Wow... a lot of people actually like this... Uh, thanks guys. Here's an update.

Someone protect John from my depressing writing.


February 13th

I haven't been to the coffee shop since the 22nd, and I haven't actually stayed to finish my drink at my table in even longer.

I'm not actually avoiding you. I know it may seem like it, but that's not it.

I'm avoiding the possibility of you rejecting me.

If only I could avoid my thoughts as well….

Most of the time I can ignore them, I just distract myself with my art or music.

But I can't escape the nightmares.

It usually ends with you stating I don't deserve you.

I wish you were wrong.


Have you even read the texts he sent you?!

(Next chapter will be up soon. And this is also on Wattpad btw.)