Chapter 3:

The sun was shining into the window as Sirius rolled onto his side. He couldn't help it, he couldn't go to breakfast this morning and see James with Lily. It would've hurt to much to see the guy he loved and had to himself just a couple days ago all lovey dovey with someone else so soon. He hated that he felt this way, everything in him was telling him to be a damn man and go down there, face the problem head on and move on. He just didn't know how to do that without crying like a little girl.

He was also scared that Remus would continue to try and get him to tell James about the baby. He knew his friend meant well but he didn't understand what he thought. He didn't want James to leave Lily just because of the baby, duty and all that jazz that he would say. He wanted James to come back to him on his own because he loved him, because he wanted to be with him and no one else. He just knew now that he finally had Lily, James wouldn't be back. They would get married and have children of their own, grow old together and then die, leaving Sirius out in the cold with a bastard child.

He shook his head when he thought that. His child was no bastard. James may never be around and never know of this baby but at least he knew who the other father was. This child would be loved with everything he had within him and nothing would ever change that.

Finally he pulled himself up from the bed and decided to go to the kitchens for some food. His stomach was growling and he knew the baby was hungry, he needed to take care of himself if he didn't want to hurt it. He quickly would look around corners to make sure no one was around, all the way until he was safely sitting at a table waiting for a house elf to bring him his food.

The door slowly opened behind him and he didn't hear anything until a hand rested upon his shoulder. Nearly jumping out of his skin he turned around and scowled.

"What are you doing here Snape?" He spat out and saw the weird expression on the other boys face.

"Wanted to make sure you were alright after yesterday. I see you are however so I will just leave now." Severus stated turning away.

"Why do you care? Thank you anyway for bringing me up there, you didn't have to." Sirius found himself saying. He did appreciate Snape taking him instead of just leaving him on the library floor.

"You were in great pain which I did not cause so I knew you needed to get there quickly. Like I said before, Glad you are alright." Severus stated.

"Would you. Would you care to join me?" Sirius couldn't believe he just said that.

"Only if you tell me one thing." Severus said.

"Alright?" Depends on what it is." Sirius replied.

"How does it feel to be with child?" Sirius face dropped and his fists clenched. How the hell did he know.

"You little snake. You listened to my conversation in the hospital wing after you left. How dare you." Sirius was getting angry, he could feel his face turning red.

"I'm sorry. It was too good of an opportunity to find out what was causing you pain like that. So what does it feel like. It's fascinating a male being pregnant. I've read about it happening in the history books but never knew someone it has happened to. Who's the father?" Severus tried again.

"Wouldn't you like to know. Go around and tell everyone who has Sirius Black up the duff. Pregnant and alone. Get out of here Snape."

"Alone. The other father isn't helping support you with this?" Severus sat down after hearing that. Who would want to leave someone having their child?

"It doesn't matter. It never will. He left me and is happy with someone else. He is never going to know and you are never going to tell anyone about this or I will hex your balls off Snape."

Severus put his hands up in front of him in surrender, showing he didn't mean any harm or ill intent to Sirius or his child.

"You need someone that can help you if you need it. Watch out for you. Is that why you were looking up concealment charms yesterday? I can help with those. I know one that will last twenty four hours. We could meet up every night before curfew and I could place it on you."

Sirius scrunched up his eyes in confusion. Trying to figure out why Snape would want to help him, see him everyday and do this for him. After everything that him and his friends have done to humiliate Snape he knew there had to be something in this for him.

"And what do you want for your generosity Snape?" Sirius asked seeing the dark haired boy blush slightly before looking away.

"Nothing, just thought you would want some help. If not that is fine. If you do I will be in the library twenty minutes before curfew, that should give me enough time to put the charm on you. If I don't see you there then I know you don't want my help. But you are starting to show." Severus said nodding towards Sirius stomach that was poking out just a tiny bit from his tight shirt.

Sirius self consciously started pulling on the end of it to bring it over his stomach, blushing slightly. He grabbed his cloak and stood up from the chair, Having ate while they were talking and threw the cloak over himself. He stood there for a few minutes looking at Snape trying to figure him out.

"Fine. I will see you there tonight, but any funny business from you I will not hesitate to hut you Snape." He nodded to the other boy and walked away.

He couldn't believe his luck. He didn't want anyone else to know but maybe this would turn out alright. Snape was pretty good at charms and should know what he is doing as not to hurt him or the baby. He just hoped he didn't end up regretting this later on. He just had to make sure no one saw them together and give no one reason to start asking questions.

He made his way to his first class and sat in the back of the room. Remus came in and sat down next to him, looking at him strangely.

"What?" He snapped.

"You weren't at breakfast. Was worried about you is all." Remus stated.

"Couldn't go in there this morning. Ate in the kitchens. Sorry Remus. How was." He stopped mid sentence when he saw Lily walk in, James holding the door open for her and grab her hand after wards.

His eyes never leaving the other boy as they passed, Lily giggling as James whispered something into her ear. Pulling out the seat for her and pushing it in as she sat down, smiling up at him. He continued to watch him as he sat down next to her and quickly looked back towards him and Remus smiling.

Sirius had to blink back tears, just thinking why couldn't that be him. Why couldn't James love him and be like that with him. Stupid hormones made Sirius slam his head on his desk trying not to kill himself.

"It will be alright Sirius." He heard Remus say next to him and he slowly rubbed his back.

"No it won't. It never will be. I just don't understand why he couldn't just love me and stay with me. To go behind my back and talk to her while we were still together wasn't right. To break my heart out of no where with no warning is just heartless." He placed his hand on his stomach, feeling like he was going to get sick.

"Maybe you should talk to him Sirius. Let him know. Maybe." Sirius interrupted him with a hand held in front of his face.

"No. he can't know and he won't know about this Remus. You promised. If he came back to me after finding this out it would only be out of guilt. He would hate me later on and I can't take that." Sirius stated.

"I understand. Why is Snape looking over here?" Remus asked making Sirius look up to the front of the class where he knew Snape sat. He saw the other boy lock eyes with him and quickly look away.

"I have no idea. He helped me get to the nurse yesterday, so maybe he is making sure I'm still alive."

"He helped you?" Remus asked shock showing in his voice.

"Yeah."

"Why would he do that. No offense Sirius but you guys hate each other." Remus responded.

"Yeah I know. I don't know why he did it. I'm just glad he did. Now lets pay attention. I need to pass these classes this year." He said watching the smile spread across Remus face when he said this.