Chapter 6
Trigger Warning! Sexual assault , this chapter is probably gonna be the most graphic (I haven't finished writing it yet , but i can already tell that that is the direction this is headed.) It's probably also fair to assume all further chapters might touch on sexual assault. Also trigger warning for domestic abuse
"I still can't believe you ate five guys!" Kara asid with a giggle .
"Yes so shocking your evil boss ate human food." Cat teased, with a twinge of pain visible on her face.
"You don't really think that is how i feel do you?" Kara questioned.
Cat just sat there playing around with what was left of her fries.
"Cat?"
"Kara I purposefully called you Kira for years knowing it wasn't your name." Cat yelled.
"I'm not gonna lie i never understood why you did that, and it did hurt , but it doesn't matter." Kara dismissed.
"It was a stupid power play , i do it to a lot of alphas to keep them off their game and to have power over them. I'm so sorry Kara. I don't understand why you don't hate me." Cat explained.
"Cat you are amazing and I care about you so much! You are the greatest inspiration I have ever had and I idolize you. I won't lie you have said things that have hurt me but when it mattered you were the most amazing woman i have ever met ! Remember when your mother was terrible to me ? Do you remember how you defended me and told her off ? That's why i care so much about you!" Kara ranted.
"Thank you Kara… I'm sorry." Cat paused "Kara what do you want us to be?" Cat asked.
"What do you mean Cat?" Kara asked as she turned her head slightly to the side.
"I mean what do you want us to be? I presume that when my heat is over you don't want to return to just a boss assistant relationship. Do you want me to be your girlfriend ?" Cat asked.
"Ms. Grant are you asking me to be your girlfriend?" Kara teased.
"Kara you know i can't do most of the things that a girlfriend would be expected to do." Cat's head dropped.
"You realize that being in a relationship is about a lot more than sex right?" Kara questioned.
"I just don't want you to miss out on anything because you are with me. Look Kara i care about you , and you make me feel safe like i haven't felt in over two decades! But i'm damaged and i don't know if i will ever be able to give you what you need as an alpha." Cat said pain building in her face.
"I don't need anything as an alpha! And i detest the notion that i do. Cat I care about you and i have liked you for a long time! And for the longest time i've wanted nothing more than to be your girlfriend. And sex is such a small thing , and it doesn't matter to me. Cat If you and i ever were to have sex i wouldn't want to do it because of your scent or because i'm horny. I would want to share something special like that with you so that you can see that it is something that can be done out of love and not lust or greed." Kara explained.
Cat took a moment to think to herself before she spoke. " Kara would you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?" Cat asked.
"I would be ecstatic to be your girlfriend Cat Grant" Kara said with a smile.
"Hey Kara , Can you just kinda hold me ? Im kinda a wreck of anxiety now after those arguments." Cat admitted.
"I would love to hold my girlfriend. Where is best ?" Kara asked
"Either the couch or the bed." Cat said pointing at a lavish leather couch that Kara was sure cost more than he appartment .
"Couch seems nice , It could fit both of us snuggling up tight." Kara said with a warm smile before getting up and grabbing Cat's hand on her way to the couch. Kara plopped down on the couch first before opening her arms wide welcoming Cat to rest against her . Cat slowly sat down and wedged herself against Kara as tightly as she could. Kara wrapped her arms around Cat tight and intertwined their legs.
"Thank you Kara , You have made me so happy in the past twentyfour hours. Thank you ." Cat thanked. They laid there a long time , Cat could feel her anxiety slowly melting away as Kara held her close. After She felt comfortable breaking from Kara's embrace Cat turned around to give Kara a quick kiss.
"What do you normally do when you are all cooped up here in heat?" Kara asked .
"Honestly ? I play some of Carter's Video games." Cat said knowing how shocked Kara would be.
"HAHA what ? Really?"Kara questioned laughing.
"Well you know how Carter is , he is kinda a loner. And he always wants someone to play with him , so i play games with him every night after his homework." Cat admitted.
Kara's eyes widened "Awww Cat you are like the best mom ever" Kara gave Cat a hug.
"Well after what happened with Adam … I swore to myself that I would be there for Carter!" Cat responded.
It was then that Kara began to do the math in her head. "Cat , was Adam's father?" Kara paused "Was his father the alpha?" Kara Questioned. Cat nodded softly before burying her head in Kara's chest. "I'm sorry I should not have asked." Kara apologized.
"Its Ok , dont worry about it ! I'm glad you know . You are my girlfriend and I want you to know these things about me and about my past." Cat explained.
"Well I appreciate that you want me to know these things about you. It means alot" Kara thanked cautiously.
