I take a deep breath and look into her eyes again.

"I said that you, Christian Grey, were, as in past tense the last person I thought would be sitting by my sons bed. That I was completely surprised to find out that you had not only stayed with him but that you have also become very important to him. I am guessing that the feeling is mutual?"

"Yes."

"No mother wants to be separated from their child and the thought of being away from him while he needed me and was calling for me is heartbreaking. I have been comforted by the fact that he has not been alone. I had envisioned Grace or Carrick sitting by Jaxson. Kate and Mia buying him way too many toys. Maybe even Elliot watching a movie with him.

Surprised is not the word I would use to describe how I was feeling to find out you have been at Jaxson's side nonstop. I was wrong to make an assumption. My daddy always said that you make an ass out of you and me when you assume. I'm sorry. I don't really know you but I would like to get to know the person that has been taking care of my baby. You have become his hero."

"Hero, me?"

You would think she had just told me that I had won the lottery. Not that I have ever played but who hasn't wanted to become instantly rich. I would be lying if I said I hadn't.

"Yes you, didn't you notice that everything he talked about was Unke Christian this and Unke Christian that? He looks up to you and not just because he is only three feet tall. He was really scared when we were trapped in the house. I hate that I couldn't protect him; that I couldn't keep Hyde from hurting him. Your security officers have given him the feeling of safety that was stolen from him. I appreciate more than you know and I will find a way to repay you."

"No you won't." Before she can continue I gruffly stop her. "I don't want your money." I reign in my temper before it gets the best of me. " Sorry I don't mean to sound harsh but I don't need your money. I have more than I could spend in a lifetime. Please don't worry about it."

"What do you want? I have been told that you haven't left the hospital since you arrived. I was less than pleasant to you but I didn't scare you away. While Jaxson is awake he wants a lot of attention or to play. I guess you could get work done while he was asleep but since you seem as worried as I am I doubt that. What is it that you want Christian?"

"Before this week I would have agreed with your assessment. I was even skeptical about the entire story when I first saw the gofundme page."

"Fuck, I completely forgot about that. I am going to kill Mia and Kate."

Oops I guess she forgot about that. Great job Grey. As she let's go of my hand I place my hand on top of the two of hers. The zinging and zapping is even stronger but I will have to explore that later.

"Anastasia, it is your time to calm down and listen. I would give you the mom look that you and Grace are so good at but I don't know it. I didn't know you, at least I didn't know that we were so well connected.

Before I forget John Flynn was by and he will be back later. He and Rain are very worried." She gives me that look that only makes me smile.

" Like I said I didn't know how well we were connected. I can't say that if we had met in the past three years that I would have behaved better than I did when Mia tried to set us up.

I can't apologize enough for that day. I really wish we could have had that first date. Maybe someday

you will do me the honor of going out with me. Until then I would like to prove I am worthy of being your friend and hopefully Jaxson's uncle.

I can't explain it but I feel connected to him. I know he isn't my kid but I feel like he easily could be. I don't know how much you know about my childhood but someday I will tell you everything and how that makes me feel attached to your son.

I just want to protect him. When he was crying I felt helpless. I couldn't do anything and my billions meant nothing."

"I would be honored to call you a friend and Jaxson already loves his Unke Christian. Thank you again for everything."

A Skype call comes through on the iPad.

"Hello Grace." Anastasia answers.

"Hello darling girl. How are you feeling. I hope my son is taking care of you." Thanks mom.

"We are just trying to get to know each other. How is Jaxson doing? I have been so worried. I can't stand the thought of being away from him."

" He has been asleep since Christian left. We gave him a breathing treatment while he slept and the new medication I discussed with you. I was even able to do the bandage change without waking him. Christian has arranged for a surprise, has he had a chance to tell you about it?"

"Another surprise? What else could there be?"

I really hope she likes this. "Mom do you want to explain everything before you wake Jaxson up? Once he is awake he will be too excited."

"Yes of course. Let me grab a few things."

