Chapter 11:
What Sirius didn't know was when he gave Sarah the time off she went out to find the doctor that had seen her ward. He didn't know that it only took her a little over an hour to find the home of that doctor and little less than a minute for her to apperate there and knock on the door. She knew he would be mad, furious even, when he found out she went there to talk to him. She hated to see Sirius so upset, knowing there was someone the man loved and was taken from him.
"Hello?" She heard when she was thinking and turned to see a different man then the one she was looking for.
"Oh sorry. I am here looking for Doctor Snape. May I speak with him please?" She asked.
"Of course. Please come in and I will let him know he has a visitor." The other man replied, opening the door for her to walk in. She walked passed him and took a seat on the chair in the room. Moments later the man she was looking for walked into the room and sat in front of her.
"May I ask why you are here?" He asked.
"Could we speak in private please." She said glancing towards the other man in the room.
"Of course. Remus please excuse us. I'm going to take her into my clinic room. Follow me." He said as he walked and she followed him through the halls of his home until they reached a room at the far end.
"Now what seems to be the problem Miss." He said as she stood to look out the window.
"I don't have anything wrong with me. I am sorry to bug you like this but my friend is heart broken. I figured out he has been like this for a few years now. I just thought coming to talk to you would help." She said as she turned around to look at him.
"What are you talking about?" He asked.
"Sirius Black. I believe he is still in love with you." She replied and saw anger flash into the man's eyes.
"How dare you speak of him in my home. He has no right to send you here to try and ruin what I have with Remus. Now get out." He yelled throwing the door open.
"Did you not love him at one point until people whispered things into your ears? Do you not feel anything for him any longer. He said you were the only one to comfort him and help him when he was pregnant. That you were one of the only ones that knew and kept his secret for him. He fell for you and then the second person he ever let himself love was ripped away from him. I don't think he will ever let himself love another because of that. James hurt him so bad. I heard everything about him because he now hates the other man, but you. I didn't even know he found love again after James until you came to look at Regulus. I see the hurt and love in his eyes and he doesn't even want to say your name because he still loves you and any mention of you kills him." She stated.
Severus held his breath the whole time she spoke. He tried to tune her out but he knew what she was saying was true. That Sirius will probably never let himself fall for another. What Sirius didn't know is how heart broken Severus was when he pulled himself away from Sirius. He had chosen his child hood friend over having the love of the one man he fell for. He just didn't know if he could leave Remus and the stable life he had now for Sirius.
"You need to leave, please. I need to speak to Remus." He whispered and watched her leave without any more complaints.
Sirius was sitting in front of his fire when Sarah returned to the house. He was holding a glass of wine and staring into the fire. Dried tears were on his face as she walked up and sat next to him. He didn't move, didn't look at her, the only thing he did was stare into the fire.
"Sirius you need to move on. I know you live your life for your son, but you need a life also. I hate seeing you like this." She stated and rested a hand on his arm.
"I know. Seeing him again after all this time made me realize that he will never want me again. I need to try and open my heart, but it is going to be so hard." Sirius stated.
Sirius figured he would try to move on by going to a round robin dating event the following night. Sarah had handed him the pamplet before she went to bed that night and he had read it over and over and finally decided it would be good to try and get out to meet other men like him. He wasn't sure how many people would be there but he needed to do this, not only for himself but for his son. He needed to be the man that his son needed and locking himself in his home all the time and being afraid to run into people was not good for his son in the long run.
The following night he found himself standing outside the bar that the event was being held and watched as many men walked past him, checking him out as they went inside. He felt sick to his stomach, he wasn't sure if he would be able to do this but decided to head inside anyway. He listened as the lady said what was to happen and found his way to a table and waited for the first round to begin. He was glad he was chosen as one to stay seated, thinking he may not be able to move so many times without running out the door.
He watched as the first guy sat down, conversation was lacking and the guy was too obsorbed in himself. The second only wanted to talk about what his job was like, what he did everyday in said job and how much money he made. He blurted out that he had a son and the guy stopped talking and waited for the bell to ring. The third however, Sirius didn't know what to do when the guy sat down. He looked just like Severus, slightly smaller nose but with the same skin complection and long dark hair. His voice was even as silky as the other mans.
"Hi my name is Scott, and you are?" The man spoke making Sirius jump out of his day dream.
"Sirius. Sorry I am new to all this and it is rather over whelming." Sirius stated hearing the other man laugh and making him look right into his eyes. Those even reminded him of Severus.
"That's alright. This is my first time to one of these as well. If I am being honest, I just got out of a relationship and my friend pushed me into coming tonight." Scott said and smiled at him.
"Seems friends can be like that. With the honesty being out there I Have a six year old son and his nanny is the one who suggested I come out here tonight." Sirius said and waited for the other man to stop talking like the other when he mentioned his son.
"Wow. A single father. That must be hard. If I may ask, where is the Mother?" Scott asked watching him intently.
"Oh, I guess you would say I am his Mother. I am a carrier, which should be known also. The other father is not in the picture." Sirius replied playing with his hands under the table.
"That is to bad. If I may be so bold to think you must have still been a student when you became pregnant, if not even giving birth." Scott stated watching him closly.
"I had him in my last year and have raised him with the help of his Nanny. Can we talk about something else for now, please." Sirius asked looking hopeful up at Scott. Just as they were about to start getting into other stuff the bell rang around the room signaling for them to move on. Sirius' heart dropped as he saw Scott stand and smile at him, then walked away.
Sirius didn't want to be put though this any longer. He excused him self from the next guy that stopped at his table and went to the bathroom. He needed to get the hell out of there and he needed to do it now. He moved out of the bathroom and quickly moved to the exit, just as he stepped outside his arm was grabbed gently and he looked back to see Scott standing there looking worried.
"Are you leaving?" He asked not letting go of his arm.
"Yeah. I don't think I was ready to do that just yet. It became a little to much all at once." Sirius admitted.
"Well how about just one on one then?" Scott suggested and waited for the information to sink into Sirius mind.
"What the two of us? on a date?" Sirius asked surprised, he had only just met the man.
"I would like that if you would. I liked our talk in there and was rather disappointed when the bell rang." Scott stated.
"I guess I could do that. One on one sounds nice. When would be a great time for you?" Sirius asked and felt the hand on his arm move down to his hand.
"Tomorrow night if it is alright with that nanny of yours to watch your son. I do hope we can get along cause I would love to see that son of yours. Seeing your face light up when you were talking about him Sirius, It was amazing." Scott said and leaned over kissing Sirius on the cheek quickly.
"I think tomorrow night will be fine. Here is my number. Give me a call tomorrow and we can set everything up. I really have to run though. It was great meeting you Scott." Sirius said and squeezed the other mans hand before walking off with a smile on his face.