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Besoss!

Chapter 9

Can I ask you a question?- The brunette finally asked.

Shoot- Arizona said giving her ex wife a reassured smile.

…

Do you ever feel like...you know, sometimes I wonder if we were 'it' for each other. I just want so badly Penny to be the one, you know? But I… I think you ruined me for everyone else- Callie said letting out a nervous giggle - Do you ever feel like that?

I do. Sometimes I hate that it didn't work between us because I know I'll never love anyone the way I loved you but…I have hope. I have to! How sad would be to think we'll never find the right one at the end.

Could that person be Joanne?- Callie said with a mischievous smile.

Ha! Good try!- Arizona said - I don't think so. We're just having fun. She isn't staying that much.

She was your first love. You never forget your first love. Maybe, she is the one for you. Trueeee loveee, soul mates reunited at the end and all that crap!- The brunette said in a mocking voice.

All that crap? Where is Calliope Torres and what have you done to her!- Arizona said skeptical about the way Callie was talking.

Yeahh, I hate cheesy nowadays.- She said giving Arizona a fake lips smile.

I had true love and I screwed it up– Arizona said almost knew she was exposing herself by saying this, but Callie was opening up to her so she felt the need to do so ,too.-You were the one for me, soul mate and all that crap. -She said with a small smile.

WE screwed it up. – Callie clarified, taking part of the guilt in their failed marriage. - … you think I was the love of your life? Or you think it's still out there waiting for you?- Callie asked sincerely, interested in the blonde's answer .Arizona looked at her for a second and then said squinting:

Is this a trick question? – She wasn't sure what Callie was expecting her to answer.

Not at all, it's like … I wanted Penny to … is Ok if I talk to you about this?- Callie asked before keep going and Arizona nodded encouraging her to continue - I wanted Penny to be that person, like… I needed her to be. And, after all this time, I know you were the one for me, too. I know you're the love of my life, I've never doubted it, but I needed to feel about her at least, a little close to the way I felt about you… I tried so hard to feel it– She paused for a second and then said- The thing is… I'm lost. I love Penny, I do, but I just don't love her like …I don't feel it, you know? That thing in my stomach?… heart speeding up when I see her or… I don't know, I've been here for almost a week, and sure, I miss her, but is not like I'm dying to see her... you know… all that stupid stuff you feel when-

When you're in love … - Arizona cut her off.

Yeah… - The brunette said and there was a silence for a minute.- Like I felt with you the moment I met you.

I do know you are the love of my life, too- The blonde finally said with a small smile and Callie's eyes lit up a bit at the confession. Knowing the blonde feels the same way it was, somehow, comforting.- But just because we didn't work, it doesn't mean we'll never fall in love again… right? I'd like to think that there is someone out there for me.

Joanne?- Callie insisted.

Callie! You are obsessed! Why?

You kidding? She is hot as hell! Tall, green eyed, skinny, you two look so good together… ugg god I hate her- Callie said laughing to soften her words because, the truth was, that she really dislikes the woman, she can't quite relate the feeling that was reappearing in her, but it was there.

You're crazy. She is stunning, I'll give you that, but our relationship, if we can call it like that, has an expire date and I'm totally okay with that. We're having fun, reconnecting with that part of my past, you know… when I was young and dreamy… is good, it brings back a part of me I thought it was lost.

I haven't seen you this happy for a long time. I'm glad she makes you feel this way.

She is not … I mean, she sure contributes with my happiness, but the true reason I am this cheerful all the time? is because you are here. I mean, with Sofia… because you are here with Sofia. – She stated emphasizing in Sofia.- When Sof isn't here I'm not like that all the time.

Well then, you'll be happy for a loooong time now, because she isn't going anywhere.

I'm also happy because we are doing this. We are talking. Really talking. -Arizona said with a huge smile showing Callie she really means it .

I know. I'm so grateful for it. I want you in my life Arizona. I never wanted for us to grow apart. I know it was necessary in order to move on but… I healed and you are important to me. I really want you in my life and I hope we can build a true friendship with the proper time.

You mean a lot to me, Callie. Of course I want you in my life. You will always have a part of my heart.- Arizona's last words slipped out of her mouth and she would have regretted if it wasn't because she saw Callie's eyes filling with light after what she said, her smile could've brighten an entire room. Then, she knew Callie feels the same because her ex- wife's eyes show everything is in her heart.

Maybe we weren't meant to be together romantically speaking, maybe we can do better as friends?- Callie said, wishing Arizona still wants this to happen.

I hope so. We're getting there, I guess?

Joanne will be Ok with this?- Callie jokes again, she can't help the need to know if the blonde and the hottie were going somewhere. Like a confirmation this new relationship wasn't serious enough…but, why? Why she needs so badly to know…?

I take it all back. Keep your distance. – Arizona saidfurrowing her brow, joking.

They stayed sitting next to each other without saying anything. It was a comfortable silence. So much awkwardness has been between them for years…now, they feel kind of peaceful in each other's company. No need to make small talks to cover the silence. It was getting late and both were feeling sleepy but none of them had the slightest intention to move from the couch.

I'm not in love with her. – Callie said out of the blue– And I'm still thinking of going to New York and make it work. When did I become a person who just settle? – Shewonders,looking deeply into her empty cup of tea. As trying to find the answer in the bottom of it. Arizona didn't say a thing. She didn't think Callie was actually expecting her to answer , just need to let out everything she was feeling.

She is a good person. She deserves better than what I have to offer.- Callie continued – What should I do?- She finally addressed the question to the blonde.

I don't know, Callie. I don't think I'm the right person to talk about this.- Arizona said honestly.

