A/N: This one went a bit dark. I'm sorry for the delay! I'm currently on a Military course and spare time is sometimes scarce. Please, let me know what you think.
Maggie walked hastily inside the precinct building, toward her unit's office. Not only did she needed to report to do her psychological evaluation and get cleared for duty, she also had a follow-up appointment at the hospital. She walked towards her desk to drop her leather jacket and the rest of her belongings, when all the sudden...
"Detective Sawyer!", the captain said from his office, "You are late!"
Maggie tried not to smile. She looked towards the Captain's office and there he was, standing against the doorframe in all his glory with a half-smile. "If I didn't know you better I would say that you spent the night with some old flame, but I'm pretty sure you just slept in"
She smiled widely, "You know, it looks like you woke up on the sarcastic side of the bed this morning. I'll just go do whatever I'm supposed to do and get this over with".
"Good, about time", he said getting back inside his office. Captain Rogers was the closest she had to a father figure. She had worked under his wing since she joined the force and he had been her motivation since the very beginning to become her best self.
Maggie walked towards the elevator at a quick pace, when her phone rang. She looked at the caller id and noticed it was from the hospital. "These guys are being pushy", she thought, picking up the call.
"Hello?", Maggie said sitting down at the bench besides the elevator.
"Maggie Sawyer? This is Julie from the National City Memorial Hospital. Dr. Jansen would like to know if you'd be coming in fort your follow-up this afternoon? She has something really important she needs to discuss with you", the receptionist explained.
This took the detective by surprise, "Um, yes, I'll be there. The appointment was at two, right?"
"Yes, ma'am. We'll see you here at two"
"Will do", Maggie said, hanging up. She stared at her cellphone, lost in thought. The hospital was being persistent and that was extremely worrying. She thought everything went well on the surgery and at her last appointment, unless the appointment was from that other incident a few weeks back.
"Detective Sawyer?", she heard a voice said. She looked up and saw it was the station's psychologist, Dr. Rich. "You're late, but at least you made it. Come on in when you're ready".
Maggie saw him walk in his office. She took a deep breath, stood up, and followed him in. She closed the door behind her and went to take a seat.
"Detective, how are you doing this morning?", he asked opening her file.
"Um, I'm doing better", she answered, looking around the room, "Why am I here again? I thought I only needed to talk to you once"
"That's right, detective. This meeting is just to inform you that you've been cleared and that you're authorized to return to duty. I just wanted to personally tell you that", he explained with a smile.
Maggie smiled relieved. "Thanks, I'll just report back to my Captain and get my badge back"
"He is aware of your clearing. He'll let you know on what degree will you return to duty, detective", the psychologist explained, "It could still be a while before you start working fully on the field"
"At this point, I would happily take desk duty", Maggie joked, "I better get going, have to stop by my Captain's office and then go to a follow-up appointment"
She stoop up and made her way towards the door, when the psychologist spoke again, "Sawyer, I'm not done yet. We still have another matter we need to discuss"
Maggie turned around to face him, "What did I do now?"
"You didn't do anything. Just that you never came back to my office after the incident you had a few weeks ago", he said sadly.
The detective suddenly looked down at her boots, thinking her words carefully. "I thought there wasn't anything else to talk about." He looked at her in silence, giving her time to open up and elaborate more on the subject. She looked up at him, tears forming in her eyes, "We haven't found him yet"
"Have you talked to anyone else? Have you talked to your girlfriend about this?"
Maggie looked to her right, staring at the bookshelf lost in thought. "We just kind of got back together and I don't want to talk about it. This is my burden, I don't want her to carry it as well."
"You do realize that talking about it wont only help with healing and moving on, but on getting back your trust on other people. Besides, you can't choose for her.", he explained, playing with his pen.
"I know, I just can't talk to her about this. Not yet"
"That follow up appointment is related to that issue, isn't it?"
Maggie looked at him, "Probably, I don't know yet."
"Ok, I'm not pushing the subject any further. If you decide to talk some more, I'll be here for you. But I suggest that you find another outlet as well. You can't keep this to yourself."
"Ok", she said, exiting his office as quickly as she could.
Alex has been trying to focus on the same sample for the past hour, but she just couldn't. Her brain was having a split thought process all morning. One side was thinking on Maggie and that wonderful kiss they shared this morning in bed. If she hadn't decided to take things slow with the detective, they probably wouldn't have left the apartment at all. But no, Maggie deserves better than that.
