Chapter 19: The untrodden way
6th December, 4.59 AM (Tougasa Mountain) Takeru's POV
Just like me, everyone else in the squad has finally noticed the distinguished noise of jet engine reverberate in the air. It was to be expected, since all of our TSFs were in stealth mode. The source of noise could obviously come from none of ours machine.
With a quick scan using our TSF's radar, the source of that noise was immediately revealed.
"Friendly aircraft?" Tsukuyomi muttered confusedly sensing something wrong.
"The Imperial Army's 671st Air transport Unit? Nobody said anything about this…" exclaimed Major Walken in a perturbed voice
"Why are they here?" Marimo wondered
Without sharing data link with the base, of course this time Marimo wouldn't know anything regardless these troops. But, as I has expected, everyone reacted to the airborne allies in a similar manner like the last loop.
Then suddenly, those transport airplanes appeared on our camera dropped dozen of Shiranui around our troop and formed encirclement as they reached our supply point.
Bewildered was probably the best word to describe everyone's expression right now. Even without connect to our Yokahama base's data link, everyone in my squad could tell that these troops have arrived unnoticed and unscheduled.
"To the UN Army Commander. I am Sagiri Naoya from the Imperial Mainland Defense Army's 1st TSF Armored Regiment."
With a single transmission, everyone was stunned. Of course, I too was stunned slightly but for a different reason compare to everyone else. We were now in the hand of the rebels and in the hand of the rebel leader to be concreted, just exactly what Yuuko sense and I have in mind.
"Cease all combat operation immediately. We do not want a fight. Repeat, cease all combat immediately"
If there was a single person who unperturbed among our group at this sudden turn of event, it would be me. I am sure that even someone as unnerving as 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi will be disturbed to some extent. How could this happen? Yes, everyone must have that question in their head right now. Another 70km, we will be safely and soundly escorted back to Yokohama base with our base's fleet. Yet, we were now surrounded by the enemy's blitz.
"We have had reason to rebel and now we stand on opposing sides, but we do not desire conflict. We have come for Her Highness, who you have unceremoniously tried to take away. This is rather forceful for us, but… I propose a sixty minute ceasefire starting immediately. We offer this ceasefire in the name of Her Highness Koubuin Yuuhi. We will not break it During that time, we wish you to calmly reconsider what you are attempting to do against our country, and the situation it faces, then take the most realistic and sincere action possible. I will call you again on all channels in sixty minutes"
The content of Naoya's ceasefire speech was exactly the same as the last loop. This proved that he was still absolutely unaware of the assassination aimed at Yuuhi during this coup. Then, once again, the incident relate to those assassins will make it a tough job for me to wrap things up from here. Unlike the last loop, I don't expect Marimo and Tsukuyomi will trust Naoya's word so easily this time.
While the rest of our squad remained in their TSF, I was called to disembark and directly gathered up with Major Walken, Marimo chan and 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi.
"The insurgent ringleader appear in the front line and declares a sixty minute ceasefire... it has to be a trap. It's just too unnatural." Major Walken raised a point
"…The enemies who attacked Hiyakawa were simply meant to buy time and force you to split up your battalion" Marimo replied
"And behind them, our allies are approaching through Old Shimoda. It's not a good strategic assessment" Major Walken said
"I doubt it but… they suggest a ceasefire because there is no risk" Tsukuyomi replied
"…What do you mean?" Major Walken turned his head at the Royal Guard and asked
"Since they have jammed all possible communication and information links between TSF wired, we can only guess the state of affair behind us" Tsukuyomi said
"Are you saying our reinforcement from Tokyo have been wiped out? That the Americans in Old Shimoda wouldn't move even though our markers have vanished?" Major Walken glared at Tsukuyomi and asked with his voice clearly show a hint of irritation.
"The possibility exists" Frankly and coldly came 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi's answer
"But, it's only a guess. Most likely, they've called this ceasefire… in order to kidnap the Shogun. They would try and ambush us with foot soldiers rather than TSFs" Major Walken voiced his suspect "Considering how long it would take their infantry to march to the TSF in question, sixty minutes is an appropriate time frame."
"…"
"…"
My fear came true. Neither Marimo chan nor 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi rebuked it. They definitely would, if it wasn't for those assassins. No, in fact they did, but in the last loop. Damn, what should I do? Even when both Marimo chan and Tsukuyomi san trusted Naoya's words as Japanese soldiers, the incident on the Izu Skyline messed it up. They were both obviously confused whether to trust Naoya or not.
"Can I have a word?" I couldn't help but open my mouth.
"Shirogane, do not interrupt the Major, know your plac…" Marimo scowled.
It was obviously unbecoming of me to cut in during Major Walken's speech. I am currently but a cadet who has no voice or power whatsoever in the chain of command. My words hold no power here. The only reason I was summoned here with them is because I am Yuuhi's coachman. Therefore, I am allowed to listen to more direct and classified order.
I butted in before Marimo finished her sentence "Thank you for your permission Ma'am. I know that I cannot prove this, major, but they will uphold the sixty minute ceasefire"
"Shirogane…" Marimo glared at me. She must be surprised at this rebellious side of me.
"What make you think that they will uphold their promise?" Major Walken gestured Marimo to let me continue while looking at me and asked.
Searching the right words inside my mind, I started to speak with the strongest conviction I could mutter "They, the members of the Imperial Army promised on Her Highness's name, it is virtually unthinkable for them to changing their mind now."
"I agree. Those men and women have risen up out of lamentation for the state of the country and the position of Her Highness has been placed in. They would not dare out to shame what they have worked so hard to achieve. However, we…" 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi said while locking her sharp gaze at me
Once again, I cut in before Tsukuyomi san could finish while looking at her eye to eye "However, how do you expect us to believe them so readily after that assassination attempt on the Izu Skyline a moment ago, right? Is that what you meant 1st Lieutenant?"
1st Lt. Tsukuyomi answered me in form of a glacial glare while Marimo chan darted me an unbelievable look. They probably didn't believe that I have a nerve to taunt the Royal Guard Commander in this kind of situation
"Assassination…?" Major Walken widened his eyes and asked in an incredulous tone "Why didn't I hear anything about it?"
Turning my head at the Major, I answered "Sir, our squad retreated with our data links disconnected to the HQ as you know to prevent leakage of data. Thus, that information didn't log into the data base yet. More importantly, we came across a group of 16 Eagles who attempt to assassinate Her Highness during our escape on the Izu Skyline around an hour ago. But, I believe that they belonged to another faction who unrelated to the Imperial rebel"
"Explain it, cadet" Major Walken narrowed his eyes and ordered
You have scratched where it itched, Major Walken. I have been thinking a lot about that incident during our one hour travel. Even without Yuuko sensei backing me up with her intel, I could still make you trust me to some extent.
"Yes, sir. Firstly, those assassins were all equipped with high ballistic capability missiles in order to wipe out our squadron. Their equipments are all Sweeper and Blast Guard packs. But, those equipments give them no room for pinpointing and hunting. Those equipments didn't support chasing and sniping escaped targets in another word. Wouldn't it better if they had Flash Guard and Strike Guard packs equipped among their formation? Even with such firepower, the chance for some of us to escape their assassination attempt is not nil. Besides, I didn't see any additional ambushers or chasers along the way. It meant that they didn't mind letting some of us escape during the process. However, it was a contradiction that if they want to assassinate the Shogun Her Highness, why did they risk revealing their identity in such manner? Furthermore, with only 16 TSFs, it was absolutely reckless of them to attempt an assassination on Her Highness with such number. Shouldn't they worry about doing it stealthily and leaving no trace and witness of that crime and use a large force to have us surrounded instead? If any of the survivors in our Platoon were able to make it to the base, the footage record of that incident will cause an uproar. All the rebel's effort up until now would be for nothing. They will be condemned by the whole Japan, no, the whole world as first class criminals and traitors for such an act. Therefore, those assassins didn't belong to Naoya's faction who rose up under Her Highness's name"
"I see your point here, cadet…"
"…"
"…"
One problem was dealt. Seeing nobody rebuked that argument, I continued "Secondly, we were all surrounded here with none of our information or communication links connected to our ally. The rebels could overwhelm us any time they want with their superior in number while wiping out any evidences of their crime at the same time. But, they didn't. Instead, they propose a 60 minute ceasefire which gave them no advantage at all in this situation. Our nearby ally could easily form encirclement around us and provide reinforcement any time soon. Other than getting Her Highness's acknowledgement, I don't see why they suggest a ceasefire in this scenario. Lastly, I believe that they wouldn't risk sending infantry to capture Her Highness in this case. They can't commit such a dishonored act since they have promised this ceasefire under Her Highness name. Even if these troops worked for Naoya, they might revolt against him if he was to give out such order"
"Hmmm… for a cadet in training, you are praiseworthy." Major Walken nodded his head while looking at me as if he was evaluating my worth
"Sir" I saluted. It is only normal if even 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi and Marimo was just as astonished as Major Walken Even I was quite surprised at myself for being able to come up with those arguments.
Then, Major Walken turned his head at Marimo chan and 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi "We will uphold the ceasefire. All units, maintain your current positions. Her Highness will disembark from 06's TSF and get some rest."
"Sir"
"Sergeant. Prepare yourself for an infantry ambush, just in case. The 207th Platoon will guard Her Highness" ordered Major Walken
"…you want the cadets to be the one to guard Her Highness?" Marimo asked while doubting the order. I know it was rather absurd for any of us cadet to take such an important role. She must worry sick hearing that order from Major Walken
"…Sergeant, the Major is telling the cadets to rest while they can" 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi said while clasping Marimo's shoulder. "Major, my unit will also disembark from our TSFs and patrol the area"
"Very well. Perform your duty as Imperial Honor Guard" Major Walken nodded his head at 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi and said
"Sir" Tsukuyomi saluted and walked toward her post
Bowing down her head at the US Major, Marimo said "Major I thank you for your consideration"
Once again, nodded his head lightly, Major Walken said "The situation will only get worse. Do not disappoint us"
"Sir" Marimo saluted and then connected her intercom to the rest of squad 207th's member
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Thankfully, Major Walken, Marimo chan and 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi bought my explanation. If it wasn't the case, I might as well use one of Yuuko sensei's underhanded tricks that she had me prepared for this kind of scenario… But, thank god, they all persuaded. I need not resorting to any of those. Persuading others with hardened logic is definitely not my cup of tea, but to trick others is also not what I desire either.
I and the rest of the girls in my squad were currently guarding the area after disembarked from our TSF. It was really better for us to walking outside after several hours staying inside our TSFs. The cold breeze in the air help me feel more awake than ever while somewhat relieving some fatigue inside. On a side note, I have taken a dose of stimulant just in case. Several hours of piloting was strenuous task even for someone like me. It was rather unconvincing if I was to tell anyone else that I was affected by all of this fighting. But, it was how the rest of my squad members saw me when we were disembarked. Unnerving, headstrong, possessed the nerve of steel. I didn't quite believe it that I actually exude that kind of aura. But, that was how most people saw me. Meiya once told me that I am the center of the group, their source of confidence and mental supporting. That's why I have to be remained stronger than anyone else. That's why I am not allowed to be weak. I have to remain calm and strong until this coup end. I was the one who responsible for this choice I made.
On the other hand, once again, Naoya was pushed into a desperate fit by the Valkyries where he was forced to use an aerial assault in order to capture us. But, that desperation outsmarted any logisticians on our side whether it was UN Army, the American or the Imperial Army. Since this aerial support unit came from Atsugi Base, Naoya's troops have to crossover the UN and American navies while risking themselves get shot by our ally's fleets and Laser Class BETA from Sadogashima. Nobody could ever expect an aerial assault could be used in this kind of situation. If we considered all the factors involved in such a daring move, it was obviously Naoya who was in the disadvantageous position. Even with the help of Yuuko sensei who provided them the concrete information of our supply point in this Mountain Tougasa, it was rather unbelievable for anyone in our side that Naoya could actually capture us in such a reckless strategy. But then, this time, the rebel even had Yuuko sensei supported them from behind the scene by manipulating the Intelligence of various forces, there was nothing impossible about it. She has every single combatant, strategist on all sides dance on her hand unknowingly.
