Chapter 15
We walk into the house and sit down on the couch. I'm feeding Carlos and he's watching me closely. "Boy loves his momma." Juice says. I look at Juice and smile. "Are you happy baby?" he asked. "Of course. Why wouldn't I be? I married my best friend, I'm a mom and I have my own business. Why wouldn't I be happy?" I asked. "I just wanted to make sure you were happy." he says. I look into his eyes and I see his insecurities. "Hey. Look at me." I say. He looks at me and I say "I'm happy baby. You make me so happy." I assure him. I see him smile softly and I ask "Are you happy?" He kisses me softly and says "I'm happy." I lay my head against his chest as I put Carlos against my chest. I feel him rubbing his hand up and down my side and I look up at him. He leans down and kisses me softly again. "I love you Juan Carlos. More than anything." I tell him. "I love you too Sara. You and our son." he tells me.
Juice's prepay starts ringing. "Yeah...Okay...I'm on my way." he tells whoever is on the other end of the line. "Club call?" I ask. "Yeah. Got church." he says. "Be careful. I'm gonna work in my studio while you're gone." I tell him. He kisses me softly and says "I love you." Smiling, I say "I love you too." before he walks out the door. "Well, it's just me and you little man." I tell Carlos as he looks up at me.
Putting him down in his swing, I start straightening up the house and start dinner. Getting it done so that I only have to heat it up when he gets here, I head, with Carlos, to my studio and start working on dolls. I get the bodies done and am stitching the faces when Juice comes back in. "Hey baby." he says. I look up to see him looking stressed. Picking Carlos up, I hand him to Juice and say "Dinner's done. Let's eat and talk." He just nods and follows me. Putting Carlos in his swing, I plate his food and then mine and we sit at the table and start eating.
"What's going on between those tats Juan Carlos?" I ask. "Some things were said in church that I just can't wrap my head around. We have a vote tomorrow." he tells me. "What's going on?" I asked. "Clay killed Donna. Thought Opie ratted out the club and sent Tig to kill Opie but got Donna by mistake. Tig got right with Opie but Clay killed Piney. Opie found him last night." he tells me. "Voting to take Clay's patch or Mayhem?" I asked. "Both." he tells me. "What do you think?" I asked. "I don't know." he tells me. "You have to take yourself out of the equation. If it were, say, Miles that made the call instead of Clay, what would you vote?" I asked. "I would vote yea to both." he tells me. "Then that's how you vote. The laws are there for a reason. You can't let your personal feelings overrule your loyalty to the club." I tell him. He releases a breath and comes over and kneels in front of me. "I don't know what I would do without you baby." he says. "I will always have your back Juan Carlos. No matter what." I tell him. He kisses me and we finish eating.
The next day, Juice comes out of church and they strip Clay of his patches and take him to the warehouse to meet Mayhem. Once it's done, Juice walks in the door and doesn't say anything. I just got Carlos to sleep so I put him in his crib and walk into the bedroom to see he's in the shower. I strip down and step inside with him. His back is to me so I place soft kisses to his back. He turns to me and pulls me to him and crashes his lips into mine. Picking me up, he pins me to the wall and enters me roughly. Thrusting into me hard and fast. "Fuck Juan. Don't stop." I moan. I feel myself fall over the edge and find my release and I hear him growl into my neck as he finds his own inside me. We take a minute to catch our breath and he says "I love you Sara." I kiss him softly and say "I love you too." We finish showering and head out of the bathroom. He walks into Carlos' room and is just watching him. I walk in behind him and see a tear fall down his cheek. Wrapping my arms around his waist, I lay my head on his chest and he kisses the top of my head. "Please don't go anywhere." he whispers. I look up at him and say "I'm not going anywhere." Taking his hand, I lead him to bed.
Once we are in bed, I lay down and pull him to lay his head on my chest. I run my nails over his scalp and wait on him to speak. "I voted yea." he says. "It had to be done Juan." I tell him. "I know but he's always been good to me." he tells me. "I know but, baby, we all saw that he was doing things more for himself than the club. He was getting greedy. If anyone else would have done what he had done, the vote would have gone the same way. Those laws are there for a reason." I tell him. "I know but that doesn't mean it's easy." he tells me. "I know but you did what you had to do baby. What you need to concentrate on is where you go from here." I tell him. He doesn't say anything. "Talk to me Juan." I say. "When I first got here, he treated me like I was his own son. Always has. My Old Man was never around so it felt good to have a father figure there." he tells me. "I know what you mean. Clay was always there for me. But baby, you can't take on that burden. That's not on you." I tell him. "You're right." he says before looking up at me and kissing me. "I don't know what I would do without you." he tells me. I kiss him again and he deepens the kiss before making love to me all over again.