"And now to answer the other question i'm sure you have. Yes it is part of the reason why i gave up on the custody battle for Adam .I couldn't stand to be around his father , not even in the courtroom . Just his smell brought me back to what he did. Between that and work i was so on edge the whole time. And eventually I had a court date while I was in heat… On the way out of the courthouse he did it again, He grabbed me , forced me up against a wall , he forced himself on me right there. I'm just lucky that someone came by and interrupted him before he knotted and bonded with me. I dropped the suit the next day. I wasn't healthy enough to take care of adam after that , so I gave up ... " Cat explained Kara watching , unsure of how to comfort her girlfriend. "So now that i am healthy enough to take care of Carter I will be there for him in every way I can." Cat spoke getting up from the couch and opening a cabinet under the large television that sat in front of the couch. "So Mario Kart or Smash brothers?" Cat asked turning around with two game cases in her hand. "These aren't the only options , but they are my personal favorites and the best for two players. Haha , Carter and i have played way too much of both of these ." Cat laughed.
"Mario Kart works for me , Alex and I play it occasionally so I won't be terrible at it." Kara said with a smile.
"Great choice!" Cat said bending down to slip the disk into the console below the television. "Now Carter is somewhat of a collector of gaming accessories so we have your choice of controller." Cat explained
"Do you have the classic ones that came with the old Wii ? Alex and I played a lot more with those back when we were in school." Kara asked.
"Yup! Got it right here! I can use the tablet then. " Cat said turning around and walking back to the couch controllers in hand.
Kara adjusted herself at the corner of an L made by the couch before patting her lap." Wanna rest your head here while we play" Kara offered. Cat nodded and smiled as she sat down on the couch and turned her body allowing her head to rest in her girlfriend's lap. Cat appreciated the warmth of Kara's lap greatly so she began to rub her cheek appreciatively against Kara. Cat made the mistake of breathing in deeply through her nose , Kara's delicious scent was strongest right by Cat's nose and the scent overtook her for a moment. Cat was overwhelmed with thoughts of mounting her girlfriend right there , allowing Kara to slide deep inside her , filling her slick entrance. A wanting "Kara please , I need it" escaped Cat's lips before Kara' yelling brought Cat back to reality.
"Cat , you need to snap out of it . No you overwhelmed by my scent is not consent!"
"Fuck Kara I'm sorry." Cat apologized.
"No need to be sorry , it's ok . not your fault." Kara said bending down to kiss Cat on the forehead.
"I'm really sorry , I didn't mean to . Thank you for not … Taking advantage of me. It really means alot." Cat thanked.
"Look Cat , I will never take advantage of you ! And you have nothing to be sorry for , It is a natural response that your body has to my scent. Don't worry about it ok? Now let's relax , and play some Mario Kart!" Kara said grabbing her controllers from Cat's lap with one hand and scratching behind Cat's ear.
"Thank you so much Kara , you are amazing to me ." Cat thanked
One game later
"How the hell are you so good ?" Kara questioned.
"This may or may not have been the only game I have played during my heats for the past couple years. Also Carter is pretty good and we can get pretty competitive." Cat laughed
" Well i didn't know you were such a hardcore Mario Kart player." Kara teased
"I just play it a lot with Carter and during my heat. If that makes me hardcore then that is what i am. " Cat replied.
Kara looked down at her girlfriend whose head was resting in her lap , her hair beautifully falling over Kara's lap, a warm smile on her face, Her ears folding backwards perfectly - in the most adorable way. Kara couldn't believe that Cat was actually her girlfriend now, Cat was so beautiful it took Kara's breath away. She just sat there trying to memorize every hair on Cat's head , and how it fell on to her lap . Every wrinkle on Cat's face, and how human they made her look. Kara absorbed it all as she could feel her growing love for Cat take her breath the way no one had ever before.
"Everything ok Kara" Cat said smiling. It was clear how much she loved playing Mario Kart from the wide smile she still had from her victory. Kara found Cat's adoration for the game beautiful too simply because of how happy it clearly made her.
"Yeah , Just caught up in the view" Kara smiled.
Cat looked around ."What are you talking about Kara , the blinds are closed , and you aren't even looking towards the window?" Cat asked confused.
"Cat , staring at you is the best view I have ever had!" Kara responded.
Cat blushed "I have no Idea what you are talking about Kara Danvers… But I am flattered and you are beautiful too" Cat said before sitting up to kiss Kara. "Another game?" Cat asked excitedly.
"Yeah let's go!" Kara said smiling at her overexcited girlfriend.
After about twenty games Kara was beginning to get the hang of the game , and she had slowly ascended from regularly getting last place and struggling just to stay on the track for more than half a lap to regularly getting third or fourth place.
"Hey you are getting a lot better !" Cat exclaimed excitedly.
"Haha yeah give me another thousand games and you will have some real competition!" Kara joked.
