Jamming sessions and Confessions of a DJ
Beca and Jesse were currently Jamming in his room. They were preparing for a small gig for Oct. 20th at their favourite cafe on campus. Beca didn't tell anybody about it mostly because she didn't want anyone to find out that she could play actual instruments and not just a soundboard or gadget. It was something really personal to her and something that one Jesse Swanson just had to walk in on.
It was one Saturday morning. Kimmy Jin left earlier to go to wherever Hell probably was. Beca just finished browsing the internet for the chords of Waiting for Superman by Chris Daughtry. She dug deep in her closet for a faded, black, acoustic guitar and began playing the song. She saw it in a second hand shop a couple of weeks ago after the whole Chloe Beale and SBT ordeal. She was exploring the campus a bit during one of her friend free days and found herself a not so secret alley where there were small trinket and second hand shops. That was when she saw this guitar on display. She went inside the shop and inquired about it. She asked if she could test it out and the owner got the old dusty guitar from display and handed it to her. She needed to tune a few strings before she could properly play a song. The song she used to test it out was Your Guardian Angel by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus.
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face
I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I can figure out
How the world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's ok It's ok It's ok
seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling
all for us
days grow longer while nights grow shorter
I can show you that I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
'Cause you're my
You're my m-yyy
My true love
My whole heart
Please don't throw that away
'Cause I'm here
For you
Please don't walk away
Please tell me you'll stay
oh! stay! oh!
use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning grey, grey
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven...
She was lost in the chords as soon as she heard herself play the first note. The way the notes rings through the guitar smoothly and beautifully captured her soul. She began to sing. Her alto voice carrying out through the store. Smooth and crisp. She did not notice her lesbro watching her. She didn't know that he knew who owned that store. She didn't know that he was about to buy that exact worn out guitar. All she knew right now was how the song practically told her that she was in-fact in-love with Chloe Beale. She had been denying it ever since she thought of the word before the riff offs. She would do anything for the redhead. She couldn't tell Chloe about her feelings. She shouldn't because she knows that Chloe would leave. Like everyone else. People. Always. Leave.
"Becaw! I didn't know you could play!"
well people like Jesse Swanson should leave her the fuck alone.
"What the hell do you want Jesse?" Beca said anger lacing her voice.
Jesse put up his hands in surrender. "Dude! don't kill me! I was passing by for that actually." Jesse said pointing at the guitar currently in Beca's hands.
"I swear Swanson. You tell a soul about this and I will end you" Beca shoved the guitar into his hands wincing as she did so because she didn't want to damage it. Jesse paid for the guitar. He then snuck it in Beca's dorm one day with a note attached to it saying that she looked better holding it than he did anyway and to call it an advanced birthday present. She did not know how he found out about her birthday probably Stacie? Chloe? Never mind.
Beca comes back to reality. She doesn't know how Jesse talked her into it anymore just that he was able to. Her lesbro seemed pretty confident about them performing together and not getting recognized in costumes. It was an advanced Halloween party of sorts anyway. What worried her though was that the two lesbro's weren't the only ones that frequented the cafe. Stacie, Chloe and Aubrey also frequented that cafe since it was a nice quiet place to hang out in.
"Lighten up Becs! We sound Good! We just need the perfect outfits so no one can recognize us okay?" Jesse said jovially.
Beca just nodded. Not wanting to make any snarky comments to dampen this puppy's spirit. They did sound good and they were going to wear costumes so no biggie. She was just feeling extra stressed because regional's are coming up soon and that Aubrey was acting like an Egyptian slave driver during the old testament. She knew the set really well by now since they were driven to the bone to have it memorized and choreographed to perfection. Down. To. The. Very. Last. Detail. Their Gig was right around the corner though and they needed to find costumes and fast.
...Oct. 18...Bella Rehearsals
"Alright Aca-bitches! before we end for the day I would like for us to bond together for one night. Chloe and I frequent this quaint Cafe called Doinky's Sweets. They're going to have a small party on the 20th and I would like for all of us to go there. Together. To bond and relax." Aubrey then looked to Chloe silently asking her best friend if that was acceptable. Chloe nodded towards Aubrey and continued talking to the Bella's for her.
"Don't blame Aubrey about the impromptu get together. It was my idea since we barely know each other and we will be competing together throughout the year so I made Aubrey agree to this one night of fun so we could you know...loosen up! so what do you guys say?"