The other half of her head is trying to focus on a case that had turned cold a few weeks ago. All they have from the DEO side is that they have a loose alien serial killer, and sometimes rapist. His MO is almost always different except on the fact that he always targets females between the ages of twenty-five and thirty-five. They have been waiting for the NCPD files they requested this morning after their morning hurdle.
"Danvers", J'oon said from the lab entrance, "Vazquez just arrived with those file from NCPD. Go and help her go through them on the meeting room. Apparently, we have boxes full of cases that could be related to this guy and we would like to finish reviewing them as soon as possible. Did you find anything about what type of species he may be?"
Alex looked up at him, "Nothing yet. Probably some of the rape kits the NCPD have in storage can help us. The samples we acquired a few weeks ago from that crime scene are useless". She took her glasses, placing them on top of the counter, "I'll go see what Vazquez has."
The agent exited the lab, making her way towards the meeting room where the other agent had all the boxes of the cases and their respective evidence. Alex took a bit to look around, and count the boxes scattered around the room. "By the looks of this we'll be spending a very long time in this room. Tell me that we have enough coffee left"
Vazquez smiled, "Yes, we do. Just made a fresh pot. Took a bit to get this files, apparently Detective Sawyer is on desk duty for another three weeks and our current liaison is a pain in the ass."
Alex smiled at the mention of the other woman, "I know. We'll get her back soon. Now, keep looking through those files until we can find a lead that could help us crack this case."
"Calm down, working on it. Already went through two boxes and nothing new yet. Some of these boxes are unmarked, so until we don't go through all of them we won't know the actual status. By the looks of some of the content of the unmarked boxes, they all belong to current members of the NCPD"
Alex raised her eyebrows at this, "Probably were left unmarked out of respect. But that is something we didn't know. Why would he attack police officers?"
"I don't know, boss", Vazquez said reading one of the files, "It all seems the same MO than the other victims. Nothing special about the officers"
J'oon entered the room, interrupting the conversation, "Bravo Team just captured the guy and are bringing him in for questioning. Should be here in the next five to ten minutes. Just keep gathering as much information as possible from those files, maybe you can find something different. Bring what you gather to interrogation to see if we could use it as leverage."
"On it", Alex said grabbing one of the unmarked boxes on the corner and bringing it to her side of the table. Opening it, she found the rape kit box, placing it to her right. Reaching back in the box, she grabbed a small bag containing a ring belonging to the victim. The agent took the time inspecting the ring, the object somehow familiar to her.
"I've seen this ring before", Alex whispered to herself, placing the object besides the rape kit. Reaching back inside the box, she reached for the file and placed it in front of her, the cover only sporting a case number without a name. Opening the file, she noticed the crime photos were placed inside a manila envelope. Lifting the envelope and placing it to the right of the file, she started reading the report and all the sudden, she felt nauseous.
"Margarita Sawyer, Detective 2nd Grade", she whispered, tears forming in her eyes. "Date of the incident: October 31st. This was just a few weeks ago". She kept reading the file trying her best to keep her composure, to keep it professional. Something in the report made her see red. The perpetrator stabbed Maggie multiple times on her abdomen before rapping her, leaving large bruises and permanent scars.
Alex abruptly closed the file and threw it inside the box, gaining a curious look from Vazquez from the other side of the room. "You ok there, boss?"
"Yeah", Alex managed to say while grabbing the manila envelope, "Just peachy". Opening the envelope, she slowly took the photos out. Most of the pictures where from the actual location of the crime, looked like an abandoned warehouse of some sort. Looking at the back of one of the photos, the exact location was written with a marker: National City Pier. Placing the photos back inside the envelope, she returned them to the box.
Looking to the right, she observed the rape kit box. The seal was broken, so it meant it was already tested. With caution, she slowly opened the box and grabbed the pictures inside. These were the ones she was afraid to see, the pictures showing the extent of Maggie's injuries during the attack. Her heart couldn't take all the emotions, the agonizing terror she felt by looking at the evidence was unbearable. One of the pictures showed the massive bruises left on her face, one of her eyes swollen shut. She closed her eyes, trying to keep tears from falling down her face. Now was not the time to cry, it was time to take action. Standing up from the chair, she slides the photo on her back pocket and placed the rest of the pictures back inside the rape kit box.
