Hello, I decided to publish it earlier, because I hate Mondays xD. Also this chapter is mostly talking, more will happen later on. Also I wanted to point out that some serious problems like suicide or depression will occur, so if you don't think you can handle this kind of stuff, I don't recommend you reading the next chapter (this one is safe). Otherwise, await :)

Chapter II

Kha'Zix stepped inside very dark room with only a couple of candles which were providing very faint light, but to his surprise they were enough to see everything. Malzahar's room was different than the others, it only had a small corridor leading to a big, round room. After taking some steps forward he started seeing shapes of Cho'Gath and most probably Kog'Maw. Purple-lighted candles were floating around, uncovering books and documents that were previously wrapped by shadows. After a moment he was standing right beside the rest.

"Thank you all for gathering here,", Malzahar started his speech, "now that we are together I can tell you all wonderful news.", he raised his hands to highlight his words. "The plan will start soon, there's no need to wait any lon-".

"What the hell?", Kha'Zix interrupted him. "You are telling us that now? You should have given us more time and-".

"I understand your frustration dear Kha'Zix, but I assure you, if I knew earlier I would have definitely told you.", Malzahar replied immediately. "Also we should be happy, we don't have to wait, not only the Queen changed her mind, but also we have everything we need.".

The Queen, the only person, or rather being that Kha'Zix is scared of. She is like a mother for every void creature, even though not related by blood, she is connected with everyone. She also is a ruler of Icathia. When Renekton came and told the next champion is female from the Void he was almost sure that it was her, he was relieved that it wasn't.

"Me and Vel'Koz collected all necessary knowledge about this world and the Institute. Cho'Gath and Kog'Maw were an excellent contrast to us, they really believed you are unintelligent creatures.". Then he looked at Kha'Zix and as he was getting closer to him, he said. "And you, with the most vital role,", he placed his hand on his shoulder, "you bought their trust. Hell, one of them even fell in love with you. They will never expect you to turn on them.".

Kha'Zix looked down at a floor, he was right. Originally Kha'Zix was supposed to buy trust of summoners, champions and become one of them. Malzahar and Vel'Koz were too exceptional for such a task and the rest was too terrifying. Kha'Zix, on the other hand, was the least grotesque and had charisma, very rare for a void creature. The plan they are talking about is somewhat the Void invasion. They have already done that, but it was only the beginning. Sending voidlings to the Earth was step one, acknowledging if this realm is worth conquering or not. After many, many years of studying and experiencing it was the time, time to take over the Institute and then, step by step, every inch of this world.

"Now Kha'Zix you have another very important mission,", Malzahar's voice snapped him out of his wonders, he looked up at him. "you must spread misinformation, you have to sow doubt into their hearts, they need to stop trusting summoners. If you spread chaos then the rest will be a child's play.".

"I...I…", Kha'Zix struggled to say anything.

"Hmm? What is that?".

"I…", Kha'Zix sighed, "I will do it, I won't disappoint you.".

"Good, we all believe in you, come to me when you think it's enough. It will take time, but it will be well used time.", he spoke. "Now let's return to our duties, we can't fail the Queen either!". Then they started leaving, Kha'Zix was the last, if they all just left at the same time it would have been suspicious. When he was about to leave, Malzahar asked him.

"Do you think Rengar will be a threat?", his heart froze for a moment, hearing Malzahar mentioning Rengar was scary.

"No...no he won't.", he tried his best to sound natural, "Even if he decides to fight, he will have problems attacking me. I also will keep him uninformed.".

"Perfect, that means he doesn't need to be silenced.". Kha'Zix formed a fist when he heard that, but he hid it behind his back so Malzahar didn't notice.

"Yeah...He doesn't.". Then he left. Bright light blinded him for a moment, he covered his eyes with his hand. He started walking to his room not to look strange just standing in one place, but he didn't know what to do. He didn't tell them that he, too, fell in love with Rengar. He couldn't, he must protect him. But for now he was thinking very hard about what just happened and what to do next.

"Should I do it and warn Rengar and then escape with him? No, he wouldn't leave without Renekton and- oh shit, they will be involved too…", Kha'Zix was trying to figure out what to do, he was walking without even looking where he was going. "Maybe I'll warn them too? But what if they decide to stay? And there's Shyvana and Nidalee too, an-", he suddenly bumped into someone, returning back from the depth of his mind. "Oh, sorry, I wasn't pay-", it was Kassadin.

"Oh, don't worry, I'm sure you didn't mean that.", he said and placed his hand on Kha'Zix's shoulder, "You must have been thinking about something very important.". It suddenly started being very awkward. "Sorry for disturbing, I will be going now.".

What was that, thought Kha'Zix. Kassadin was always avoiding every void creature, but now he just bumped into one and even touched him. He shrugged it off and went straight to his room.