However, the most impossible about this plan is that Yuuko sensei actually willing to support me in this kind of reckless gamble. Putting oneself in the hand of his enemy was probably the most stupid thing that one could probably make. But, Yuuko sensei was actually more cooperative more than I thought in this matter. It was just like how she recklessly put our squadron of all the squadron to secure the Shogun. I had a gut feeling that aside from this matter, she definitely scheming something. Because the only reason I could think of why she would support me in such a reckless plan is but to avoid a time paradox… That's why it was impossible. Knowing Yuuko sensei personality, a schemer like her wouldn't do things in such manner without get something in return. But, still, to get ourselves captured by the enemies is a move beyond recklessness. However, this time, we were much prepared. Even we were captured by Naoya's troops, it doesn't mean we must dance along to Naoya's and this coup d'état backstage mastermind's tune. It was they who were dancing in Yuuko sensei's palm unknowingly.
"Shirogane Takeru" a cold voice addressed me from behind
"Yes?" I turned around and saw Kamiyo the 1st idiot stood behind a tree while staring at me with a glacial glare.
"Come with me. Hurry, Her Highness has summoned you" said Kamiyo
This early? It hasn't been 20 minutes since our disembarkment… It meant Yuuhi has finally decided her course of action.
"Roger" I replied and followed Kamiyo without any further question
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After following Kamiyo's footstep for a minute or two, I apparently arrived at the summoned point. Yuuhi was standing regally in an area where she was illuminated by a silver light of the moon that pierces through the thicket of leaves above us.
"Your Highness, I have return with Shirogane Takeru" Kamiyo reported while bowing at Yuuhi.
Yuuhi lightly nodded her head and said "Well done, you may leave us"
"Ma'am" replied Kamiyo as she immediately walked away afterward.
Once Kamiyo was out the earshot, Yuuhi gestured "Shirogane, come here…What is it? Be at ease!"
Scratching my head, I asked "Excuse me. Your Highness, did you have some need for me?"
"Yes... But before that, I wish to apologize. It was because of my weakness that forced such unneeded labors upon you all. Even so, placing you cadets at the heart of this affair is truly shameful of me, even if it did remove the ravage of war from the capital" Yuuhi said while bowing down her head
Faltered by the unexpected action of Yuuhi, I immediately reply "Your Highness, this is a part of our mission of the UN Army. Don't worry about it. Besides, I wasn't a good escort at all."
"You are too humble. You may have made a mistake… But, it turned out well. I thought that if it wasn't for your rash decision, the situation could have turn for the worse"
I had a similar thought. But, it would be absolutely imprudent to voice that aloud. Hearing it from the person whom I escorted is rather relieving. "Thank you for your kind word, Your Highness"
"And yet… even without the black Armored Suit and the Type-94 Shiranui, nobody would believe that you were actually just a cadet. That thought has never crossed my mind until I heard it from the UN Army's commander herself."
Crap. Darn right. My Exo suit is a black colored one for commissioned officer instead of a white armored suit of a cadet. Furthermore, my TSF is a Type 94 Shiranui of a front line Eishi instead of a Type 97 Fubuki for training purpose. I have never made it clear "Sorry for not making it clear. The supply for White armored suit for male cadet is always low. Thus, I was given the color of a normal soldier would have. And I was currently a test pilot for one of my superior's project. Therefore, I was given a Type-94 instead of a Type-97"
"I see… hearing that and watching how you piloted your machine, I now understand why Yoroi chose your TSF"
"Thank you very much… Your Highness, you said you called me here for something…" I immediately change the subject. It was fortunate that the beast sleeping inside me hasn't awakened from its slumber until now during this coup d'état. No matter how much people praise my piloting skill these days, I only feel scare. I wonder what they would think of me once they discovered how hideous I could be once I enter that trance like mode Murasame. I am hundred percent sure that if Yoroi Sakon know that side of me, my TSF would be the last thing he would let Yuuhi embarked on.
"Yes. I have something to ask of you"
"What is it?"
Yuuhi pulled out a doll and put it in my hands "… Please give it to Meiya"
"…" It was the same old handmade doll that Yuuhi gave to me last time
"This is the proof that I have spent time with her…even it was nothing but a few days" Yuuhi looked at the doll as if she reminisced of the past.
"I see…" I couldn't find any appropriate reply for that. She must feel conflicted of wanting to give it to Meiya herself… but then, once again…Meiya has never accept a gift from her.
"This is the one thing I chose to bring with me… I want her to receive from the one she has opened her heart to… if it was you, she would accept it gladly." Yuuhi insisted
"You could have called her here and give it to her in person…, couldn't you?" I asked while holding to the doll. I could tell how important this doll is to Yuuhi from the way she treat it… It was the only object that has the memory of Meiya and Yuuhi being together.
"…Mitsurugi Meiya has no twin sister and … so does the Shogun" said Yuuhi. Her voice was full of resolution except it was imbued with sadness.
No use talking about this topic as it is now… These two have long hardened their feeling in this matter. Even they have mutual feeling and understanding for each other, they would blatantly deny it despite their inner conflict. They've both been born with burdens and duties that they have to uphold for the rest of their lives … I could probably never understand this …
"…Understood, I'll make sure Meiya get this" I was even surprised at myself for able to utter those words.
"Thank you" said Yuuhi as she lightly bowed to me
"…Is there anything else I could do for you?" I asked as I put the soft doll into my survival kit
"…No, actually, I want to hear the rest of your story in which we were interrupted a moment ago" lightly shook her head, Yuuhi said
"Ah…" I would have totally forgotten about that if Yuuhi didn't remind me. But, it was quite unexpected that Yuuhi could be this persistent about it. "Where were we again…?
"You said you felt guilty of betraying everyone's trust in you, but you didn't feel guilty of committing those act of betraying everyone's expectation." Yuuhi said while looking intently at me.
"Right... I know my action was wrong, selfish, naïve… I betrayed everyone… Yet, I didn't feel guilty about that even one bit. It was already a contradiction that I who feel guilty of betray everyone's expectation actually didn't feel ashamed of committing such acts"
"Why is that?"
"It was because my own selfishness that…"
Suddenly, Yuuhi grabbed my hands tightly and looked intently into my eyes "It wasn't what I want to hear. Shirogane, you didn't feel ashamed of your action because you looked at the situation from a different perspective compare to everyone else. You feel guilty of failing to answer to everyone's trust because you know that everyone wouldn't agree to your action. Shirogane, why are you fighting? What is your goal? Say it Shirogane… Or am I really unworthy of your trust?"
Yuuhi's presence was overwhelming. Her warm and soft hands that hold onto my hands tightly gave me no room to back away. Her crystal clear and resolute irises allowed no lie.
Lightly shook my head to deny Yuuhi's previous statement, I answered "Your Highness, I have fought longer than I could even remember… I have been fighting without a goal, looking for one, found one, losing it and regained it. It was almost an endless repetition process. I couldn't tell whether I was cursed or blessed, fortunate or unfortunate… But one thing for sure, 'Human's total victory in this war' was always my only unchanged goal … It is still true now. It is still my long term goal now, at least… During the time I fought, I broke many precious things and loss so many invaluable things without even realize it. Only after I have truly loss them, I realized how much they meant to me. They were my treasures, my precious, everything I live for. I am willing to lay down my life protecting them any time… But, I am not allowed to do so. I could not do that. I must not do that. I have a duty to fulfill; a duty and responsibility that I couldn't let anyone else shoulder it for me, a duty and a task that I must see through the end… Therefore, I couldn't always act according to my selfish wishes ... Hearing something like that from a mouth of a cadet is rather unbelievable, isn't it Your Highness?"
I couldn't help but asked those ironic words since what I have spilled sound absolutely egotistical and conceited. How could a cadet and a nobody like me could ever in that kind of position? I talked as if I was burdened with responsibility like that of Yuuhi.
"No, it wasn't" Yuuhi's voice betrayed my scornful question. Her answer was strong, resolute and sincere "No, it wasn't…"
I couldn't tell what kind of expression on my face right now hearing that from Yuuhi. A happy smile? A crooked smirk? A sad grin? Nevertheless, my mouth must be stretching in a crescent shape. Paused for a while, I then continued my rambling "A person I knew once told me that I have outstanding skills and abilities. And one day those skills and abilities of mine will put me above other… I didn't believe it at first, I thought she was simply praising me… But, her words came true even faster than I have ever expected."
It was what Yuuhi once told me in the last loop. I don't know how or where she got those impressions from. But, she was scarily dead on. Before I even realize it myself, I was burdened with many responsibilities. "She also taught me that to stand atop other people is to bear a great many responsibilities and hand down a great many decisions. That's why people, organizations and governments have different beliefs and ideals depending on their positions. When one wishes to do something, there are inevitably some who see it as good and others who see it as evil."
"She must be very close to you, isn't she? The person who told you…" Yuuhi asked
"No, she actually wasn't." Scratching my head to hide my own embarrassment, I smiled and feigned ignorant. 'It was you, Yuuhi who told me that.' Well, it's not like I could tell her something as absurd as that. I wanted to ask her how on the Earth she came up with that question; it didn't connect to my rambling at all…
"I have met her only for a short while. And I don't even know how she arrived at those points. But, I was saved by her words many times. When my reason was crumbled, my hope was crushed, when I have lost faith in my choice and path; those words saved me. I might not able to move on if not for those words of that girl. She taught me that if I was able to place myself in different positions, then all of the different ideals, beliefs will appear to be right. She said there may not always be a path which satisfies each and every one of their wishes. And when I was in such a situation, even when I couldn't rely on what I have been relying or I have strayed from my path… I must have the courage to stand still and look back at how I arrived at where am I… Never hesitate to stain my own hands with blood, if I showed other the ways, I must never avert my eyes from the weights of responsibilities"
"…"
"But…"
"But...?" Yuuhi parroted
"I told you, didn't I? I have broken many precious things with these hands. I have broken them beyond repair… They were however my only treasures and what define who I am… But, after arrived at this point, I couldn't hesitate choosing between them and my own goal. If I was to act selfish, I couldn't bear to look at people around me. If I was to act as such, I would trample down every sacrifice I have made and everything I have fought for including people who gave me their lives believing in me… That's why I am still fighting… But I am now fighting to protect everything I love, to regain what I have loss, to repair what I have broken and to atone for my own sins. But…but, more than that, I want to seek a way to save all and satisfy all other's wishes. I don't care if people called it naïve, greedy, or foolish… No matter how uncertain and thorny this road can be, I want to see it to the end. I will betray everyone's expectation and trust in me if I must. I don't even care if I must walk this path alone all by myself. If I must stain these hands, I will. Even if I was to see as evil and be damned by everyone else, if this path could protect them, if to betray meant to protect, I will not hesitate one bit"
"Shirogane… then why do you feel guilty of betray everyone's expectation on you if you had that resolution?" inquired Yuuhi with her eyes still locked at my own. She didn't look satisfied with my answer at all.
I didn't expect that question one bit. Yuuhi can be really sharp and forceful in her own way. "…People around me were exceptionally strong, mentally and physically. They were so strong that I felt sorry of my own weakness, and yet I didn't. They all prepared to sacrifice their lives, their treasures, their love ones, their precious for a greater good. They all had that kind of resolution."
When I said people around me were exceptionally strong. I was of course referring to Yuuko sensei, the Valkyries, and my squad mates. Yuuko sensei strength was beyond description. She has that kind of resolution to sacrifice anything she has to achieve her goal, to ensure humanity survival. If she must sacrifice half a billion of the population in order to save this Earth, she will do it without hesitation. If she must sacrifice her humanity for her job, she will do it without wavering. She will feel remorse later, but only after she had her goal achieve. The Valkyries fight for to ensure Yuuko sensei's ALTERNATIVE IV success. They fight protecting their friends, families, dreams, loves and themselves. But if they need to make a sacrifice among themselves, they will make that choice with slightest hesitation. If their death could ensure the success of their operation, they will do it with pride in their chest. The girls around me were too, strong in their own way. They were willing to lay down their lives for their belief and for the sake of their love ones.
People told me that I am strong. The girls in my squad, Marimo chan, captain Isumi, and several people I have known all told me that I am strong. But, I knew more than anyone else. I am not strong at all. Compare to people around me, I am not strong at all. Meiya once asked me "why are you so strong?" At that time, I was unable to answer it, since I am only strong in the eyes of others… But now, my answer to Meiya's question would be "Because I am weak." It was neither the unbending will that I possessed nor the gift of piloting a TSF that I was blessed with that made me strong. It was neither because I have a noble goal nor I have something to protect. I am strong because I was weak. It was just that ironic. Outside, I am strong and dependable more than anyone. Inside, I am but a weak, soft and naïve human.
