Chapter 5:
Sirius looked at the table in the kitchen and his stomach growled. It held everything he loved to eat for breakfast. Hot cakes the size of houses, sausages, bacon with tons of syrup for everything all of it. It even had some sweets laying off to the side ready for him to devourer. A smile stretched across his face knowing the other students weren't getting a lot of this in the Great Hall. The breakfasts up there were all right but nothing compared to the spread in front of him.
Coming down here and not sitting with anyone from his house everyday would definitely be worth it. He was even thinking of spending his lunch and dinner breaks down here as well. Maybe he would even sneak down for a late night snack every once in a while it may not hurt either.
He was half way through with eating when he looked at the clock and saw he had to get to class. He stuffed some sweets into a container and placed them in his bag to snack on through out the day. He quickly left the kitchens and headed to potions. When he arrived everyone was waiting in the hall for the Professor to let them in, James, Remus and Peter were off to the side and he stopped. He didn't feel like standing over there and found himself standing near the Slytherin's.
Looking up his eyes caught Snape's and he couldn't help but smile a little. When Snape saw this he quickly looked away and this made Sirius upset for some reason. Realizing that the only time he would probably talk to the other boy would be at night to do the charm.
When the Professor finally came and let them into the room, Sirius waited for everyone else to enter before he did, better chance at getting the table at the back of the room alone. To his surprise the only seat in the back left was next to Snape. He couldn't help but think this was odd, since Snape always sat at the front of the room, either alone or with one of his housemates.
He took the seat next to him and placed his books onto the table, glancing over to Snape as he did this. He heard the Professor telling everyone to write what was on the board and begin the potion. Sirius went to stand up to get the ingredients but felt a hand on his arm stopping him, looking down he saw Snape standing up shaking his head.
When Snape returned to the table, Sirius already had the book open to the page of the potion, along with his notes out from the board. He saw Snape smile at this as he spread out the things he received from the cupboard.
"I will handle the potion, you just read what I have to do. Don't want to harm." He glanced down to Sirius' stomach and he nodded his head in return.
"Thanks Sev... Snape." He replied making Snape cock an eyebrow at him for almost using his real name.
"How are you and the babe doing today?" Snape asked as they were doing the potion.
"My baby is alright. I'm alright I guess." Sirius stated reading off the next step to Snape when he was done.
"What do you mean you guess? What has happened since last night?" Snape said stopping what he was doing and looking in Sirius' eyes.
"I don't want to talk about it here please. Tonight when we meet up for the charm if you still wish to know then I will talk. It will be nice to talk to someone who isn't judging me." Sirius stated.
"All right. I will give you till tonight to talk to me. Come half hour earlier than last night so we have time." Snape began to work again and Sirius just smiled.
He felt comfortable for some reason about talking to the other boy about things. He knew deep down that he wouldn't go running off telling anyone and it was better than talking to Remus, who continually told him to tell James about the baby. At least Snape didn't know who the other father was yet and couldn't judge him about it. He hated to think what the other boy would say when he did find out, if he ever decided to tell him.
Classes flew by fast for the rest of the day, he spent lunch in the kitchens but decided to try and do dinner in the Great Hall. When he entered the only space left was in between Remus and Peter and right across from James and Lily. His stomach dropped as he walked into the room and saw Lily with her head on James shoulder and the boys arm around her waist.
He hung his head and sat down in the available seat, not looking at anyone and began to place food onto his plate. He tried to ignore the conversations going on around him but it was hard.
"So Lily, we going to Hogsmeade this weekend together?" He heard James ask knowing full well what the answer would be.
"Oh course James. Don't be silly." She laughed.
"Remus, Peter what are the two of you doing?" James asked before grabbing a biscuit and stuffing it into his mouth.
"Just hanging about like we always do." Remus replied. "Sirius what are you doing?" He turned his head to Remus and scowled. He didn't want to be brought into this conversation at all.
"Staying here. Nothing to do out there alone." He replied.
"Why would you be alone Sirius? Won't you be going with Remus and Peter? They are meeting up with James and I later on." He heard Lily ask. He hated her more than ever because she had James now.
"No I will not. And I most definitely won't be meeting up with James. Excuse me I'm not hungry any more." Sirius pushed his plate away before standing up and looking directly at James. He saw the other boy smirk and pull Lily closer to himself. Sirius could feel his heart breaking even more.
"Sirius wait." He heard Remus yell to him as he was walking away, but he just ignored the other boy and left the Great Hall as fast as he could. He decided to grab his school things from his trunk and go to the library now.
He didn't care if he had to sit there for hours before Snape arrived, at least he wouldn't have to sit and watch James with Lily any longer that day. He pulled out his homework and began working on it, he needed good grades this year now that he was going to be a father and needed a good job to support them. When he was done with his last bit of work he heard the chair next to him scrape the floor and he looked up expecting to see Snape, however he was now looking into the cold eyes of James.
"What do you want?" He spat out. Returning his gaze towards his work on the table.
"Why are you being so cold towards Lily, Sirius? She is upset because she thinks she did something to offend you." James stated.
"She stole you away from me. So yes she did do something. I am more mad at you however so just leave me to my work and get the hell away from me." He spat out still not looking over at James. He felt a hand gently placed onto his leg and he looked down.
James' hand was rubbing his leg softly, like he used to do when he knew Sirius was upset about something. It used to calm him right down to have the other boy rub his leg like that, but right now it was making him furious. He didn't want him to touch him, to think he had the liberty to still act as though he cared. He swiftly pushed the hand away from him and scowled over at James.
"Don't touch me. You have no right. Maybe one of these days I will forgive you for doing this to me but not yet, not today." Sirius angrily stated.
"Do what to you. So you say you loved me after I broke up with you. I know it was only a ploy to try and keep me, but you know how long I have loved Lily, how long I have been trying to make her mine. I thought you would be happy for me Sirius, we are best mates." James stated.
"Were best mates James. Not any longer. You broke my heart and... Just leave." He couldn't believe he almost spilled about the baby. He just wanted James to leave so he could wait for Snape.
"Fine." James said standing up quickly, almost knocking the chair back onto the floor. "If that is how you want to be than fine. Don't come crying to me when you need a friend." James stated before storming off. When he reached the door he saw James walk past Snape, but not before stopping and pushing the other boy and his things onto the floor. Snape's bag opening and spilling everything.
Sirius rushed over once James was gone and began helping Snape pick up his things and place them into his bag. He saw the hurt expression on Snape's face and couldn't help but feel upset that he used to treat him the same way.
"I'm sorry for James." He heard himself saying. "And I'm sorry for all the times I did things like this and worse to you." His eyes caught Snape's as he was speaking and he could see the shock behind them.
"As long as you no longer do stupid stuff like that I forgive you. Now let's go to the back and talk." Snape said all business like and Sirius couldn't help but laugh.