Chapter 19 – Trying to Cope with The Feelings Inside Our Soul's, One of Aizen's Plans is Revealed and A Bond that is Strong in Love, Can be Never be Broken
(Author's Note - In this Chapter Aizen, after he kidnapped Ichigo in the First Story of my Bleach Collection, has decided to place Hogyoku inside Ichigo's Spiritual Body, and this slowly begins to poison Ichigo. Urahara-san finds this out and with help from Jushiro Ukitake, they manage to extract it. But what to do with it? Read on and find out)
(Bond Talk in Italics)
Ichigo's P.O.V:
I'm packing my school bag, when I hear my bedroom window slide open which makes me turn and look at Kenpachi, who is just about to step inside then lowers his head as I fully turn to face him, crossing my arms over my chest.
He had some explaining to do and I needed answers to questions.
Why had he left?
Where had he gone
And why did I sense his men's Spiritual Pressure?
"Where were you?" I ask him, which makes him slide the window shut behind him and step quietly onto the floor, without ever touching the bed.
"I…Ichigo, you have to understand. I'm a Captain of a Division. I may hate orders to the stomach, but when they come from the Head Captain. I can't ignore them." He replies, sitting down on the bed and looking at me, standing in my school uniform as schools were going back today.
"You defied them, when you come back to me. Do you actually care for me and our children?" I said, knowing I shouldn't be saying it.
But it was all coming out and he looks at me with shock at those words.
"Dammit, Ichigo. I care for you deeply and our children. But what about you, keeping your rape from me and not telling your own friends, after the 5 years passed. Then telling them. You…Why start this?" He says, sighing softly and looking away from me.
"Why start this? Because I want to know if your committed enough. If you truly love me, love our children and this fourth one inside me? If WHAT I'M FEELING FOR YOU IS REAL?!" I said, soon shouting the words as my voice breaks in the process and he gets up from his sitting position then comes up to me.
"Dammit, Ichigo. Of course, it is real. What I felt when I first met was something that I had never felt before in my life. Even though, I'm called the Demon Captain for a reason in the Soul Society. Do you think I wouldn't love you, love our children and love the one you are bearing inside you? I'm not like Aizen, who is trying to kill them." He says, making me flinch suddenly and move away from him as the memories of feeling them being lost comes flooding back.
"Do you mean it? Do you mean that you love me, love them and the little one here?" I ask, waiting for answer and instead feel him, wrap his arms around me then take hold of my hand, placing it on my abdomen.
"Would I be doing this, holding you? Making love to you, kissing you and enjoying time with you if I didn't love you?" He asks me, while I shake my head in reply and turn in his arms grip to look up at him then hear my Father shouting that if I didn't hurry up, I would be late for school.
He loosens his arms, allowing me to slide out of them and hands me my school bag then slinging it over my shoulder, head to the bedroom door.
"We'll talk later. Okay." He says, while I nod in reply and opening the door step out into the landing then head down the stairs.
Kenpachi's P.O.V
I watch from the window, with my arms crossed over my chest as Ichigo, goes up to his friends and says something among them then walks off, not looking back at all.
He was probably feeling ashamed of himself for shouting at me, like that and saying those things to me and what about me. I had said that I wasn't like Aizen, who was trying to kill our children and destroy the Soul Society in the process.
Turning my face away from the window, I turn and sit down on the bed, feeling it dip slightly under my weight then place my head in my hands. I tremble with emotion that I had locked away all those years ago, when I had become Captain of the 11th Division and killed the previous Captain.
But, thinking about. If I hadn't met Ichigo, my life would just have been constant fighting, not afraid of Death and allowing myself to succumb to the battle-lust inside me.
His love for me, was the only thing that was keeping me going and making me feel like I had been reborn inside. He was young at his age and remember how we had fought together in the Soul Society.
He was my Equal. My lover and the bearer of my children then getting off the bed, I turn to look at the windowsill where the Moon- Flower rested.
I touch one of the petals gently with my fingertip and can feel the energy from it comfort me in way that felt like I was being hugged by Ichigo, around my middle. It was still growing, because it had many petals that would open when there was moonlight and the nights that had passed, had been cloudy with no moon shining at all.
I would talk more to him, later when he got back from School.
Ichigo's P.O.V:
Chad, doesn't say anything when I come out of the front door of my house and over to him then begin to walk down the road. I felt ashamed that I had shouted at Kenpachi, the way I had and said all those things - those words to him.
