Chapter 6
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Clary POV
"Umm… Hi…" I say a bit awkwardly as Jace open his bedroom door, he is shirtless and it's 3 in the morning. I wasn't really expecting him to open it but when he did I forgot everything I was going to say. I fiddle with a loose string on my t-shirt and look away from him, waiting for him to say something.
After a while he just backs up and shuts the door. The confusion and hurt is written all over my face. My thoughts are a blur, first he kisses me and now he's shutting me out. I sink to the ground with my back against the wall. No matter how hard I try I feel the tears roll down my cheeks.
I race to my room, hoping nobody saw me. I'm sick and tired of him. I thought he wanted me but then he just shuts the door on me. I lie on my bed all night and at some point, I drift into a restless sleep.
I wake up to the sun streaming through my window, I sit staring at my door. I don't want to leave cause then I have to face Jace, but I also don't want to give him the satisfaction of watching me cower in my room all day.
I storm out of my room and go to find some food.
I'm about to walk into the kitchen but I hear Jace's voice, I spin on my heel about to leave but instead I hide, trying to listen to his conversation.
"I don't know why I did it!" Jace says angrily, I feel so mad at those words that I want to run in there and strangle him
"Because you're in love with her." I hear Izzy say and my cheeks heat up a bit
"No! I'm trying not to be." Jace says loud at first and then his voice softens with surprising gentleness
"Why won't you accept your feelings for her." Izzy asks again. When he doesn't speak I can imagine her pressing him for an answer
"Because, I don't want to interfere with her life, she is moving on and can do so much better without me." He says after a long time. His words make me mad again, he can't decide who is good enough for me and who isn't.
I'm about to leave after that when I hear his footsteps coming towards me and before I can get away he turns the corner and sees me.
"Clary!" He says sounding shocked. His eyes bore into me and I feel like just running away
"I was just coming to get some food." I say as frostily as I can, hoping he doesn't realise I was listening in on his conversation
"Oh, okay." He says and pushes past me
"Did I do something wrong?" I say angrily before I can stop myself, he keeps annoying me by just shutting me out
"Yes, Clary you are driving me insane." He says louder, frustration coats his face
"I'm driving you insane, because I totally just shut doors in your face!" I yell back my temper getting the best of me
"Clary, I have done so many things to hurt me why do you still even care about me?" He asks, quieter now and I can hear a tinge of sadness in his voice. He looks away as if he doesn't expect me to answer
"That is what love is Jace." I say quietly and walk away.
He doesn't come after me
Jace POV
She still loves me.
I walk to my room in a daze from Clary's last words. I shut my door in her face and I'm trying so hard to annoy her. I just want to her to move on with her life and not stop it for me. Other people can give her way more.
"I know that your thinking that Clary can do so much better." Alec says leaning against my doorway, I open my mouth to protest but Alec continues. "Jace you're still in love with her to that's why you want her to move on because you care about her."
After Alec leaves I sit for awhile rolling his words over in my mind, I do love Clary, I shouldn't but I'm insanely in love with her and there is nothing I can do about it.
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