After Chloe spoke the Bella's seemed to gain back their energy. Seriously Chloe was infectious. The only one who seemed nervous about it was Beca. Aubrey noticed how the brunette looked extra twitchy about the subject. She did not want anyone backing out of this under any circumstance. She did not want anyone ruining her Bff's plan. Since the rest of the girls looked overjoyed about a promising girl's night out she didn't need to threaten them but this alt girl was about to bail on them she needed to call her out on it.
"Oh and Beca! Everyone has to go. No excuses." Aubrey's voice cut sharp through the chatter.
Beca raised one eyebrow at Aubrey. "Sorry to spoil your evening ladies but I already have plans that night. I need to be somewhere else. Not that it's any of your concern what I do with my free time Posen." She said darkly to the blonde captain.
"Bree..." Chloe tried to stop her best friend from aggravating Beca. This is not how you get through to her why can't Aubrey see that.
"No Chlo. I will not let some hobbit bail out on us just because she's so anti-social that she'd rather hang out with Trebles and not Bella's." This was Aubrey's chance to find out if Beca really was gay or not anyway so why not push further. "I hope you remember the oath Mitchel! I will seriously have your vocal chords ripped out by wolves if I do find out that you are getting Treble boned!"
"Jesus Christ! Will you stop hounding me because of Jesse! He's my friend! Yeah I am capable of having friends! If you haven't noticed I do speak more now than I did when we first started out Posen!"
"The two of you hang out way too much for it to be JUST friendly Beca!"
"What are you?! My personal stalker?! I don't even swing that way Posen!" Beca's eyes widened in shock of what had just left her mouth.
"Shit!" That was the last thing she said before walking out of the rehearsal space slamming the doors behind her.
"Bree." Chloe called Aubrey's name. No high pitched squeal following it. No happy tone accompanying the nickname. Just a plain cool voice. Aubrey feared that way more than her father and she could feel the cold sweat slowly dripping and the goose bumps rise from her skin.
Aubrey slowly turned towards a now angry Chloe as the rest of the Bella's began backing away slowly. They sensed the complete change of mood from the redhead and they felt afraid of her for the very first time since they've come to know the two captains. They Bella's silently deserted the area not wanting to find out just how mad Chloe was at the moment.
...Oct 19...Operation find Beca Mitchel a costume...
Beca and Jesse went to the city for the day. They didn't have any classes so they were fine plus they asked Luke for the day off from the radio station. They were looking around in a small costume store but nothing caught their eye. They moved from one store to another they even went into regular clothing stores just to see if they could mix and match some stuff.
It was getting late. They haven't found anything that Beca liked. It was either too girly or too perky or too happy or bubbly. Jesse was just inwardly laughing. They were at their last stop already before heading back home and Jesse threatened Beca that if she didn't find anything in here then he would make her perform with him in just her pj's and blindfolded.
Beca was thinking that this was going to be hopeless. That is until she found a white mask. A plain white half mask. Kind of like the Phantom of the Opera Mask. Jesse looked over her shoulder to take a peek at what the female brunette was looking at. When he saw the mask he only thought that it was kind of fitting. She loved music so much and she was going to be anonymous as she performed tomorrow night anyway. Beca paid for the mask and told Jesse that she would need a suit and tie to go with it. Their search came to an end when they were able to get a formal black suit that fitted Beca in the teen boy's section of a small boutique. A red button up shirt, black leather gloves, a Black Fedora and a Silver tie completed the outfit. She was just going to either let her hair fall to one side or she'd hide it in the fedora. Whatever. She now had the perfect costume.
When they got back to campus Bace made it her personal mission to avoid any of the Bella's. She didn't want to face rejection because she was gay. She should send Aubrey to the hospital to have her checked up to see if she still had a heart beating in there. Wait. That was too harsh even for her. She shook her head from side to side. Clearing her thoughts. She wasn't paying attention to where she was going and she bumped into someone.
"Sorry! I-" Her apology was cut short when she saw who she had bumped into. Aubrey Posen. She glared at the senior and began walking away. Aubrey immediately ran after Beca and grabbed the younger brunettes right arm and dodging a left hook headed for her face. Thank God she had amazing reflexes.
"Easy there Rocky! I just wanted to apologize!" Aubrey said wide eyed from shock about almost getting punched in the face.
"Are you freaking serious? You think a simple 'I'm Sorry' will fix what I spilled to all of you yesterday?!"
"Beca I-"
"Don't even try to say that you understand where I'm coming from posen. I may not have the best gaydar there is out there but even I can tell that you've never kissed a girl on the lips before even just as a friend. Am I right?"
Aubrey merely nodded her head.