"Vazquez, did any of the victims you have over there been stabbed repeatedly on the abdomen?" Alex asked, placing the rape kit back inside the box and closing it.
"None. Why?"
"Nothing in particular. Just have one case that the victim was stabbed and wanted to know if there were any other cases similar to this one. Going to go down to interrogation and find out what was so special about this victim for him to beat her and stab her so brutally"
"Ok", Vazquez said watching Alex with concern, "Are you sure you're ok? You look very distraught right now"
The other woman tried to smile; "I'll be fine after I go downstairs". Placing the box on the far corner with the other boxes of already examined cases, she walked out of the room and made her way downstairs.
Walking with a purpose, Alex enters the detainment center located at the basement of the DEO. She kept walking towards the end of the corridor were the interrogation room is located and notices the man in question inside the room all by himself. She carefully looked around and didn't see anyone in sight; probably they were inside one of the other rooms taking a break. Give or take, that would give her at least a three-minute window alone with him. She walked inside the room and locked it behind her, placing a chair under the doorknob to prevent anyone else from entering the room.
"Agent Danvers", the perpetrator said with a half-smile, "What a pleasant surprise to have you here. What can I do for you?"
Alex reached the photo stored on her back pocket and placed it on the table, right in front of him. "Care to explain why you did this to Detective Sawyer? What was different about her from the rest of your victims"
He smiled, "She was a special one, Agent Danvers. She was so feisty but so tight, I bet I satisfied her more than you ever did"
Alex was losing her patience very quickly, "You shut up. She didn't want any of this to happen to her! You had no right to do this to a member of the Police Force!"
"I know, but I didn't do this to harm Detective Sawyer. I did it to harm your Maggie, and look at the masterpiece I created."
The agent just saw red and any remaining patience went straight to hell. She walked towards him and punched his face repeatedly, not giving him any reaction time. She grabbed him by his shirt and threw him against the far wall, grabbing his neck and almost crushing his pipe. "Your masterpiece?! Masterpiece is the number I'm going to do on your face, you inconsiderate mother fucker!"
Alex threw him against the table and continue to punch him, "What the fuck she did to you!" She punched him again a couple of times, stopping to regain her breath. There was blood everywhere, at this point she didn't even know nor care if the blood was his or hers. She observed his faced, noticing that both his eyes were swollen shut. "Now, tell me why. Why her?"
Giving her a bloody smile, he answered, "Because she was yours, Danvers. She's your weakness. A few years ago, you killed my family during one of your many DEO raids. Now it was my turn to pay back that so-called favor of yours and kill yours"
"Well, you did not succeed because she's still alive", she said, letting his neck go and taking a step back away from him.
"I know, never said that I wanted to physically kill her. Psychologically, she will always belong to me."
Alex almost jump on him, but J'oon appeared in the room pulling the agent against him before she did anything stupid. "It's not worth it, Alex!"
"Let me go, J'oon!", Alex fought, trying to break free from his grasp.
"No! You have to calm down! You'll gain nothing by killing him!"
The agent stopped fighting J'oon, silently agreeing with him and relaxing a bit. He let her go and directed her towards the door. She walked out of the room, Maggie being the only thing she could focus on at the moment.
"Go to her, she should be home by now", J'oon said to her, placing a hand on her shoulder, "This is something that only her can fix"
"Where was I, J'oon?!"
"We can't always protect the ones we love. Right now, it looks like you need Maggie more than what she needs you", he whispered, doing his best to comfort her.
Alex nodded, doing her best to calm down and regain her composure. She needed to find her, to know that she was alright.
Maggie served herself a cup of well-deserved scotch. Her day was stressful, full of paperwork and not so very good news from her doctor. She was expecting better news, but considering her injuries and how it all happened she knew the news wouldn't be so good. She took a sip of her drink and started thinking on how she would tell Alex, going through every possible scenario in her head. She needed to know. The detective was suddenly brought back to reality by a desperate knock on her door. Walking quickly towards the door, she looked over her peephole noticing it was Alex. She opened the door to find a very altered agent. The haunted look in her eyes was starting to scare her. Alex pulled Maggie into a deep kiss, needing to feel that the woman in front of her was real. The detective was caught off guard and overwhelmed by all the emotions the other woman was making her feel. Breaking for a much-needed breath, Alex cupped Maggie's face taking in every detail on it.