You're right. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable - Callie apologized to her ex- wife who quickly added:

No, no it's fine. It just, I don't feel in the position to give you a good advise in the matter. All I can say, based on our own records, - She said smiling- Talk to her. Tell her how you feel. Don't keep it from her and I'm sure everything will be fine.- Arizona said and took Callie's hands in her own to give her the courage she was needing.

Right the second Callie felt the contact, a shiver run through her entire body. She hated this was happening to her. Why is she feeling this with Arizona? Why can't this happen when Penny touches her? She hates the feeling, hates that she knows the feeling. She has felt it before. Only with Arizona. Arizona. Is always Arizona. The pediatric surgeon has moved on and so has she. Right? Or she thought she did? Shit. Shit. Shit. We're becoming friends, just getting there. She can't let this happen. She won't lose what she just got. She won't ruin her new relationship with Arizona. But.. Will she be able to be friend with her? Yes, yes, totally possible. They haven't been this close in years. Haven't been touching each other for this long in years. That's all. Just... keep it cool.

What she didn't know was that the blonde sitting right next to her was also feeling the electricity running trough her body, her mind wondering the same things over and over again. We're over each other. We're friends, we are co- parenting, we're good. She kept telling herself while Callie softly lay her head in Arizona's shoulder. Crap. Crap. Crap. I won't screw this up, too. Be cool, be cool. Friendship is all you'll ever get from her. And it's good. She slowly started to relax and lay her head in Callie's. They had been talking about their feelings, she was sensitive. Those feelings are in the past. They were talking about the past. Yes, it's just a little bit of melancholic, that is all.

They stood in this position for a few minutes. In silence. Both of them were waiting for the other to move but either of them did it.

Don't fall asleep on me- Arizona said in a whisper with her eyes closed.

I won't- Callie replied softly. – I'm just resting my eyes for a moment.

Me too- Arizona said.

But they did. Those necks were gonna hurt in the morning.

During the night, both of the women have woken up several times due to the uncomfortable position, but not even once any of them woke the other to go to their respective beds or do anything to change positions.

They have finally been woken up at the same time for the light that was coming in from the living room's window.

Oh, I'm… I'm sorry- Callie said uncomfortable with the situation.

No, ummm, we fell asleep. Weird you didn't wake up at night, you have always been a light sleeper.- Arizona said, stretching her arms and moving her neck from one side to the other.

Umm, yeah, don't know. I was really tir.. Oh god! What time is it! – Callie just remembered she supposed to be boarding a plane today.

Relax, it's not even 8 yet.

I haven't made my suitcase yet and I have to go say goodbye to Sofia and and…

Callie! Don't freak out. You'll make it.- Arizona said, trying to calm down the brunette when a voice came out from the stairs.

Hey- Meredith saidand she was surprised to see the two women all dress up.- Have you been up all night? Or you like to dress like that in the morning?- Meredith asked Arizona, since she was at her own home. It was weird she was wearing last night same clothes, maybe Callie, but not the blond.

What? No, we just.. , we were talking and just fell asleep here.- Arizona said downplaying the issue.

Can we just stop talking and go to your house? I have a plane to take! – Callie said desperately, looking for her purse. She can't stand the idea of loosing the plane and take the next one. She has promised Penny she will be there for dinner and she wanted to keep it.- Can you call me a taxi, Arizona? Please?

I'll take you, Callie. I have to go for Sofia. Remember?

Right Right!

I'll make some coffee at my house while you prepare your things. Okay?- Meredith said.

They were heading to the car when Arizona realized she was missing something.

April! She is here too! I'll go for her.

No! I'm really late, let's just text her on our way!- Callie said, rushing to the car.

Fine. God, just calm down! – Arizona said, opening the door.

Yeah, Torres, I'm sure your girlfriend is just right where you left her- Meredith said winking.

Is not… ugg- she said puffing- just go, please?

Once they arrived at Meredith's they were met by Maggie who looked exhausted from the night before. Callie said hi rapidly and went to her room to get everything ready.

How was Sofia last night?- Arizona asked- Thank you, by the way.

They were all good. It was difficult to get them to bed, but I got it.- Maggie said smiling.

I'll go get her ready before Callie goes crazy. Excuse me.

Once Callie was ready, Arizona offered to take her to the airport so she can say a proper goodbye to Sof.

When you coming home mama?- Sofia asked. She had that sad smile that it's been on her face many times before when she had to say goodbye to her blonde mum.

We'll see each other soon, honey, I promise. You won't even notice.

I'll miss you

I know, babe, mama is missing you already. I love you so so much, you know that, right?

I know. Love you too-

Be good with mommy ok? I'll call you tonight.- Callie said, bending to hug Sofia. She knew this day was coming but it was so hard to say goodbye to her knew she will be back at Seattle, just didn't know when. And so she felt this angst growing inside her. She hates she's in this place right now in a completely unnecessary situation, because of herself. But she will make it right again. She will make her baby smile huge again. She promise.

Goodbye, Arizona- Callie said looking into blue eyes.- And thank you for listening to me.- She gave the blonde a huge, sincere smile.

I thank you. For last night and for this- She said looking down at Sofia.- I hope I see you soon- She said with a small smile.

I hope so, too- The brunette said and went to the gate to board the plane back to New York. To Penny. And she knew she was going to hurt someone she loves but also knew it was the right thing to do.

Arizona and Sofia stayed holding hands, seeing how Callie slowly disappeared of their sight.

She is back soon, mommy. She promised. Don't be sad. – The little girl has seen her mother's sadness and tried to cheer her up. Arizona wouldn't notice she has her eyes full of tears if it wasn't for Sofia's words. She wiped them away and said:

I know, honey, I know.