"Just don't Aubrey. You and I both know that we're too different to actually be able to get along with each other anyway. It's just easier if I just stayed away from now on. Besides who'd accept someone like me right?" Beca began walking away once more.
"I do."
She stopped walking. That was not Aubrey's voice.
"Becs...I accept you. I'm no Homophobe Mitchel you should know that by now."
She still hasn't turned around to face Chloe.
Chloe walked closer towards the brunette. She wrapped her arms around the smaller girls waist and pulled her closer towards her and whispered in her ear.
"You promised you wouldn't go anywhere Becs. That I wouldn't lose you."
Beca nodded remembering their fight. It was petty yes but she meant it when she said those words.
"Okay"
That was all Beca said and that was all Chloe needed right now. The redhead nuzzled into the crook of Beca's neck a little longer and let the brunette go. She felt empty once Beca left her arms but she quickly schooled herself. She had Tom. She had a great boyfriend. Beca's just her best friend. other than Aubrey that is.
"Beca I really am sorry about what happened."
"Save it Posen. It was bound to come out at some point anyway. Don't worry we're cool. Besides I almost knocked your teeth out anyway so let's call it even."
"Beca about tomorrow. I can't...no...that's not right...I won't force you to go. I just...please think about it though. That's all I'll ask from you."
"I will Posen." Beca then faced Chloe and gave her a small smirk and left to head to her dorm room.
When she got in her dorm she found Stacie seated on her bed. "Well Conrad I believe that you are way too late for that booty call I called in years ago." Stacie laughed at the joke.
"Well Mitchel you didn't have the cash back then and I found from a little birdie that you're a hot shot DJ now. I guess I can cum and collect my debt this time...what do you say?" Stacie slurred. Pulling Beca closer to her by the smaller brunettes' belt.
Stacie moved her hands from Beca's waist up towards the sides of her breasts slowly. She then let her right hand cross to Beca's chest and let her fingers tease the buttons of the Green and Blue flannel shirt Beca was wearing. She leaned in closer to Beca's face until they were a mere breath apart.
"How am I doing so far hmmm?"
"Okay! Alright! You win! I cave!" Beca then moved away from Stacie.
"What really brings you here Stace?"
"Aubrey"
"What?"
"I don't know how to start this Becs. Damn it! I can't find the right words to even begin..."
"Stace! Just spit it out! We're all adults here!"
"I think I'm falling in love with Aubrey!"
Beca was stunned. "Oh" "Well shit"
"And I know that you are head over heels in love with Chloe" Stacie whispered to Beca.
"And don't even try to deny it. I can see it in your eyes Becs."
"What do you want to do about it then Stace? They're both graduating soon. Plus Chloe has a boyfriend and Aubrey has a 20 ft pole shoved up her ass"
Stacie then just started laughing at the brunette earning her a glare.
"I knew you would say that. That's why..." Stacie pulled out her phone and scrolled through it. She asked Amy to send her the video she took of Beca playing the Piano in the Bella's rehearsal space. She showed the video to Beca and when Beca tried to erase it she immediately pulled her phone out of reach from the tiny and feisty brunette.
"We're going to help each other out."
Beca gave her another glare. "What do you propose we do then hmm?" She said sarcastically.
"Nothing! Absolutely nothing!"
"You've gone mad Stacie"
"Nope! Because I noticed something about Chloe. I am not going to tell you what it is though until you admit it yourself that you do really love her."
With that Stacie left Beca's dorm. Leaving Beca to fully think about what had happened. She knew Stacie well enough to know that the busty brunette had a plan cooking up. She just needed to figure it out to be able to play along with her. That was how it used to be back then and she smiled to herself when she realised that Stacie never really stopped being her best friend. They just needed to figure out some stuff and most of all she just needed to let go of the past. She pulled out her phone and sent a text to Stacie.
'Make sure to get front row seats tomorrow night beastie sorry I meant Bestie'
That was what they used to call each other when they were kids. Beastie/Bestie it didn't matter. But that one message meant a lot to them both. Beca then laid herself down to sleep.
...Oct 20...Performance Day.
Jesse got a message from Beca early that morning asking him to come by with his Cajon. She also mentioned that it was pretty urgent that he get there fast. When Jesse arrived Beca sat him down and told him everything about what she felt towards one bubbly redhead.
"I knew it! Finally! So what song dude?"
