(Dreams...memories) probably obvious but just a note.

(RedDestiny92: A method to my madness...? Maybe these are small parts but I decided to use them. Also more AU kinda.)

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Fifteen

"Daddy?"

he sat slumped over in the dark room I barely spoke to father so casually but no one was around, it was just late enough that no one was bothering him. No servants were around to see if he allowed the freedom. He looked up though his face was a bit red, clearly he'd been drinking I hated when he drank, it only seemed to make him crazier. I wanted to leave but I backed away first he stood up.

"Where have you been son?"

I didn't want to tell him, he just barely got along with the others he didn't want to lose his place in power they had so many supporters...Inutaisho...Kai he would lose hard. Though that didn't mean he supported my friendship with Sesshomaru privately.

"I...just went out to train."

"With who?"

I didn't answer twitching as he threw something the glass shattered against the wall but I looked up at him quickly.

"I told you it's just for good standing you stay away from that boy!"

"But he's my only friend!"

He was there in a moment I couldn't even step back before he grabbed me by the throat, I gagged as he squeezed.

"You don't need friends you need minions."

I felt dazed as he banged my head against the wall, it was then I was happy I had mixed blood a human couldn't have taken the blow to the head. I was a target for his rage, I know he valued furniture, a show of his wealth more than me...so maybe it was better.

He'd get mad if he broke something important.

I don't know how long it went on but when I woke up aching I was on the floor, my eye throbbed...arms were weaken, he didn't leave any part of me without a bruise. I wouldn't dare cry that would only make it worse, I coughed spitting up blood he seemed to register me again but I couldn't move he raised his hand I thought it might start again but I wasn't as afraid I was in pain but numb he stroked my hair.

"Ah my boy you know this is the only way you'll ever be loved."

I sniffed trying to keep those tears back, father didn't love me..or did he I don't know most days.

"...What do you say?" he asked yanking my hair this time pulling a clump out.

"T...thank you father."

"Good...now Menomaru...take him and put him to bed, without dinner for disobeying me alright it's for your own good."

"Yes father..." whatever he said.

I opened my eyes the darkness took forever to fade.

Almost too long.

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Naraku sweated as his gaze focused on Kagome's face she reached seeing the red glow to his eyes he almost backed away until he realized it was her hand. She touched his pale cheek, his pupils seem to shrink as he swallowed nervously, she'd felt a claw..it was like that anyways a sharp pain across her mind a dark image just barely showing a tiny Naraku before it faded because she looked through his eyes. She felt a wave of frustrations limbs going numb, it wasn't just being paralyzed by fear Takemaru made his victims well aware of his strength he knew just how to use his ancestor's poison for the most effective torture.

What he called love.

She stroked his cheek as he blinked slowly he felt the few tears sliding down his face before he shut his eyes he rose up on one arm using his free hand to grab hers. She couldn't understand the blossom of pain across her stomach, against her temple or over her legs it was a rollercoaster once hurting...release..then pain again. It faded slowly as her throat felt sandpapery like it did when you tried to swallow your tears rather than let them go. She couldn't even say anything feeling the emotions from a memory she couldn't see in full only feel.

A child...even a demon one..somewhat knowing that it wasn't normal but thinking that if that's really how your parent gave love that's all you could get. He grew up confused fighting those feelings, in a moment he released her hand and took a breath as he stood to walk outside rushing once the door was closed behind him. Kagome pushed herself up pausing only as Sesshomaru grabbed her arm. He shook his head.

"You want to wait for him that's your only option."

She blinked seeming to snap out of her lost she frowned.

"You want me to just let him go? You're his friend aren't you?" His only one..

"I knew him as a child, like this he's not himself, we have an agreement for business but do you think you're the only female that would be acceptable for that? It would matter to him if you saw more than you have already."

She almost wanted to argue though she thought about it, what would matter but for once he did show a little emotion, he spoke as a friend this time. He had the same expression, but there was something else in his eyes. His beast stood form, they didn't think it was safe to be around him when he was like this. It didn't matter if she could defend herself or not here under his family's protection she couldn't freely throw herself into danger. She felt he didn't want her to expose the breakdown.

"If he's not back in thirty minutes we'll go get him."

"...Is he really so dangerous?"

"He can be, like he mentioned his father's demons breaking off parts of him can melt he can absorb demons and when he does they're gone. We both are aware of your skills but it doesn't matter if you were taken in that's it there is no struggling."

She stared at him gaze wide.

"You've seen that and didn't say anything...?"

"It's rare, when we were younger we were separated from our attendants off playing and a demon boar came after us. He shut down I thought it bit him but it started to blend in with him, he had control but it seems that has run out."

He glanced at her as she frowned turning to look over her shoulder after him, to him it said something that Naraku relaxed that much around her.

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