Rengar was looking for Kha'Zix, he wasn't worried, but he was concerned why he left so suddenly without saying a word. After 20 minutes of searching he gave up and decided to go with Renekton without him. When he knocked to his door, Volibear opened the door.

"Oh hi Voli, are you going with Rene too?", Rengar asked.

"Hello Rengar, yeah, he invited me. He claims there is a nice bar 20 minutes from the Institute.".

"Ah I heard something about it, might be worth checking out.".

"Is Kha'Zix going with us?", he asked.

"Well I wanted him to go but I can't really find him anywhere, searched everywhere.".

"Hi, that means only the three of us are going?", said Renekton as he left his room and stepped outside.

"I guess so.", said Rengar, "I have already been looking for like 20 minutes and didn't find him and I don't want to keep you waiting.".

"Ok, so let's not waste time then.", said Renekton and they left, but after a moment Rengar spoke, searching his pockets.

"Oh shit, you guys keep going, I'll catch up to you, forgot my wallet.".

"Yeah sure, we'll slow down a little.", spoke Volibear and they spread out. Rengar rushed up the stairs and went towards his room when suddenly he saw Kha'Zix, he just entered their room.

"Jackpot!", he thought. He went inside and noticed that Kha'Zix was sitting in a chair, probably didn't notice him coming in. Rengar thought it would a great opportunity to have a little revenge on his beloved. He sneaked up on him and just as he was right behind him, he hugged him and said "Surprise!". Kha'Zix screamed so hard that even he himself didn't know he was capable of being so loud.

"Fuck!", Kha'Zix was breathing deeply, "D-don't scare me like that!". Rengar only chuckled.

"Payback!", he kissed him in a cheek, "But where were you? You disappeared so suddenly, something happened?".

"I uhh...when you went to Renekton Stella came and asked me a favor, well I couldn't just say no and you were talking already so I thought I wouldn't interrupt you.", he answered.

"Oh, really?", Rengar couldn't hide surprise in his voice, "Well, probably something in the library, right?".

"Yes! That's right! She asked me if I could help her with a box of books!".

"Ah ok, but now that I found you, you're going with me, Renekton and Volibear to the new bar they opened near us.". Kha'Zix honestly wanted to go with them, but he had so many things on his head right now, he couldn't just go and get drunk, for now every moment was important.

"I'd love to go, really, but-".

"Kha'Zix, I don't know what's going on inside your head right now, but I'm seriously worried.", he sat in front of him. "If you think I didn't notice, you are wrong.". Kha'Zix looked down. "I get that you don't want to tell me, even though I asked you to tell me anything, but if you don't want to, it's fine.".

"Wait, it is?", Kha'Zix asked.

"Yes, buuuuut…", then he smiled widely and came closer, "that doesn't mean I'm just gonna let you be alone, I don't want you to get depressed or something.". Then he grabbed him under his arms and lifted him, forcing him to stand up. "You are going, and I don't take "no" as an answer.". Then he picked up his wallet from the table.

"But Rengar, I-".

"I said no refusal.".

Kha'Zix sighed, he knew Rengar wouldn't give up easily, but he needed to convince him somehow.

"Rengar,", he started, "you are right, I actually am thinking about something, and indeed it's very important, but I can't just go and have fun, every second counts right now, I hope you understand.". Rengar looked at him, he slightly lifted corners of his mouth, forming a little smile.

"Ok, I guess I have no other choice…".

"Really? Thanks Re-", he suddenly stopped feeling ground under his feet.

"I guess I have no other choice BUT to carry you there.", he lifted him, holding him like a bride. Kha'Zix was shocked.

"B-but I thought…".

"What, you thought I'm gonna let you stay? Not happening!", then he smiled. "Now let's not hesitate, we have to catch up to them.". Rengar started walking towards the door, still holding Kha'Zix.

"Wait! If I really can't convince then at least let me go myself!".

"Sorry, you had your chance, also I don't want to risk you escaping.". Then he opened the door with a leg and proceeded. Kha'Zix's started blushing when he realised there were people around them.

"L-let me go! I can walk on my own!".

"Nah, I'll pass.", he replied nonchalantly.

"People are looking!", Kha'Zix insisted.

"Since when you started caring what others say? Also wasn't you the one that wanted me to kiss you back then at the fountain?".

"But it's different! Also it's embarrassing!".

"Then you'll have to suck it up and resist a little longer.".

"God I hate you!".

"Haha!".

Eventually they left the gates of the Institute, Renekton and Volibear were waiting near the exit. Kha'Zix, still resentful and red on his face was already on his legs. Rengar looked like as if nothing has happened.

"You found your loss I suppose.", said Volibear.