"I think you are improving a lot faster than you think you are. I expect that by the end of my heart we will be screaming at eachother for being blue shelled on the last quarter of the third lap" Cat said excitedly.
"Yeah sure ,Cause i understood what you just said !" Kara said sarcastically with a smile.
"You will soon!" Cat responded.
"You love this game don't you ?" Kara laughed at how excited Cat was.\
"Only a little." Cat said as innocently as she could.
"Haha Its kinda adorable how much you love it" Kara admitted. "Umm are you getting hungry again ? it's been awhile since lunch and i'm starting to get hungry again " Kara said with an agreeing growl from her stomach.
"Actually yeah I am. What do you want ? Right now I am craving chinese food !" Cat suggested
"Ohhh i'm always up for potstickers !" Kara cheered.
"Mhmm yes Potstickers sound perfect! I can order , you covered Lunch so i got dinner , and I know a place that has a beta delivery boy so i can actually get delivery without accidently calling an alpha over to the house while i'm in heat. Plus my regular delivery order from them is like everything on the menu and then I have left overs for the majority of my heat , so there will definitely be something you like." Cat explained.
"Cool that actually sounds great , but while they are delivering can I take a shower and Officially change out of my supergirl outfit? Haha I brought a change of clothes but we went straight from eating to cuddling to hours of gaming." Kara requested
"Oh yeah haha sorry about not giving you a chance to ! You can use my shower , It's in the bathroom I changed in last night !" Cat responded with an apologetic smile.
"Cool thanks !" Kara thanked as she walked to grab her bag with the change of clothes and head off to the shower.
"I will call and place my normal order while you shower , It should be about forty five minutes give or take" Cat informed Kara as she walked off to the shower.
Kara slowly stripped her clothes once she had entered the bathroom and turned on the hot water. Kara was so tense from holding herself back around Cat's scent , everything was sore . Kara hoped that a hot shower would help with her tenseness. Kara slipped inside of the shower and the Warm water cascading down her body was everything she had hoped it would be , she could feel herself loosening up . As the warm water trickled down her body her muscles finally released. As every part of her began to relax she could feel how badly her lust yearned for Cat. Kara could feel her erection growing slowly and her body demanding attention be paid to it. Kara muttered obscenities under her breath. Kara didn't want to do anything with herself in Cat's shower , and especially not without permission. Kara reluctantly turned the hot water off and let the cold water coat her body and fall over her pounding painful erection allowing it to disappear slowly back to the anatomy of an average female. Kara groaned as she felt her muscles stiffen up again slowly. Kara grabbed at some of Cat's fancy soap it smelled faintly like Cat , Kara slowly lathered herself before shampooing and conditioning her hair and tail. Kara finished by rinsing out her hair and tail before getting out of the shower ,her body still aching at the denial of release it had gotten in the shower.
Kara dried off quickly , wrapped her hair in a towel. She then rifled through her bag considering what to wear as if it was her whole wardrobe even though it is just a couple tops and a couple bottoms. Kara eventually settled on a comfortable maxi skirt and one of her favorite blouse. Once she had settled on on her outfit and was satisfied with how it looked Kara took a step out of the bathroom to see Cat resting on her bed reading a book. Cat could tell that Kara had taken a cold shower from the lack of steam in the bathroom. "How do you survive cold showers Kara ? I've heard a million times over that they are better for your hair and skin but i can't survive without a delightful warm shower ." Cat questioned , honestly not knowing why Kara had decided to take a cold shower.
"Umm I didn't have much of a choice .. " Kara looked away and blushed.
Cat looked away to find her book mark , before slipping it into the book she had been reading and laying the book down on her lap. Cat then gave Kara a confused look. "Is something wrong with my water heater?" Cat asked still confused.
"The stereotypical reason to to take a shower?" Kara hinted.
"I still don't understand"Cat said shaking her head.
"Ya know sometimes when someone is a little too … stimulated they take a cold shower to calm down?" Kara hinted again.
Cat mimicked her gesture of raising her finger from earlier but in reverse.
"Yup" Kara said blushing.
"Why not … ya know … take care of it?" Cat asked turning a dark red.
"I didn't feel like doing that in your shower without permission." Kara couldn't look at Cat as she spoke she was so embarrassed.
"Oh you are fine , Im sure you are silently going through hell to keep it down right now . you have my permission!" Cat confirmed before there was a knock at the door " That's probably our food , you stay in here for a moment and I am gonna set the table , with a small surprise I have for you!"
"Good to know , thanks that is actually going to make things a decent amount easier and yay food , double yay surprise!" Kara said clapping her hands in excitement
Kara sat on the bed waiting for Cat to come back , she was using her X Ray vision just untill Cat got the food from the delivery boy to make sure Cat was ok , but after she got the food Kara stopped using her Xray vision.
A couple of minutes later Cat came into the room and asked "Kara Danvers would you like to go on a first date with me ?"