Pregnancy hormones were already affecting me and remember I will have to go to Urahara-san's after school. See that the little ones, were doing alright and coping with Grimmjow, who I knew was permanently grounded for some reason.
The river is glittering in the sunlight, while it reflects the other half of the city on the other side of the large bridge. Orihime and Ishida, are up ahead, waiting for us and she smiles at me then frowns, tilting her head slightly.
"Ichigo, is something wrong? You didn't argue, did you?" She asks me, while I brush past her and go to move, when I stop to sigh weakly.
"No. It's just complicated. You don't have to worry about anything, guys. I'm fine." I said, lying at the end, because I was not fine at all and continue to walk down the dusty river path.
Why didn't I tell them the truth?
Say to them it was because, I was starting to wonder about the feelings I felt for Kenpachi inside.
Should I turn back around, head home to apologise to him?
Should I just continue heading to school?
I go to head down the steps, when suddenly I sway slightly as my vision blurs for wee while and soon clears as I place a hand to my head, feeling faint suddenly. I hear the others come up to me and Chad, takes hold of me then places the back of his hand to my forehead.
"He's burning up." He says, to Ishida and Orihime and leads me away from the steps then my vision blurs again, blocking out everything and making me grip him tightly with one hand as every sound is blocked out – externally.
I can only hear my heart thudding against my ribcage, blood pounding in my ears and soon slump against him as blackness sweeps in, making me faint straight away.
(Time Skip – After Ichigo's has Fainted)
Voices whispering, make me come around and fluttering my eyes open then Urahara- san talking to someone, that is close by. I can't see them, because my vision was still blurry and wonder who could it be that was he was talking to.
It sounded like Grimmjow, muffled and turn my face to where it is coming from then my vision soon clears, while a cry escapes me at the light that suddenly blinds my eyes. I bring my hands up, trembling weakly and curl into tight ball as it dims down.
I hear footsteps come over, while large hands pull me up and a hand takes hold of the back of my head, resting it on their chest as the scent of Kenpachi's cologne fills my nostrils. I felt so weak, feverish almost and feel him place the back hand to my forehead to check my temperature.
"Ichigo, are you feeling alright. You feel like your burning." He says, while taking my head from his chest and taking hold of both of my cheeks, clasping them gently in his large hands as I try to respond.
All that comes out is a weakened moan, from me and I hope that the little one is not being affected by this then grip him tightly to me, when my vision suddenly turns bright red. Blocking out everything from my sight.
"Kenpachiii?! What's happening? I... gaahh?!"
Pain travels through me, making me cry out in the stillness of the room, while running footsteps sound and soon feel Urahara-san, taking me off Kenpachi. I whimper, trying to reach out for him and soon his large hand clasps mine as I'm laid down on the spare futon.
"What's wrong with him? Why is this happening?" I hear, Kenpachi saying to him and the man mutters over me then his hands stiffen on my abdomen.
"Aizen. He's placed something I thought had been destroyed that I had created, into his Spiritual body. It's killing him."" He says to Kenpachi, who tightens his hand around mine and soon Urahara-san turns to say something to Tessai. "Tessai, send a message to the Soul Society, requesting for Jushiro Ukitake, immediately. Code Red – Soul Reaper Substitute down."
"It's alright, Ichigo. I'm here for you." Kenpachi, whispers to me and shakily, I try to find his face in the red haze that covers my vision then feel Urahara-san, place it on his cheek for me.
I go to reply, when suddenly pain runs up my spine and I black out, at the sametime feeling my Spiritual body being pulled into my Inner World, unexpectly.
Ichigo's Inner World:
Everything is crimson.
The sky, the clouds and the water that has formed then hear footsteps coming up to me. He appears, bending down in front of my vision and looking at me then places a hand on my chest, only to flinch backwards at the spark of purple energy that comes from it.
"Zangestu, what is that?" I ask him, panicking and rip open my shirt to reveal on my chest, purple swirls like ferns spreading outwards that glow ominously then cry out as pain shoots through me.
He grabs hold of my hands by my wrists holding them, while distantly hear a voice that sounds just like Urahara – san and someone else that is doing something as white swirls begin to appear on my chest, spreading over the purple ones.
Zangestu is wincing, his hands becoming covered in the purple ferns and already part of his coat is distengrating into fine particles, which floating up into the air then my back arches off the glass surface of the building.
I feel whatever is in my body, being pulled out and collapse on the surface, sweat that had formed running down it then look at Zangestu, who's chest is rising and falling heavily under the white shirt he wears.
"Are you alright, Ichigo?" He asks me, while above his head the clouds have turned white and spread apart to allow sunlight to filter down on my inner World then let's go of my wrists to lean back.
