Just to let you know, I know some of you feel that the entire Elena/possibly John storyline has been dragging, but we are almost at the end of it and then can go into the healing process for Christian and Ana as individuals before they can work on rebuilding their relation, which also means to let go of what is broken...

Taylor

I have never been this frustrated in all of my life. I know that Flynn is somehow involved with Elena Lincoln, but I can't seem to find out how and I still have no clue as to how the old cunt got into the house. Magically, none of the security cameras were working and the security alert in case of this happening didn't go off. I just know that someone has fucked with the security system, but I have no idea who did it. When I left with Grey to pick Ana up Flynn had just arrived to visit Arielle, which seemed a bit weird, but Grey considers him his friend. So the only other person in the house was Gail and I know for a fact that my wife would have never let Elena Lincoln anywhere near the baby. In fact, Gail would have probably beaten the old bitch to a pulp with a fucking broom stick, which would have been fitting considering that the old bitch was a fucking witch too.

In addition, I'm running out of time. True to her word, Ana has filled for divorce and even got Grey's Dad to be her lawyer. At this point, his own father and brother are barely talking to Grey. They too believe he was or is still in contact with Elena Lincoln and had been feeding them nothing but lies yet again. At this point all the stupid fucker has left is his sister who stops by once a day to check on him and has also been chosen by Ana to be the supervisor for Grey's time with his daughter until they get a proper hearing in regards to the custody of little Arielle.

God damn, it breaks my fucking heart each time Mia has to take little Arielle home and Grey turns from happy Dad back to his depressed self within a nano second. From what Gail has told me Ana isn't doing any better. She really thought within realizing that he can be a father there was a chance for them to fix their marriage. At least I could get Grey to find himself a new shrink. It's an old army friend of mine who decided to become a shrink after he left the army. He doesn't take any shit and is basically forcing Grey to look into the mirror, however I'm not sure if they are making any progress, because both of them look mutually frustrated whenever they leave Grey's study after a session.

Gail has told me point blank that I'm wasting my time by trying to help Grey, but all my instincts are telling me that there is something really wrong. And I just have to get to the bottom of it or I won't be able to rest. This is why I had the entire security system replaced and the old one sent to Barney. Maybe he can somehow at least recover the footage of whoever tampered with the system before it shut off. He told me he would need some time to work on it, but I'm positive that if anyone can get it to work it's Barney, the kid is worth his weight in gold.

A day later I finally get the call that he was found something on the tape and is coming over which is actually weird, because Barney hates to leave his office, so I know he found something big on the tape.

„Come in, wait I'll get the boss." I let him know when he arrives.

„Wait, I think you should see this first before you get him." He says and I frown, but follow him into the security office.

„I was able to recover the last ten minutes of the tape before it got deleted and the system was switched off." Barney says opens his laptop and starts the tape which begins with me checking that everything is in running smoothly before I leave and then the door opens and in walks Grey... I watch him press the buttons to stop the security system and then everything turns black. Motherfucker, I cannot believe this. He fucking fooled me again. This is it, I'm fucking out, to hell with him and his sick games... he arranged it, he knew Ana would find Elena holding little Arielle.

„Wait here." I snap at Barney and leave the office to look for Grey, when I find him in the living room building toy for Arielle I really want to punch his lights out... what the fuck is he playing at?

„Sir, a word in my study?" I snap to get his attention.

„Of course, is something wrong, you seem mad, Taylor." He says and I take a deep breath.

„We have found out who tampered with the security system."

„Who was it, call Ana, we can show this to her, she has to believe me if she sees that someone else is responsible for Elena getting in." He says all excited and in this moment I fear that Grey is suffering from split personality or something like that, because he didn't even fucking blink.

„Follow me, Sir, I feel there is no need to call, Ana." Unless you want her to fucking spit in your face before kicking you in the balls, which would be a rather reasonable reaction at this point.

„Why, this is good news! I can prove to her that I wasn't lying." He insists.

„Mr. Grey, please just follow me." I say defeated, at this point I don't know what to do with him.

In the office he asks Barney to show him the footage and I watch him intently as he watches it and when he sees himself tampering with the security system he loses his shit.

„That's not true! I did not tamper with the security system, my daughter was in the house, I would never put her in any kind of danger!" He yells while slamming his fist on the table making Barney jump.

„Sir, all I'm saying is Barney has no reason to somehow manipulate the footage, he didn't even know what he was supposed to look for because I have told him nothing about the reason I wanted him to recover the footage."

„Say it! You think I'm lying too! Everyone thinks I'm lying... oh my God, Ana has been right all along, Elena manipulated me and now she has turned against me... don't you see that this is her doing... Taylor... please... I cannot find out what is happening on my own... my own family has lost faith in me..." Grey says desperate and I know Gail is going to give me hell for it, but I nod.

„Mr. Grey... I will not leave and keep investigating, but at this point... Sir, I'm sorry to say this, but clearly the man caught on tape is you... have you... fuck, have you allowed your new shrink to evaluate you regards to some kind of mental illness." I ask and as aspected he looks pissed.

