I woke up with a huge headache, probably because of all the crying. When I checked myself in the mirror I noticed my eyes were still puffy and my face was still red. I applied some foundation, eyeliner and mascara so it wouldn't be noticeable when I headed downstairs. With a heavy heart I walked downstairs, even though I didn't like most of the Cullens I was ashamed of my actions. What would they think of me? By now the news of my actions would have spread. I headed to the kitchen to get my caffeine for the day when I noticed we had a guest.

'Enzo!' I said and he turned around. His ruby eyes found mine and he gave me a smile.

'There is our little princess.' He grinned and I sprinted towards him to give him a hug. He wrapped his arms around me and I inhaled the scent of old leather and fresh grass.

'It's so good to see you' I said.

It's good to see you too pipsqueak' He grinned. As an answer I punched him on the shoulder. 'You know I hate that nickname.'

Esme was making me coffee and Edward's eyes went over me from the other side of the room, checking on me. When Esme handed me my coffee I thanked her and sat down next to Enzo. Carlisle walked into the room and wished me a good morning.

'Good morning to you too' I smiled. He laid his hand on my shoulder and walked over to Esme greeting her with a kiss.

'So it was you then?' He asked Carlisle. Carlisle gave him a questioning look.

'You were the one that we unlocked last time.'

Carlisle nodded. 'I think so, Yes.'

Enzo shook his head. 'Unmistakably yes. She totally adores you. Look at her, the way she looks at you with so much adoration. It's so cute.'

When I realized he wasn't talking about Esme but about me I flushed. My face turned as red a tomato and I almost choked in my coffee. Awkward. Totally awkward. Fortunately the others didn't respond on his comment, but just like me choose to ignore it. Carlisle just gave me a reassuring smile, his eyes telling me that that was nothing to be ashamed for.

'Okay, I don't have long are you ready for it?' Enzo came straight to the point.

'Maybe we should skip this session. This was a harsh week for her, she could use some rest.' Edward interfered. I knew he was meaning well, but he didn't have to make these decisions for me.

'No it's fine.' I said. I was thinking really loud that he needed to mind his own business and he seemed to get the hint because he agreed to another session.

'Okay let's see what's happening in that pretty head of yours.' Enzo said and laid his cool hands on my temples. I felt a few stings when he entered my mind. His red eyes stared into nothingness as he went deeper and deeper inside my brain. Then suddenly he pulled back his hands giving me a strange look.

'Was there someone else who tried to break those chains?' He asked Carlisle.

'No, not that we know of. Why?'

He redirected his attention to me. 'Renesmee did someone do something to your mind. Try to break those chains?'

'No. Why?' I asked him.

'I don't understand..' he mumbled to himself.

'Did you try yourself?' he asked me. I had no idea what he was talking about so I shook my head.

'Well that's interesting.' Enzo stated and I still had no idea what he was talking about.

'There are tears in your chains, meaning they are slowly dissolving on their own. I have no idea how long it will take before they will be completely gone. But at least I can speed up the process. But you are making much progress pipsqueak.'

His explanation dazzled me. Now that I thought about it, my attitude towards the Cullens did change while I was here. Even though I choose to ignore them most of the time I didn't feel that hatred I had in the beginning. I remembered that in the beginning even looking at them made my blood boil. But now I didn't mind them so much, there were moments where I wished that they were six feet under. But some of them were actually pretty nice.

'That's great news.' Emmett said from the living room. He walked over to us.

'That means she is trying to break those chains herself isn't it?' He said trying to hide his excitement.

'Yes I think it does.'

Emmett was so excited he walked over to me and wanted to pull he into a hug, but at the last minute he changed his mind and just stood there like an over-excited puppy.

'Does this mean we don't need to break them forcefully?' Bella asked Enzo. He nodded in agreement.

'Then we'll wait, we'll be patient. There is no need to speed it up and hurt her so much then.'

Everyone nodded in agreement. Except me. It was hard to explain but I saw this as punishment for all the crap I did yesterday. I felt the need for punishment and this was the perfect opportunity for it, with of course a greater purpose.

'No. Do it.' I said shocking most of them. I ignored their looks, I just focused on Enzo.

'Do it' I repeated myself.

'Renesmee. No.' Edward said and walked over to me. 'There is no need for this. I know what you're thinking. But don't do this, there is no need for this.'

'Do it.' I said to Enzo, again.

'Are you sure?' He asked me one last time.

'Totally.' I said and he placed his cool hands on my temples again. First there was this stinging feeling, but soon it turned to pain. It was just like the last time and I tried my best not to scream this time. Like always I got a nosebleed and the warm think blood dripped onto my lips and chin. The white red pain that was exploding in my head took over everything, all my senses. I wasn't able to see anymore, to hear anymore. There was just pain. Then suddenly it was gone.

