Chapter 13 – Morning After, Last Night, Morning Sickness and Fear of Losing a Child Again
(Writer's Note – I have decided that Ichigo will have four children and that is all. This one will be called Ukuro. Also, warnings for emotional bits in this, because of Ichigo being pregnant again.)
Ichigo's P.O.V:
The sun is filtering through a gap in the curtain, making me come around and lay there, just enjoying the fact that Kenpachi, was with me. Holding me close to him, while I turn my head to look over my shoulder at him and remember last night, when he made love to me in way that felt so different from our previous lovemaking.
He is sleeping calmly, with one hand resting on the side of my hip and sensing that I'm awake, he snuggles up closer to me then I feel warm lips, brush against my neck. They trail up and down, making me tilt my head backwards as he does it then he pulls away from my neck.
"Was last night, alright for you?" He asks me, while I roll to lay on my back and he props himself up on his elbow to look down at me, while I look up at the ceiling of the spare sleeping quarters.
A moth had flown in the middle of the night and was fluttering around the lamp, which still had some light left in it then grabbing his free hand, place it on my cheek, covering it with my own.
"I…. Excuse me, I need to go to the bathroom." I reply, throwing the cover back on the futon and heading to the bathroom, where I manage to reach the sink in time then my stomach heaves weakly what I had eaten last night.
I lift my head to look in the mirror above the sink, while he comes in and hands me glass of water. I take it and sip some to get rid of the acidic taste in my mouth then washing out the sink, feel him wrap his arms around me, gently.
"It's alright, Ichigo." He says, while I lean against him for support as my legs literally feel like jelly and he leads me out of the bathroom, taking me over to the futon.
He lays me down on it and goes back into the bathroom, while I hear the tap running then he comes back through. He gets down and dabs my forehead with a wet cloth then placing it to one side, when I push his hand away to tell him that I was alright now.
"I should get changed. I need to go and check on Li-Li, Rye and Kieo." I said, getting up slowly and head over to the closet to get some fresh clothes.
I shrug them on and just stand there, complementing the fact that deep down inside I was afraid of losing this fourth child, which had started to grow within my womb then head to the door, sliding it open.
He has gone into the bathroom, closing the door behind him and maybe I shouldn't have moved his hand away. Just allowed him to continue and stepping out into the corridor head to our children's sleeping quarters, after sliding it shut behind me.
Li-Li, when I come into the sleeping quarters is laying curled in the crook of Grimmjow's arm and gently snuffling in her sleep, while her brothers are laying on the futon, blankets all akimbo on top of them.
I smile, gently and head over to them then gently bend down, sorting the blankets so they don't get cold then go over to Li-Li, kissing her forehead gently as she moves in her sleep. Her eyes flutter open and soon her green eyes look blearily into mine.
"Mama?!" She says, surprised that I have come to see her and her brothers, while I smile down at her and move a strand of hair from forehead then gently, tuck it behind her ear.
"It's alright. Go back to sleep, Mama, just wanted to see that you and your brothers are alright." I whisper, quietly to not wake Grimmjow and kiss her on the cheek, while she snuggles back down then falls asleep again.
They were so young and innocent, while I walk back to my sleeping quarters and suddenly stop to lean against the wall for support, feeling tears form as I place my head in my hands. I can't seem to stop crying and can hear the hitched sobbing coming from me, echo slightly in the empty corridor as I try not to think that if this war become too much – that if Aizen won.
I would never see them again and sink into despair over their deaths, if he killed them. I'm crying so much, that I don't hear the door sliding open and suddenly arms take hold of me, while his large hand takes hold of the back of my head, placing it on his chest.
I tremble in Kenpachi's arms and shakily push him away from me, heading into our sleeping quarters then hear the door slide shut behind. I do not turn to face him and he comes up to me, turning me slowly around to face him.
I turn my face away from him, still trembling and his hand comes up, taking hold of my chin then gently, turning it to face him. He soon moves it away and begins to wipe the tears that are running down my cheeks, away with his thumb.
"I'm sorry. I don't what came over me. I... Just hold me, please." I said, throat now sore from crying and he takes hold of me, wrapping his arms around me then rest my head on his chest.
Just allowing him to hold me, like this.