Goodbye
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This is on the sad side so please bear with me. This was an actual thing that happened to me so yeah...I miss him so much:(
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Astrid had been preparing for the day she had to say goodbye to her best friend. Her best friend who she was secretly in love with. Secretly because common sense told her not to admit her feelings aloud. In love because...well, she couldn't quite explain why. Maybe it was the way he smiled. Maybe it was the fact that he was a dork. Maybe it was even because she recognized his flaws, and knew that they made him real. She'd never liked perfection. Perfection seemed too fake to her.
And then there was the fact that he knew her better than any of her other friends. When she talked about deep, meaningful things, he understood what she was saying. He'd seen her laugh, he'd seen her angry, he'd seen her on the verge of a breakdown. He hadn't seen her cry yet, though, and she was hoping to keep it that way.
She felt her stomach flip at the sound of a knock. She knew it was Hiccup. He'd told her he was coming to say goodbye before he left. He was moving to another island - one that was far away from Berk. She'd tried to talk him out of it, but he'd insisted that he just didn't fit in on Berk, and that he needed to search for a place to call home. She understood. She just wished that his new home could be somewhere close to her. But at the same time, she knew that wish was selfish.
"You're...you're really leaving?" Astrid's voice shook as she looked into his eyes.
He didn't say anything. He simply nodded and pulled her into a tight hug, one unlike any other hug they'd shared before. His arms circled her middle, squeezing her until she could barely breathe and she felt as if her feet were about to leave the ground. She fiercely returned his embrace and buried her face into his shoulder, taking in his familiar scent. There was so much she wanted to tell him, yet she was too choked up to utter a word.
"I have to," he said eventually, releasing his hold on her. "I'm excited, though."
She forced a smile. "I...I'm happy for you."
He grinned back and let out a nervous chuckle. "I can't believe I'm really leaving."
"Neither can I." She paused. "We've been to hell and back together. But now...now we won't be able to have adventures together like we used to."
"You can come visit me."
"I'd love to. It's just...it's just that you'll be so far, and -"
"I'm sure you'll pass through sometimes."
She sighed. "I hope so." At this point, tears were gathering in her eyes.
"You understand why I have to do this, right?" asked Hiccup.
"I do."
He bit his lip. Astrid swore his eyes were growing moist. "Well...I uh...I better get going." Turning his face away from her, he reached for the doorknob.
"Wait." A tear trickled down her cheek as she stretched her arms out.
"Okay, one last hug," he decided, enveloping her in another tight embrace.
Another tear escaped her eye and sank into his shirt. "I...I'll miss you." Her voice betrayed the fact that she was about to begin sobbing.
It could have been her imagination, but she swore he pulled her a bit closer in response to her words. "I...I'm sure...I mean, we'll see each other again," he assured when they finally pulled apart.
"I..." She trailed off.
His hand touched the doorknob once more. "We'll see each other again," he repeated. "I promise."
She watched as he walked out the door, then dragged herself into her bedroom. She felt empty. Life seemed meaningless. She would no longer be able to look forward to having him brighten her day. There would be no more late night talks. No more laughter. No more early morning flights. No more him. Taking a sheet of paper, she chewed on her lip. She wanted to tell him. She needed to tell him. But she couldn't.
I love you. She mouthed the words while she scribbled them down. After staring at the page for a few minutes, she crumpled it in her fist and tossed it into the fireplace. Unable to control her emotions any longer, she hid her face in her pillow and allowed heavy, bitter tears to carry her to sleep.