A/N: This chapter is a song fic, so if there is a problem, please don't read it. I do not need nasty comments about how my chapter is trash because there are lyrics to songs. I have had a HORRIBLE week so far and do not need it further aggravated. Thank You.
In the coldest time of year
Darkness all around my heart
I was alone but didn't fear
To wander in the light of stars
Rin sat on her seat and felt a tear spill down her cheek. Lately Sesshomaru had not been treating her as a mate, after their last argument and he stormed out she was left pondering where they went from there. She softly sang in the room she stayed in at Inuyasha's hut.
In the bright and silent night
Winds would knock and disappear
Still I felt the feeling near
Like the first time you were ever here
She pulled her knees to her chest and rested her chin on her knees. Allowing her eyes to shut as she remembered their fight…..She had been angry that he was late getting home and he had smelled like feminine perfume and refused to answer her when asked on where he was. When Rin took his arm, he snapped and sent her into the table. She stood and yelled at him, even threw a few items at him and he left, slamming the door behind him.
I'm spending my time
Watching the sun go down
I fall asleep to the sound
Of tears on a clown
Prayer gone blind
My friends keep telling me hey life will go on
Time will make sure I get over you
This silly game of love
You play you win only to lose
I'm spending my time
Watching the days go by
Feeling so small
I stare at the wall
Hoping that you think of me too
She looked up at the full moon in the sky and quickly stood as she felt a quickness fluttering in her heart that she only felt everytime it felt his presence. It had been several months since their fight and he never came for her. She stepped out of her room and stood, watching the ethereal angelic creature before her. Sesshomaru stood, his amber eyes watching hers as if he expected her to run. "Rin…are you coming with me or will you remain here? The choice is yours I will not force you" he said softly.
Blinded by a crazy light
I fell into the darkest night
Those magic ties, the two of us
I couldn't see it turn to dust
Hey now it seems you've always
Reached me like the sun
There's no escape for the broken hearted
There's no return once you've lst your way
I say a prayer now our love's departed
That you'll come back to stay
and bring the perfect day
"Sesshomaru, as much as I want to say let's go home…..I feel that things between us have escalated to the point that we are no longer mates. I am only your mate in name only lately, nothing more. I think we need to take this time apart to think about what we truly need and want and if being with each other is good for either of us. Let's face it, It is not good for you to be with a human turned youkai with human emotions lingering behind any more than it is good for me to be with a youkai who can't even begin to understand how I feel." Rin said softly, her heart aching as she said the words that she knew would end things permanently.
"So be it Rin. From this day, you are free. May you find the happiness you seek." He said before turning and disappeared in a flash of light. Rin had spent months crying in the solitude of her room, wishing she could take it back. Slowly she started to think things through and realized that Sesshomaru was who she wanted and was destined for; she could only wait for him to think the same way.
You build it up and tear it down
There's no reason to follow you
You left the song without a sound
You left the story I made for you
Softly angels bow and cry
In the stillness of the night
Never is a long time – goodbye
No answers for the asking
It's a long time – goodbye
No mercy for the aching
It's a long time – oh I see no light on the forsaken
Never is a long time – goodbye
Let's spend the night
When this dream has come to an end
Rin packed her bag and ran towards the Western lands, determined to get there before the rogue demons came out for prey. She just knew she had to get to him and undo the words she spoke before everything was destroyed.
It just happens
You don't know what's going on
If it's new or if it's been there since long
If it's right or wrong
You fall in love
You fall in love
You don't have a say
Just let it slide and close your eyes
And watch the passion play
Don't underestimate
Your heart can never wait
And love will find a way
Rin sprang forward towards the gates coming into view and straight into the arms of her mate. Her lips melding to his perfectly as she poured everything she felt into their kiss, feeling him back her against the gate wall as his hands grasped her waist tightly, his lips controlling their kiss. "Sesshomaru…I need you in my life" he leaned his forehead on hers and whispered his need for her in his also.
She felt him transport them into their room as he took her lips again, slowly backing her to the bed before moving onto it without breaking their kiss. His hands swiftly removed her kimono before they slid down her thighs to caress her legs. Rin moaned softly and felt her legs part when his hand traveled back up along the inside of her thigh, his hand gently caressing her heated center. He nipped her ear and flipped her over with a growl.
Rin lifted her body onto her knees as she presented her body for her mate, Sesshomaru's fingers slid along her center to test her readiness before he grasped her waist and thrust into her body with a growl. Rin let out a cry at feeling one with her mate after so long. His hands grasped her side tightly while his hips thrust harder into her, Rin felt her head dragged back by her hair as his growl warned her not to hide any part of her.
Rin's cries filled the room as her mate plied her body with solid thrusts. His hands released her hair to hold her waist tightly as he moved faster and even harder. His nails dug into her waist while he leaned down and nipped at his mark harshly leaving Rin wanting more. She rolled her hips against her mate before his hips stiffened against her. Rin felt his searing seed spill into her body, she whimpered when his hand slid to caress her heat swiftly, making her own release spill onto his fingers.
Sesshomaru shifted their bodies to lay down and covered them with the blanket, his arm curling around her body pulling her into his embrace. "My mate, It is good to have you home again." He whispered softly. And for once, Rin could not disagree.