Kara turned her head and smiled before giving a simple "of course Cat."
Cat took Kara by the arm and walked her towards the dining room where cat had lit candles , put down a nice table cloth , there was a bottle of very fancy wine already opened , and everything else that Kara would imagine when someone mentions a fancy dinner except for the chinese takeout boxes that Cat had laid out on the table.
"Oh my god this is beautiful! Such a fancy date, I can't believe it. Thank you so much!" Kara said blown away.
Cat quickly pulled out a chair for Kara and gestured for her to sit.
"So chivalrous!" Kara joked while she sat down.
"Well such a beautiful woman deserves to be treated specially" Cat said with a kiss. Cat then walked around and sat in her own chair and passed Kara a box of potstickers "I know these are your favorite so I ordered extra , those are all yours! Other than that if you see something you like go for it !"
"Oh My God , best girlfriend ever , you got me potstickers!" Kara exclaimed.
The two were quiet for a while picking out what they wanted to eat until they had full plates to begin chowing down on. The silence was broken by Cat asking"So what got you started as supergirl? I know about the plane , but why?"
"My sister was on the plane. I have always wanted to be like my cousin on some level , but i needed the personal push to finally start doing the whole hero thing." Kara explained.
"Oh well that makes sense." Cat said nodding and grabbing at a piece of general tso chicken and popping it into her mouth. "I-Is it hard for you to be here for me right now ? I see how tense you are… You forced yourself to take a cold shower just so that you didn't have to do something I might not be comfortable with." Cat asked worry written all over her face.
"Yes It is , but I am happy that I am here Nonetheless. I enjoy spending time with you as my girlfriend , I love getting to see you giddy with excitement over Mario Kart , I love that you made this adorable first date for us." Kara paused, looked down , and pushed some of her food around on her plate. "And … not that I would know anything about it because I know I have never felt this way before about anyone, but I think I love you Cat." Kara confessed
Cat went to open her mouth but before she said anything Kara spoke up again out of anxiety. "It's completely Ok if you don't feel the same! I understand that this is way too fast and i'm so sorry , and i'm so stupid for having said that!"
"Kara , It's ok! Kara , I care about you alot , and im sorry because I don't think that I am personally at a place where I can say that yet . With the exception of Carter I care more about you than i have ever cared about anyone… but I have a lot of damage centered around that word. On occasion Adam's father forced me to say that I loved him or else he would hit me , and i am sorry that this is affecting our relationship even more. I really do hope that one day I can get over this . but right now I just can't say that . I'm so sorry. But if you meant what you said a second ago when you said It's completely Ok if you don't feel the same, then everything is ok . I am glad that you have those feelings for me , and I am glad you are comfortable telling me that, but I just don't happen to be there yet."Cat said taking Kara's hand "It's ok" Cat reassured.
Kara hurt deeply on some level , but on another she understood and accepted that Cat couldn't say she love her back. But most of all Kara was enraged at the alpha that did all of this to the girl she loved. Kara smiled and nodded " It's ok" she reassured. "And you need to know I would never do anything like that to you. I do love you , and promise I will never hurt you" Kara promised. Cat gave a nod and said "I know you would never. " then she held Kara's hand and gave a loving smile in place of the words she couldn't bring herself to say. They continued eating , the dinner conversation continued but it was a little quieter and more reserved . Although the shadow of the unreciprocated I love you hung over the dinner Kara and Cat both still had fun and enjoyed themselves.
Once they had finished their dinner Cat spoke up "I'm not sure if its that I had way too much chinese food , Or just that i've been In the pain of heat all day but i'm exhausted."
"Haha , Yeah i'm really tired too, Wanna head to bed ?" Kara asked .
"Yeah that sounds really nice!" Cat replied as she walked over to Kara and hugged her before giving her a quick kiss.
The two girls headed to bed and Cat handed Kara another set of pajamas with a wink and a "Its your choice to wear the top or not" Then cat changed quickly in the bathroom again before returning to see a once again toppless Kara. "I fully support your decision to go with no top" Cat said with a giggle. Cat kissed Kara and they both slipped into bed where Cat rested her head on Kara's chest and wrapped her legs around one of Kara's legs.
End of chapter 6
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Looking forward to the next chapter
From Jessica: EEk thank you so much! And i'm sorry this didn't get get put in with the last chapter , i didn't see it till just now! Hope you like where the story ends up going!
From: SleepyCapricorn (FF)
Looking forward to the next chapter. Keep up the great work
From Jessica: Omg Thank you so much ! I really appreciate your comment ! I hope you like where the story is headed!
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I suggest modifying the chapter counter if there are going to be more added. :)
From Jessica: LOL how do i do that ? i'm still really new to Ao3 haha , thank you for the advice tho!