As mom walks away she leaves the iPad propped up on its kickstand. It gives the perfect view of an angelic sleeping Jaxson. Obviously this was intentional because now Anastasia has the biggest smile on her face.

The iPad is placed on the rolling table in front of us. I probably should move off of Anastasia's bed but I can't seem to do it. Although we have moved a bit she is still holding one of my hands. She may not even realize it at this point. The feeling of our fingers joined together continues to course through me. It could be a fluke but I am not willing to take that chance.

Anastasia traces her finger along the iPad over the sleeping Jaxson. As if he could feel his moms presents his tiny frame wiggles a little in the bed and Mia comes into view. I didn't realize she was in the room but I am glad Jaxson isn't alone. Mia whisper something into his ear and he quickly stands up. With assistance from Mia he gets out of bed and runs off the screen. Once he is out of sight Anastasia looks at me with sadness in her eyes but hopefully this next surprise will help that.

"I miss him so much."

"I know." Nothing seems adequate so I just pull her closer into my side to try and comfort her the best I can. We just stare at each other and I can't help but wish I wasn't so fucked up. I would just kiss her and the rest would lead to a happily ever after. Does that even exist? Before my internal battle can be decided a little head pops back into the screen yelling.

"Momma.. hi!" Jaxson is waving his hand so fast I'm surprised he hasn't started to hover off the ground.

"Hi baby boy. I love you to the moon and back."

"I wuv you to the Death Star and back."

I don't know what that means but it has me smiling.

"Unke Cwistian… hi! Where u go?"

"Hi buddy I came to check on your momma. I will be back soon. I have a surprise for you and your momma. Can you help me with it?"

"Uh huh… Auntie Mia says I special helper. I got new Thor jammies on, see?"

" They look amazing. I think you have a toy hammer too."

"Cooool!"

Without another word Jaxson runs off to Mia as fast as his IV Pole will go. I wonder how fast he is without that.

"Sorry about the delay. That took longer than I expected. Hello Jaxson how are you feeling? Can I check you out real quickly?"

"Yes, Grammies Gwace. Did you see my hammer?"

"You have Mjonlir. That is so cool. It is super strong just like you."

My mom never ceases to amaze me. She was able to answer questions about the Avengers that I don't know all while checking Jaxson out and ensuring that his mother was calm and had all of her questions answered.

"Alright, Christian arranged for his team, child life, Elliott's crew and a host of others to work together to make rooms in the pediatric floor interactive. Each room has ipads and very large screens. The rooms are being fitted with system to change the rooms colors with a projector, video games, educational games. With their direction every child's room will have the latest. The rooms had been remodeled recently but it was more for the medical side. They were aesthetically pleasing but they didn't really help the children. The new upgrades will allow to distract the kids while they heal."

"That is amazing Christian what a kindhearted thing to do."

"Thank you."

"I help?"

"Yes buddy. Can you hold onto Grammys hand?"

"Where is he going?" Anastasia starts to get worried. I guess she forgot that she is watching everything he does.

"It is a surprise. Just watch."

The iPad follows behind Katherine, mom and Jaxson. Mia's voice can be heard as she carries the tablet. Jaxson stops to high five and fist bump each of my men. He calls each by their new superhero names and when he meets two that he has not met yet he stops to decide what name will fit. A few questions later and we now have Aquaman and The Flash added to the team.

The walk has taken almost thirty minutes and they are only going seven rooms away from where they started. Once the doors open Jaxson starts to squeal in excitement.

Anastasia gives me a questioning look.

"The room has all the same things that will be put into the rest of the pediatric department but this room is double the size. It is made as a family suite for when family members are brought in together. This way they don't have to be separated. I have sponsored one and I made a few calls so the others are also sponsored by prominent members of the community."

"The rooms have been set up in a way that it won't matter what insurance the family has or even if they have insurance. The room is to make families feel better by being together. A child can't heal if they are crying for a parent and a parent won't heal if they refuse to go to their room because they don't want to be separated from their child. This room has been sponsored by a very special family. They will also be they first patients."

Mia zooms out and next to the door is a plaque that reads.