"Yeah, kind of. Good thing I forgot my wallet, haha.", he looked at Kha'Zix and smiled. In response, he sticked out his tongue.

"Ok let's go guys!", spoke Renekton and then they departed. The bar to which they went turned out to be really good, they spent some time there and decided to come back a moment before 5 pm. Renekton of course had to overdo and got drunk, so Volibear escorted him to his room.

"Well, that was nice, don't you think?", Rengar asked casually.

"Yeah, it was pretty fun.", he laughed a little.

"See? You even forgot about your problem.". When he heard that he grabbed his head and said in shock.

"Oh fuck you're right how could I forget?!".

"Calm down,", said Rengar, "I'm sure it's not that bad.". They were almost inside the Institute.

"No, it's actually really, really bad!".

"Then why don't you just tell me?".

"Well, I…". He actually considered it several times, but he was scared of Rengar's reaction. What would happen if he told him he was supposed to trick all of them into liking him? He didn't even want to think about it. "I...just can't, sorry.". Rengar took a step closer.

"Kha'Zix, please cut the bullshit.", he said in slightly frustrated tone. "I'm here for you to help you and every time you just push me away. How on earth do you expect me to just shrug it off? It's impossible!".

"I just-".

"No, you had your time talk, now it's my turn.", he immediately stopped him, "If it was or is or whatever, why don't ask at least someone else for help? I get it, you don't want to tell me, but why would you keep talking about it then?". He had a point, Kha'Zix thought. "Kha'Zix I...I'm just worried, like hell I am.", he looked at Kha'Zix, his wounded expression made him regret his silence a little.

"I know Rengar...I know.", he sighed. "Well, I…", he suddenly remembered Malzahar's words. If he tells him, will they kill him? His throat felt like as if there was some sort of stone, he couldn't say a word and just froze in one position.

"What's the matter?", asked Rengar.

"I'm sorry Rengar,", he calmed down a little, "but I just can't tell you. No matter how hard you insist, ask, beg, I just can't.", he swallowed, "Please understand.". Rengar raised both his brows and opened his mouth to say something, but he remained silent. He closed his eye and bit his lip. Then he looked at him again, he was hurt.

"Sorry, but I can't understand.", then he turned away and made his way towards his room.

"Rengar wait, I didn't mean to-".

"I know, but I get that you obviously need some space,", he responded, holding his emotions on a leash, "be my guest then.", his voice was cracking at the end of his sentence. Then he left. He could only release a quiet "Ren", but that was all he could say right now. Tears started gathering around his eyes, though he didn't cry. He swept water from his face with an arm and went silently for a walk around the park.

"Fuck!", yelled Rengar as he punched a wall in his room. Good thing it was magical, because otherwise he would have broken right through it. He went to the kitchen and opened a fridge. He reached to grab a beer but just when he was about to touch it, he hesitated. "Getting drunk isn't a solution…", he spoke quietly to himself and closed a fridge. Then he sat down on a chair and placed his head on his arms, elbows on the table. He was wondering what might have been the cause of Kha'Zix weird behaviour. All he has done so far was trying to get Kha'Zix speaking, but nothing else. This time he decided to think about it in silence.

"Ok...let's see…", he thought. "It all started when Renekton barged in and mentioned new champion...". But he already knew that it was someone else than Kha'Zix thought, dead end. "The next time was down in the hall…". Suddenly he raised his head and spoke to himself. "Is it possible he actually understood that gibberish and it wasn't what Malzahar said?". It sounded ridiculous, even for Rengar himself, but he didn't have anything better to hold on to. "If that's the case, is something going on we all don't know?". He either had a vivid imagination, or he actually solved a very complicated riddle, he thought.

"I should ask it Kha'Zix when he-", then he realised what he said earlier. He exhaled nervously, "Right, IF he comes back…", he said very quietly. He was sad, he never intended to say such things to him, he was just angry and it slipped his mouth. How could he ever want him away? Especially in this time when he needs his support the most. He sighed again, even more sad. He took off his eyepatch and lied down his head on his crossed arms. He rethought everything and eventually his eyelid became very heavy, leading him to sleep.

After a while Kha'Zix was tired of thinking, planning several possible scenarios and most importantly, walking. He started walking towards his room. With a blank look, he went upstairs. He was glad there was nobody around, he was probably looking like shit. Not only was frustrated because of current situation but also he was arguing with Rengar for the first time after they became boyfriends. He wasn't even sure if he wanted to come back, but he was too tired to think anymore about anything. After a brief moment he pushed a handle and entered their room. He saw Rengar, sleeping, his head on the table. This view made his heart ache a little. He came closer to a sink in the kitchen trying not to wake him up. He took one glass and poured some water in it, but it was enough to make Rengar awake. When he heard him moving, he froze in one place.

