Chapter 4
***Gracie's POV***
It takes a second for me to realize that Jax is kissing me. I feel his tongue graze along my lips asking for permission. Parting my lips, his tongue starts to battle for dominance against mine. Jax is kissing me. Wait. Jax is kissing me? I pull away and he puts his forehead to mine as we catch out breaths. "Jax." I try to say. "Shhh." he says before opening our eyes and looking at each other. I pull away and go to get off the rock. "Shit. Gracie." he starts. "Don't Jax. Please. Just don't." I say before heading back to the cabin. I hear him running up behind me. He grabs my hand and turns me to look at him. "Gracie, wait." he says. "No Jax. Don't touch me." I say. "Listen to me. Please." he says almost pleading. "Fine." I say, crossing my arms over my chest, looking at him to hear him out. "You are my best friend, Gracie. You've been there for me anytime I've needed you. I want to be there for you." he says. "So, you kissing me was being there for me?" I almost yell. "Shit. No. I don't want to see you hurting, Gracie." he says. "Then why did you kiss me?" I asked with tears falling down my face. "I kissed you because I wanted to. I fucking wanted to, Gracie." he tells me. I look at him shocked and asked "What now? You kissed me and that's supposed to make me feel better? I could barely get Chris to even touch me but I am supposed to believe that you wanted to kiss me?" I say as I start sobbing. He walks closer to me and pulls me to him. Wrapping his arms around me, I wrap mine around his waist and he whispers "I got you."
After we pulled apart, he intertwines our fingers and leads me back to the cabin. Walking into the cabin, I walk over to the kitchen counter and he follows me. "What's happening Jax?" I asked. "Like I said, you helped me when Tara left. I want to help you but last night, when we were watching the movie, shit started hitting me. When every other woman in my life bailed, you stayed. You showed me that I was going to be okay." he tells me. "Yeah and how did that work out? I got pushed to the side again while you fucked with anything with a pulse." I tell him. "And yet you still stuck around." he says. "Yeah. Good old dependable kid." I say sarcastically. "You stuck around because you love your family." he says. I just look down at my hands and say "I'm going to head to bed." I get up and head to my room.
Laying on the bed, my back to the door, I start to sob. How can he even look at me like that? He fucking kissed me. Guys like Jax don't kiss girls like me. Before I know it, I'm drifting off to sleep still sobbing.
Waking up the next morning, I just lay there. Jax knocks on the bedroom door, "Gracie?" he asks. I turn over a little to show him I'm awake. He walks in with a cup of coffee and sits it down on the nightstand. "How are you feeling?" he asked. "Wishing people would stop asking me how I feel." I say sadly. "Do you remember when Tara left, and I was staying drunk all the time?" he asked. "Yeah. What about it?" I asked, reaching for the cup of coffee. "You told me to give you a month to show me that I was worth more than that." he says. "So?" I asked, wondering where he was going with this. "Let me make you the same deal." he says. "What?" I asked. "You heard me." he says. "Jax, when I did that for you, all it got was you turning into a revolving dick for croweaters." I say and he chuckles. "Revolving dick?" he asked, smirking. "You know what I mean." I say. "Look, give me a month. Let me show you that your ex didn't know what he was talking about. Let me show you that you are worth it." he says. "And how are you going to do that?" I asked. "We spend time together. You give me an honest chance to prove to you that you are wanted. That I want you." he says. "That will go over well with...I don't know...your wife?" I asked. "The divorce papers are signed and filed. Just waiting on it to be final." Jax tells me and my eyes go wide. "Just give me a chance." he says. I decide to see how serious he is. "You know I don't believe that run rule bull shit." I tell him. "Okay." he says. "Okay?" I asked. "Okay." he says before pulling me to him and kissing me softly. Pulling away, I look at him and say "I guess we're together?" He kisses me again and says "We're together." before kissing me again.