They rehearsed the rest of the day until the time for them to go and get ready for their gig. They agreed to arrive separately to lessen the chance of them getting recognized. When the two met up backstage Jesse handed Beca a black cape with a dark red lining inside matching her red button up shirt and told her that this is what would definitely make the outfit look killer. Said that he borrowed it from Benjie. Beca just smirked. She knew all about his magic loving roommate. All they had to do now was wait for their turn. They were the final act. They asked Reggie; the owner, not to introduce them using their real names. He was also the one who decided that out of everyone performing they were the ones that were going to bring down the house.
...After 2 hours and 4 performances later...
"Good evening once again Ladies and Gents. These guys next up are my final performers for the night. They wanted to be introduced as The Lunar Grim Phantom. So please! Let's give it up to them!" The crowd applauded loudly thoroughly enjoying the night of partying, drinking and good music.
The stage was all black...
Once the spot light turned on they could see that there was one person dressed in a black suit looking like a cooler version of the phantom of the opera. The other was in a dark green suit with a silver button up shirt and an emerald green tie, a grey fedora and emerald green mask.
The taller one sat on top of the Cajon while the smaller of the duo picked up the Acoustic Electric guitar.
They Began their set by playing Bright Lights Bigger City by Cee Lo Green. Jesse was the one who took lead vocals for this song and he sounded great and they could hear the crowd cheering for them.
Their next song was Next to you by Chris Brown where both of them were playing Cajons. Jesse still took the lead Beca just gave the backup vocals.
They decided on a mellow song for this next one . She will be loved by Maroon 5. This time it was Beca who took to the mic. The acoustic Guitar strapped to her. Jesse on the Cajon. Her powerful Alto voice rang out loud. The Bella's collectively stopped cheering. Shock was spread all over their faces. Except for one. Stacie needed to act as if she didn't know though so she had to play dumb. They knew that voice.
'...I don't mind spending everyday
out on your corner in the pouring rain
look for the girl with he broken smile
ask her if she wants to stay a while
and she will be loved...'
"Beca" Chloe whispered to herself.
Louder cheers came from the crowd when the small performer finished the song. She spotted the Bella's when she and Jesse got on stage. 'well looks like Stacie took my advice.'
The song that followed was another chill out tune. Breakeven by the script. Beca was once again the one singing lead.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just praying to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake, she has no trouble sleeping
'Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, no
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even, even, oww
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no, it don't break even)
You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame
Now I'm tryin' make sense of what little remains, oh
'Cause you left me with no love and no love to my name
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayed to a God that I don't believe in
'Cause I got time while she got freedom
'Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break
No it don't break, no, it don't break even, no
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
I'm falling to pieces
(One's still in love while the other one's leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
('Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break even)
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Oh, it don't break even, no
Beca sang the song with so much raw emotion. Even the audience was affected by what she was feeling. She was brought back to a time when she was young and she thought that she was in love. Her first heart ache. She thought that she would never be able to love again but here we are.
"This is going to be our last song for the night. I want to dedicate this to someone really special to me. I hope you guys enjoy this." Beca addressed the audience but her eyes locked onto Chloe. This was the mash up she made for Chloe. She was in-love with the redhead but she knew that she could never have the redhead. She was only just a dream after all.
Beca played the opening riffs on her guitar.
She began singing Just the way you are
oh her eyes her eyes make the stars look like they're not shining
her hair her hair falls perfectly without her trying
she's so beautiful
and I tell her everyday
Then Jesse comes in with his Cajon and starts singing where Beca left off in Just the way you are while Beca began Just a dream by Nelly...
uh uh uh I was thinking about her thinkin bout me
I know I know When Compliment her she won't believe me
Thinkin bout us what we gonna be open my eyes it was only just a dream
it's so it's so sad to think that she dont see what i see
but every time she ask me do i look okay i say
it was only just a dream
so I travel back down that road will she come back no one knows
When I see your face There's not A thing That I would change
I realized it was only just a dream
Cause you're amazing Just the way you are
it was only just a just a dream
so I travel back down that road will she come back no one knows
When I see your face there's not a thing that I would change
I realized it was only just a dream it was only just a just a dream
Cause you're amazing Just the way you are
'When I see your face...'
When they ended the audience roared. Everyone loved it. Chloe knew that mash up. Beca eventually let her listen to it. If she wasn't sure that Beca was one of the two then she definitely knew now that the female was Beca. She looked hot. Damn it Beale keep it together you love Tom. But you feel a better connection with Beca. You don't get butterflies with Tom. He's just easy 'cause he's a guy and your parents are pretty old fashioned. But you're not. Stop it Beale. Cafe Doinky closed up after the two remarkable musicians. The Bella's went back to their dorms and apartments still in shock that the reason why one of them couldn't make it was because she was part of the entertainment.