Hey peeps! How have you been? I know it´s been long since my last update, I´ve been on holidays for a couple of weeks, then back to study for finals and, to be completely honest I wasn´t quite felling it. I´ve fallen in love with Arizona and Eliza so deep that I found it difficult to be back in this story. I will always ship Calzona in a way, but not having Callie in Greys is making it difficult not to love how happy Arizona looks with Eliza. So, I´ll finish this story as I promised because somehow I can always watch some videos and be back into my Calzona feels again!

We´ll have one or two more chapter and it will be done!

Let me know what you think, please!

Chapter 16

So…-Callie said, taking a step back from the blonde so she could look her in the eyes, but still holding her close.- Have you… ummm… reached out to Minnick after I, well… you know.. kinda lost it back there?- She asked with a chuckle .

Kinda? - Arizona said, raising an eyebrow- I haven´t. Why?

Well, I was thinking… I was in the ped´s floor at that moment because I was looking for you. I wanted to ask you… I´ve been wanting to ask you on.. ughh, why am I like this!

Callie…- Arizona said, taking the brunette´s hands on her own. She knew what Callie was trying to ask. And she also knew why she was so nervous about it. Because she felt the same way.- if you are not sure abo-

No, I am. - She said. The last thing she wanted was Arizona thinking she has any doubt on the matter. She took a deep breath and finally said it– I´ve been trying to ask you for a while now, if you would like to go on a date with me. – She said with a shy smile.

I would love to! - Arizona answered without hesitation, with a bright smile and shiny blue eyes.

Oh, thank God- The brunette said and gave the blonde a soft kiss.

Come here- Arizona took Callie to the couch so they can sit and be more confortable. – You know, I´ve been also trying to ask you out for days. I was actually going to do it today, but you were very persistence of me going out with someone else…

Are you ever gonna let that go? - Callie said while rolling her eyes.

Someday…- She joked and by putting her hands on Callie´s cheeks, she brought her closer and kissed her again. They ached for each other´s touch. Callie´s hands were on Arizona´s waist, holding her tight. It had been so long since they have each other this close. They couldn´t have enough. Every time their lips touched, the world seemed to stop around them. Everything felt to fit into its own place. Nothing else mattered.

I´m really sorry about earlier- Callie apologized once again.

Yeah, I know.

I don´t want you to think I wasn´t sure about this, Arizona. Because I am. - The brunette said and then looked down to their hands. Their fingers were intertwined, they fit together so perfectly… and that gave her courage to be completely honest with her ex-wife.- It just that … I am just a little bit-

Scared. - Arizona ended the sentence for her. Callie looked up and was met with understanding eyes. – I know because I am scared, too. – She gave Callie a reassurance smile. They were in this together.

I know you are, Arizona. And that is what scares me the most, actually.- Callie sighed.

What you mean? - She said, not getting where the brunette was going.

I know you. Even after all these years. I know you. I know your fears. And I know that I am to blame for some of them. We are both scared, just in different ways. – Callie said and looked into cerulean eyes. Arizona was listening to her, carefully. She didn´t say anything guessing Callie hasn´t really finished yet and she was right, because the brunette was only starting. - I know that you don´t trust me.- She kept going- I gave up on us, on our marriage. And I´m afraid you won´t trust me again, so scared that you don´t want to give us another shot because of that, you are probably scared to get hurt and, don´t get me wrong, I am scared about that, too, but I have so many feelings for you, Arizona, I am willing to put my heart out there again for you, for us… and I hope, truly, that you want that too, but I know that if you are not sure you have all the right to be and I will understand.- She had let it all out. The ball was on Arizona´s court now.

Are you finished? – The Ped´s surgeon asked, not wanting to interrupt Callie, who clearly needed to take some things out of her chest. The other woman nodded in agreement.- If I wouldn´t want to try this again, If I wouldn´t reciprocate your feelings , why would I agree on a date?- She said smiling and quickly added- But you are right. I am scared of all those things you just said. You definitely know me, Doctor Torres.- The blonde said in a joking tone but Callie seemed truly worried.

So? - Callie asked with a sheepishly smile. They were still holding each other´s hands. None of them let go.

