Chapter 12:

Sirius felt like a fool waiting around for Scott to call him. He couldn't believe hoe much the other man reminded him of Severus and was starting to think this was a bad idea. Why would he want to be with someone who reminded him so much of the man he was so in love with? Wasn't he supposed to be moving on and not falling back into old habits. He couldn't help but be reminded of everytime he looked into Severus eyes and saw the same spark as he did in Scott's. Something was just weird about all of this. Just as he was about to change his mind about the whole thing his phone rang.

"Hello?" He asked as he answered.

"Hi I was looking for Sirius." The man on the other line asked and it was so hard to tell who it was, it sounded like both Scott and Severus.

"This is he, may I ask who is calling?" He asked as he took a seat on his couch.

"It's Scott. I'm sorry it is a little late in the day, I have been busy with work. I wanted to call and see if you were free right now?" Scott asked.

"Yeah I'm free. My son is actually out with my Nanny and won'tbe back until late. I can send her a message right now and let her know I won't be home." Sirius suggested.

"Great. Well I don't know where you live so.." Scott hinted making Sirius laugh and give him the address. He had ten minutes to get ready and he rushed around and almost fell down the stairs when the bell rang. He slowly came to the door and opened it up. Seeing the man standing in front of him made him stop breathing for a moment. It was just so hard not to picture Severus standing there.

The rest of the night went great. They went to a little resturant that Sirius had never been to before. They shared a mean and laughs along with some Wine. After that they went for a long walk around the town, enjoying the quiet of the night as they got to know each other. There was so many similar things again he found between Scott and Severus. They were both doctors of some sort. They loved Potions and were very smart. They had the same laugh and crinkle in the eyes when they did and Sirius couldn't help but kiss the man when they got back to his house. Right after their lips touched, Sirius jumped away from Scott with a confused look on his face. That spark he felt as thier lips touched was the same as when he quickly kissed Severus back in school.

"I. I am so sorry I have to go. I had a great time but I really don't think I am ready for this." He went to turn around but Scott grabbed ahold of his arm and turned him around. The only thing was he wasn't looking into Scott's eyes or face this time he was staring at Severus.

"What the hell?" He snapped out as he stared at the other man. He knew something was off.

"Wait Sirius." Severus began but Sirius pulled away harshly.

"What the fuck do you think you are playing at? Want to break me even more. What the hell Severus?" Sirius asked trying his hard not to break down.

"I left Remus. Someone came to speak with me and told me some stuff I needed to hear. Really knocked the sense into me actually. I have been denying my feelings for way to long and only stayed with Remus because I was hurting. I changed my apperance and went to that night in hopes you would hit it off with me. I love you Sirius." Sevues said and Sirius knew he wasn't lying but he couldn't let him walk right back into his life like this, he had his son to think about.

"I don't think we can start anything right now Severus. I would love to be friends and get to know you as you are now. It had been years and I have my son to think about here too." Sirius stated hoping Severus was really sincere.

"I guess if that is all you can give me right now I am all for it. I don't want to loose you again. I will let you go for now. Here is my new address if you want to get ahold of me." Severus stated.

"Well Reg and I are going to the park tomorrow if you would like to join us." Sirius asked.

"I would love that. I will meet you there around noon. Good night Sirius. I am sorry again for trying to fool you." Severus said before turning around and leaving.

Sirius made his way into his house and spotted Sarah sitting in the kitchen waiting for him.

"Your son is up stairs waiting for his Papa to read him a book. I told him that I didn't know when you would be back but he said he could wait. He's just too cute. He might be sleeping by now. How was your night." She smiled hoping he had a good time.

"I think you know how it went. Sarah I appreciate what you did. He may not have said the name of the person who went to speak to him but I'm pretty sure it was you. You really shouldn't have done that." He stated sitting down next to her.

"OH Sirius I'm so sorry. I was asking about your date tonight with Scott but did something happen with Severus?" She asked not really sure what he was getting at.

"You don't know? Well Scott was, well is Severus. I figured something was off since I met the man and he showed his true self tonight. He even told me he loved me." He told her.

"That is wonderful Sirius, Isn't it?" She asked when she noticed how upset he was.

"I don't know. I mean I love the man, I really do. However we haven't been around each other in years, how do I know I still love this man he is now. I could just be wishing he is the same as he was back then. I also have to think about Reg. I invited him to the park with us tomorrow after I told him I just want to be friends for now." He replied.

"Well that is a start. Let's see if Reg likes him, that is importnant. I just want you to be happy Sirius. You really deserve it for everything you have been though." Sarah said as she rested a hand over his on the table. "Now go check on that boy of yours." She smiled making Sirius nod and make his way upstairs.

When he made it to his son's room he really thought the boy would be asleep by now. He was however sitting up in bed, wide eyed and waiting for him. When he spotted his Papa standing in the door he smiled brightly at him.

"Papa your home. I missed you." He laughed as he jumped up from the bed and into Sirius arms.

"I missed you to little man. I love you. Let's get to reading a story so you can go to bed. We have a big day at the park tomorrow." He smiled as his son ran back to the bed and snuggled under his blankets letting Sirius snuggle next to him as he read him a story, putting him right to sleep.

The next morning Sirius was running around the house more nervous than anything. He couldn't believe that he had invited Severus to the park with him and Reg. He hoped Reg liked him, knowing he was the man that made him take the "Nasty Medicine" when he was sick. He laughed when he saw his son toddling down the stairs with one sock on and a show on the other that didn't have one, a smile on his face.

"Papa I'm almost ready. I got dressed all by my self today." He yelled as he hopped down the last couple of stairs.

"Silly boy you need to put a sock under that shoe." Sirius laughed as he picked up Reg and started to tickle him making him sqwirm in his hold.

"Alright boys it's time for you to head out and have some fun while I clean this place up." Sarah said as she walked up and placed a kiss on Reg's forehead.

"Alright, alright Sarah. We are leaving just let me fix his socks and shoes." Sirius placed his son on the couch and kneeled down to fix his son.

"You ready to go play Reg?" He asked as his finished tying the second show and almost got toppled by his son when he jumped off the couch.

"Yes Papa, let's go." He laughed as he grabbed his papa's hand and dragged him to the door.