I won't give up

by orangedebateboxes

Despite his best efforts to forget her, Tony Dinozzo finds it harder then he thought to forget Ziva. He thought Zoe Keates was they key to letting Ziva go, but when things don't go well between the two of them, he realizes that he will never be able to give up on Ziva. Meanwhile, Ziva is having her own problems forgetting Tony. Is it enough to pull her back to DC?

6. The Basement

A/N Enjoy chapter 6!

Previously: "Ziva." He slowly turned around to face her. Ziva smiled back. "Hello, Gibbs."

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Ziva carefully made her way down the steps to the basement. Gibbs put his tool down and walked over to her. "You're back," he said.

She nodded. "It was time. As hard as it is, you took care of me when I needed it the most and I believe you deserve an honest explanation." Gibbs didn't say anything (functional mute) but waited for Ziva to continue, his gut sensing that this was something that she needed to say to him herself.
"You see," she continued, "When I left I thought it was the best decision for everyone. I was, and still am, sick and tired of watching the people closest to me get hurt and killed. I used to think that being an NCIS agent was the best way to protect the people I cared most about, but I was wrong. I lost first Ari and then my Father. I shot him. I shot Ari, Gibbs. My own brother. What kind of person does that make me?" She searched his eyes, looking for an honest answer from the man who had become like an adoptive father to her. Gibbs put his hands on her shoulders and looked into her eyes. "It wasn't you're fault, Ziva. Ari made his choice."
"And what about Deena Bashan? Is it supposed to be her fault that she fell in love with Ari? Is it her own fault that her heart broke when he died; when I shot him?

"Ziva-"

"No, Gibbs! I am done. No more guns or violence. I WILL continue to fight but I will not harm another person at the same time. There. I said it, and I'm done."

Gibbs shook his head. "That's not why you came back Ziver. You didn't come here tonight to explain yourself to me. I know how you feel. When Shannon and Kelly died I started questioning why I was a Marine. What was the point if I couldn't save my family? Through time though I found another purpose for continuing. And that's why you came back Ziva. Not because you felt like you owed it to us. You came back because you need a reason to continue. You tried to build a boat with a pick-axe. I'm not saying you have to come back to NCIS as an agent, but you do need to know who you're fighting for. Start using a hammer instead Ziva."

A/N I'm so sorry it's so short! It was going to be part of of chapter 5, but I split it up because I wasn't done writing this part and I wanted to give you guys another chapter sooner. I didn't realize how short this was though.. I'm in the process of writing chapter 7, which should be up some time in the next 2 weeks. :)All feedback is greatly appreciated (and I'm not just saying that!).