I don't answer at first, because I'm concerned about the little one and slide a hand down to my abdomen, feeling the Spiritual pressure of my child raise as it senses its mother's presence. I sit up and suddenly sense a presence behind me then with Zangestu helping me, stand up.
I turn around, watching as white petals float down from the sky and swirl downwards, forming like when one makes a jigsaw puzzle – the petals joining together – into solid form, which soon reveals the familiar grin that I recognise of my Lover.
He stands there, smiling at me and run over to him then fall into his chest as he chuckles lightly down at me, while I wrap my arms around his waist. It was him, because I could just tell that it was him and feel him place a hand on top of my head.
"Never knew that this was possible. Going into another Soul Reaper's Inner World." He said, making me lift my head from his chest and lean up to his lips, which makes him soon cover them with his own.
It feels different, more intense and my body trembles against his at the emotions that are swirling through the bond that has been made between us as he moves his lips, in way that makes me place my hands flat on his chest.
"Hmm…. haa…I'm sorry for what I said to you this morning."
"I know. I was worried that Urahara-san and Ukitake, wouldn't be get it out of you and…. I love you, so much."
He pulls out of the Bond talk, pulling his lips away from mine and lifts his head to look at Zangestu, who is standing there smiling at the both of us then suddenly stiffens when arms wrap around him from behind.
Kenpachi's Soul Slayer is behind him, with long blackish blond hair and has golden eyes, while the other side of their face is covered by skull-like mask then kiss his cheek, lightly as he a bright blush rises on his cheeks.
"N...!" He says, embarrassed by the fact that he was being seen like this and hear a chuckle come from them as they just hold him, now.
The name, I don't hear and it's almost like when I first met Zangestu, he had tried to tell me his name. It had not reached my ears at the time and only in dire need had he then told me it.
"We better go, Ichigo." Kenpachi says, which makes me agree with him and soon everything dissolves around me to nothing, but white path leading to white door that Kenpachi goes up to as it swings open.
I pull back, being cautious about it and deciding, take hold of his hand then he pulls me into the opening doorway as it absorbs us.
End of Ichigo's Inner World
I weakly flutter my eyes open, soon seeing when my vision clears that Urahara-san is sitting there and that my friends have all come in, including Grimmjow with my children. I turn my face to see that Kenpachi, is lying next to me and holding my hand still then gives a slight groan as he comes around.
Emerald eyes soon focus on me and he helps me sit up then my children come over, to me with as Kieo and Rye, start to bail tears and Li-Li starts as well.
"Maaama!?"
"It's alright. Mama's better now, come here." I said, which makes them rush over to me and soon bury their little faces into my chest, hugging me with the little hands and soon feel a large hand come around me, hugging me as well.
"Can I join you, in the hug?" Grimmjow, says, blushing in embarrassment because it was more a child thing and nod in reply which makes him come over, soon placing his arms around the children as they stop bailing, more sniffling now as he whispers soothing words.
"See, your Mama's alright. Papa and Uncle Grijow are here as well. It's alright, Keio, Rye and Li-Li."
"But, Mama could have died." Keio, says lifting his head from my chest and I look down at him then bringing my hand to his cheek, wipe away the tears with my thumb that run down it then to the same for the other one.
"Keio, look at me. Good boy. I didn't though, did I?" I said, which makes him give "Uhh-ah" as answer and pick him, kissing his cheek, which makes him giggle at me.
"Mama, that tickles." He says, which makes me smile and know that they will be hungry so handing Li-Li to Grimmjow, while she has stopped crying then nudges my hand as I stroke her cheek, lightly.
"Hungry?" I ask them, making them nod in reply and holding Keio, close to my chest pick up Rye, who looks at Kenpachi.
"You want Papa, to hold you?" I ask, him and he holds out his hands to Kenpachi, who takes hold of him then settles in his arms
I get up, slowly and walk out the room to the dining area, hearing Tessai in the kitchen making stuff for a later supper, because it had gotten rather dark outside. Sitting down, I allow Keio to move so he can sit in my lap and soon the others trickle in, except for Grimmjow who had Li-Li, with him
"He'll be in soon. The other Arrancar wanted to talk to him in private. Li-Li's with him." Ukitake-san, says to me, probably seeing my face and feel like going to check on them then go to move, but Urahara-san, comes in with the drinks.
I settle back down, knowing that maybe if I leave I might just make it worse than food arrives, and everything dissolves into eating, chatting and laughing among ourselves.