There was nothing more frustrated than being powerless. In this world, being powerless, being weak is a sin. Compare to Meiya or Ayamine, I was a walk in the park for them when it came to CQC. When it came to sniping, I was but a bubble in the ocean compare to Tama. If talking about survival, Mikoto outdoes me by a fair margin. When it comes to logistic, it wasn't a metaphor if people call me a monkey if they compare me to Chiruzu in term of intelligence. Comparing mental strength between me and Yuuko sensei, it was like egg and stone. That was what I Shirogane Takeru once was when I first came to this world; weak, pathetic, unsightly, powerless. Because I was weak, I loss many things, I failed to uphold many promises, unable to protect anything… That's why I-Shirogane Takeru was always living a life of a cornered animal that on the verge of despair no matter how many time I looped. That must be undoubtedly the strength that everyone has seen in me… a desperate strength of a cornered human.
The strength of people around me made me envious. I want to become as strong as them. No, even stronger than them, strong enough that I could protect them and everything that I treasure. But, ironically, the stronger I become, the more I understand of my own powerlessness. The more power I possessed, the more sacrifice I must make. Same goes for my will, I always thought that if I had a strong will, unbendable, unshakable, and indestructible like diamond itself; I could protect what I meant to protect. Yet, ironically, again and again I was proved to be wrong. Against the wheel of destiny, neither my will nor strength has what it take to protect things that I treasure.
"I am but a weak human… I am neither strong nor smart. That's why I wondered if everyone's choice was correct. I wondered if the people around me were really just as strong as I thought. I wondered if they could make those choices readily because they were strong or if it was the exact opposite. They chose to sacrifice things that they treasure and love because they were… weak. They made those choices because they were powerless and unable to make an alternate choice... I knew that there may not be a path that satisfies all and truly without sacrifice. But, I wonder if I was stronger, so strong that I could create a path such that it would satisfy all. I wondered if I was stronger I could make an alternate choice, denying and defying the might of the wheel of fate… However, I am neither strong nor smart. That's why I am not even sure that my choice was the most correct answer or not. I am not sure whether such a path even existed or it was just an unreachable dream, an ever distant utopia… But … whether such utopia truly existed or not, I want to see it with my own eyes. I want to prove that even I am but a weak and naïve human, I can defy against my own fate... Therefore, I'm putting all of my chips into this pot. Losing is not an option anymore…" I clenched my fist tightly while thinking of the price I had to pay to reach this conclusion.
"You weren't sure if the choice you made will lead to a better result compare to everyone else's. You didn't actually believe that your choices were correct. Your choice risked ruining the great many decisions and future of others. Yet, you still wish to see your path through the end even if it's mean to trample over the wish of others. That's why you feel ashamed of taking those actions while betraying everyone's trust in you, right?" asked Yuuhi
"Yes. Even if I wasn't sure if my decisions were better than others, I still wish to see such path till the end no matter what" I replied.
It was weird. I could never ever spill these words out so carelessly in front of my squad mates, Marimo chan, the Valkyries, Kasumi, or Sumika. I wasn't so sure if I could let these words out in front of Meiya who I could find best to share my thought… Though, talking this out really make me feel somewhat better. I must really bottle it up for a while. Still, I couldn't believe that I actually talk it out with Yuuhi of all the people I knew… No, maybe because it was Yuuhi that I could say those words out this easily. She exuded the aura of such.
"I see… I feel like I have a better understanding of you now Shirogane. I now understand why Meiya put so much of her trust in you …" Yuuhi smiled and nodded lightly without turning her eyes away from mine.
"Your Highness…?"
"Shirogane, I believe that I couldn't help you to answer that question. I am also not in a position to judge whether your choice is correct or wrong. You Shirogane must find that answer for yourself. Otherwise, your efforts and sacrifices until now would be for nothing." said Yuuhi as she slightly increased the grip on my hand.
"It was my choice and my responsibility." I firmly replied
Yuuhi continued speaking while nodding her head "I don't know which direction this road you chose will lead you to. I could not predict whether it will lead you to your dream or perhaps your demise. However…, if you had the resolution to walk this path, you must always have the resolution to not averting your eyes away from your sins and responsibilities as the price of betraying everyone else. You have to bear the weight of your decision and the result of your choice. Nevertheless, you should not ashamed of your choice… didn't that girl taught you that different people have different belief, when one sees a belief as goodness; other will see it as evil… But more importantly, because you are placing yourself in a position even above the above by walking this path, you must have a more resolute determination than anyone else. Shirogane, you may be isolated from people who trust and love you just by walking this path. You may have to deceive and betray them along this path. But, you must never waver; you must never hesitate to make choices that you had firmly believed in regardless the situation."
It wasn't just an advice. The words that came out of Yuuhi's lips actually sounded more like an absolute command. Each and every word held tremendous power and weight.
"Yes, Your Highness"
"One more thing, Shirogane. There was something that you have mistaken"
The serious and stern expression on the face of the girl who was grabbing my hand suddenly vanished. However, in contrast, the fire that has hitherto danced within that girl's irises suddenly flared up even more intensely.
"Mistaken…?" I couldn't help but faltered at the girl's words
As if she has anticipated my state of confusion, Yuuhi slightly squeezed my hands as her lips formed a mysterious smile.
"Yes, there was one thing that you have been mistaken about. Even if you become stronger, it won't guarantee that you will able to make a better choice or you could protect things that you meant to protect. No power came without a price or without a responsibility. Thus, power can be a device for you to attain your goal, but it can also be a shackle…"
"…"
How could I ever forget about that? Power can be a shackle… That's right. Yuuko sensei and Yuuhi were the best example for that. There were many things that only they can do because they were the one who has the authority and power… but on the other hand, there were many that even if they wished for; they couldn't due to the authority and power they wielded.
"… you understood it, didn't you Shirogane?" Yuuhi asked as she slightly tilted her head
"…I do" Those two words softly escaped my throat as I couldn't bear to continue to look into Yuuhi's eyes… If it wasn't power, then what is it? I was so adamantly thought that… Then, what was it that I have missed, what was it that I have overlooked?
"…Your Highness…?" This time, I was completely surprised by Yuuhi's behavior… She lifted my head up using her delicate hands until we saw each other eye to eye once again
"Shirogane, there were certain things that could only be created from hope. If it wasn't for the light of hope, those certain things could never have blossomed…"
I am well aware of it. It was hope that drove people to die, to fight and to live. Hoping that one's death can protect something worth protecting, one could sacrifice his or her life without hesitation. Hoping their strength can contribute something to the mass, one can fight with all he or she has. Hoping to see a better future, a better tomorrow, one could endure even the darkest and coldest time of the night to see the first light of dawn... But what does it have anything to do with me?
As if she could read my mind, Yuuhi said "However, there were also certain things that could only be born amidst despair. Even within the darkness, there were fruits and flowers that can only grow within the darkness…"
…I, too, perfectly understood it without the need of anyone reminds me… But why Yuuhi was talking about it? What does it has anything to do with…?
"That's why I believed that if it was you, it will work out in the end…"
"Eh…?"
It was a rather ambiguous statement. How should I interpret it? I am not even sure how to respond to it.
"Shirogane, do you know that you have a very sad pair of eyes? Until now, I have never seen such pair of eyes… It was as if they are painted black with despair and sadness. Yet, even it was fainted. There was a stubborn ember of hope radiates within your irises that refuse to resign to despair… I find it is very intriguing that…"
"…" Yuuhi was the first person who tells me that… Wait, didn't Meiya one told me something similar about my eyes? Well, it's not like I could actually look at a mirror and stare into my own eye to see whether their claims were real or not. But, what do my eyes have anything to do with my objective? I still do not get what Yuuhi is trying to say at all.
"Shirogane, you said your strength was that of a desperate person who were pushed into the corner, didn't you? Why did you think it was like that, Shirogane? Did you perhaps thinking that the naivety and compassion nature you possessed and are still possessing is weakness? Well, I will not argue that those emotions will hinder your decision… But, do you know why people kill off their emotion and shred away their humanity as they shoulder lives of other human? The weight of taking one's life is really heavy. It was because they would not able to retain their sanity if they were to make any sacrifice. If one continuously making such cold blood decisions while retaining his emotion, his mind would break in no time. Thus, if one shoulder light, one will not bear the burden of darkness. And vice versa, if one shoulder darkness, one shall never bath in light. But, you Shirogane didn't shred away your emotion, your humanity or compassion even as you were forced to make those tough choices. Why Shirogane? Wasn't it unbearable? Wasn't it tough for you to live on with those burdens on your shoulders and your heart? Why didn't you just cast those emotions away and saving yourself from some pain?"
"…because I am a… coward" replied I as I tried to cast my eyes down to avoid Yuuhi's gaze. But, it was all but useless attempt. I do not have enough power to averting my gaze away from the girl who sitting barely within less than a meter in front of me.
There was a significant change in the mood. Yuuhi now has an extremely displeased look on her face. Her gaze which has calmly fixed at me from the beginning now meticulously embeds at me with disappointment and anger. I will not even surprise if she is going to slap me here and now.
"Then, you are just plain ignorant or … you are really stupid, Shirogane. Isn't the reason that you didn't cast off those emotions which you see as weakness, clear as daylight? Isn't that because you…" said Yuuhi as her voice was trembled with anger.
Then, before I could bow my head and apologize without a single clue why Yuuhi was angry because of that single line; Yuuhi suddenly lowered her head and apologized "Please forgive me, Shirogane… for overstepping my boundary… it is not my job to tell you that. I do not possess the right to do that. Once again, I beg you forgiveness. Please do your best to figure it out on your own, the answer for that question."
"…" Whatever words I tried to say died down in my throat. Perhaps I have really disappointed and angered Yuuhi with that previous careless answer. But I'm more surprise at Yuuhi's continuously unexpected behavior. We were exchanging words normally a moment ago, then suddenly she was angry and then suddenly she was back to normal... What's on her mind? It's not like I understand why such a line of mine can provoke such an emotion from her. But more importantly, why did she say that she was in no position to tell me…? I could understand the reason why she said the same thing when she was talking about my objective and choice… but why now? What did she mean…?
"… Shirogane, if you think you are weak, you are wrong. I can assure you that much. You are strong"
There is no wavering, no doubt, only conviction. It was that kind of declaration. Why? Why does she put so much of her trust in me? Why can she so sure about that? I am barely able to do anything at all. I am not strong at all. If I am strong, I would not let Marimo die under my watch. If I am strong, I would not run away to my original world to escape reality hurting Sumika and killing Marimo in the process. If I am strong, Captain Isumi and Kashiwagi would not die at Sadogashima. If I am strong, I would not have to run away watching Hayase die protecting me. If I am strong then why I watched people I love died one by one unable to do anything. If I am strong, then why I pulled the trigger that end the life of the girl who told me that she loves me above anything.
I do not know what was it that gave Yuuhi such idea from reading my eye, my expression or my speech until now. It's weird. It's…just plain weird. We have just met a moment ago. We barely talked…much less spend time to understand each other. Why? No, I should have asked how she could put so much of her trust in someone … much less someone like me.
"You are one who has understood the true meaning of despair. Yet, all I see now is but a man who still stubbornly refuses to succumb to that poison till the end. You said it's tough for you to betray people's trust in you. You said it's painful to make sacrifice. Yet, your eyes tell me that you will do it regardless without forgo your emotion or your sense of remorse… The way you burdened yourself with both light and darkness on your shoulder is the best proof of your strength."
How could she say it with such certainty? I who plunged my head blindly into an untrodden path of no turning back was never worthy of such a trust. I who will betray and deceive people for my selfish goal should be damned. These hands of mine were stained with blood of many and will even spill more blood in the future, not for someone's sake but for my own sake. How could she look at me in such light?
"Even if you do not trust in yourself, you have my absolute trust. I have faith that you will make your dream come true one day" Yuuhi declared in a tone full of conviction.
I was completely flabbergasted. My mouth opened, closed, opened, closed and opened without the ability to produce any coherent word. I wanted to scream aloud "Do not trust me. Do not look at me with that kind of eyes. I am the one who should truly be blame for this coup d'état. I am the one who pushed everyone into this bloody mess." But, in fact I didn't voice out any of those careless words. To get the Shogun's trust was also one of my mission's objectives. It means I must continue to deceive Yuuhi until the end.
Damn it, for God Sake. You are the Grand Shogun of this country, why are you so gullible? Why can't' you understand that I am just tricking you? Why can't you understand that I am the true mastermind behind this coup d'état?
"I have faith that if it was you, even that strangely naïve dream will not… be farfetched as everyone thought at all." the girl who still looked deep into my eyes said that with a smile on her face.