„I do not suffer from any kind of mental illness. Am I fucked up? Yes, but I would remember if I had done this... this has to be an imposter." He says.

„Sir, you are wearing the same clothes you've been wearing that day and here... look at this frame... it's you, Sir. Now, if you can't remember you've done this, we have to go through all the options, one being some kind of mental illness." I say calmly, even though, with Grey it's like I'm trying to talk to a cornered wild animal hoping it won't attack.

„It wasn't me, find out who that is." He snaps and leaves the room.

„Thank you, Barney, I'll take it from here... and let Ros know I need to see her." I tell him, she is working closely with Grey, maybe she has some insides as to what is going with the boss.

In the evening, I leave the house and meet Ros Bailey at a small bar where we get a table.

„Ros, I'm going to be frank with you, something is wrong with the boss, have you noticed anything?"

„Honestly, Taylor, this whole situation has kept me up at night. I always thought the boss wanted kids... I remember a month or two after his honeymoon, we had to fly to New York for a meeting, I told him that Gwen and I want to start a family... and he said, if I wanted to have kids I should try within the year, because he was thinking about starting a family with Ana too and we couldn't both be on leave at the same time. He seemed excited about it, so I don't get what has changed. I only heard the rumors, but fuck, if he really had a vasectomy I don't understand why he would lie to me. Lately, he also seems distracted... and now that you asked... I thought he just received bad news, but last week we had meeting, when it was over he received a phone call and as soon as the call was finished he acted very strange... he just left without saying a word... he looked like... I don't know, as if he wasn't even seeing me or the other people around him. And what's more... there have been issues with finances since he is back. I was informed that suddenly the numbers don't add up... not by much, but enough for them to request an inner audit, which the boss has denied." She says and I down my whisky.

„Fuck my life... you are a bright woman, Ros... help me out here because I'm at a loss. Today, I found out that when the home security of the boss's home failed completely it was him who switched it off and he denies it, he saw himself on camera doing it and he still looked me in the eyes and said it wasn't him. At this point I don't know if the boss is just so caught up in his own web of lies that he believes them to be true or if there is an deeper issue."

„Look, all I can say is that the Christian Grey I know adores his wife and wanted to have children with her. And above all, he is not a liar he has always been honest with me and everyone else. I don't know what has happened, but this is not right. There has to be more to the story." She says reflecting my thoughts exactly.

„Please alert me if anything else comes up." I reply and thank her for meeting me. Ros leaves, but I decide to stay and call Roger Harper, who is my old army buddy that is now Grey's shrink. I know he cannot give me any information about Grey due to patient confidentiality, but at this point I just need his general opinion.

Half an hour later he arrives and we both get a drink.

„So, why did you ask me to come here, Jason?"

„It's about my boss, I fear he has a mental illness." I say and he sighs.

„Look, Jason, I cannot confirm that... in fact, there is nothing I can tell you about Christian Grey and not because I have to keep what he tells me to myself, it's because he does not talk to me."

„What?" I ask startled.

„Each session he just sits there, I ask him questions and he does not answer. It's eerie, especially because he is the one that came to me. I have contacted his former shrink and was assured that Mr. Grey can be challenging at times, however, if he keeps this up I will have to refer him to someone else."

„Fuck me, this is getting more and more bizarre by the minute." I mutter under my breath.

„I wish I could help, but sadly Mr. Grey is not forthcoming." He says so we have another drink before we both head home.

As I get in Ryan walks up to me.

„Glad you are back, man... something happened with Grey... talk to him."

„What do you mean, something happened?"

„I think he lost his marbles for good, T." He says and so I walk into Grey's study where I find him sitting at his desk staring at a camera, his entire body tense, face red as if he had just ran a marathon and suddenly he gets up cussing like a drunken sailor and smashes the camera.

„Sir, what is going on here?"

„Something is wrong with me, Jason... I know what she did to me... I wanted to prove to Ana that I get it now... I went to the police station to report Elena as a sexual preditor and when I was asked to make my statement I couldn't do it... it was like I forgot the words... I couldn't say it... write it... there was nothing... so I came home to write it down and that wasn't working either... I thought I had written everything she did to me down... here read this." He says and hands me a piece of paper, but all that's written on it are the words. ‚Elena Lincoln is my friend, she helped me.'

„I did not intend to write that, Jason... something is wrong with me... I went through my check books... I transferred half a million into Elena's account and I don't remember doing that... and it's not the first time I miss time... Jason... I don't know what is happening to me." Grey says and deflates into his chair. I have never seen him this distraught and I have no idea how to handle it, because for the first time in a long while I get the feeling that I'm way out of my element and this might be too much for me to handle on my own.

„Mr. Grey, I'm going to call Roger." I say and he frowns.

„Who? He asks.

„Roger Harper, your new shrink."

„John Flynn is my shrink, he knows me... I have never heard the name Roger Harper before." Grey says and I close my eyes.

Houston, we are having a major fucking problem!