"Oh, sorry, I didn't mean to wake you.", he said, still looking towards the sink. No response. "I...I'm sorry Rengar, I really would like to tell you what bothers me that much, but...I'm just scared.", he inhaled. "And I don't even know of what, of your reaction, of what may happen, I just don't know.". He heard him stand up. "You have the right to be mad at me, I shouldn't be surprised, I'm just regretting making you sad and...worried…", tears started running down his cheeks, but his voice was unchanged. Suddenly Rengar hugged him tightly and said through tears.

"I'm sorry...I'm so so sorry…". Kha'Zix was both shocked and surprised, he could swear he would continue their argument. "I never meant to dismiss you...please forgive me...I was just...angry, I guess, but I would never, ever tell you...to…", he couldn't end his sentence, he bursted in tears. "I'm sorry!". Kha'Zix was amazed by his sudden confession, but at the same time he was happy, because he wasn't angry. He grabbed his arms and started rubbing them.

"You don't have anything to apologise for, dummy.", said Kha'Zix in a cheering tone. "It was my and only my fault, I deserved it.". When Rengar heard that he immediately turned Kha'Zix around.

"Don't speak like that!", he said as he was weeping, "I had no rights to-". Kha'Zix embraced him in a hug, successfully shutting him down.

"Arguments happen, you know?", he tried to cheer him up. "It's a part of every relationship, couples, siblings, families, even friends. I even read somewhere that having an argument from time to time strengthens bonds.", he chuckled. He released Rengar and looked into Rengar's eye. "Now stop crying unless you want me to join, because eventually your sadness will overwhelm me.". Rengar sniffed and tried his best to smile a little. "Man you suck at this", he replied to it, he snickered. This has put now a genuine smile on his face. "Now that's better.", said Kha'Zix. Then they sat down on a couch and spent some time just hugging. Eventually, Rengar spoke.

"Thank you for being so understanding". "Understanding? Pff, you're a drama queen.", he replied.

"What? No, I most certainly am not.", Rengar pretended to be hurt, but he failed.

"Acting, my dear, leave to me.". They both laughed.

"Now may not be the best time for it, but about your problem…", Rengar said. Kha'Zix looked at him. "I understand that there are some matters we want to accomplish ourselves or chapters we want to end, but even if you can't tell me or anyone else I want you to know that no matter what happens, no matter what gets between us, hell, no matter what you or others say, I always will be there for you. You are strong, I know, but you'll always find a support, and not only in me, you can count on Renekton, Nasus, Shyvana, everyone. I want you to remember that.". Kha'Zix was astonished, his mouth was open and his lips were trembling. His eyes became watery. Then he closed his mouth, released a small whimper and embraced his lover. He buried his face in his chest. Rengar smiled, it may have been an important moment for both of them.

"I guess it's my turn to be a pillow now, huh?", he asked quietly.

"Shaddap!". They remained like that for a moment. Kha'Zix wasn't crying anymore, but he didn't want to let go of Rengar just yet.

"Hey, Kha?", said Rengar.

"Mhm?".

"I was just wondering, but I presume your problem is very complex and hard to figure out. So I just wanted to tell you one thing, sometimes the least logical answer may be the best one.". Kha'Zix lifted his head a little.

"What do you mean?".

"Well, sometimes when it's too much for a brain, heart should take over.", Rengar replied.

"I'm afraid I didn't get that…".

"I uhh...I wanted to tell that sometimes instead of acting like your brain is telling you, you should listen to your heart. You should do whatever is ok with your feelings. Just do the right thing.". Kha'Zix was looking at him for a moment, he was trying to analyze his words. Suddenly, he sat up straight.

"Oh my god, you are right!", he almost yelled.

"I know I a- wait am I?", Rengar said in confusion.

"Yes! That's exactly what I needed to hear! Thank you!". He hugged him tightly.

"Argh! Not so tight!".

"Oh, sorry.", he snickered, "But seriously, you really helped me. Thanks to you I know exactly what to do.", he kissed him in a cheek.

"You are welcome.". Rengar wrapped his arms around his neck and hugged him. Then he realised what hour it was when he saw his watch.

"Oh fuck it's almost midnight!", Rengar suddenly straighten up. "I have a match tomorrow morning!".

"What, is it that late?", Kha'Zix was surprised too. "Well we should be going to bed. I wake me up earlier, I will prepare you a breakfast.".

"Aww thank you.", Rengar kissed him. Then they turned off the lights, keyed the door and went to their room. They lied down and quickly fell asleep. Kha'Zix knew what to do the next day. This time he will let his heart dictate him.

Thank you for reading, from no on, every next chapter will be Sunday evening, I realised it's a nice way to end a week, I really love reading after exhausting previous 6 days, I presume most of you too.