That was when I felt something inside me was broken. My heart tightened as if it was prick by needles. That trusting smile, those kind words of the girl who I barely know anything about, discourteously invaded and changed something inside me like a masterful hijacker. And thus, my reason was bent. My thought disjointed. I became the slave of that smile and those kind words of hers.
Immediately, I kneeled one leg on the ground with my head bowing to the Yuuhi. It's weird. Just a moment ago, I was so conflicted with different thoughts. But now, funnily enough, deep inside my heart, there is but one and only one single absolute commandment.
"Your Highness, I will do my best to meet up with your trust" said I.
No cloud of doubt, no more uncertainty, no more self ridicule. The only single commandment that I must obey at all cost is… to prove this girl's trust with my own action and determination.
"…You're welcome Shirogane. It wasn't much a help though. This was the least I could do for what you had done for me and Meiya."
"… I wasn't able to offer that much help to you or Meiya either … Actually, Your Highness, there is something that I want to ask of you. It was something personal…" I actually think that Yuuhi has exaggerated it. I was neither a good escort to her nor someone who could help Meiya that much. I was unable to fulfill my promise with Tsukuyomi and Yuuhi to keep Meiya safe the last loop… This time, I almost failed to ensure Yuuhi's safety with my recklessness. And here I am, still have some nerve to ask her another favor after what she has done for me…
Blinked her eyes once, Yuuhi asked "Is there something else I can do for you? Just speak up Shirogane"
"Actually, my squad mates were all heavily involved in this coup to a certain extent…"
"Involved…?" Yuuhi asked as if she heard it wrong
"Yes… Our squad was full of people with complicated background… Aside from Meiya, there is also the daughter of Prime Minister Sakaki, chief Yoroi's daughter, the UN Undersecretary Tamase's daughter and general Ayamine's daughter."
Yuuhi gasped in surprised. Her eye wavered for a moment, and then she muttered incoherently. "To think that… such a thing…"
But, need not another word, I could still understand what's in her mind right now "It wasn't your fault Your Highness. All of us were proud to be chosen to play such an important role in this operation…"
"Thank you Shirogane. I know what I should do now. Please gather everyone here. From the UN Army, the US Army and the Honor Guard. Tell Major Walken it is an order from me"
Without voicing my wish aloud, Yuuhi has already understood the favor I want to ask...
"Understood. Please excuse me" stood up from my seat, I lightly bowed and acted as ordered.
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"Salute" Major Walken ordered once the rest of our troop arrived at the summoned place and we obeyed. "Your Highness, I am honored to have an audience with you. I am Major Alfred Walken, of the United States Army 66th TSF Armored Battalion, and field commander of this mission."
Just as I remembered, Meiya was assigned to a guard position by Marimo to avoid the US Army realizing her background. Many of the US officers, too, were assigned to guard in the surrounding to avoid unexpected infantry from the rebels.
"Major Walken, I apologize for summoning everyone here in the midst of such an emergency" said Yuuhi
"Regretfully, I didn't not fully comply with your request. Forgive me for leaving a small number of us on patrol duty"
"You need not concern yourself so. I understand your mission"
"Ma'am… I'm grateful for your lenience"
"Major Walken, as the Grand Shogun of Japan, I wish to express my gratitude for what the American Army has done today." Yuuhi said as she bowed her head before Major Walken.
Several gasps were immediately heard. People around me were stunned by the turn of event as the Grand Shogun herself just bowed her head in front of the American Commander. Giving her position in this world's Japan, she was considered as a queen of old or a living god. That's why such a humble act shocked everyone. The Shogun lowering her head in front of ordinary soldiers is just unthinkable. Even someone from a different background and culture like Major Walken understand how unthinkable such action Yuuhi is taking right now.
"Such graciousness… Your Highness, there is no…" faltered Major Walken
Cut in with godspeed before the faltered US commander could finish his line, Yuuhi once again bowed her head before the rest of the US troops who were summoned. "I also wish to express my gratitude as the Grand Shogun of Japan for the dedication and courage of all these American soldiers have shown"
"…"
The US troops once again were stunned due to Yuuhi's unexpected action. It was like one surprise after another.
"Major Walken, would you mind if I speak to your subordinate?" Yuuhi asked while taking full control of the conversation.
Immediately, Major Walken bowed his head. Then, he lifted his head up and replied proudly "Those words alone are more than enough Your Highness. Facing hardship for the world order and unity of all nations is the duty given to us as member of humanity and citizens of the United State."
Major Walken is still just as proud of his duty as I remembered. To live his life fighting and serving his country and his people to the fullest no matter what. I could only somewhat understand that mindset of his to a certain extent since I don't have that much patriotism myself. But, I wonder if Major Walken has realized that he and his comrades were being deceived and used as pawns by those people who orchestrated this coup d'état on the US side. I am sure that the US troops which were sent here fighting and dying on this battlefield had no hand in planning this coup d'état. They were just tools and pawns for those who have ranks and power. Those who did the planning are still safe and sound behind the scene, waiting for their war spoilt... Perhaps, the Major has already realized it since he has climbed his rank to a Major… But then once again, even he understood that he was used, he would continue to serve his country to the utmost while believing his action would be the best for his people. That mindset was somehow similar to what I and the Valkyries have in common in giving our lives and accomplished our mission to the fullest.
"We are soldiers who've sworn our loyalty to the United State. Our bodies and souls exist solely to complete the missions given to us. No matter what, the forces under my will not fail to bring you back to Yokohama Base. If you would allow it, I ask that you instead honor my subordinates by praying for their success." said the American commander.
Instead of saying no to the Shogun's wish, Major Walken rephrased his words to save grace for Yuuhi. I don't know why he did that. Perhaps, my speculation was true. He was actually aware that the US ALTERNAIVE V supporters were one of the people who responsible for this coup d'état. That's why he felt somewhat guilty and reacted in such way. Or perhaps, I simply thought too much about this subject. The Major probably didn't wish any of his subordinates to get distracted while they were still on duty.
Given her position in this world's Japan, for Yuuhi to lower her head indiscriminately to all of the US troops within the vicinity was more than just incredible. Even though I incredibly respected Yuuhi for being able to do that; Marimo, my squad mates and the Royal Guards must find this was really hard to stomach given Yuuhi's position in this world's Japan. That's why for Major Walken to able to say no to her wish, I don't know who is actually more amazing.
"I understand. I shall be in their care" answered Yuuhi in gratitude, courteously accepting the American commander rejection.
"Yes, Ma'am. You may depend on us." saluted Major Walken
Yuuhi nodded her head graciously "Now then, Major Walken, I wish to speak to the UN Army field commander"
"Yes, Ma'am. Sgt. Jinguuji" Major Walken replied and called Marimo.
Immediately, Marimo stepped forward in front of the Shogun and salute, waiting for her order,
"What's your full name?" Yuuhi asked
"I am Sergeant Jinguuji Marimo of the UN 11th Pacific Army's Yokohama Base." Marimo replied with a salute
"Sergeant Jinguuji, as the Grand Shogun of Japan, I wish to express my gratitude for what the UN Army has done today. It must have been difficult to run this operation with a training squad until the American Army arrived"
"Ma'am, I am unworthy of such an honor" lightly bowed her head, Marimo answered.
"Are these the Eishi under your command?" Yuuhi asked while darting her eyes at us who stood behind Marimo.
"Yes, Ma'am. These six cadets are part of the Eishi Training Squad 207. They are all Japan nationality."
"Taking on such difficult mission with a squad of cadets… must be very trying. The present disorder in my country is all because of my incompetence. I offer you my sincerest apologies for you are a part of, and protect my country" said Yuuhi. Then before Marimo or any of us could say anything in reply, Yuuhi bowed down her head.
Yet, another awe stricken sight for everyone, this time, the Shogun herself has just lowered her head toward Marimo and us- cadets. Even this is the second time I have this experience, it was still priceless to see how everyone was speechless and shocked several times in a row by Yuuhi's action. They are after all unlike me, they were raise and born in this world Japan. Therefore, to have the Shogun lowering her head at them was unimaginable.
Everyone was faltered and stumble at the sight of Yuuhi lowering her head to us. None of the girls could even muttered one coherent word as the result.
"Your Highness…" Tsukuyomi immediately stepped forward and tried to lifted Yuuko's head up looking dissatisfied as if the Royal Guard commander wanted to remind Yuuhi of her stature as a Grand Shogun. It could be still acceptable when Yuuhi lowered her head toward the American soldiers, but now, she was lowering her head to us, cadets… it's really understandable if Tsukuyomi would have such a dissatisfied look on her face.
"It's all right. Stand back Tsukuyomi" Yuuhi lifted her head up and ordered her Guard.
"Ma'am" Tsukuyomi bowed and followed her command
"Sergeant Jinguuji, may I speak to your subordinate?" asked Yuuhi
"Yes, at you will" Marimo saluted as she stepped out.
Then gracefully, Yuuhi walked her way toward where we were standing. She was exuding an overwhelming present that I couldn't find an appropriate word to describe. It was completely different to how Yuuhi was talking with me. Every action she took, every word came out of her lips remind people of whom and what position she is in, a Grand Shogun and a sovereign of a country. It was like we were originally living in another word
The first person Yuuhi approached was class rep, since Class rep was the first in the line because she was our squad leader.
"What's your name?" asked Yuuhi while looking intently at the person in question
"I'm Cadet Sakaki Chiruzu" loud and clear came class rep's answer as she saluted to Yuuhi.
"I see… Sakaki Korechika dono has always been a loyal retainer of mine"
"Heh?" class rep was apparently shocked. She didn't expect something like that from Yuuhi's lips at all.
"He is a great man and an exemplary statesman, always concerned with where Japan was headed, performing all task with an admirable effort and without personal bias. I have learned much from such a role model as Korechika dono." Yuuhi said as she looked deep into class rep's eyes
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"I… am very thankful of such words" Chiruzu's voice was adamant as she responded to Yuuhi. But, inside that strong and resolute voice, there was a tinge of emotion of what people would recognize as being moved or getting emotional.
Chiruzu always believed that her father was not a traitor of the country… no, she wanted to believe that her father is not a traitor to be more precise. Even knowing that her father has evaded the assassination attempt which was plotted by the rebels, she wasn't happy at all. It was definitely a relief knowing her father was safe, yet, at the same time, it was unbearable to hear his name was tainted and was labeled as one of the traitors. Because he was the same father who has neglected her and her mother for work. Whenever and wherever, work place or at home, working hour or non-working hour, the only thing existed in the mind of that man was his duty. His family was secondary to that or perhaps tertiary? He was the same person who Chiruzu both loved and hate so much. If it wasn't for his neglecting, her mother would be still alive… Why such a person like that, her father who has throw away everything for his duty a traitor? Chiruzu could never accept that. But, ironically, Chiruzu recognized that it was very bias of her to see her father in such light... She only knew the man Sakaki Korechika at home… But, what has he been doing until now? Chiruzu has not a slightest idea. What he has in mind? What does he want to achieve? Those questions asked by Takeru made Chiruzu painfully understood one fact that she doesn't understand or at least put effort to understand her father at all. She was his daughter, yet, he was like a stranger to her. It was one of many reasons why Chiruzu disobeyed her father and enlisted herself in to the UN army. However, that was why Chiruzu feel scare. What if her father was really a traitor? What if… no… she couldn't possibly think of her father who sacrificed so much of his life for his duty was actually someone who betrayed this country for his personal gain.
But, because Chiruzu was his daughter, his blood ran deep inside her, she wasn't able to make a correct and logical stance. Chiruzu was smart, that's why she was aware of it and understood the reason why she believed in her father. Even if she doesn't understand a single bit about the man who is her real blood related father, Chiruzu always believe that her father was not a traitor. That's why, Chiruzu was scared. She realized that she couldn't bring herself to believe her father could possibly secretly betray his country. However, it wasn't because Chiruzu could understand his motives, his sacrifice, his effort… but it was simply because she was his daughter. She wholeheartedly believed in her father just because… he is her father. That was all. No concreted proof, no evidences, no logical reasoning, nothing to support her belief at all… That's why even as Takeru told her that he believed in her father, Chiruzu was still felt insecure. In the deepest corner of her heart, there was always a shadow of doubt creeping around. Chiruzu was more than worry… She didn't what would become of her if her father was indeed a traitor… how she would come to face it… if her father really betrays this country… then her mother's death would be for… nothing. She Chiruzu herself has enlisted in the UN Army for…nothing.
But now, it has disappeared without a trace. The ugly, hideous and distorted trace of dark thought that has been hitherto haunted Chiruzu has totally vanished. The Shogun has just erased the biggest doubt inside her heart with just a few words.
