Chapter 4:

Sirius was pacing outside the library doors. He was trying to decide if it would be safe to listen and let Snape help him, or just turn around and do this all on his own. He placed his hand on his stomach. It was really starting to show. His usually flat ab muscles were now slightly protruding out and he wouldn't be able to cover it up much longer with his robes. Most definitely wouldn't be able to cover it up on the weekends when he didn't need to wear them at all. He finally decided to go into the library and find Snape. He looked around and saw the other boy at the back of the library, slightly behind the last row of stacks.

"Didn't think you were going to show. I was just about to pack up and leave. Sit." Snape said as Sirius reached the back table.

"I wasn't sure if I was going to come or not either. I finally decided I did need help with the charms. Are you still willing to help me out?" He asked watching Snape closely.

"Yes. Now lift up your robes a little and let me see your stomach. I have to place the charm directly on the part of the body you want to conceal." Snape stated wand already out.

Sirius sat there a moment longer, thinking. He wanted to trust Snape, but he had been his enemy all his school life and he wanted his baby to be safe. He could see that Snape was getting impatient and he slowly lifted up his robes, he needed to cover this up and Snape was his only option.

"Wow." Snape said amazement on his face.

"What?" Sirius started to feel self conscious and was slowly pulling his robes down until Snape reached out quickly and held them up.

"Your stomach. You can see it starting to round out. Amazing." Snape looked up into Sirius eyes just then and Sirius couldn't help but slightly gasp as they made contact with his own. He could feel himself blush and look away.

"I. Can we just get this over with please." He stated hearing Snape clear his throat.

"Yes." Snape replied and picked his wand back up. He began the incantation quietly while moving his wand over Sirius stomach. He felt the area grow slightly warm and then it stopped.

"Done." Snape stated. Sirius looked down and could still see the slight bump there. His face dropped thinking it didn't work. "You and I can still see your bump. I made it so everyone else can't. I just thought you would like to be able to look down and know your baby is still there."

"And what about your reason for letting you still see it?" Sirius asked looking up at the other boy.

"If I am to keep an eye on you and help you out, I will need to be able to make sure I can see everything that is happening as well. Goodnight Black." Snape said and picked his things up quickly and walked away, but not before Sirius saw the blush on Snape's face as well.

Sirius finally made it back to to his dorm to the other boys laughing and joking. He almost got hit in the stomach by a passing boy and jumped out of the way, scowling at the other one. He saw Remus' face drop at this and looked over at James.

"So you finally got the bird you have been wanting since first year James?" He heard one of the boys ask.

"Yeah. She finally came up to me and asked me out. Can you believe it. I finally stopped trying and she came to me. Saying she saw a change in me and that I was more mature." He laughed at this and ate some sweets.

"More mature. You? That is a laugh." Sirius heard himself saying before he could stop, making the other boys finally look at him.

"Oh. When did you get back Sirius?" James asked like nothing was wrong.

"Does it matter. Not to you it doesn't. I still say you are no more mature than you were before when she still hated you." Sirius stated as he climbed into bed, pulling the covers over his body.

"And what makes you say that Sirius?" James looked at him, challenging him to say something.

"You should know." Sirius stated. "But just for being clueless shows you are not mature yet." He rolled over and ignored the other boys in the room, still listening but pretending to fall asleep.

"What is wrong with him?" He heard one boy ask.

"Nothing a little shagging won't help I suppose. Always thinking with his cock and not his head that one." He heard James say making his heart hurt.

"So how is Lily in the sack James?" One boy laughed.

"Haven't gotten that far, but soon I hope. Has to be better then the others I've had, since I love her an all." Sirius swore underneath his breath and tried to keep the tears at bay. His stomach jolted and he knew he was about to get sick.

He bolted upright and ran to the bathroom, letting everything from his stomach go into the toilet. He knelt down onto the floor and placed his head in his hands. He heard the door open and quickly jumped up, spinning around to see James standing there looking at him.

"What's wrong with you?" He asked looking towards the toilet. Sirius quickly reached over and flushed it. Hating that James saw. "Are you sick?"

"What do you care for anyway. Just keep ignoring me like you have been." He started to walk past the other boy but stopped when a hand landed on his arm. He looked down at it and then up into James' eyes. His heart stopped when he stared into those eyes, ones he used to be able to stare into when ever he wanted.

"Let me go James." He whispered.

"What is wrong with you Sirius?" James asked hand moving down his arm and rested on his side. Sirius jumped away, not wanting James to feel his stomach.

"Just leave me alone. You lost your right to care about me when you discarded me for Lily." He stated then almost ran out of the bathroom and back to his bed. He closed his eyes after closing his curtains and prayed he could get a good nights sleep.

That didn't happen. He awoke a couple of hours later, restless and having nightmares. He gave up on going back to sleep and laid on his bed just staring at the ceiling. His thoughts continued to go towards Snape. He couldn't fathom why the Slytherin boy that he had tortured and abused all through school wanted to help him. He seemed genuine in his care and concern however.

Morning finally came and the other boys in the dorm started to wake. He opened his curtains when he thought everyone was out of the room only to come face to face with Remus. The other boy was looking at him sternly.

"James is rather upset with you." He stated making Sirius look at him confused.

"Why would he be upset with me?" Sirius asked.

"He thinks you are making yourself sick because of him. He thinks that you are mooning after him."

"Yeah well you know better than that. I wish I could move on but I have a permanent reminder of our time together now don't I." Sirius stated placing his hand on his stomach.

"Are you sure you are even pregnant. Your not showing." Remus asked looking at his hand.

"I am. I would never lie about something like that. I have a charm on me." He responded before standing up.

"You don't know how to do such things. Did you go to Pomfrey?" Remus asked following Sirius.

"No. Snape helped me. He put it on. I can still see the bump." He replied rubbing his hand over the slight bump.

"You let him put a charm on you with out knowing what could happen. With no one there to witness. Are you insane." at that Sirius stopped walking and spun around.

"Well it seemed like no one else would help me. I can't just go to certain people and tell them what is going on with out it getting back to James. I sometimes wish I never told you. All you do is try to guilt me into telling him and yell at me. Se... Snape has offered to help me and he seems sincere about it. Nothing happened with the charm, I'm fine, my baby is fine now just leave me alone." Sirius stormed off and headed to the kitchens. He didn't feel all that sociable right now to eat in the Great Hall.