"Alex, you ok?", the detective asked, looking at Alex's eyes and noticed how troubled they still looked. Slowly covering the agent's hands and lowering them, she led the other woman into her apartment. Closing the door behind her, she noticed the blood-covered hands and the cuts covering Alex's knuckles. "My God, Alex. What the hell happened?"
Maggie moved swiftly to the kitchen to grab the first aid kit she kept on her cupboard. Placing the kit on the counter, she gently pulled Alex to sit on the stool in front of her. Opening the kit and grabbing some gauze and alcohol, she tenderly started cleaning the other woman's hands.
"Alex, what happened?", the detective asked, grabbing a new gauze. The agent looked at her and what Maggie saw broke her heart. All she could see was pain, a completely broken woman with unshed tears in her eyes and regret.
"J'oon didn't let me kill him", Alex whispered reaching for something on the back pocket of her pants and placing it on the counter. Maggie looked at the picture in terror, understanding the pain she saw on the agent's eyes. "He didn't let me kill the asshole who did this to you, I was so close. I had him there and J'oon didn't let me finish what I started"
Maggie looked down at Alex's hands and felt tears roll uncontrollably down her cheeks. She looked back up and saw the hurt in the other woman's eyes. "I should have been there to protect you, Maggie. This should have never happened to you; his grudge was against me. It should have been me"
The detective looked at the other woman confused, "What do you mean it should have been you?"
"The only reason he attacked you the way he did was because he knew you were mine and the only way to hurt me was by hurting you", Alex explained while carefully whipping away Maggie's tears, "But he will pay for what he did to you, one way or another. I will find a way."
Maggie looked down and placed her hands on top of Alex's thighs, trying to compose herself. It all makes some sense to her now why the attack felt so personal. What was done was done. That couldn't be changed now. It was now part of her past and she needed to find a way to move past it. But what happens here on forward will depend on both of them, on how they can work on this together and protect their relationship from any other external harm. Looking up, she sadly smiled at the other woman and asked, "Do you still love me?"
Sadly, smiling back at Maggie, Alex answered, "Of course I do".
"Even after all that happened? The consequences from this event?" Maggie needed to find the courage to tell Alex what the doctor told her earlier that day.
Alex started to get worried. What else did that asshole do to her? "I'm here for you no matter what. Whatever it is, we can fight it. I'm not losing you again."
Maggie took a deep breath and looked straight at the agent's eyes, "Alex, I need you to listen to me very carefully because what I'm about to tell you may change your mind about us. I had a follow-up today at the hospital regarding that incident. You saw the pictures, you know what he did"
"Ok", the agent said, placing her hand on top of Maggie's.
The detective smiled sadly at the gesture, "The stab wounds were very deep and the possibilities of me having children are slim to none. I know you wanted to be a mother, but I can't personally give you any. Not after what he did to me. He took that choice away from me, from us."
Alex looked at her, holding her hand even tighter, "If we decide to have children, we can always find another way. I can always have it myself or we can adopt or we can even use a surrogate. There are ways. But loosing you showed me that all those 'what if's' can wait and that all I should worry and care about is the present. And that is you. We'll figure it out."
Maggie didn't know what to do with herself, she never expected Alex to react like this. Some part of her felt relieved, the other part reminded her of the darkness that filled her heart and mind since the incident. Even though Alex reassured her that everything would be all right, she still felt insecure. I guess that's what rape does to you, takes away your peace of mind, your control, and your self-worth.
"Hey, you ok?", Alex asked tapping the detective's chin, "You left me for a minute there"
"Yes, I'm just exhausted", Maggie answered looking up at the other woman, realizing how tired she looked all the sudden. "You look exhausted as well"
"I am, today wasn't an easy day", Alex said looking at her watch, "I should better get going"
"You can always stay if you want, I promise I'll behave", Maggie teased, moving her hands up the other woman's thighs.
Alex looked down at where the detective's hands stopped and bit her lip, "By the looks of it, you aren't looking forward to behaving very much". She looked up and saw the mirth on the other woman's eyes.
"I'll be a good girl, I promise. Besides, it's not a school night so I don't know why you're complaining", Maggie teased, sliding her hands off Alex's thighs and walking toward her dresser. She searched the drawers for a t-shirt and shorts, closing the drawer with her hip and walking back to the other woman. "Here, so you can be comfortable"
The agent smiled and took the clothes from Maggie's hands, "Can I take a shower? I'm pretty sure I have blood in places I'm not supposed to"
"Sure, Danvers. The bathroom is that door on the corner", Maggie said, grabbing her cup of watered down scotch and placed it in the sink. She turned around and saw Alex walking towards the bathroom, she couldn't resist checking her out and admiring her unique beauty. When the other woman closed the door, she realized she didn't give her a towel. "Dammit" she whispered under her breath. Grabbing a clean towel from the rack, she made her way towards the bathroom door.