"I give you my deepest thanks for the great efforts you have made, and the responsibility you have endured amidst deep worry" said Yuuhi as she put Chiruzu's hand in her grasp.
"Your words are wasted on me" said Chiruzu with a slightly trembled voice. She was completely overwhelmed by the Shogun's word, but not from the power and authority that lie within the words themselves but from the kindness and appreciation.
"Please continue to endure it for a short while longer. The name of Sakaki Korechika dono will be cleared once this ordeal is over"
"Yes, Ma'am" replied Chiruzu, strong, resolute and proud.
Nodded her head, Yuuhi moved to the next person "What is your name?"
"Maaaa'am, I'm Cadet Tamase Miki" stuttered the girl who looked more like a mascot than a soldier. She was also getting emotional from seeing Chiruzu's face that was on the verge of crying. The girl was trying to dispel her state of emotional as she barely able to respond to the question of the Shogun.
Just like Chiruzu, the small built girl has her share of worry of her dad who also heavily involved in this coup d'état. The UN under secretary was one of the people who responsible to give the right for both the UN Army and the American Army to intervene in this coup d'état. However, unlike Chiruzu who has to pretend acting strong and collected for the sake of squad 207, Tama could only pretend to act normal like how she always was… But, it was almost impossible for her. She is someone extremely compassionate. While worrying about her father involvement in this coup d'état, Tama was easily gotten distracted by many thing. Chiruzu was in so much pain and yet she still has to act tough. Meiya's face always had that stern and sad expression from the eve of the coup. Ayamine too, whenever the words "rebels, traitors, Sagiri Naoya" were mentioned, she has a very conflicted expression on her face. Takeru was not any better than the rest of her friend. He was somewhat tougher and looked so unfazed by the situation… yet through Tama's vision, his face and expression grew darker and darker as time pass. Seeing such unbearable expressions on her friend's faces and unable to help them was painful for Tama. But what drove Tama to the verge of despair… was the thought that because her dad decision and action that her friends and her mentor were involved in this coup d'état; because her father, more blood was shed; because her father, people were still fighting and dying even now…
Unlike Chiruzu, Tama could understand her father really well. Ever since her mom passed away, her dad has devoted every single second, anything he could afford for Tama. That's why, Tama could understand her father well enough from his dream, his passion, his decision to…his train of thought. That's what made Tama really anxious and somewhat guilty at speaking with her friends… even though she wasn't there to see if it was really her father who actually went such length to bring both the UN and the US army into this coup, Tama was quite sure that her father has a hand on this mess. Because the response of the UN and US army were way too fast, it was as if everything has been laid out from the beginning that once the coup would start, the joined Army of the UN and US forces was already ready to intervene. And knowing her father personality, he will drag the UN Army and the US Army into this mess… But even if it was meant for the sake of this land, such actions of her father will undoubted spill more blood than necessary, whether it was Japanese or foreigners.
"Are you the daughter of Tamase Genjousai dono?" Yuuhi asked softly as she looked at the faltered girl.
"Your Highness… you know my father?" Tama timidly asked in return, quite surprised hearing the Shogun asked such a question.
Yuuhi lightly smiled and nodded her head "Yes, I have met the Undersecretary a number of times. Has he been doing well?"
"Yes, Just the other day, he came to inspect Yokohama Base, and he was really lively"
"That is good to hear. I have heard that being the UN Undersecretary is a demanding job. You must also worry about him."
"Yes…" Tama answered in a somewhat sad tone
"Japan's position in the war is of extreme strategic importance; hence the political climate of my country is incredibly complex. Thus, I can be sure that your father is often placed in a difficult position when he comes here. However, the good your father has brought this country through his tireless work has certainly not been small"
"Your Highness…" the small built girl could barely responded as she was overwhelmed with many emotions
"You must be proud of him just as I am" Yuuhi said as if it was a matter of fact
"Eh?" a surprised sound escaped from Tama's lips. Proud of her father? Of course, Tama was always proud of her father. Even he was always busy with mountains of work, he always tried to create some space to take care of Tama. In front of Tama, he always acted cheerful and spoiled her. Even as Tama enlisted into the UN Army and hardly has time to meet him, he still tried to keep in touch with Tama by sending her mails regularly. Sometimes, he mentioned a tiny bit portion of his job to Tama. It was nothing classified of course… sometimes, they could be failures, sometimes, they could be success… But, no matter what kind of result they were, Tama was always proud of him knowing he has tried his best. If only it wasn't any embarrassing at all, Tama could boast about her father all day long to her friends.
That's was precisely why cat got Tama's tongue when the Shogun asked her such question. How did the Shogun know? No, rather, what did the Shogun just say? She was proud of Tama's dad just as Tama was proud of him? The Shogun didn't condemn her father for bringing both the UN and the US armies into this mess? Well, she did say that the current political climate of Japan is incredibly complex… Did Her Highness the Grand Shogun implied that she respected Tama's father for the choices he has made?
"Is that not the reason why you are part of the UN Army?" Yuuhi asked
"Ah, yes, Thank you very much Your Highness"
Those words that escaped from Tama's lips were unexpectedly stronger and brighter than Tama could possibly expect. It didn't mean that Tama has no more doubt of her father involvement in this coup d'état. No, it was the opposite. She has just come to accept it. Whatever the choice her father has made, she was sure he made that decision knowing it was for the best outcome. Wasn't that was why Tama enlisted to the UN Army instead of the Imperial Army in the first place in order to follow her father's footstep in the future? What kind of daughter is she if she couldn't even believe in her loving father when even the Shogun of all the people didn't doubt his choice at all?
"It's very noble of you to choose the same path as your father in serving the international community. I give you my deepest thanks for the efforts you have made" the Shogun smiled and said
Now it was rather embarrassing for Tama. To have her dream spoken and praised aloud in front of everyone by the Shogun, it was perhaps the highest compliment she could ever get. She wasn't sure how the Shogun was able to read her so well, from her inner thought, her unspeakable doubt and even her dream. It was as if this wasn't the first time they have met.
Tama's face marred red as she only managed to respond after faltering for a moment "Th…tha…thank you very much…"
Grabbed Tama's hand while the small built was still faltered, Yuuhi held the girl's hand in a tight grasp and said "My incompetence has forced you to take on much responsibility, for which I am deeply ashamed…however, please endure it for a short while longer"
"Yes, Ma'am. I will do my best" answered Tama as she was incredibly motivated after directly receiving such words from the Shogun. Having the Shogun comfort and praise her didn't wipe away her anxiety, but, Tama definitely felt better.
Nodded her head in appreciation, Yuuhi moved onward to the next cadet in the line. She asked "What is your name…?" It was the same question that she has continuingly asked everyone until now. Except that, this time, Yuuhi asked while knowing full well the answer. The girl who was standing in front of Yuuhi bear a close resemblance to a certain subordinate of Yuuhi, to be precise, it was the man who was always walking at his own pace.
"Ma'am, I am Cadet Yoroi Mikoto" answered the girl
"Your father is …Yoroi Sakon dono, is he not?" asked Yuuhi
The girl's eyes widened and she immediately chirped from something unexpected "Eh? Your Highness, where'd you two meet?"
But then immediately, Mikoto shook her head and rephrased the question immediately seeing how foolish her previous question was "…I meant how do you know my father?"
That question she just asked wasn't meant to satisfy Mikoto's curiosity about how the Shogun knew about her father, it was meant to feign her ignorant of the matter and signaled that she didn't want to speak about this topic any further in front of her friends.
Unlike others, Mikoto's dad was a spy. That's why the less people knew about herself or her background, the better. Even Mikoto herself wasn't sure of her dad's real job, she even has no idea he was actually involved in this coup d'état just as much as her. No, it wasn't that she has no idea that her father maybe involved in this coup d'état at all, that thought has once crossed her mind but then it quickly vanished into iota. Of course, if one was to considered her dad's position and occupation as a Section chief of an Intelligence network, he will surely be involved in this mess whether he wanted or not. But, the less she knew about her father's occupation, the better. In fact, her father has never given her any hint of his secret work, not even once. That's why even if Mikoto knew of his real occupation, who was actually a spy, not a businessman, must continuingly pretend she has never realized it in the first place. That's what it meant to be the daughter of a spy.
If Mikoto was to be praised for how fast and adept she was at moving in her own pace to avoid a certain topic, the Shogun would be hailed for her uncanny intuition and sharpness in detecting such intention from Mikoto.
"Your father's company is a frequent subcontractor for the Ministry of Information, so I have seen him a number of times" Yuuhi replied. She didn't say anything related to Mikoto's dad real occupation at all. What Yuuhi has spoken of is the official cover of the man, his alias.
"Eh? I had no idea… his company worked for the Ministry…" Once again, Mikoto feigned ignorant of the subject.
"Yes, I have received things from your father's trading company which would have been most difficult to procure in this country otherwise" Yuuhi continued to say her appreciation while playing along with Mikoto.
Other than the two girls who were speaking with each other, the only person who could able to understand the inner context of their conversation is but Takeru. That's just how good those two girls good at keeping secret while speaking of secret things even in front of others.
"Ah, yes… But to be honest, I don't know much about what he does…" said Mikoto.
Even it sounds like Mikoto just continued to play along with her feign of ignorant, this time, what she has just spoken was actually the truth. Seeing how her father even acquainted with the Shogun, Mikoto wasn't even sure how far the extent of her father line of occupation is.
"He frequents countless important government facilities in the course of his work. Including the Ministry of Information, the Imperial Palace… It is only natural that much of his work must be kept secret. Your father is merely keeping those secrets" answered Yuuhi to the slightly confused girl
Yuuhi's answer once again didn't give away the real identity of the mentioned man, but it still gave Mikoto a concrete answer to her question while dispelling the suspicious element in their previous conversation. Other than Takeru, people would just thought that was why a businessman like Mikoto's father was able to acquaint with someone of the Shogun's stature and has such an mysterious air of secrecy around him. They also thought that was probably why even Mikoto was confused of her father's job…
"Ah… I see. That makes sense" Mikoto muttered in a soft voice
"In addition, your father can be quite aloof and hard to read, and even difficult to understand at times, even if he spoke to you of it, I cannot be sure anything will be conveyed…"
"Eh? He's has done it to Your Highness too? Please forgive him for being so rude" Mikoto hurriedly said.
"It's all right. Your father's nature has also helped me a fair deal. His bizarre rambling and reminiscences about his overseas travels help to distract me from my daily anxieties" Yuuhi answered with a smile as she reminisced of a certain king of troll.
"I'm sure my dad would be happy to hear that, Your Highness. I haven't seen him in a while, but I am glad to hear it too" Mikoto couldn't hide her cheerfulness as she chirped
"You have not? Is it…normal for him to not visit often?" asked Yuuhi with a tinge of gloominess in her voice. "Hearing that make me regret my incompetence all the more. Bringing about this state of affairs has distanced him from you"
"No, Your Highness, that's definitely not…" Mikoto waved her hand to deny
"Not only that, but you are a UN Army cadet. I give you my thanks for being able to confront this difficult situation." said Yuuhi as she bowed
"…um..um" Mikoto was utterly faltered once again, unable to reply anything for several seconds. But, she immediately saluted and replied "I am in UN Army, but being able to help Your Highness gives me pride as well. I think my dad would feel the same way as well, even if his job is different"
"I know this is agonizing, but please bear with it for a short while longer"
"Yes, Ma'am" Mikoto answered in the same way that both Chiruzu and Tama gave the Shogun their answer. It was just as strong, resolute and proud.
Yuuhi nodded her head and she walked to the next person in the line. The same question was asked "What is your name?"
"Ma'am. Cadet Ayamine Kei" saluted the girl with short raven hair
"My failing have brought about this situation, and forced a cruel mission upon cadets like yourself. I am deeply ashamed by this incident, but I also give you my earnest thanks"
"No, it our mission, please do not worry so much"
Hearing such response, Yuuhi shook her head and replied "No, even if you refer to it with the word 'mission', the responsibility I have place upon you as the Shogun will not go away. And even if in name only, I am the supreme commander of the Imperial Army, and have been educated accordingly. I need not think for even a moment as whether or not sending cadets onto the battlefield is the result of dutiful leadership"
"…"
"I have study under many soldiers in the past, but there is no doubt in my mind that each and every one of them finds this situation deplorable"
"…" perhaps she was unable to rebuke it or she just could not bring herself to deny it. Ayamine chose to remain silent.
