Chapter 8:

Sirius woke up and found himself back in the hospital wing yet again. He hated it here, he really did. His hand went to rest on his stomach in fear that something had happened. His slight bump was still showing but he needed to know for sure if his baby was still within him. He waited patiently for the nurse to come and let him know. All he remembered was he had been reading a note that he knew Severus hadn't meant to give him. The pain from that alone had hurt enough but then the pain in his stomach began and he didn't know what had happened.

"Mr. Black, glad to see you're finally awake. How are you feeling?" The nurse asked walking over to his bed.

"I feel alright. A little dizzy and confused. What happened to me?" He asked watching her look at his file.

"You were extremely stressed Sirius. I told you stress was bad for you and the baby, even more so that you are a pregnant male. What cause you this stress?" She asked with a curious look on his face.

"Friend issues. Losing them by the handful it seems." He replied playing with the blanket across his lap.

"I am sorry to hear that Sirius, but if this is how they are going to act then it is better for you not to be around them at the moment. You have more than yourself to think about now." She smiled at him before walking away.

"Wait, when can I leave?" He yelled.

"As soon as I come back." She replied with a smile.

When she was gone Sirius picked up the note when he saw it sitting on the table next to him. He just knew that the nurse had read it, he just had that feeling. He didn't mind at all, but he only hoped that the person that wrote it wouldn't stay mad at him for long. When the nurse came back she checked the baby once more and told him he could leave, but any sign of problems he was to return right away. He nodded his agreement and walked out the door slowly.

He didn't know where to go, or who to turn to. The one person he wanted to talk to more than anything was now ignoring him. He went through all his classes for the rest of the day with the other boy not even looking at him. Right before bed he went down to the kitchens to get a drink and place the concealment charm back onto himself. He just wasn't sure if he was going to do it right.

Once he was done he hoped that the spell worked. The last thing he needed right now was for people to know his secret, especially James. When he walked past the library he took a quick glance inside and saw Severus sitting there reading. He stood there for several minutes watching the other boy and waiting to see if he would look up, when he didn't he moved into the room and stood in front of him. He waited until Severus looked up at him and scowled before he spoke.

"Here, I think you may want this back." He placed the note in front of the other boy and turned around to leave.

"You read this?" He heard Severus ask just as he reached the doors and he nodded in return. "I didn't mean for you to see this, please forget what it says." Sirius couldn't move after that, he heard the note being ripped and land in the trash next to the other boy. A small tear ran down his cheek making him bring his hand up to wipe it away.

"I won't forget what it said. I have it imprinted into my brain. So no matter how many little pieces you tore it into I will always remember what it said." Sirius whispered.

"I didn't mean any of it." Severus replied making Sirius turn around.

"You did. At the time you wrote it you meant every word. I understand why you no longer feel that way, but I wish I could show you I would never hurt you again. Severus please."

"NO. For once I am going to listen to Potter. He may not like me but Lily and I were once best friends. She is looking out for me and I am not going to let her down again." Severus was standing now, hands in front of him on the table staring into Sirius eyes.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry for every hurtful word I have ever said to you. I am sorry for every childish prank I pulled on you. I am sorry for every time I hurt you. I'm sorry." Sirius was trying to stay calm for his baby. His breathing was coming hard and fast and he tried to calm down. He wanted Severus to see that he was truly sorry.

"You can say what you want Black but I don't see why I should believe you." Severus started packing up his things and went to move around Sirius. He really didn't want to other boy to leave and did the only thing he could think of, the only way he could show Severus he really was sorry and he cared about him. He grabbed his arm as he walked by, spun him around and kissed him.

His lips gently made contact with Severus and pressed softly into his. After a moment of Severus not responding Sirius pulled away. He saw the stunned look on Severus face turn quickly to one of anger and stepped back. Severus face turned beat read and he just stood there for a minute staring at Sirius.

"How dare you do that. What gives you the right to think you can just go and kiss me?" Severus blurted out.

"I wanted to show you how you make me feel. How sorry I am for everything and just want you by my side." Sirius whispered back.

"You have no right to take such liberties with me. Stay the hell away from me Black. Just to let you know your concealment charm didn't work." Severus waved his wand at Sirius and said the words to fix his mistake and walked away.

"Thank you." Sirius said to Severus back before slumping down into the closest chair to him. He didn't know what to do. He was lost and alone and just wanted Severus back.