We have been through a lot, together. – Arizona decided to clarify things for her ex-wife, it was only fair she opens up to her just like the brunette did.- We have hurt each other and we have lost each other's trust. And when you walked away from our marriage almost four years ago, I thought I wasn´t going to be able to survive. And I´m not talking about keeping myself alive. I am talking about actually living a current normal life again. I thought I lost everything, and in some way I did. Because, even if back then we weren´t our happiest self, I was happy. I had you and Sofia, and that was all I ever needed. – She paused for a second noticing how Callie´s eyes were filling with tears. – Please don´t cry.- She said and kissed Callie´s forehead. Talking about the past was hurting but she knew the talk was much needed.

I´m okay, really. Keep going- Callie encouraged .

Deep down I knew nobody dies of a broken heart but I felt like I could. I missed you so much. And you looked so good , so fine without me – Callie was about to add something but Arizona didn´t let her- just hear me out, I realized then, that maybe I was being selfish. I wanted so hard for us to be happy together that I didn´t think much about our happiness as individuals. And I started to care about myself more. Just like you said in the therapy´s office. Stop thinking about fixing US actually helped ME. Slowly, I became myself again and I knew I could be happy if I let myself be. Now I can tell that I am. I am happy, Callie. I have been for a while. And I am scared of giving you my heart again because I know that it can go wrong. But it´s a risk I´m willing to take because you are willing to take it with me. And I know there´s nothing that we can´t overcome together. Anything at all.

I´m so in this, Arizona. – Callie said, sobbing.- I know that I can´t promise you that we won´t hurt each other again, but I know that we are going to do everything not to. I trust you with my heart because you are the one. You have always been.

All this time we spent apart have actually been good for us, don´t you think?

I do. We have to talk more, Arizona. I think this has been the very first time you´ve actually talked to me about how you felt back then.

I know. You know how hard it is for me. But I´m trying.- She said - I think… I think sometime we don´t need someone to fix us. We need someone to just to be there with us while we fix ourselves. I hope you be that person to me, Callie.

I will. I hope we never need to fix anything, though.- The brunette said with a small smile.

I have no idea how we got from you asking me on a date to practically read vows to each other!- The blonde said with a giggle.

And I was going to tell you we should take it slow!- Callie laughed and Arizona joined her. They looked at each other and they knew there was no way they will take things slow. They have wasted time enough being apart. Being scared. They had too much history to start from the beginning but that didn´t imply they couldn´t start a new and fresh chapter and hopefully, with a happy ending.

When the laughs subsided, Arizona caressed Callie´s cheeks with both hands, cleaning them from the dry tears. The touch was so soft and showed how much the blonde cared. Their locked eyes never broke contact.

I´ve been happy too, you know? - Callie said while her fingers run through blonde hair.- but it always felt like something was missing. I didn´t feel complete. Not without you. I liked being your friend, I could´ve lived like that as long as you were part of my life again, not only as Sofia´s mom.

I liked being your friend, too - Arizona said and smirking she added- but this…this feels much more right. And so much fun! - She said and kissed the brunette strong enough to make her lay on the couch and got herself on top of her.

Oh! That´s a smart move- Callie´s said between the kisses Arizona was giving her not just on the lips but the cheeks and the forehead, all over the brunette´s face. The blonde finally stopped and looked right into brown eyes.

I´ve missed you so much, Calliope, I won´t stop kissing you for a minute. – She said with a smile that touched her eyes, showing off those beautiful dimples that Callie loved so much.

God, that smile of yours is gonna be the death of me- The brunette pull Arizona near her again and kissed her passionately.- I´ve missed you, too .And wouldn´t stop kissing you either if it wasn´t because I have a surgery in… Holyyy shhit! 20´minutes!- She said and startling Arizona, she got out from under her.

I´ll drop off Sof around 7 tonight, see you there? – She said while heading to the door.

Maybe you can stay for dinner? I´m not done with you, yet.- The blonde said playfully.

I´d like that. And we can arrange our date, too. Gotta run, bye.

Good luck with the surgery!- Arizona almost yelled because Callie was already out of her sight. She stood there for a second to compose herself from what just happened. Half an hour ago she was convinced she has mistaken Callie´s feelings and now, she was talking about relationships and stuff with her ex wife without even having a first date yet. It was too much to digest, but one thing was for sure. She wasn´t going to let Callie go away ever again. Thinking that you had true love and lost it forever and then having another chance? There was no way she was going to screw it up again. Not in a million years.