"People should do what they can for their country. And the country should do what it can for its people" said Yuuhi in a respectful tone
"…" this time, Ayamine gasped in silent as she heard a familiar line that she has stopped listened to for a long time.
"This was something one of those men once said, and it has remained in my heart ever since"
"…" once again, Ayamine could only gasp. She was utterly surprised beyond description.
That line which Yuuhi has just quoted was famous among of Lt. General Ayamine Shuukaku's teaching. And that general was just happened to be Ayamine Kei's father. But, the thought that her father might have been one of the Shogun's teachers has never crossed Ayamine's mind. And that's more reason for Ayamine to be so bewildered as the Shogun still remembered that line… even after that incident, the Gwanju incident. Her father was accused of desertion under fire when he decided to repurpose the military assets under him to protect fleeing citizens rather than assist the UN troops participating in the operation as planned, resulting in devastated numerical losses for the UN. As the result, he was imprisoned and dishonorably executed.
That's the reason why Ayamine was utterly shocked when she heard the Shogun directly quoted that line with such a respectful tone. As the result, there were tons of questions that Ayamine want to ask that she couldn't know which one she would start with.
"Nothing has ever made me feel the weight of those words as much as I do now. If this continues, I will never able to show my face to him again…"
"…"
Once again, Ayamine could not response to what the Shogun at all. But, this time, rather than being dumbstruck with surprise, she remained in silence to fully absorb the meaning and the weight behind the words of the Grand Shogun. Maybe those words meant nothing to others, but to Ayamine, they meant a lot. She has lived her life in confliction and doubt about her father. Was her father really was a traitor just as everyone has labeled him? Was his decision wrong and unethical just as everyone said? Ayamine has always been torn apart by those thought for her whole life ever since that incident.
"However, I do not intend to resign myself to his slander…so can I ask you to bear it for a short while longer?" ask Yuuhi, in respectful and dignify manner.
"Yes" was Ayamine's answer. It was neither as strong nor resolute like the people before her, but there were not a sliver of doubt. It was a prideful answer.
"I give you my earnest thanks" replied Yuuhi as she nodded her head.
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The last person who was approached by the Shogun was of course… me.
"Cadet Shirogane" called Yuuhi
"Ma'am" I saluted
"Due to the recent events, we have exchanged words quite a few times already, so there is no much left to say here" said Yuuhi as she met me eye to eye
"Ma'am"
"However, please allow me to say this just once last time" said Yuuhi as she stepped closer to me, so close that her face was only centimeters to mine. Then she whispered in a soft voice "I give you my earnest thanks". Just as she has finished expressing her gratitude, she elegantly bowed with her palms covering my hand.
Yuuhi then softly whispered in a volume that only the two of us could hear "Shirogane, may fortune on your side as you will write your own destiny in the future. I hope that you will find the answer you are seeking for". The moment Yuuhi finished speaking; she stepped back and bowed once again.
"Thank you, Your Highness" puffed my chest out in pride, I saluted. She has put much of her trust in me, this was the least I could do to answer that trust. And those words were intended as her last words to me…
Yuuhi smiled and nodded. Then, she immediately walked to the center of the group while darting her gaze to everyone who was summoned, she announced "American and UN Eishi, please forgive me for taking up more of your time. The lengthy war with the BETA and the endless tragedies it brings has eaten away at the heart of my people. However, I do not have even the power to heal those wounds. In addition, all of you have made great effort to help me, yet I can only slow you down. I am deeply pained by my inability to assist"
Even if those lines were just the formal and polite words that were skillfully weaved together to sugarcoat the whole situation, they sounded utterly sincere. Perhaps Yuuhi really put a lot of her true feeling into that speech that we were able to feel it that way.
"But still, I wish to protect the people. I want to protect the country that lives in the heart of the people. Surely, all people have this same feeling within them. That's what I believe. It was simply too strong in those who rushed to rebellion. So strong and pure that they could no longer bear to remain in silence… However, that does not change the fact that cutting down their comrades is a deep sin. Someday, the law will give them appropriate punishment for that sin. However, I ask of you all to find it in your hearts to forgive them, if only for their spirit. I am the one who truly deserve the blame for this" said Yuuhi.
"The one who was to blame for this situation is me" I could only frustratedly mutter that single line in silence as I gazed at the girl who was still blaming herself. It was my choice that leaded all of us into this situation. This coup d'état maybe wasn't planned by me, but I alone have the power to avert this tragedy…yet I didn't make that choice.
"Along the way here from Hakone, I felt all of your feeling and resolve. It is wonderful and noble thing for all of you, with such different backgrounds, to head onto the battlefield for what each one of you believes during a war with humanity's existence at stake. However, on this battlefield, where humans fight and kill other humans, that nobility fades, become utterly meaningless. Therefore, I cannot just stand and simply watch this state of affair any longer" verbalized Yuuhi in a cold voice.
It was just exactly like I thought, Yuuhi has came up with the same answer to end this coup d'état just like what she did in the last loop. She chose to strike down Naoya on her own…
"It is particularly intolerable…for those meant to protect humanity to give their lives here for my sake. I will go and speak to the rebels in person."
"…"
The only people who didn't gasp in surprise at that announcement from the Shogun were me and the Royal Guards. Unlike the Royal Guards who were secretly informed by Yuuhi of her plan, I know that from my experience of the last loop. That decision of Yuuhi was exactly like my own prediction. Even she didn't word it, it was the same answer which she came up with. That's why I get the feeling that her previous words to me sounded like last words… it was as if they were farewell words.
"Your Highness, I am afraid I cannot agree to this plan. To be perfectly frank, I do not think it is a product of a sane mind" Immediately, the well built American Major stepped up and criticized.
"Major, hold your tongue" Tsukuyomi glowered as she growled in a cold voice. She could not accept such an insult toward the Shogun.
Waved her hand to stop her subordinate, Yuuhi commanded "It's all right, Tsukuyomi. In the Major's position, it is an extremely rational response"
Yes, it was the most natural response. We had come this far and succeed ensuring the safety of the Grand Shogun until now by the sacrifice of many soldiers, it was utterly a stupid and coward decision. So many has given up their lives so we could travel this far, yet we were about to hand over the Shogun to the rebels in such manner. Of course, nobody is going to accept it. And since Yuuhi didn't mention anything about striking down Naoya on her own, and even if she did, nobody would be insane enough to follow such a plan. It was a coward plan of trading the Shogun's safety for our own while ignoring the sacrifices of others. It didn't deserve to be called a plan. It was just a plain stupid and rash decision from everyone's perspective…except the Shogun, the Royal Guards and Meiya.
"Your Highness, we are not far from Old Shimoda. I beg you to recon…" Major Walken looked at the slender girl who just made the most outrageous decision and begged.
But then Major Walken immediately realized it was useless to do such thing the moment he saw a certain something in the eyes of that slender girl. She will not take back that claim nor will she ever reconsider her decision. He immediately understood that nothing he could say to make her change her mind. It was impossible.
That's why, Major Walken turned his head toward the Royal Guard who outfitted in red armor suit and asked "Then, I shall ask you, 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi. As the commander of the Honor Guard unit assigned to protect Her Highness, would you approve this plan?"
It was a question and yet it wasn't. To everyone else but Tsukuyomi and the idiot-trio, it was a rather rational question. But to the Royal Guard, it was a challenge of their honor and duty.
But, to my surprise, Tsukuyomi answered to that challenge rather calmly "I approve Her Highness's wish." Strong, resolute and completely emotionless was her answer. There was not a sliver of doubt or emotion within that single answer.
Major Walken immediately responded with a faltered expression on his face "Have you gone mad First Lieutenant?"
"Didn't you listen to that UN cadet's explanation? Because those men and women have rebelled for Her Highness. If she were to appear before them, how would they be capable of harming her?" Tsukuyomi challenged while pointing her finger at me.
Immediately, I can feel dozen of stares were focused on me as the result of Tsukuyomi's challenge, from my squadmates, the American Eishis and even Yuuhi. It was rather… unbearably embarrassing for me right now. Why did Tsukuyomi have to include me in that quote of her? It wasn't like she held me in high regard or anything like that, was she? Even if she wanted to return the favor against Major Walken for his previous challenge with another challenge, why on the Earth she brought me along with that?
However, Major Walken didn't faze a slightest with that outright challenge "This and that is different. We still cannot rule out the fact the possibility that the rebel will keep their word. Haven't they already gone back on their word by bringing the fight to the capital, putting He Highness and the people in danger?"
"Then what would you say about this ceasefire? Wasn't it just like that UN cadet over there said? Until now, not a single foot soldier has appeared to kidnap Her Highness" rebuked Tsukuyomi.
Geh. Did she just mention me in that argument of her once again? Why on the Earth that she keep doing that? Was it intentional? Even if she wanted to insult Major Walken with her challenge, she didn't have to bring me into that… Damn, did 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi purposely do that to say that the Major was worse than me in analyzing the situation? The heck? Or was she just did that to get me back for my reckless stunt on the Izu Skyline?
"This ceasefire is a means for them, not an end. You think they would do nothing when their end, Her Highness, is right in front of them? Do not even underestimate the resolve of those who performed such a suicidal aerial assault." Thankfully, Major Walken wasn't someone who easily got provoked.
"I regret to inform you, Major, that it is you who are underestimating them and their resolve" Tsukuyomi indifferently bit back
"I am…?" Major Walken asked as he was slightly surprised hearing that claim
"It is inevitable for someone like yourself, Major. You could not even see that assault as anything but suicidal. However, in the name of Her Highness the Grand Shogun…"
Uwa. A full scale verbal. I almost forget the hostility of the Japanese in this world toward the American. Beside, the Empire Intelligence Agency caught the wind of the CIA's involvement inside this coup d'état, therefore it was almost natural for Tsukuyomi to have such attitude toward the US troops… Up until now, it has been fine since… those two has not come to a confliction… But now, Tsukuyomi has just outrageously insulted the Major using this opportunity… Damn, should I… No, my turn in this played has yet to come…
Without letting Tsukuyomi finished her insult, Major Walken cut in "Enough of this topic. I was wrong to ask for your opinion"
Tsukuyomi vehemently glared at the American Major and inquired "Are you dead set on Her Highness's wish?"
Unfazed, Major Walken countered "First Lieutenant…unfortunately for you, I am a soldier of the American Army, not the Imperial Army, and I happen to be in command here. Also, my mission is to bring Her Highness safely to Yokohama Base. If you cooperate, I will allow you to accompany us. If you get in my way, I will destroy you."
"Then you may do so, right here and now" Tsukuyomi challenged with a glare
The tension in the air has just risen significantly the moment Tsukuyomi said those provocative words. But, immediately, Yuuhi intercepted
"Tsukuyomi, stand back. Speak not another word"
"Ma'am" Tsukuyomi obeyed while still keep her defying glare in check at Walken
"Major, I beg of you, forgive my escort's rudeness. I am fully aware of your position and your opinions" Yuuhi looked at Walken and apologized
"Ma'am, I am glad to hear it."
"However, as you do not wish to understand the reason for this incident, I cannot obey you. Forgive me" Yuuhi said with a stern look
"Your Highness"
Once again, Walken was utterly stunned by the Shogun's decision. It was like one surprise after another. One could hardly expect she would be this stubborn with that previous demeanor of hers.
"Bring me your Takemikazuchi, Tsukuyomi" while leaving everyone in awe, the Shogun regally ordered.
"Ma'am" Tsukuyomi respectfully bowed and brought out the remote control of her TSF.
"Wait, I beg of you"
A voice addressed toward the Shogun shocked everyone at the summoned place. The US troops were shocked because there was such a person who is rude enough to cut in and stop the Royal Guard from fulfilling her duty with the Shogun. Members of the squad 207th, too, were genuinely stunned knowing this voice could only belong to one of their own. It's Meiya. The squad knew exactly the reason why Marimo gave Meiya a guarding position instead of meeting the Shogun like ordered… Now, it's all for naught since Meiya herself has abandoned her post and came to the summoned place.
"What are you doing cadet? Do not abandon your post…" Walken growled at the girl who calmly walked toward the Shogun after causing such confusion., only to zip his mouth the moment he notice the resemblance between the Shogun and the cadet who just appeared uninvited.
Despite leaving people gasping and shocking at her behavior, Meiya paid no heed to that. Instead, she calmly walked toward the Shogun who looked identical to her like two drop of water. Then, she kneeled with her head shifted down "I am Cadet Mitsurugi Meiya of the UN 11th Pacific Army's 207th Eishi training squad."