'Enough.' Edward shouted and pulled Enzo's hands from me.

'Enough.' He said again. This time it was towards me. Now that the pain was gone I felt something else creep over me. It was a calm and relaxed feeling, but I knew it wasn't coming from me. I remember Jasper's gift and gave him a questioning look. The calming feeling just got stronger until I was completely relaxed.

'Can we please have the room?' Edward asked them in which they left.

'Renesmee. There is really no need for this.' He started.

'Don't do that.' I countered. 'Just because you are my father doesn't mean you can make these decisions for me. It's my life and it are my choices.'

'Because I am your father, it hurts me to see you in so much pain. I know why you are doing this and why you think you deserve this pain. But you don't and you need to stop it.'

'You don't know that. What if I told you that I am not a good person?' I insisted.

'I don't believe that.'

My mind trailed back to Vinny. He was a victim of all the trouble I attracted. I couldn't call myself a good person, I had been in a drug cartel, I was one of the reasons the drug distribution was so untraceable. There were addicts who's lives never would be the same. People who dies of an overdoses and I had blame in all of them. I'd seen what those drugs did to people, but I just kept helping distribute them because we needed the money. I wasn't a good person, I wasn't even an okay person.

'Call it what you want, but I'm not a good person.'

'Vinny's death was a terrible tragedy, but you can't blame yourself for that.'

'Oh but I will, I will always blame myself for his death.' I sighted 'Because I am the fucking reason he his dead.'

'The reason he is dead is because Emelio couldn't keep his hands to himself.' Edward whispered. 'And that these sick people exist is not your fault Renesmee. You are not to blame for this.'

They decided to sent Enzo home, without even consulting me. I had no voice in the matter. Because I had seen enough Cullens for today I locked myself in my room where I binge-watched a new season of one of my favorite shows. Time passed slowly today and I told myself I wouldn't get out of bed all day. But after a while I got hungry and dragged myself to the kitchen to make a sandwich.

While I was making a sandwich I overheard a conversation between Jasper and Esme.

'We can't stay much longer. People will start to ask questions.' Jasper said.

'But she is just settling in, we can't move her around like that.' Esme said.

'Move who around?' I said from the kitchen and their conversation went silent. Esme walked into the kitchen with a smile as always.

'Nothing dear. It's not important.' She said while she started to clean up the things I just used to make my sandwich. I thought it was a little weird, but okay whatever. Before I walked out of the kitchen Jasper sent me an other relaxing wave. Before I walked upstairs I glanced out of the window, it was raining like always. But the woods that surrounded the house were lovely. It was a lovely place to live here in Forks. I grew quite fond of it.

I lingered some more in my room, doing well nothing, before Esme called me over for dinner. She made pasta carbonara. So with a steaming plate of pasta I sat down in front of the fire place. Emmett and Jasper were playing some kind of game on the PS4. I sat and ate in silence.

Then the doorbell rang. The last couple of days learned that whenever the doorbell rang there was trouble, which usually included me. I sighted and put the plate down to open the door. As it swung open Jacob came into view.

I sighted and turned around, he let himself in.

'Can we talk?' he said. I nodded, grabbed my coat and followed him outside. As we walked into the night he handed me my phone, which I left at his house.

'Are you still mad?' He asked as he put his hands in his pockets.

'Should I be mad?'

'I had no idea that Sarah was coming over. I swear that I haven't talked to her in weeks. I never intended this to happen. I was seriously hoping for one normal night with you. Just the two of us without any problems. But I guess that was too much to ask.' He grimaced.

As I breathed in my hands trying to warm them, I thought about his answer.

'Jacob..' I started "What is it you want from me?'

He stopped in his tracks, his brow furrowed as he stared at me.

'And don't tell me that you imprinted on me or something like that. Because that would really freak me out, I'm so not ready for a forever relationship.'

JPOV.

Ouch, that hurt. On the other hand I wasn't surprised. She wasn't ready to know yet, she was way too young. But being with her and holding her, kissing her felt so great that I let myself go. I wanted her to so badly, but my heart told me that she wasn't ready for this yet. I needed to take a step back. I needed to regain her trust, help her on her feet before we would evolve this friendship in our forever relationship.

'Ness, you don't need to worry about a thing okay? Your mother was one of my best friends, when you were born we became best friends. I even got you that friendship bracelet, remember?, I just want you to be happy. That's all.'

She seemed pleased with my answer. I could see she was relieved, an imprint was something she couldn't handle right now and that was okay. I had time, I would wait for her. Always.
The lying felt wrong, but I needed to. This was what she needed right now. And I would give her everything she needed, because I would do everything for her.

'Seth invited us for his birthday tomorrow. Do you want to go?'

She nodded. 'Sure. Pick me up at eight?'