Maggie softly knocked on it twice before slowly opening the door. "Alex, I brought you a towel" she said placing it on the bathroom sink. Distracted by her thoughts, the detective didn't hear Alex walk behind her and encircle her arms around her waist. Maggie closed her eyes enjoying the feeling of a very naked agent hugging her from behind and kissing her neck softy.
"Alex, what are you…?" the detective started to say, losing her train of thought instantly as Alex slowly started to turn her around to face her. The agent softly cupped Maggie's face, kissing her gently. Breaking their kiss briefly, Alex pulled Maggie's shirt off and softly pulled her back in. The detective felt in heaven, Alex was being so gentle with her.
"Babe, I'm not going to break", Maggie whispered breaking the kiss, staring at the agent's eyes.
"I know, but I really want to enjoy this moment in case you change your mind", Alex teased, placing a kiss on the detective's forehead, "But if we move into the shower we can be productive while we save water"
Maggie laughed, "Save water? What is today, shower with your girlfriend to save the planet day?"
Alex smiled, playing with the elastic band of the other woman's pants. "Probably, but pants aren't allowed inside the shower premises"
The detective raised an eyebrow, "Fine". She slowly took her pants off never breaking eye contact with Alex. Torturing Alex has become her new favorite hobby, one that she didn't dare to admit she enjoyed. She grabbed the agent's hand and started making her way to the shower.
"I'll tell you right now, Danvers, no sex in the shower or our night will be spent in the hospital", Maggie teased closing the shower door behind her, "But, my body is your temple and you shall do as you please with it."
Alex smiled and pulled the detective closer, kissing her passionately. She gently pushed her against the wall, deepening the kiss. Maggie's hands found the agent's hair, her body reacting rather quickly to Alex's touch. The agent's hands caressed Maggie's body softly, her lips trailing kisses down her neck while her hands found her breasts. The detective couldn't contain a moan, she felt Alex's hands caress down her torso while her lips trail kisses down her chest, finding a nipple.
"Alex", Maggie moaned again softly, her head falling back to the wall. The agent kissed her way towards the other nipple, feeling the detective shiver. Slowly, she kissed her way up to the detective's lips. The kiss intensified as one of Alex's hands made its way in between Maggie's legs, caressing her folds. The detective moaned into the kiss as Alex slowly inserted a finger, moving in and out of her folds, pressing lightly up her inside wall. The slow pace was driving Maggie insane, her emotions reaching a new height as Alex's kisses moved down to her neck once again, keeping the same torturous pace with her hand.
"Alex, please", Maggie pleaded. Alex picked up the pace a little bit, trailing kisses down her torso and kneeling in front of her on the shower floor. She slowly pulled out her finger while placing kisses up her thighs, holding her hips still with both of her hands. She firmly licked her folds, placing some pressure on her clit. Maggie shivered even harder, feeling herself getting close. Alex licked her clit at a faster pace, gently inserting a finger inside her folds. She kept an even pace with both her hand and her tongue while the other hand kept her in place.
"Oh my God, Alex!" Maggie moaned, tangling her fingers on the agent's hair. Alex felt how over the edge the other woman already was. She speeded up the pace of her hand as she kept a steady pace with her tongue.
"Alex!" Maggie moaned even louder, coming quickly and hard. Alex slowed down her pace until coming to a complete stop, gently removing her finger from the other woman's folds. Kissing the detective's thighs, she stood up from the floor, pulling Maggie into her arms while she came down from her orgasm.
"I thought I told you no sex, Danvers" Maggie teased, pulling Alex closer, gently kissing her neck.
"You didn't say anything about me worshipping you on my knees. You need to be more specific", Alex said, tightening her embrace. She laid back against the wall, enjoying the moment before returning to their reality. The agent missed this, the simple moments with Maggie. Probably now they can have a little more normalcy. Alex is not asking for a miracle, but for a chance for life to give them a break for at least a day. Tomorrow they can worry about finding a solution to all this, tonight she was going to enjoy the simple things with Maggie.