An incoherent sound escaped the Shogun's throat to answer to Meiya abrupt behavior. The people who were watching could not tell the Shogun was just surprise by the appearance of the girl who look like an exact replica of her or because the greeting of that girl.
Still, Meiya unfazed "I am overjoyed to behold your covenant, Your Highness"
Little does Meiya understood how much that sentence of hers shocked her squadmates or the pain it caused to her sister. Nay, she knew. But, regardless of her own and other's feeling, Meiya would never allow herself to shun away from her duty. Even standing in front of her own sister who was separated with her from birth, Meiya would not look at her eye to eye, face to face. It was such of her fate, duty and pride. She was born to be the Shogun's substitute and double. She was born as a ghost child, a ghost princess of this country.
"The pain that Your Highness felt from this incident is surely far deeper than one such as myself could imagine. And in regards to the plan Your Highness suggested a moment ago, there is no doubt that you conceived it with boundless love and consideration for the people. Although I am afraid that upon the present situation, I must offer my humble opinion, that the Major may in fact speak the truth. We all know that in order to swiftly bring an end to this situation without more needless bloodshed, it is vital that we all overcome our petty differences and be as one."
The surprise which reign on the face of the Grand Shogun immediately disappeared "I am fully aware of that…"
"Then I shall be rude and present an idea of my own" cut in Meiya without looking up.
"You may speak"
"Ma'am, I wish to be assigned to the task of speaking with those who have rebelled"
The moment that outrageous line escaped Meiya's lip, a commotion was raised within the summoned place. People gasped in shocked and stare at her in awe. The Royal Guards wordlessly bit their lips in frustration. Even the Shogun herself turned pale hearing such idea from the girl who was kneeling on the ground.
Unfazed by the surrounding commotion, Meiya indifferently continued speaking "It has been a great honor, but I have been made to live as a duplicate of Your Highness. If only I could be granted the privilege of wearing your spare garments… there is no reason to fear them seeing through my disguise"
"However…"
For the first time, the Shogun showed a hint of weakness to the crowd. Her legs felt weak. She almost fell to the ground if not for the red outfitted Royal Guard's supporting. All she could do is muttering a word of denial.
Meiya persistently pressed on her attack "This may be the only opportunity to be ever of service to you Your Highness… I beg of you"
"I cannot accept that offer of your even if that kind intention makes me most happy… It is my responsibility to personally…" rebuked the Shogun with her paled face
However, with a speed of light, Meiya bowed her head even lower and cut in "I am afraid, Your Highness that this is no way your responsibility. Love the people and nurture the realm and guide them down the path to virtue is that not the foremost task you are entrusted with?"
The last sentence was said with a voice full of resolution and emotion. It was like a knife that stab into Yuuhi's heart. Never before, Yuuhi has ever felt as powerless as she is now. Even she was just a Shogun in name only, never once she has understood the true meaning of powerlessness. There is perhaps nothing. Nay, there was nothing from the beginning for Yuuhi to do to save her sister from involving in this dangerous plan that Yuuhi herself has suggested. That being said, she has expected thing to turn out this way the moment Meiya made her unannounced appearance. Despite knowing that, she still tried to prevent it. However, that single sentence Meiya used to reprimand Yuuhi has sealed the deal. There was no way that Yuuhi could deny Meiya's wish right now in front of this crowd or she could continue to show other her weakness.
"If anything were to happen to Your Highness, the Empire would fall before long. If you insist on placing the blame for this uprising upon yourself… then your duty lies not in punishing them in person"
It was already Yuuhi's loss the moment Meiya chose to appear. The only thing Yuuhi could do right now was to stand still with her legs and stay silent until the end. Meiya was exactly like how Takeru described to Yuuhi. That insight and understanding was not something ordinary. Because Meiya understood Yuuhi's intention and train of thought, that's why she could easily take advantage of the situation in order to make Yuuhi unable to deny her wish.
"I know it pains you… but I ask of you to stand back and think of people who must live on after this affair. I beg of you, grant me the permission… I beg of you to let me speak with them"
Meiya for the first time was getting emotional as her voice slightly shook.
Yuuhi immediately stepped forward and lifted Meiya's head up, sadly admitting her loss "I understand. I shall entrust you with this task"
"Ma'am, I shall undertake it with care"
"You may indeed be able to make them see reason. Perhaps even more so than I" Yuuhi admitted and turned her head toward Walken "Major Walken, would you consider? Is this one's idea not something you can assist us with?"
"I am afraid, Your Highness… that I must once again oppose it" frankly came Walken's answer which cause the Shogun and the Royal Guards to widen their eyes in surprise.
"May I ask for an explanation, Major?"
Tsukuyomi couldn't remain silent anymore. She darted an icily look at the rugged man, threatening for an answer.
"This change does circumvent the biggest problem, namely of exposing Her Highness to danger. However, it is not the reason why I oppose it. In the rare chance that she may able to succeed, we have nothing to worry about. However, there is nothing to guarantee that she will. Therefore, in the event she fails, we would need to break through them by force. But, in the situation, the enemy would have surrounded us, making it impossible."
Walken calmly made his point clear under the critic glare of the red Royal Guard. That was to say, he stopped arguing whether or not the Shogun and the Royal Guards were still sane, trusting the rebels to this extent.
From Walken's and anyone else point of view who wasn't a part of this Japan, it was completely absurd in thinking that there was actually a chance to persuade the rebels as it is now. The rebels had the Shogun surrounded and completely controlled the situation. Furthermore, they who has rebelled and causing this unnecessary bloodshed will not be forgiven under military rule. If they handed the power back to the Shogun that easily without any term, only execution await them after this rebellion is over. It's unthinkable in all aspect. Considering they were playing a game of chess in which the loser will be killed. Would someone who is one move away from checkmating his opponent would actually declare resignation and withdraw? No matter how much Walken cracked his brain to think of a reason, he couldn't bring himself to understand why the Shogun and even someone as the Royal Guards would believe that the plan which suggested by the Shogun could be succeeded in the first place. Why they have so much trust in those who had risen up and caused this bloodshed?
That's why considering the situation as it is now, Walken stopped bringing up that pointless topic which would brought himself another pointless argument with the Royal Guard. Since he couldn't bring himself to understand the reason in the foolish trust of the Shogun, while the red outfitted Royal Guard would not bring herself to understand his position, Walken only argued using the most logical explanation without tackling that absurdity of a trust.
"The biggest remaining problem is spreading out our forces. Given how few of us there are, we must avoid at all costs. Also, it increases the chances of them discovering which TSF the Shogun is in. In another word, if we attempt to break through now, the enemies would hesitate to attack, unable to confirm which TSF is carrying the Shogun. But, with your plan, they can easily narrowing down to either the TSF talking to them or the ones escorting it. And in the case if the enemy somehow discovers Her Highness is a fake, we cannot predict their reaction. From what the First Lieutenant has said, I can imagine they would absolutely furious… Of course, if we would able to bring Her Highness safety to Yokohama Base without further bloodshed, I would not hesitate to do so. However, considering all the point above, the best choice is still to concentrate our forces and attempt for a break through."
Walken explained using Tsukuyomi's logic to prove his point, already expecting Tsukuyomi to growl at him or darted him with another glacial glare. However, apparently, his expectation has missed its mark. The Royal Guard withdrew her hostile glare only to say the following sentence in a nonchalant tone "Logistically speaking, you are correct."
Surprise he was, but Walken didn't show it. "Number may not be everything, but I will take into account every eventuality I can"
"I did not mean to speak contrary to your view, Major. If anything, I was wondering if a cadet in disguise could increase the likelihood of your plan succeeding" Tsukuyomi indifferently countered
"Explain, First Lieutenant"
"Sir. First, if this cadet successfully talk the rebels into surrendering, then all is well"
"That is correct" Walken said in contrary to his inner thought.
"Even if she failed to persuade them, she would be able to draw attention to herself and thereby aid the escape of the TSF carrying Her Highness. Even if she failed to persuade them, she would be able to draw attention to herself and thereby aid the escape of the TSF carrying Her Highness. Even if this one is captured by the rebel forces, Her Highness would have arrived at the Yokohama Base by the time they saw through the deception."
Whether Meiya succeed or not, playing as the Shogun's double will only aid the Major's plan, Tsukuyomi said. If Meiya succeeded, there is no problem. In the case Meiya failed, she would stay back and do something to attract the rebel's attention away from the troops, allowing everyone else to break through the encirclement with less risk.
"One question… that plan seems far removed from what Her Highness desired. Does that not bother you?"
Incredibly intrigue as he was, Walken didn't show any sign of it. He directed the question right back at Tsukuyomi since he could not understand the thought of the Royal Guard Commander at all.
"In this situation, I do not think any of those plans significantly raised or lower the chances of all of us surviving. Her Highness's original plan was no different. Even if she succeeded talking them down, the rebels would still have to be executed someday. Her Highness made the decision to attempt it despite that fact. Thus, from my point of view, Her Highness's plan and moreover this cadet's plan are both safer for Her Highness than yours."
'Fully understood the position and the fate of those who rebelled while still choosing that approach, it proved that Her Highness is certain that she can end the conflict even in this position. And so does this cadet. That's why I had been supporting their plan from the start' that was how Tsukuyomi's reasoning was translated to Walken.
"I see. I glad that your statements up until now were not fueled by emotion after all. First Lieutenant"
"Will you accept this plan now, Major?"
"Hmmm…"
Walken span around his eyes pondering the best decision could have been made. However, the process was completely disrupted as he heard a voice.
"Major. I request your permission to speak"
Not only Walken, the rest of the crowd was just as surprise as him. All darted their gaze toward the source of that voice. Another commotion was raised just like the moment the Shogun announced her plan or when Meiya made her appearance.
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"Do you really understand your position cadet?"
Major Walken incredulously darted his eyes at me, questioning my own state of mind.
There was nothing I can do about that. I, Shirogane Takeru am but a cadet in training. Unlike Meiya who was raised as the Shogun's double or the Royal Guards who tasked with the safety of the Shogun or Major Walken who held the command of our combined force here. According to the chain of command, I have no say in this matter as a cadet myself but to follow all order from the top without questioning the nature of the order itself. That's my position in this scenario. Therefore, it is only natural for Major Walken to show such expression.
"Shirogane. Step back"
Agilely like a cat, Marimo stepped forward, intending to drag me back and shut me up while she was at it. But, I has already expected such an reaction from the beginning the moment I chose to act in this way.
"Ma'am. Thank you very much for granting me the permission"
Sidestepped and dodged my mentor grapping hand, I continued to walked toward the American Major.
"Why…you…"
Marimo was flabbergasted… She would never expect that I can be as disobedient as I am now. Nay, perhaps she was just got struck by how unpredictable I can be after seeing the stunt I pulled back then on the Izu Skyline. Knowing Marimo's personality, she was worried sick of me since the situation has already gone completely out of her control. As a result, if an unpredictable factor such as I am, joined into the equation, the result could be just as chaotic as anyone could imagine. However, it was more like Marimo worried about my well being than the natural outcome of my action, since all I ever brought to her was worry.
Sorry. I could not shun away from my responsibility after causing this much bloodshed. By all mean, nobody here would suffer if not for my selfishness. The last time, it was purely incident that I triggered the coup d'état. But, this time, it was planned…by me. Therefore, it is completely natural that I, the one triggered this avalanche of an event would be the one to settle it. Moreover, other than I am, nobody here could assist Meiya in talking down the rebels.
"I wish to take part in Cadet Mitsurugi's plan" said I without averting my line of sight away from Major Walken.
Major Walken was perhaps a man of few expressions. Hearing such an outrageous plea from me, and all the change it brought to him was but furrowed brows. Or perhaps I was wrong on this matter. After he was continually surprised by Yuuhi, Tsukuyomi and Meiya, another outrageous like this caliber would be insignificant. In the contrary, I could clearly hear my squadmates gasping in surprise and even some incoherent word which has barely escaped Marimo's throat.
"Be quiet Shirogane"
As expected, Marimo immediately recovered and grabbed the back of my head within seconds. Not even I could escape it this time since she was so fast that I could barely react. Then, like a mother cat, she dragged me back to my original position by force.
"Please, Major. You have to listen to it…"
"Be quiet"
But, this time, it was I who was mercilessly flabbergasted, literally, by Marimo's hand. I tried to shake it away to finish what I had to say… And such effort proved to be futile. Heck. Was Marimo chan always this strong and forceful?
"Wait, sergeant"
Thank goodness. The Major intervened.
"Major!?" Marimo incredulously muttered, doubting her ear.
