… So… I'm not uploading this week…
Below is a long rambling explanation. If you don't care, just know that I will be uploading the next two weeks(so next Wednesday(14th) and then the Wednesday(21st) after that) as punishment.
Read on if you like excuses:
I wish I could say that it's because I got sick. That work got crazy. That my kids needed my help, or that my computer died and I couldn't write for these last two weeks… But really, it's because I am lazy AF. I always have a problem of procrastinating til the last minute. The last two chapters I wrote Tuesday and Wednesday before posting. I wrote up to the wire and posted whatever was there because I was already late. I thought that pressure helped with my creativity. And in a way I was right. But mostly, it just made me stressed and annoyed with myself.
I was planning to do the same this week. I got to Monday and realized that I hadn't written over the weekend like I had planned to. That I had nothing. So I thought, okay, when I get home I will write for at least two hours to make up for the weekend. Instead, I found out that I really like Korean Dramas. On Tuesday I realized I really needed to buckle down or I would be in a jam on Wednesday. Instead, I remembered how much I loved NCIS. On Wednesday, I was planning to write from the time I got home until midnight, and then proof read on Thursday and upload. I even had some pithy saying about how "at least it's not Friday". But Wednesday I watched Criminal Minds for four hours as I made dinner and told myself that I just needed to watch one more episode before I started writing. Because, really I couldn't cook and write, or eat and write, or curl up on a chair and watch Criminal Minds episodes and write…
And so I found myself here. Having nothing solid written and already past my bed time. A bed time imposed so that I can wake up and actually get to work on time tomorrow. And I realized, I just can't upload this week.
I'm sorry.
However, as I said above, I will upload two weeks in a row as punishment. Maybe I won't learn from these pressured writing spurts, or perhaps I will be able to create something for the next two weeks and find a schedule that's actually effective. Only time and self restraint will tell.
I hope you have a good night… morning… whatever, and that you will forgive me for backing down on a promise.
Til next week...