"That cadet… It wouldn't do us harm listening to what he has to say"
Immediately, the force which bound me was released…or perhaps weakened. I eagerly made my escape taking full advantage of Marimo's confusion and once again walked my way toward the American Major.
"Sir. It would be unnatural for Her Highness to approach the rebels while piloting one TSF herself, even if she was trained to pilot one. Among all of the TSF here, we should approach them with my TSF since she has been riding in it up until now. I am sure they must have figured it out by now, watching our escape footage at the Hiyakawa Booth and Hakone. Therefore, using my TSF prevented the rebels from suspecting us"
"Wait Takeru…" Meiya rose up and cut in
"You will wait for your turn, cadet"
Walken timely ordered, preventing Meiya to interrupt.
Thank goodness that Major prevented Meiya's interruption. She can really be a pain sometime. If it was Meiya, perhaps she would able to come up with something to counter my own logic and prevent me from playing this dangerous role with her.
"Considering the event where cadet Mitsurugi was to fail, it is more logical to have a real Eishi guard her Highness, and leave this mission to a control to one such as myself. And in an event we are both captured, the fact that my TSF is a Shiranui not a Fubuki for training purpose and I am not wearing a cadet's Armor Suit will work to our advantage. Last but not least, my TSF is already equipped with a four point harness, so we could use it immediately…"
"Major, please allow me to perform this mission" Marimo timely barged in without letting me speak any further "Cadet Mitsurugi is my subordinate. If she is of vital importance to this mission, then I should accompany her as her commanding officer"
Geh. Please don't do this to me right now… even if it was because you are just worried about my own safety… Other than I am, there is not another person in this world that could avert this situation from turning sour… I have to come up with something to counter quick. Unlike the last time, the Major paid attention to my words because I disobeyed his order back then…
"Marimo chan… you still have the responsibility to command the rest of the squad. What happen to them if you are gone?"
"Why …you"
That one perhaps hit the sore spot of her. She was completely speechless with the exception of the word "Kisama" escape her throat in frustration. Sorry Marimo chan… you must be really frustrated watching all of this terrible stuff happening to us, firstly our squad members, then Meiya…and now I who has no personal attachment in this mess plunge my head straight into it by my own.
Without wasting another seconds of arguing with Marimo on who should take on the role of the Shogun's escort, the previous counter should have decided on the winner. I then turned my line of sight at the American Major again.
"I have only returned to this country recently. This land was…foreign to me until just a while ago. But, now I can understand that the rebels did not want a fight. Captain Sagiri Naoya was no doubt prepared for a battle when he caused this uprising, but I am sure that this situation is not what he wanted. In all likelihood, they were thinking about the people and Her Highness. They have merely chosen the… wrong methods. That's still an undeniable fact. Their view maybe foreign to you, Major and maybe the rest of the UN and the US army who were involved to this battle and one such as myself… until a moment ago. However, most of Japan shares their views, even if they disagree with the action they took. I can say that… because I am an UN Eishi who took a neutral stance in this matter. But before that, I am Japanese. That's why I can be sure of the rebel's intention."
"…"
There was something that only the people who was directly involved or share the same point of view understand. People from a different culture and background could hardly fathom and understand the true motive of the rebel as they were right now. I was told that my point of view was more similar to that of an American during the last loop, regarding the topic of this coup d'état. I labeled those who rose up and caused this bloodshed pointless and stupid, just as most of the American Eishis. After all, we are still at a losing war with the BETA right now. This is no time for internal confliction between human… when humanity is at stake and while Japan is a front line battlefield. Because I wasn't born and raised in this world's Japan, I could barely understand anything about it, much less someone of a different culture and background like the Major. Therefore, I can understand the reason why the Major continually deny the wish and the plan which suggested by the Shogun. The trust that the Shogun and the Royal Guards speaking of and placing in the rebels was something foreign to one such as my old self and people from another culture.
"In that sense… much of what they wanted was already accomplished. As the situation turned bad as it already was, all that the rebels are looking for is an honorable death. Moreover, Major, no genuine resolution will come from this. Even if Her Highness successfully escapes today, and the rebellion is suppressed, a breakthrough is but a short term answer to a long term problem. This will happen again someday."
"…"
"Someone of your stature must have already aware of how the American forces are… unpopular in this land, as much as our UN forces. The involvement of our … unpopular Army will only embed those feeling deeper in the people's heart. Major, you must have thought that Japan foolish for starting an internal war between human in the midst of a war with the BETA. And I had the same opinion with you because I didn't grow up on this land… until a while ago … I, too, have been furious at those who started this fight with other humans, calling it stupid and pointless. But, it was this operation that I have seen a lot of people with different positions expressing different opinions. And I could not tell what was right anymore. I can understand all of their views, the American Army, the UN Army, the Imperial Army and the rebel. That's why, now, I understand that war has done more than we could ever imagined to this land. Japan is the front line against the BETA. The people are constantly suffering the fear and the very danger of imminent death. They could go mad at any time. Her Highness' support is one of the greatest reasons why this has not occurred. However, if men and women who've risen up out of righteousness fury chase her to the point where she must ask the American and the UN army granting them a dishonorable death… It will not be long before people of the same mind rebel in greater numbers and on a wider scale as the result. Naturally, the American Army and the UN Army would have to be deployed in order to squash them again. More human blood will be spilt, whether it is Japanese or American, far more than it has been today."
"…"
"And if they lose their trust in the Shogun after this incident, no one will able to prevent it. This Far East final Defense Line will crumble… marking the beginning of the end of humanity as a whole. Worse, if this land is to fall to ruin, nothing but the sea would remain to protect American soil. And if America becomes a battlefield, nothing will prevent the BETA from winning this war. But… we can prevent it. If Meiya can persuade the rebel here and now, none of that will happen. Please… Major. Let me assist"
"Stop it Shirogane. Get a hold of yourself"
Marimo's scolding forcefully woke me up from my emotional state. Damn, my emotion takes better of me again. By now, I have finally realized it I was grabbing the Major's arms and shook them like a child begging his parent for a toy. Damn, it is just shameful of me to let this happen, not one but twice.
"My apologies, Major… If we use my TSF, we can keep the sacrifices to a minimum. Please major"
"…Are you finish?" asked the Major's reply, completely unfazed, unaffected by my emotion.
"Yes"
"Cadet… for what reason you have volunteered in this mission?"
"Sir. Because I am afraid…"
"Afraid!?"
The Major parroted with a shocked expression on his face. The question 'What are you talking about?' was vividly written on his face.
If 10 out of 10 people who observed my behavior and my face was to be asked whether I am truly look like someone who are scare shitless right now, there is probably only 1 answer. And that is "Heck, no." Does someone who has just outright ignore the chain of command, violate the military regulation, insubordinate against his commander, barge his head into the conversation which beyond his own position and volunteer into the most dangerous position in the plan, look like someone who is afraid?
"Yes, sir. I am very afraid. Afraid of things went wrong, afraid of bad things happened. I am afraid of not able to do anything while I had the ability to compete my own objective. I am very afraid at the thought that it was my own hesitation and inability to make a correct choice would cost us all the things we have fought and live to protect. But, above all, I am afraid being useless, unable to contribute anything, while watching my friends being directly involved in such difficult mission. "
If Yuuhi was to take the role of persuading the rebels alone, only death await her… since the decision to run toward Hakone has been made not only trying to save the capital, but also to prepare for her own death. Knowing that, that was the reason why Tsukuyomi of all the people I knew was so readily support the first plan which was suggested by Yuuhi. Undoubtedly, Yuuhi would choose to grant Naoya a honorable death, preventing the military from dishonorably executed him, at the cost of herself being in risk of assassinate by the Anti-Alternative and the ALTERNATIVE V spies who hidden within the rebels. And if that was to happen, Mitsurugi Meiya will secretly become the Shogun with Tsukuyomi's help.
If Meiya, alone take the role of talking with the rebels, the same scenario would happen; with the exception that instead of choosing to strike down Naoya herself, she would choose to persuade him to withdraw his forces and ended to coup d'état. But… it won't end well once again, thanks to those who has secretly plotted this coup d'état while hiding in the shadow, feasted on other's blood and flesh. Meiya, too, wish for an honorable death, instead of continue living as a political hostage for the UN and the tool for the government while fulfilling her original goal as the Shogun's double. That's why, when worse came to worst… death will be Meiya's fate.
And if we decided to break through the rebels by force, more blood will be shed… this land will fall into ruin before long. People stopped trusting in the government. Government could not control the military. Foreign power will be brought into this land to solve and suppress confliction. Human will kill human while the threat of BETA is still looming.
But, all of that could be prevent if I can get to play the role of Meiya's escort. Furthermore, none of this would happen if it wasn't for my choice. I have prioritized my own plan and objective above everything else. Therefore, it is only right that I have to clean up this mess on my own.
"But, that is not the entire reason why I volunteer myself for this operation. Up until now, I was driven by a sense of duty, an ideal that I had to complete my own objective at all cost, but without truly understanding it until a moment ago. I didn't have the resolution to dirty my own hand. I didn't have the resolution to carry out my own decision, not afraid of getting personally involved in the situation and taking on other's critic. That's why, I want to help Mitsurugi in talking down the rebels."
"What's your objective, cadet?" asked Walken
"Humanity's total victory" I lied with a straight face.
Humanity's total victory. It was my original goal and it is still my pursuing goal. The only thing that has change… was the method of achieving such and end and the priorities along achieving it. That's why, I can at least lied to the Major with a straight face even when I am so bad at lying.
But, lying in this situation meant that I am betraying the Major's trust… Even if I am conscious of that and feel incredibly guilty about that, I will betray the Major even further if such betrayal helps me complete my own objective. I just have to do it, believing it would be for a better outcome even if it meant I am deceiving everyone else, including people who love me and people who put their absolute faith and trust on my shoulder. That's how I should be to complete my own selfish objective, attaining my utopia and answer to Yuuhi's trust, even if it meant to betray the whole world.
"So, you have learned something from war… I understand your request cadet. However…" Walken furrowed his brows
"It would be unnatural for my Shiranui to go alone"
My mouth unexpectedly acted faster than my own thought. Before the Major finished his sentence or before I could even think of the reason for his cliffhanging 'However', those words escape my mouth with the speed of light.
"Our Honor Guard will be needed to increase the credibility… is it not correct?"
Tsukuyomi confidently smirked while the Major was surprise the quickness of my mouth… or rather he was surprised by how I could understand the true meaning of his cliffhanger 'however'.
"We will use Cadet Shirogane's plan. The fake Shogun will ride his TSF, accompany by 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi's unit" ordered Walken.
"Roger"
Tsukuyomi, Meiya and I saluted, accepting our order.
"Your Highness, does this meet your approval?"
Respectfully directing his gaze at the Shogun, Walken asked.
"In this case, as this is an emergency, forgive me for dismissing my soldier right away"
"I do not mind. You may put safety above ceremony"
"I am grateful for your understanding"
"Major Walken. Once again, allow me to show you my earnest thanks"
The Shogun said as she lowered her head again before the American commander.
"Your Highness, this is my mission. Such words are wasted on a field officer like myself" Walken proudly replied with his right arm put on his chest. "Everyone! Salute Her Highness Kobuin Yuuhi"
I and the crowd turned toward the Shogun and saluted just as we were ordered.
"Get your TSFs ready for sortie and standby for further order. Dismissed"
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Other Eishis have already walked back to their respective TSF on standby or proceeded to their assigned task. Meiya, on the other hand, went together with the idiot-trio to my TSF to change into Yuuhi's clothing.
It's only me alone right now at the place where we were previously summoned by Yuuhi. Just a moment ago, the whole area was packed with people, now, it's only me and… Tsukuyomi.
"First Lieutenant"
I called, without bother taking a closer look, checking the identity of the person who approached me from a nearby thicket.
"Has Your Highness… spoken with you?"
"…"
I chose to stay silent as I wasn't sure what Tsukuyomi actually meant.
"It matters not" lightly shook her head, Tsukuyomi. Then, she warmly smile "Please take good care of Meiya sama"
"Please wait 1st Lt. Tsukuyomi. There is something that I want to ask of you" said I.
Grabbing the red outfitted Royal Guard's shoulder who started to turn and walked away, I repeat "There is something I want to ask of you."
The first and foremost requirement to able to use my trump card, right here and now… is to deceive and betray everyone one our side first. That's including Marimo, Major Walken, Tsukuyomi and the rest of my friends. Now that I have the resolution to do it without hesitation, thanks to Yuuhi's words. This time, for sure, I will not let history repeated.
